Professor Lin's middle-aged love

The weather is getting cooler day by day, the breeze is blowing, the green leaves on the trees are rustling, and a few sporadic pieces are fluttering and scattered, revealing a bit of bleakness.

When I walked into the hospital just now, the sky was still clear, but now it has been covered with a layer of gray clouds and mist, overwhelming in large swaths, making it extremely dull.

"It's best to have surgery in the early stages of this condition."

"Surgery means..."

"The first choice is to perform a total hysterectomy, the prognosis is better, and then go through aggressive chemotherapy and conditioning. Of course, the operation has certain risks. You should be mentally prepared, and it is best to be accompanied by your family."

Leaning back on the seat back, Lin Yuxi closed her sour eyes lightly, and her sister's shadow seemed to appear in front of her eyes.The pain in the late stage of endometrial cancer made Lin Qingshu almost lose weight, her cheeks were deeply sunken, and her lips were pale without a trace of blood.Because of the pain, she could only lie curled up on the bed, her rickety back highlighted her bony body even more.

"Yuxi, take good care of Mom and Shanshan, sister is sorry for you."

Lin Qingshu's last wish still echoed in her ears.The cool wind coming in from the car window messed up the hair on her cheeks, and Lin Yuxi smiled wryly.The same joke, fate actually played with the two sisters twice.

Once my sister took it seriously and admitted defeat.This time, is she going to fight?

Reaching out to touch her abdomen, Lin Yuxi lowered her eyes and stared at it. There had never been life there, and she had never really felt what it was like to be a mother, so she wanted to remove it.

The fingertips trembled slightly, and the bony fingers clenched it tightly, desperately wanting to feel the warmth from there again.

There is only one way.

If the uterus is not removed, she loses her chance of survival.

Turning her head to look out of the car window, the dark clouds seemed to be swallowing her up immediately, engulfed in a cool wind and swept towards her.

There is no gap in the dark clouds that is white, just like her heart, there is no place that is warm.

Deadly cold.

The autumn rain was like scattered broken jade, smashing on the car window glass, shattering the blurred light and shadow.Lin Yuxi didn't move, just raised his eyelids, watching helplessly as the patter of rain suddenly turned into a torrential downpour.

The raindrops hit the glass with a thud, splashing a lot of water.The sound was like beads falling on a jade plate.

Lin Yuxi seemed to have been drained of all her strength, silently watching all the sudden changes in front of her.

The eyes are empty and lifeless.

The sound of the rain gradually became louder, and the sound was like the beating of thousands of war drums.Lin Yuxi's chest began to heave violently. At first, a crystal plant hanging from the corner of her eyes slid down her cheeks silently, and then it fell like a broken bead.

She endured restraint for so long, but she still couldn't control it. She leaned over the steering wheel and cried bitterly under the cover of the sound of rain.

Like this, no one will hear her grievances and fragility.

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Completely releasing her emotions, Lin Yuxi sat up straight, took out a tissue from the storage compartment beside her, wiped away the tear stains on her eyelashes and cheeks, and let out a long sigh of relief.

Fasten your seat belt, start the car, and drive slowly into the rain.

The road was blocked by traffic for nearly two hours due to heavy rain. When she arrived at her mother's house, the sky was completely dark, as if covered with an airtight curtain.

Hearing the knock on the door, Mother Lin got up and walked to the entrance. The moment she opened the door and saw her daughter, she was surprised and happy, and also worried, "It's raining heavily, why are you here?"

"I went out to do some errands, and I happened to be nearby, so I came to see you." Lin Yuxi suppressed the depression in her eyes, and smiled at the corner of her mouth.

Seeing that her daughter's shoulders and hair were wet, Mother Lin turned around and went to the bathroom to get a towel, "Wipe it first, don't catch a cold."

"I'm fine." Lin Yuxi took it with a smile, noticed her mother's awkward footsteps, and frowned, "Mom, what's wrong with your feet?"

"It's been a little painful for the past two days. I may have sprained my ankle, and I don't know how to do it." Mother Lin took the ingredients out of the refrigerator and asked her, "Have you not eaten yet? I'll fry it for you." Two dishes."

"Mom, no need, I'll do it myself later. Go and sit on the sofa first, and I'll show you your feet."

Lin Yuxi sighed secretly, her mother was always like this, no matter what happened, she kept it in her heart and didn't tell her.Thinking about her condition, her heart suddenly hurt.

