disappearing light years

It was rare for Yan Shuo and Gu Mingan to go back to the sun that day, which made everyone feel better.Before going through the security check, Yan Shuo pulled Chi Mu to a corner and handed him a bunch of keys.

"Now is not a good time to sell a house. We won't be returning to China in the short term. Gu Mingan and I discussed it. It would be too wasteful to put such a big house there. Why don't you move in and don't rent a house in the future."

Chi Mu blushed for a while, wanted to say that he would not be able to pay the rent, and was about to decline, but seeing Shang Yan Shuo's serious eyes, he hesitated for a while, and agreed.

He Xiaoli stuffed a box of colorful presents tied with ribbons into Gu Ming'an's hands, smiled ambiguously, and repeatedly emphasized that there would definitely be surprises when they opened it after they arrived at their new home.

Gu Xiyan pulled the corner of Gu Mingan's clothes, looked at the gift box eagerly, with a wanting expression on her face.

"Kid, don't look, you can't use this thing now." He Xiaoli knelt down and shook his finger at Gu Xiyan, "After ten years, maybe you will be able to use it."

Gu Mingan hurriedly pulled Gu Xiyan behind him like he was protecting a calf, staring at He Xiaoli with a full face of wariness, he didn't say anything, but the words were all written on his face, showing an expression that you, He Xiaoli, don't spoil the child.

He Xiaoli laughed twice, waved his hands, and left a sentence, "May you grow old forever."

Gu Mingan looked at the gift in his hand with a full face of confusion, Yan Shuo had already picked up Gu Xiyan and urged him to pass.He had no choice but to thank Yan Shuo briefly, picked up his luggage, and hurriedly followed Yan Shuo, and the two walked forward side by side.

"You're not young people anymore, you can't stand the trouble, save some and don't use it up overnight!" He Xiaoli made a trumpet with his palm without hesitation, and yelled in the airport hall, Yan Shuo turned his head suspiciously After taking a look at him, Gu Mingan staggered and almost fell.

Chi Mu bumped the shoulder of the person next to him, "What did you give?"

"Chocolate, banana, strawberry, cantaloupe-flavored condoms are the same box, and two tubes of edible milk-flavored lubricant. The boss is an acquaintance, and there is also a box of secret aphrodisiac incense as a bonus." He Xiaoli smiled rascally, "See what I think." How thoughtful, when they get off the plane, they want to do things but they are not familiar with the place and can't find a place to sell things. When they see this gift, they will be grateful to me."

Chi Mu suddenly felt that he really shouldn't have asked this extravagantly.

The next day, Chi Mu accepted Yan Shuo's favor, packed up his things and moved them into the house that he and Gu Mingan left behind, and was always busy until evening.When he cried out with hunger, he realized that it was dark and there was nothing to eat in the house, so he had to go downstairs to buy food.

Walking through two street corners, Chi Mu packed up takeout in a small shop, and when he turned around to leave, he glanced at the TV behind the boss, but with just this one glance, his body froze as if he had been fixed to death.

Jiang Yuchen, he would never be wrong, it was Jiang Yuchen.

The TV station rebroadcasted the foreign channel, and the commentary was all in English. The picture was very noisy. It could only be seen that Jiang Yuchen was wearing big sunglasses and surrounded by a group of reporters. In the bustling room, Chi Mu could only hear clearly "adultery, prison, scandal" "With a few words, the boss' son has already picked up the remote control and slammed the channel.

But just a few vague words are enough to outline a chilling meaning.

Under the curious eyes of the boss, Chi Mu walked back in a daze.

The memory that had been silenced was stimulated by these TV images, and Chi Mu rubbed his forehead, trying to drive Jiang Yuchen's shadow out of his mind. When he raised his eyes again, he found that he had strayed off the road in a daze.

There is a wide street in front of you. There are a lot of luxury cars parked in front of the hotel across the street. Not far away, there are waves of reporters carrying cameras and microphones. Whenever a car stops, they will swarm He rushed up to take pictures of the people coming out of the car, and the scene looked like a national leader receiving foreign guests.

