God don't run

Ouyang Chenchen lowered his head, the broken hair on his forehead blocked his eyes.His whole body trembled slightly, and for a moment, Bi Shaoliang almost thought that Ouyang Chenchen was crying.

"Hehe." But Ouyang Chenchen's chuckle came from deep in his throat, and he said softly: "Where do you think I can go? You don't need to exchange conditions like Xie Shiran and Meng Fan, You know who the only person I care about is."

"Chenchen..." Bi Shaoliang's heart twitched violently, and he felt pain from his deep guilt and inextricable possessive desire.

When he stretched out his hand to pull Ouyang Chenchen, Ouyang Chenchen staggered past him, silently but without hesitation poured the broken pieces that had just been burned into ashes into the garbage bag, and continued to stumble back to the bedroom, headlong He covered his head in the big bed and did not move.

The more I can't get it, the more I want to touch it. I stood on tiptoe desperately, stretched my arms, and then gently brushed the surface of the golden fruit with my fingertips, but couldn't catch anything.

Then a few heavy chains suddenly appeared on his body, tightly trapping his body, unable to struggle, slowly but firmly dragging him away from the dazzling light.The body became heavier and heavier, and the surroundings became darker and darker. He fell suddenly, and the strong sense of weightlessness rose rapidly, and the bottomless black hole swallowed his whole body.

"Uh!" Ouyang Chenchen woke up with a start, already covered in sweat.

The weather has become increasingly impetuous and hot, and people who are steaming are also panicking, feeling a sense of breathlessness.Ouyang Chenchen brushed away his sweat-soaked hair and buried his head in his knees, only to hear his heart still beating fast.

"Chenchen, which one do you want to wear today?" Uncle An suddenly opened the door, holding four sets of clothes in his hand.

Ouyang Chenchen closed his eyes, exhaled lightly, and when he looked up again, he still had that charming sunny smile that fascinated all beings.He glanced at the four sets of new season products in different styles in Uncle An's hands, and pointed to the one on the far right that looked refreshing and low-key.

After taking a shower, wearing white ripped jeans and a white T-shirt with a personalized pattern, Ouyang Chenchen's whole body is lined up refreshingly, cleanly, softly and beautifully in this slightly sticky summer day.

He put on his sunglasses and followed Uncle An out into the caravan. Uncle An handed over the schedule to him and carefully explained all the precautions to him.

Today Ouyang Chenchen was invited by a TV station's public welfare program to visit orphans in an orphanage in the suburbs, and by the way, help the TV station to promote their recent strong talent show.

This secluded and simple little orphanage basically takes in some physically handicapped children, mainly deaf and blind.Ouyang Chenchen is not very good at getting in touch with children, and he doesn't know how to deal with those groups who are already more unfortunate than normal children.

Happiness and contentment are all pretended, Ouyang Chenchen knows that the missing piece in the deepest part of his heart will always be empty, but everyone expresses this helplessness in different ways.

The program team arranged a sympathy process for him, writing clearly what to say, what games to play, and what small gifts to give.Ouyang Chenchen memorized it according to the script, and waited until the time to show it in front of the camera.

Arriving in the small courtyard that was so simple that it was almost desolate, Ouyang Chenchen still couldn't help being stunned.Although the program team prepared a part of the public welfare fund donation, Ouyang Chenchen privately asked Uncle An to prepare another sum of money to renovate the orphanage.

The condolence activity went smoothly, the children were obedient and enthusiastic, and everyone obediently followed him to play games. Ouyang Chenchen taught the children who could not see to sing and danced to those who could not hear, but the worried scene was cold or out of control. Neither happened.

When they said goodbye to everyone at the end, several children hugged Ouyang Chenchen's leg and clamored for the big brother to accompany them for a while longer.Ouyang Chenchen smiled helplessly, discussed with the program team, and stayed for a while longer.

But after the process was over, Ouyang Chenchen didn't know what else to do with everyone. He had an idea and called everyone together to test the children's learning results just now.Whichever sings and dances best, Ouyang Chenchen will give them a small gift on the spot.

A tall, chubby little girl had a loud singing voice. Although she didn't have those professional skills to embellish her, her clear and clear voice was conveyed in a simple way, which moved everyone's hearts instead.

Ouyang Chenchen smiled, knelt down and took the chubby girl's hand and asked softly, "What gift do you want?"

"I like big brother, I want to be big brother's little bride." The little fat girl shouted without hesitation, her tone full of pride.

Tong Yan Wuji amused all the adults present, and the director of the show did not expect to be able to create such an effect, so he quickly signaled the location host to talk more about this topic.

The host hurried over and smiled and asked, "My kid, why do you like big brother Ouyang Chenchen? Have you heard of his name before?"

"His voice is nice and gentle. Big brother is a good man." The little chubby girl said with a smile, her gray eyes looked in Ouyang Chenchen's direction but had no focus.

"It turns out that I like brother Ouyang Chenchen's voice. After that, can I give you the album of my brother's singing?" The host laughed, patted the little fat girl's head kindly, and saw her nodded blankly.

Ouyang Chenchen is a little dazed, the image he imagined in the mind of a child who can't see the world at all is the simplest and the most real.There is no difference between rich and poor, good or bad, beautiful or ugly, only good or bad.

Even the simplest compliment can move his heart far more than the various compliments he has heard, and it can also make him more ashamed and uneasy.

He thought it was a good thing the children couldn't see him, otherwise he might not have had the courage to continue standing in front of them and pretending to be himself.

"So cute." Ouyang Chenchen smiled, and finally kissed the little chubby girl lightly on the cheek, in exchange for the little chubby girl's silly and happy smile.