What would mother do in the future if she wasn't by her side?

Blinking her moist eyes, Lin Yuxi lowered her head and walked into the washroom to get a basin of warm water out, "I'll wash your feet, and then apply plaster. If it still hurts tomorrow, we'll go to the hospital."

Rolling up the sleeves of the knitted sweater, Lin Yuxi squatted in front of her mother, took off her shoes and socks, carefully put her feet into the basin, and asked with downcast eyes, "Is the temperature okay?"

"can."

At the end, Mother Lin seemed to think of something again, sighed leisurely, and said: "The day Xiao Zhou proposed to you, I heard her father's meaning seems to disagree with you two. Have you asked Xiao Zhou about the matter? How's it going?"

Hearing this, Lin Yuxi twitched her fingers soaked in the water, her heart felt as if she had been thumped hard, with a dull pain.

"Well, she told me that she will take care of it. Mom, don't worry about it. The most important thing is to take care of yourself."

Mother Lin nodded in relief, stared at her daughter with narrowed eyes, and smiled suddenly, "Xiao Zhou is really a good kid. Mom was moved by her way of defending you that day. It seems that she treats you well. Really fell in love."

Lin Yuxi picked up the water with her fingers and carefully helped her mother wash it, silently.

"Yuxi, you have to take good care of your body. One day I will ask you, sister Han, to go to the Chinese medicine hospital to prescribe some Chinese medicine." Lin's mother spoke earnestly, but she didn't notice the trembling shoulders of her daughter who was always bowing her head.

"To put it bluntly, you and Xiao Zhou are both getting married for the first time. After you have recuperated your health, it will be different if you plan to have your own child after marriage."

For a moment, Lin Yuxi's mind went blank.

child?

Lin Yuxi's chest suddenly hurt, she bit her lips and said nothing, she was afraid that if she made a sound, she would lose control.

"Yuxi, why don't you talk? Are the parents of the Zhou family..."

Lin Yuxi took a deep breath, and said after a long while: "No, I just heard you say getting married, and I feel a little unrealistic. After all, I am so old."

Lin Yuxi raised her lips at her mother, but the smile didn't reach her eyes.

Lin's mother stroked her daughter's cheek kindly, and sighed, "No matter how old you are, in my mother's eyes, you are just a child. Mom wants to see you well, and you must look good in your wedding dress."

Lin Yuxi's throat was choked, and she was unable to speak with difficulty.

In the evening, two dishes were simply fried, and the mother and daughter sat together to eat and chat.Occasionally, Lin Yuxi looked sideways at her mother's gray temples, feeling pain in her heart.

"Mom, have you ever thought about living in a nursing home in the future?" Lin Yuxi put a piece of broccoli into her mother's bowl, seemingly unintentionally.

She was afraid that if her operation was unsuccessful, her mother would be left alone and no one would take care of her.

Lin's mother couldn't help being taken aback when she heard the words, "I heard the neighbor downstairs mentioned the nursing home before, saying that it is common for the staff inside to beat and scold the elderly. I don't want to go." She looked at her daughter unnaturally. , Mother Lin tentatively said, "Did Mom cause you trouble?"

"No, don't think about it. I'm just... afraid that you will be alone at home, and I can't come to accompany you often at work." Sensing her mother's worry, Lin Yuxi frowned, "Forget it, you don't want to If you don’t go, it’s the same if I hire you a nanny to take care of you at home later.”

The topic ended here, and the mother and daughter ate in peace.The mobile phone on the table rang suddenly, Lin Yuxi glanced at it, it was Zhou Mo.

She hesitated for a moment, then answered, "Hello."

"Where is it?" Zhou Mo's voice was a little anxious.

Lin Yuxi frowned slightly, "At my mother's house, what's wrong?"

"I'm at your door, knocking on the door for a long time... when will you come back?"

"I..." Lin Yuxi turned her head to look at her mother. The other party recognized Zhou Mo, and her eyes signaled her to go back as soon as possible.

After hanging up the phone, Mother Lin began to urge her daughter, "Xiao Zhou is waiting for you, don't clean up the table, go back quickly, and be careful on the road."

"Mom, I washed the dishes. Your legs and feet are inconvenient, so you can't stand for a long time." Lin Yuxi was holding the bowl and was about to go to the kitchen, but Lin's mother snatched it and pushed her to the entrance. "I can also wash the dishes while sitting." , you go back early, you are all busy, it is rare to see each other, you have to cherish it."