Chi Mu grinned, he had seen this kind of scene a lot before, maybe some rich family held a party here, a group of guys in suits and leather shoes were drinking champagne and eating messy things while squeezing around in the crowd , to put it nicely is to socialize, and to put it badly is to visit high-end food markets.

He looked around, trying to find a way back, but turned around, Chi Mu somehow felt that this place looked familiar, then looked back at the name of the hotel, and then thought about the date, Chi Mu suddenly took a deep breath and went straight to the hotel. Sighing at the trick of good fortune——I actually went to the place where Cheng Hao held a banquet by accident.

Then, he didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, he saw the male protagonist who was standing at the entrance of the hotel to welcome guests.

In the past few days, Chi Mu was so busy that she completely forgot that there was such a thing.To be more serious, he didn't take this matter to heart. Cheng Hao gave birth to his son's banquet and had nothing to do with him. Although he accepted the invitation, he still didn't know whether to come or not. Well, God even canceled the process of thinking for him, and sent people directly to the scene.

If he thought about this question a few days ago, he could still struggle with whether to come or not, but now that Chi Mu is standing here, he has confirmed his deepest thoughts almost instantly, and he doesn't want to come at all.

It's just that it's too late to say anything now, and it's impossible to even turn around and leave.

When he was standing there hesitantly, Cheng Hao on the opposite side had already seen him.

Chi Mu once suspected that Cheng Hao had a pair of radar eyes, no matter how many people around him were crowded, he would be able to find himself out immediately.Chi Mu doesn't know whether it's because she looks too distinctive or because Cheng Hao thinks it's too good, but in Cheng Hao's own words, it's "talent".

Cheng Hao hurried across the road and came to Chi Mu.

Chi Mu smiled stiffly.

"You're here." Seeing Chi Mu's smile, Cheng Hao also laughed with him.He didn't seem to be in a good mood, his eyes were blue, and the suit on his body couldn't hide his haggardness. "I was wondering if you would come."

"Would you believe me if I said that I happened to pass by to buy dinner?" Chi Mu was honest, raising the lunch box in his hand, "Yan Shuo's house is nearby, and I'm staying at his place now."

Cheng Hao was slightly surprised: "You haven't rented a house yet?"

"For a middle-aged man who has lost his job and lives on [-] yuan a month, it is too extravagant to rent an apartment alone. It is not uncommon for you to know the housing prices in Beijing." Chi Mu half-jokingly said, "Yan Shuo went abroad , the house was empty and empty, so I moved in."

As soon as the topic was detoured, it turned to an awkward place. Seeing Cheng Hao's suddenly embarrassed face, Chi Mu knew it in his heart.If he hadn't married in silence, he wouldn't have become homeless overnight.

"Don't always stand by the side of the road, go in first." Cheng Hao stretched out his hand, "I...I have a lot to say to you."

"No." Chi Mu turned to one side, avoiding Cheng Hao's hand, looking at the other's disappointed eyes, he sighed softly, and motioned to the guardrail on the roadside not far away.

The two walked over one after the other, leaning against the guardrail, Chi Mu asked Cheng Hao, "Is there any smoke?"

Cheng Hao hurriedly took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, Chi Mu's gaze paused on the pack, he took out a cigarette from inside, lit it with Cheng Hao's fire, and took a big puff, waiting for the spicy feeling to be full Inhaled the lungs, and then spit it out.

He said: "Being a big boss and still smoking this cheap ten yuan cigarette, Xiao Nan doesn't think you've dropped the price?"

Cheng Hao also lit one himself, and simply said three words, "I'm used to it."

"That's not a good excuse." Chi Mu shook his head, "It takes a moment to get used to this kind of thing."

After flicking the cigarette ash, Chi Mu asked again: "What's your son's name?"

"Cheng Yu, Er Xiyu."

"You took it?"

"Yes."

"No wonder, you have always admired Xiang Yu."

Chi Mu sighed: "How time flies, now it feels like what happened in the university was just yesterday, but now, you are all fathers."

