My first love overturned

Lin Zhuoguang knocked on the door pretendingly, pushed the door open, walked in quickly, and asked Xie Yuran unceremoniously: "Why are you here?"

Xie Yuran was also very rude to Lin Zhuoguang, an uninvited guest: "What are you doing here?"

Lin Zhuoguang took a step forward, between Gu Chenjing and Xie Yuran, and pushed Gu Chenjing behind him: "You don't care."

Xie Yuran's momentum is not inferior to Lin Zhuoguang: "You can't control it."

In the end, Gu Chenjing stopped Lin Zhuoguang and Xie Yuran, two mature business people, who were arguing like elementary school chickens pecking at each other, and sent Xie Yuran out of the house.

When he came back, he looked at Lin Zhuoguang, who was sitting at the table in a rage, and didn't know how to face it for a while.

The touch of that kiss was still clearly on Gu Chenjing's cheek, and various emotions rolled out in his heart, making it impossible for him to keep calm when facing Lin Zhuoguang.

Although angry, Lin Zhuoguang still carefully studied Gu Chenjing's new residence. Compared with the damp den in Lingbei City, there is at least a table, the glass of the tea table is intact, and there is a separate kitchen.

Is it because the girlfriend will come, can't it be too simple?

Thinking of this, Lin Zhuoguang became even more unhappy.Although Gu Chenjing said he would not get married, Gu Chenjing never told him how far the matter had been handled, and he didn't know the result.

Looking at Gu Chenjing who sent Xie Yuran away and closed the door, but stood at the door not approaching, keeping a distance of at least three meters from him, Lin Zhuoguang felt even more miserable.He asked: "Little lion, are you really not married anymore?"

"Yes." Gu Chenjing replied.

"Then what happened to Xie Yuran?" Lin Zhuoguang asked.

"He...advised me to go to England."

Although I also feel that going to the UK is one of the better ways for Gu Chenjing than getting married, but Lin Zhuoguang is not happy with Xie Yuran's appearance at this time and place: "Even if we want to talk about things in the UK, it is necessary to use it." Why did he come to you today? Does he not know what day it is today?"

What day is it?Gu Chenjing was clearly puzzled.

Well, even if the man of science and engineering doesn’t understand the romance of White Valentine’s Day, but Gu Chenjing doesn’t speak, Lin Zhuoguang feels wronged when he’s done: “And you don’t reply to my messages. There are people in human history who are liked like me Has anyone ever ignored it like this?"

"the person I like".

These four words made Gu Chenjing's heart stutter.He said helplessly to Lin Zhuoguang, "Stop making trouble."

If he didn't reply to the message from Lin Zhuoguang, Gu Chenjing also felt that it was inappropriate both emotionally and rationally.

But in many cases, there cannot be a "start".

Once a small opening is made, all the camouflage will rush forward and be torn apart.

Every time I receive a message from Lin Zhuoguang, Gu Chenjing struggles with those relaxed, intimate details and tone that make him seem to really be able to participate in Lin Zhuoguang's daily life.Even if he wants to understand and be with him again, he still knows that he is just an outsider in the end, and he can only finally remain silent after repeated hesitation.

Therefore, Gu Chenjing expects Lin Zhuoguang to send him work news.With a safe reason, he can reply unscrupulously, expecting to be answered as a matter of course.

He has long stopped indulging in expectations, and even more consciously has no right to indulge in expectations for Lin Zhuoguang.

In all fairness, compared to getting along with Lin Zhuoguang, maybe getting along with Xie Yuran made Gu Chenjing feel more relaxed.

Although Xie Yuran did confess clearly, but after being rejected by Gu Chenjing without hesitation, it was as if it had never happened, and Xie Yuran never crossed the line again, and kept a polite social distance .

"Friend" is the definition Xie Yuran gave Gu Chenjing.Xie Yuran did not hide his expectation that this definition could go further, but he was not aggressive or forced, and did not cross the line that made Gu Chenjing feel uncomfortable.

"Friend" is also Lin Zhuoguang's definition for Gu Chenjing.The difference is that Lin Zhuoguang doesn't like this definition to be broken. Once he realizes that Gu Chenjing wants to retreat, he will turn into a little tiger with teeth and claws, willful and childish, and will not let Gu Chenjing escape regardless.

Gu Chenjing was naturally indifferent, and naturally blocked too many good intentions.If he really insisted, he gradually gave up in his never-changing politeness and alienation.

