Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Sunny Tuesday [-]st December

split.

Cracked completely.

The cracks are black and white, the cracks are messy, and the cracks are clear.

What is this 2020 magic event.Is this my end of month gift for November?Peach blossoms from roommates? ? ?

I asked Baboon Wang: "Actually, Brother Xiong doesn't know that you two heard it at night, right?"

Wang Baboon said: "I definitely can't let him know, why tell him." After a pause, "Actually, I feel that he doesn't even know what he thinks about you."

his mind...

These four words sound weird.

Maybe my essence is still a straight man, when I think that there are other men besides Lu Bei who have thoughts about me, I feel very strange in my heart.

I said: "Don't say that, maybe there is some misunderstanding in it."

Baboon Wang sent a "speechless" emoji: "What misunderstanding can there be? Why did you call you in the dream all night? Pay back the money? Fight?"

I was silent.

When I think about Liu Xiong going out to watch a movie with us that day, it seems to make sense.

"So now they have no way to persuade them, unless Liu Xiong can change his ways," Wang Baboon said, "Just like when we went out that day, Liu Xiong sat with you specially, isn't it just a routine of chasing girls? We are not blind, Lao Liu is just about to move now."

……

I really want to answer something, but I don't know what to say.

Wang Babo said again: "Old Liu's meaning is very clear. He knows you don't like men and still does this. It's too much. Monkey is for your own good. We are both afraid that Liu Xiong will lead you to ruin. He went on to say, "It's fine if you live outside now, don't come back, otherwise you won't be able to cope with seeing Lao Liu."

After a long time, I only replied: "Thank you, brother."

The words "Correct evil and return to righteousness" are eye-catching.

I can also understand that if Liu Xiong is targeted for this matter, he will have a hard time in the dormitory in the future.

What's more, the most important thing is that I was bent.

But I didn't refute all this, let alone explain it.

I am incompetent and cowardly, and the deep cabinet is the shell that protects me.

This is true for Lu Bei in front of outsiders, let alone Liu Xiong.

I told Jeff about it, the classic "what if my roommate falls in love with me" drama, but unfortunately Liu Xiong is destined not to be the male number one in my book.

Jeff didn't get back to me until evening: There is still such a thing?

He said: What are you going to do?

I thought about it and told the truth: I don’t know.

Jeff said: Listening to your description, I feel that your roommate should be straight, maybe he feels like a brother to you.

I said: Who knows.

But Jeff advised me: I think you should go back to the dormitory, get in touch with him more, maybe you will find nothing wrong with him.

I'm a little hesitant.

He went on to say: You can't hide from him for the rest of your life, can you?And... Thinking about it in another way, his situation is also pitiful.

That's true, I said to Jeff: You're right.I'll wait and see.

It's not that I want to escape, but because of my current situation, I really don't have the heart to deal with these troublesome things in my dormitory.

Because there are only three days, it is Shen Jing's birthday.

I'm counting down the days, as if I'm waiting for my death.

I know that my practice of memorizing the male god Bai Yueguang's birthday by rote is really ridiculous, and it's not necessary.But I really really care about it. As long as I am free, this matter will come to my mind and make me uneasy, like a pair of invisible hands trying to grab my throat and my heart all the time.

My mind was restless, not knowing what to fear and what to expect.

Maybe it was because he was afraid that Lu Bei would be in a daze that day, and he would be so sad that he would not want to live, and he was afraid that he would hide without making a sound and feel sad.

Maybe there was a hint of secret expectation, maybe, maybe, he just lived through it like that?

After all, the relationship between the two of us now is even better than when we met briefly before.Maybe I really have some status in Lu Bei's heart?Maybe my new love can dilute the old love a little bit?

I never knew before that the birthday of someone who had nothing to do with me would make me so concerned that I could only find something to distract myself.

Finally, I made an appointment for a tattoo at the school gate.

Let the point of the needle prick my flesh!

Use this to relieve my mental pain!

When we met Chiguo before, I noticed that Lu Bei had several tattoos on his body.On the upper arms, on the wrists, on the ankles, on the belly.The patterns are all designed by himself, and the meaning is unknown.

But it is more or less related to Shen Jing.

As for me, I don't have such a high artistic talent, and I don't have such complicated ideas. I just want to find something to emphasize the meaning of Lu Bei, so that I can rely on it to face the endless fear of the unknown.

The tattoo artist asked me: "Where is the tattoo?"

I said, "where the heart is."

"What's the tattoo?"

"One Lu Xiangbei."

He thought I made a typo: "All the way north?"

"No, Yilu Xiangbei."

"Oh, good. Do you want any patterns?"

I thought about it, and sent Aini's photo: "Here, can you design it for me?"

He said: "Yes, you can tell me the elements and styles you want, and the tattoo artists in the shop can draw for you."

I suddenly thought: "How long will it take?"

"About two weeks. If you add money and expedite, it will be out in three to five days."

I couldn't wait that long, so I said, "It's been too long, forget it, let's get tattooed first."

The tattoo artist kindly reminded me: "Student, if you tattoo your personal name, especially your girlfriend's name, then think again. 90.00% of those who come to me to tattoo someone's name will be washed off in the end."

I said, nothing, I know.

Of course I know that the practice of tattooing the object's name is really nt, and the things engraved on the body will last a lifetime, and the price of repenting is heavy and painful.

But I think I will never regret it.

Those who fell in love were originally nts, but now I would do anything for Lu Bei.

I just want to create more things related to Lu Bei, in an attempt to prove that there are traces of connection between us.

If technology does not allow, I even hope to engrave his name on my beating heart.One stretch and one stretch, one up and one down, one exhale and one inhale, every minute and every second, it's all him.

Chatting with Lu Bei on WeChat last night, he said that the newly bought flowers at home died, and they will be cleaned up in a few days.

I said, the flowerpot was empty.

He joked, yes, just buried you in it.

I said yes, yes, I am willing. [star eyes]

Lu Bei laughed and said, you child, why are you always thinking so strangely.

I am not surprised.I really want to bury myself in Lu Bei's flowerpot.

He may dislike Gou Tian as a human being, but he will not dislike Gou Tian as a piece of land.

In this way, he can take me with him wherever he goes.

I will never be separated from him.