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The recruitment is still going on, and Jin Yuchen's new military order with clear rewards and punishments not only did not dissuade everyone from signing up, but instead increased the number of places, because severe punishments are relatively generous rewards, and the imperial court is willing to grant official positions to illiterate reckless men. Although it seems unrealistic, it has aroused the enthusiasm and desire of many ordinary people. There have been no illiterate military officers in Anqing over the years. It is the first time to break the stereotypes. If you make great achievements, you will definitely be promoted to rank and enjoy glory and wealth.

Jin Yuchen was busy selecting generals in the Yamen during the day, and stayed in the study overnight at night, and asked his servants to set up three braziers in the room to relieve the cold all night, but what she cared about was that Shen Qing had been shutting the door for the past few days. On the way out, the maid who was sent to deliver meals also said that Shen Qing hadn't eaten or drank all this time. It had been three days, and she had been sitting on a chair in a daze except for washing up in the morning. stuff, drink a little water now and then, and don't talk to anyone.

Jin Yuchen was worried that she would be weak if she didn't eat, so he took away the food that the maid was going to bring in, and held it in his hands. After dismissing the maid, he knocked on the door himself to calm himself down, pretending nothing He said like that: "Farewell, it's time to eat."

No one inside made a sound, the maid said that Shen Qingbie had been so bored for the past few days, and no one paid attention to her, and she was indifferent when the food was put in front of her. Bring it out without loss.

It seemed that she was still minding, minding that she was a woman.Jin Yuchen didn't stay any longer, and just pushed the door in. She knew that the other party would not accept the fact that she was a woman so quickly, and her tone of voice was too strong that day. For all kinds of things about herself, Shen Qingbie has her in her heart, so she won't always be against herself and her.

Putting the steaming food in front of Shen Qingbie, the other side's eyes flickered for a moment, and then returned to the indifference and alienation just now, not saying hello to her, and even deliberately ignoring her existence.

Jin Yuchen just smiled slightly and didn't mind it, and said to her in a peaceful and gentle tone: "I heard people say that you don't eat much, don't take it lightly, you can't go on like this. You can't stand it anymore, eat some .”

Shen Qing ignored her, and didn't even look at her.

Jin Yuchen still didn't care that his flattery was ignored, but took a piece of Shen Qing's favorite dish, brought it to her mouth, and said softly: "This is your favorite dish, take a bite, it's from the palace. The cooking of Yuchu is no worse than that of Baohelou."

The chopsticks were about to touch Shen Qingbie's mouth, the other party finally couldn't help it, raised his hand and knocked the chopsticks off Jin Yuchen's hand forcefully, his tone was unprecedentedly cold and forbearing: "I don't like it."

The chopsticks were knocked to the ground, Jin Yuchen was not angry, but bent down to pick up the chopsticks and put them on the table, regardless of whether the other party would listen, he said to himself: "I know you must be thinking why I want to hide the gender, I will explain it to you, and you should listen carefully."

Shen Qingbie still leaned sideways, unwilling to see her face.

Jin Yuchen was sitting next to her, and his tone was unhurried: "When my father was not enthroned, he was a very powerful general, so big that today's emperors are afraid, so my grandfather at that time, also It is Chen Guogong, who married his youngest daughter to his high-spirited father, and within three months after the wedding, my mother became pregnant, but my father soon had another woman."

"From then on, my father will not come to visit my mother, but my grandfather will always come. My mother told me that everyone in the Chen family was looking forward to my birth and the birth of a baby boy, but it turned out to be a girl. At that time, my father was away fighting, and when my grandfather arrived, I was already born. At that time, all the servants who were in charge of delivering the baby and present at the scene told my grandfather that I was a boy."

"Then I grew up like this. My mother always forced me to do a lot of things that I didn't like. The more I cried, the more excited she was to beat me. Only when I stopped crying, she felt that it was meaningless to beat me. Let myself be less exposed to sticks, so I can bear it. In the future, such sticks and beatings will be commonplace, and she will let me learn emperor skills. I was very surprised at that time, why did she force me to learn something that I could not learn? Things, later she told me that the Chen family formed an alliance with my father, together with Fu Shiguo and your father, Shen Funan, who were planning to overthrow the former emperor and support my father to ascend the throne, but the Chen family had a different heart and wanted a mantis to catch cicadas and orioles in Finally, I took advantage of my royal father’s time to recuperate and drag him down from the stage to support me, the puppet emperor, and finally gradually brought the throne and the country into the hands of the Chen family. I will abandon my mother as a pawn, in order not to disappoint my grandpa, my mother never asked me to stop and have a good rest."

"Later, my grandfather succeeded in seeking to usurp the throne, but my grandfather couldn't wait any longer. At that time, the New Deal I launched would be strongly supported and admired by my grandfather in the court. My grandfather even won many officials to side with me in the court. He I underestimated my father too much. I didn’t know that at that time, my father had already thought of killing him. I knew that my father didn’t want the Chen family to live, so I revealed all the things about the Chen family’s rebellion. Come out, my grandfather, my mother and concubine, and the Nine Clans were all executed because of me. For this, I was just imprisoned in the clan mansion. This is the best ending I can foresee. Farewell, you want You know, most of the time I can't help myself, I can't be a woman." Jin Yuchen's tone was still helpless, she didn't narrate too much how painful her childhood was, how difficult her life was, she just wanted to let Shen Qing don't know, he really didn't lie to her on purpose.

Shen Qingbie's heart seemed to be surging like a turbulent sea, and finally suppressed the anger that was about to overflow in her heart and asked, "Then why did you come to provoke me? Jin Yuchen, you are obviously a woman, but you have repeatedly pretended to be a man Find me, make so many actions that misunderstood me, tell me, what were you thinking at that time?"