Only Lin Zhuoguang, blatantly, regardless of the situation, will never turn back, and stick to the flames.

"I'm not making trouble, I'm not joking with you. I like you, I like you seriously. Although I am quite slow, it took me so long to realize that my feelings for you are not friendship but love, but as soon as I found out, I immediately I confessed to you." Lin Zhuoguang held a frank and sincere heart and told Gu Chenjing, "Isn't confession a particularly good quality? Shouldn't it be rewarded with a boyfriend as good as Gu Chenjing ?"

"Lin Zhuoguang, really, stop making trouble." Gu Chenjing's tone was no longer evasive and powerless, but cold, tough, resisting, and even sullen.

"I'm serious." Lin Zhuoguang said, "I like you. Does this matter make you bored so much? Or is it that I am bored to you?"

His body was trembling slightly, but he still tried his best to hide the complicated emotions that he didn't want Lin Zhuoguang to find out.

"Little Lion," Lin Zhuoguang persevered, "You don't like me at all?"

Gu Chenjing didn't answer, just sighed and said, "Go back."

Lin Zhuoguang turned into a pitiful little milk tiger again: "I won't go back. Unless..."

He looked up at Gu Chenjing who was standing by the door, "Unless you really tell me, you just don't like me at all."

Gu Chenjing lowered his head and didn't look at Lin Zhuoguang. His body was still straight, but he was trembling slightly. The feelings in his heart were too complicated, which made him unable to deal with Lin Zhuoguang who kept approaching and refused to let him escape.

He could only try his best to suppress the churning emotions, and not let his reason be swallowed up by unreal expectations and joy.

"Little lion, if you don't answer, I'll take it as if you agreed to be with me." Lin Zhuoguang drew a conclusion to Gu Chenjing on his own.

"No." Eagerly opposing Lin Zhuoguang's conclusion of "together", Gu Chenjing used this objection to force his own voice, "I don't like you."

After saying these words, his eyes were also red.He lowered his head lower and used his willpower to support his sour eyes, preventing Lin Zhuoguang from seeing his gaffe.

Lin Zhuoguang suddenly laughed, with a bright and dazzling smile, he said word by word: "I, no, believe it."

"I'm so cute, how could you not like me." Lin Zhuoguang walked slowly towards Gu Chenjing, "How could you not like me if you spoil me so much."

Lin Zhuoguang raised his right hand, held Gu Chenjing's cold left hand hanging by his side, pressed his four fingers against Gu Chenjing's palm, and gently stroked the back of Gu Chenjing's hand with his thumb: "Little lion, you like my .”

Gu Chenjing's eye sockets were still wet.

Of course he likes Lin Zhuoguang.

But he will never be with Lin Zhuoguang.

He is a man who has lost everything.He is not as naive as his mother, nor is he as paranoid.He understood that if he didn't take a shortcut, he wouldn't be able to go back to the height where he and Lin Zhuoguang could stand side by side in the third year of high school.He is too aware of the mechanics of reality to know that no matter how hard he tries, it will be futile.

And what is the shortcut?

Breaking the law, marriage, and violating one's own three views.He didn't want either.

So he worked hard to find a way for him to survive reasonably in his current position, and he also accepted the fact that his life has come here.

What made Gu Chenjing suffer was not the fall of class, but his mother's incomprehension and rejection, her paranoia of always wanting to go back, and all kinds of ridiculous and sad emergencies that continued to pull them down. Go to the doctor indiscriminately.

Downhill is the fastest, and there is no end.

So Gu Chenjing absolutely didn't want to drag Lin Zhuoguang into this dark chaos.

If he was with him, what Lin Zhuoguang would have to face would be an earthquake.

He only hoped that Lin Zhuoguang would stay in the good place he was born with, and not be dragged off the clouds because of Gu Chenjing.After all, Lin Zhuoguang is so... narcissistic and secondary.

Lin Zhuoguang took Gu Chenjing's left hand and wrapped his hands in his own: "Little Lion, I've always been ignorant about feelings, about you, and about myself. I never knew that I What I want, I just know what I don’t want. Now, I know, I want you. I also know, I’m going to fight for you to recognize me, to admit that I like me, and to be with me. And the one who is relied on by the family Compared to you, I'm a bit too worthless...but I won't let you stop and wait for me, I will run to catch up with you. "

Lin Zhuoguang lowered his head and saw that Gu Chenjing had bitten his pale lips.He let go of his hand and took a step back: "I won't put pressure on you. You don't need to respond to me."