Lin Yuxi was a little helpless. In her mother's eyes, her relationship with Zhou Mo seemed to be more important than anything else.She was probably really worried that if Zhou Mo was neglected, the other party would abandon her one day.

Clenching her fingers unconsciously, Lin Yuxi felt a sense of loss. After all, she didn't do a good job and made her mother worry about her.

***

The heavy rain lasted until seven or eight o'clock in the evening, and the humid air smelled of grass.After parking the car, Lin Yuxi stepped into the elevator, feeling stiff and weak.

In fact, she was not ready to meet Zhou Mo.

Standing in the elevator in a daze, with a "ding", the elevator door opened, Lin Yuxi's long eyelashes trembled, took a deep breath, and then stepped out of the elevator.

The lights in the corridor came on suddenly, and when she looked up, she saw Zhou Mo leaning quietly against the wall in a small black suit, his fair chin nodding slightly, his long curly hair like a waterfall half draped over his shoulders, his figure was tall and straight, bright and beautiful moving.

Nails dug deep into her palms, Lin Yuxi stood there and looked at her, a cold halo shrouded her body, while she was hidden in the darkness, as if they were forcibly separated by something invisible and intangible .

Hearing the movement, Zhou Mo glanced sideways, the woman she was thinking of was close at hand, her heart moved, and the high heels immediately knocked rhythmically in the empty aisle, falling on Lin Yuxi's heart like a drumbeat.

"I don't know why, I miss you so much tonight, I want to see you right away, and hold you in my arms." Holding Lin Yuxi tightly in his arms, Zhou Mo rested his chin on her shoulder, breathing in and out For a while, it was all the fragrance of Lin Yuxi's body, and her heart was soothed for a moment.

Lin Yuxi stood quietly, letting her hug her, feeling the warmth of her body, Lin Yuxi's moist eyes blinked, and her red lips trembled.

My heart feels uncomfortable.

She thought that as long as she held onto it tightly enough, happiness would not slip away.

But I never thought that this happiness is so short-lived, like a meteor, fleeting.

Unlock the door.

Before turning on the light in the living room, Lin Yuxi was hugged by Zhou Mo's waist and leaned against the wall, kissing her with hot lips, half forbearance and half indulgence.

There was a dull pain in the apex of her heart. Lin Yuxi had never felt so uncomfortable. She felt suffocated, and her chest seemed to be stuffed with a ball of cotton.

The kiss on her lips was so hot and strong that she couldn't bear it.

I don't know how long she can have this warmth that belongs to her.In an instant, countless lights and shadows of the rest of her life flashed in Lin Yuxi's mind, and there may be no shadow of herself around her.

Lin Yuxi greedily raised her head to bear Zhou Mo's hot kiss, and couldn't help holding her cheeks with both hands, trying to respond to her, the moisture from the corners of her eyes fell quietly the moment her eyes closed lightly.

Feeling the faint tingling on her lips, Zhou Mo was startled by her enthusiasm, and opened her eyes in a daze to see the person in front of her clearly, but was hooked by the other person and fell into confusion/love/fascination again.

"Zhou Mo, hug me...to the bedroom." Lin Yuxi's intermittent voice overflowed from the lips of the two, accompanied by delicate/panting breaths, making people want/stop/cannot.

She had never been so indulgent, never.

Lin Yuxi hid what he wanted to say to her in his heart, and recited it thousands of times.

Every word is gentle, every word is painful.

The author has something to say: explain, I haven't worked yet, I'm just studying in graduate school.But it is not very easy, because the writing speed is incomparable with the master, so it also delays a lot of time.I have always been reluctant to reveal my own situation, because I feel that the childish writing and stories do not match my age.Cover your face with anger.

Now let’s talk about why the plot of endometrial cancer is set, because this kind of situation is relatively common.I have seen some women who have not undergone surgery in order to keep their uterus, but have been maintaining it through chemotherapy, and there is only one result in the end.I feel very sorry, but I also understand the state of mind of the person involved. Who would want to have their uterus removed before they have experienced the feeling of being a mother?Too cruel, too cruel.But I always think that there will always be someone who will promise you tenderness for the rest of your life, miss you forever, and warm your broken heart.I hope Zhou Mo is that ray of light that shines on her, warms her, and never leaves her.