"I..." Jin Yuchen was at a loss for words, what could she be thinking at that time, what she was thinking about was how to have a good relationship with Shen Qing elsewhere, how to make Shen Qing not have a good impression of her, and then she could use her.

"Say it! Why don't you say it? Do you think I'm stupid and easy to deceive, and take me as a joke?" Jin Yuchen was caught off guard by Shen Qingbie's sudden outburst, "You are a woman, and you have concealed your identity from the beginning to approach Me, you've been mean since the beginning, cheating on my feelings for you, you're a liar, bastard, I don't want to see you again, now seeing your face makes me feel sick, I hate you, I want you to completely disappear in front of me!"

"Qing Farewell...you calm down, listen to me..." Jin Yuchen stood up and pressed Shen Qingbie's shoulders, "Qing Farewell, you love me, this is an undeniable fact, and I also really love you Yes, we have solved all the difficulties that stand in front of us now, and we can live a good life, isn't it..."

"Let me go! Jin Yuchen, you are a liar! The person I, Shen Qingbie, hate the most in my life is a liar like you! When you lied to me, you didn't feel any guilt or even a little bit of my feelings. You are so selfish! You can ignore everyone around you for yourself! I don’t want to see you again!” Shen Qing don’t push her aside, “I want to go back, staying here for one more day will make me feel Very disgusting!"

"Then why did you stay for so long?" Jin Yuchen could no longer control himself: "Farewell Shen, you have me in your heart and you don't want to leave me, that's why you still stay here. Yes, I lied to you, I did have a plan to approach you, but not now, I could treat you like everyone who threatened me, but I didn't! I even confessed everything to you, I I want to be with you, I want to have a good time with you, I only have you in this world, I will never lie to you again, everything about me belongs to you, don’t leave me lightly, I really only have you. "At the end, the tone became more and more begging, and the person gradually approached, slowly approaching her, and finally turned her head slightly when she didn't respond with disgust, and tentatively moved her lips closer, Shen Qing, don't just stare blankly, no She refused, but she didn't go forward, she seemed to be thinking and struggling.

Just when the lips were about to kiss, Shen Qingbie pushed her away in a daze, covered her face, and said helplessly in her tone: "No, we are all women..."

This again, Jin Yuchen's eyes flashed with hurt, but more disgust and anger: "What do you really want? What's wrong with me being a woman? I can still give you happiness and everything you want , I will never have another woman in the future, let alone a man, isn't it enough that I only love you? Shen Qing, apart from being not a man, is there anything I can't compare to a man? "

"You are a woman! Two women... After two women... how can there be children? We won't have children..." Shen Qingbu avoided her aggressive question, and stepped back continuously, her eyes were lax and her voice was trembling .

These few words are undoubtedly a heavy blow to Jin Yuchen, yes, no matter how powerful she is, no matter how much she cares and cherishes Shen Qingbie, but she is a woman, she really cannot give Shen Qingbie a child.Soon Jin Yuchen's restless heart calmed down, and finally her eyes also darkened. She seemed to understand a lot at once. Does the love and cherish for each other in her mouth mean that she must fulfill all Shen Qingbie's requirements?

"Child..." Jin Yuchen murmured in a trance, "Yes, I really can't give you a child... I'm a woman, where did we get a child... Ha..." Finally, Jin Yuchen laughed out loud. He said, turned around and walked out the door sadly, "Yeah, why didn't I think of it, how could I give you a child." After saying that, he shook his head, "Well... I don't blame you, it's me It's my fault...it's all me, I was a mistake...how did I survive..."

Hearing Jin Yuchen's self-deceived and sad words, somehow Shen Qingbie felt pain like a knife in her heart, she raised her hand to keep her, but her hands were weak and her throat could not make a sound, but her heart seemed to be broken There was a huge gash, and she couldn't even breathe due to the pain.

After this day, the maids never came to deliver food to Shen Qingbie again, because Shen Qingbie went back to the Prime Minister's Mansion, Shen Qingbie kept her promise and did not tell her that she was a woman, nor did she say such things in the Prime Minister's Mansion The unhappiness and quarrels of the day, just say that I miss my mother and father, and I will stay for some time.

As for Jin Yuchen, on the day Shen Qing left, she went to the gate to see her off. She didn't dare to take a step forward or get too close to her. He also turned around, and went back to the mansion alone.

Jin Mingzuo has completely given up on his precautions, and often calls Shen Funan and Fu Shiguo into the palace to play chess with him. Shen Funan wants to go back to accompany his daughter these days, so he only calls him Fu Shiguo. Fu Shiguo is now a very prestigious civil servant. , his daughter Fu Bai was defending against the enemy in the western region, waiting for rescue from the capital. As he was getting old, he handed over this matter to his subordinates and two powerful princes, and he stayed quietly behind the scenes. Give up his position, maybe he can regain the happiness he had when he was just a general.

But Fu Shiguo didn't wait, but Jin Yuchen waited, who is not a time passer?Jin Yuchen's chess skills are also good, so he was announced to come in.

Jin Yuchen knelt down and said bluntly: "The war in the western region is tight. My son recommends himself to lead troops to the western region to support and resist for a while, and wait for the reinforcements from the northwest. This expedition will definitely show my glory in Anqing, and I hope the emperor will allow it!"

A black chess piece that Jin Mingzuo was holding slipped from his hand and landed on the ground with a clear "click". Jin Mingzuo sighed, mocked himself for being old, and finally faced Jin Yuchen, slowly Slowly spit out a word.

"allow."

Jin Yuchen kowtowed: "Thank you, father."