Gu Chenjing still lowered his eyes.

"But I like you, and I can't take it back." Lin Zhuoguang didn't back down, "Who can control himself to like someone, or not to like someone? Little lion, you can't hide just because I like you. Talk to me, it's not fair to me. If you hide, I swear, I will find you."

"What if...you can't find it?" Gu Chenjing's voice was thickly nasal.

"How can I not find it." Lin Zhuoguang said, "But if I really can't find it... I don't know what will happen to me. It's like now, I know where you are, I can find you, but I still want to see you every second, you are not by my side, you do not reply to my messages, I am in a trance, my heart is empty and uncomfortable, I have never experienced this, I don’t know how to describe it, but I am very afraid of this, I can’t stand it .If you disappear completely...I..."

Gu Chenjing slowly raised his head and saw the real weakness in Lin Zhuoguang's eyes.

Lin Zhuoguang like this made him feel sad and distressed.

All along, there has been a wall between him and the people around him, and he has sealed himself inside to keep out the warmth of others.He doesn't like other people's warmth.

The only ones who can penetrate the warmth are his mother and Lin Zhuoguang.

Mother relies on blood, but Lin Zhuoguang relies on the unique tiger.

After Lin Zhuoguang left, Gu Chenjing went to the bathroom to wash his face before regaining his emotional stability.

After leaving the bathroom, he checked that it was almost three o'clock in the morning, and decided not to sleep for the time being.

Before Lin Zhuoguang left, he insisted that Gu Chenjing give him a specific time to return to Lingbei.

Gu Chenjing answered him: "Take care of my mother's affairs, the fastest... ten days. Or half a month."

Lin Zhuoguang frowned: "It's been so long... I can come to Ning City every day."

"Don't come." Gu Chenjing insisted, "You don't want to interfere."

"Then it's settled? Will you go back to Lingbei?" Lin Zhuoguang raised his hand to hold Gu Chenjing's hand.

His more and more natural actions were stopped by Gu Chenjing taking a step back.

Gu Chenjing raised his left hand and looked at the back of his hand. It seemed that the strength of Lin Zhuoguang's previous caress still remained.

He sighed, but couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth slightly.The full sweetness, warmth and sourness are intertwined and wrapped around the heart, so fine and dense that they cannot be untied.

Lin Zhuoguang likes him.

The first time at the airport, when Lin Zhuoguang said this, Gu Chenjing was full of fear and uncertainty.

Lin Zhuoguang has never revealed any possibility of liking the same sex, and he is too young, and has not received any rejection. It makes sense to misunderstand friends who don't want to get too close to him as "like" on a whim of.

After returning from the airport, Gu Chenjing repeatedly warned himself not to think too much or delusional.

But Lin Zhuoguang chased him to Ning City and told him clearly that he liked him.

Even at this moment, Gu Chenjing doesn't intend to have any development with Lin Zhuoguang.This road is difficult for him, but it is not worth the loss for Lin Zhuoguang.

But Lin Zhuoguang likes him.

No matter how sensible he was, Gu Chenjing couldn't suppress the joy that kept growing in his heart.

Even this joy is soaked in sadness.

Thoughts were disturbing, and the time soon reached three o'clock.Gu Chenjing's mobile phone on the table rang a WeChat notification.

He clicked on his phone and saw the message he had been waiting for subconsciously.

Lin Zhuoguang: [I'm home. 】

As if he was used to not getting a reply, when Gu Chenjing opened Lin Zhuoguang's WeChat interface to read this message, "the other party is typing" was also displayed at the top.

New news jumped out one after another.

Lin Zhuoguang: 【Have a good dream, dream about me. 】

Lin Zhuoguang: 【Good night. 】

Lin Zhuoguang: [By the way, where do you live in Ning City, what is the orientation? 】

Gu Chenjing opened the compass software on his phone, took a screenshot, and sent it to Lin Zhuoguang.At the same time, there was another sentence [Good night, sweet dreams. 】

In Lingbei City, Lin Zhuoguang stared in disbelief at the four words sent by Gu Chenjing in the holographic starry sky projection in the bedroom of the apartment, and let out a small roar of joy.

After the joy, there was a deep shock: the screenshot of the compass sent by Gu Chenjing clearly showed that it was due west.

Did Peach Blossom Star enter the main palace, or not?

The worry that wraps the young man's heart in a worry about gains and losses occupies all of Lin Zhuoguang's consciousness before falling asleep.