Cheng Hao just smiled wryly.

"Why this expression, you are rich, have a career and a family, aren't you happy?"

"Happy? What is happiness? Marriage for profit? Maybe this is not the life I want at all."

Cheng Hao's tone was very melancholy, he looked at Chi Mu's side face, stretched out his hand to touch the other's hair, stopped in mid-air, and retracted angrily.

Chi Mu said: "You choose the road yourself. Now that you have made your choice, you have to go on with your courage. Saying you don't want it now is of no use. There are all medicines in the world, but there is no medicine for regret."

Cheng Hao sighed and said: "The most difficult thing to do in one's life is multiple choice questions. I used to always think about which way is right and which way is wrong. The way that I think can bring me happiness is seen by others. It was a big mistake. The right way in the eyes of others, but I am staggering when I walk... What is right? What is wrong?"

"This question is very simple. It depends on who and how you plan to live for in this life, for others, or for yourself." Chi Mu raised his hand, pointed to himself, and then pointed to Cheng Hao, "This is me. And you, the biggest difference."

Cheng Hao was silent for a while, seeming to agree, and continued: "So I have done this multiple-choice question for ten years, and finally chose the choice that makes many people around me feel at ease. It can comfort parents, protect the company, and be around everyone. There is only one price for relabeling 'normal' in people's eyes, and that is hurting you."

Chi Mu kept staring at his shoes, Cheng Hao couldn't see his expression, nor could he guess what he was thinking.

"It's been a year, and I think the torment I have suffered in this year is not comparable to that in the past 20 years. At that time, I gave up on you, thinking it was just a relationship, but unfortunately I found out later that what I gave up may be my whole life. "

Chi Mu's body trembled, and he laughed dryly, "You are a big man saying these words, are you sour? Have you watched too many soap operas?"

"I'm serious. Sometimes when I wake up at night and look at the woman snuggling beside me, I feel very strange... It's an indescribable feeling, lonely and tormenting." Cheng Hao rubbed the center of his brows, "Life isn't supposed to be like this."

"Do you want me to teach you what to do." Chi Mu said lightly, "If life is not going your way, you can get a divorce and start your life again. You will meet a lover who can bring you happiness again, and then you will be in love with each other. Accompanied until old age, this is the meaning of life, start now, everything is not too late."

Cheng Hao raised his hopeful eyes, "Could that person be you?"

Chi Mu shook her head, "It won't be me, but I think it will be better than me."

Cheng Hao's eyes dimmed again.

"It's too late, once a family has a child, everything changes."

"It depends on what you think."

Chi Mu glanced back at the hotel entrance again, Cheng Hao's parents appeared there, and the eyes of the two elders glanced at him in amazement, feeling creepy.

"I have to go." Chi Mu hurriedly distanced herself from Cheng Hao, scratched her head, and said, "Congratulations on the birth of your son. I was really in a hurry today, so I didn't prepare a gift, sorry."

Cheng Hao hesitated for a while, then suddenly said: "Chi Mu, I don't know whether I should ask, but...do you still hate me?"

Chi Mu looked at Cheng Hao's anxious expression, thought for a moment, and shook his head.

"Then beside you..."

Chi Mu interrupted: "I think there is someone around me, and whether I will look for them again in the future, these have nothing to do with you. Cheng Hao, I don't want to give you any expectations. To be honest, I can tell you calmly today. So much, because I have let go and let go of too many things."

Cheng Hao responded shyly and clenched his fists.

"I have another question."

Chi Mu suddenly called him.

"Is that child your own?"

Cheng Hao was stunned for a moment, and then smiled wryly: "Yes or no, what's the difference now, I have embarked on this road, and I am not qualified to turn back, and I don't have the courage to bear the consequences of turning back, so I can only bite the bullet and go forward." go forward."

After a pause, he said again: "Chi Mu, although I am very reluctant to say this, I really hope that you will be happy, because you are much braver than me."

This handsome man stared into Chi Mu's eyes, and slowly said three words in an unprecedentedly sincere tone: "I'm sorry."