The show was over, Ouyang Chenchen sat in the car with his head against the glass and waited for Uncle An to make the final finishing touches, and then set off for the next announcement.

He was still reminiscing about the child's simple "good person" just now, and then he fell into confusion, and he didn't know where the definition of a good person came from. How can a person who deceives the world like him be considered a good person?

Now he is asking himself a question more and more often.What exactly is he doing, and what does he want to do?He couldn't think clearly about all this more and more, but he realized more and more clearly that he was not happy now.

He did not regain the long-lost childhood happiness just because he came back to Bi Shaoliang, on the contrary, the more he tried to grab something, the more anxious he became, the more anxious he became, the more futile and fruitless he was.

Perhaps, Bi Shaoliang misread him from the very beginning.He is not an ugly duckling who has been mixed with ducks all the time, he is just an ordinary wild duck, even if he associates with noble swans every day and paints all his feathers white, he is still a wild duck after all, forever and ever Possibly turn into a real swan.

He is tired of flashy entertainment and hypocritical smiles, he wants to stand on a certain height, both in spirit and in action, where he can be free, act recklessly, and live in spite of anyone's strange eyes.

"Chenchen, I've been waiting for a long time." Uncle An got into the car and saw Ouyang Chen lying in the seat without saying a word. Didn't wake up?"

Ouyang Chenchen hurriedly straightened up, and smiled hastily: "It's okay, Uncle An doesn't need to worry about me. I won't get so drunk in the future."

Sometimes, the more untouchable desires are more attractive, the more they are blocked, the more they want to fight with wild animal instincts.

What he wants is far more than what he has now...

Three days later, Ouyang Chenchen sent an application to Stanford University without telling Bi Shaoliang, and even Uncle An knew nothing about the whole matter.

Ouyang Chenchen could almost predict how furious Bi Shaoliang would be when he learned the truth, but he decided that even if he broke up with Bi Shaoliang again, he would not hesitate.

In fact, the relationship between him and Bi Shaoliang has always been on a tightrope, and more and more media and public opinion are doubting the two people's private relationship.According to his current status, I am afraid that if the truth is revealed, he will be cast into hell in an instant.

He is not afraid of all this happening, in fact he has already seen what the real hell looks like.He just knew that Bi Shaoliang would not let this happen, so no matter how glamorous he looked, he was actually just a mouse living in the gutter.

He is already a mature man.More and more often, he began to slowly change a concept, thinking that the so-called love is far less important than the realization of self-worth, and his unconditional attachment and obedience to Bi Shaoliang is also approaching the limit, and there is no further extension. possible.

When he was ready to fight Bi Shaoliang after receiving the admission notice, the prelude to that war started ahead of schedule.

Uncle An invited Ouyang Chenchen to dinner alone on his off day, which can be said to be a miracle that has never happened in 12 years.Ouyang Chenchen sat at the end of the dining table inexplicably, staring at Uncle An who had a gentle and kind face.

"Uncle An, is there something good about this? It's really rare to invite me out for dinner." Ouyang Chenchen sighed with a smile.

Uncle An's eyes darkened, and then he showed a light but helpless smile, and said softly: "Although I think the company will notify you in two days, but it's better for me to personally inform you about our relationship for so many years." .Chenchen, I'm getting old, so I plan to quit working after this month and go back to my hometown to take care of the elderly."

Ouyang Chenchen's smile froze at the corner of his mouth, and he heard Uncle An continue: "Actually, you should be able to notice in the past few years that I can't keep up with many things in work and contact. I'm just taking care of your basic necessities That’s all, the work is done by several other assistants, so after I leave, Jason will take over my previous work, he has always been very capable, I believe you will soon adapt to partnering with him.”

"Why... so suddenly?" Ouyang Chenchen was silent for a long while before speaking out with difficulty.

In theory, of course he can understand Uncle An's thoughts. After all, people with financial conditions hope to enjoy their old age and spend the rest of their lives peacefully.

But because of love, he doesn't want to leave Uncle An. Uncle An is another kind of deep emotional bond to him that is different from Bi Shaoliang. He loves Uncle An, not just talking about it perfunctorily.

"Well...Actually, I've been thinking about it for a while, but I just made up my mind." Uncle An smiled calmly but bitterly.

Ouyang Chenchen looked at the little melancholy hidden in Uncle An's eyes, and at the same time felt a little uneasy: "Uncle An, are you still thinking about Bi Shaoqi's reaction? Does he know that you are going back to your hometown?"

Uncle An was taken aback for a moment, then lowered his head a little dodgingly, and stared at the untouched food in front of him in a daze.

Ouyang Chenchen couldn't help feeling sorry for Uncle An, stretched out his hand to gently cover Uncle An's hand, and held his hand tightly.

Since he visited the oppressive and claustrophobic Bi's house once, he never wanted to visit it a second time.Bi Shaoliang there is more authoritarian than usual, while Bi Shaoqi is a freak, moody and totally bewildering.

But this did not affect his discovery of the little things that happened between Uncle An and Bi Shaoqi, and he could even guess whether the development of the two was going well through Uncle An's expression that day.

Because when Uncle An occasionally talked on the phone, Ouyang Chenchen concluded that Uncle An was in love with his soft tone that he never showed to anyone.He was actually very happy that Uncle An was able to open his heart to find a partner again, but once after Uncle An hung up the phone, Ouyang Chenchen accidentally saw "Master Shaoqi" displayed on the call log and found out that it turned out that Uncle An It was actually acquired by Bi Shaoqi.

He has no prejudice against Bi Shaoqi, so even if Uncle An is really in love with Bi Shaoqi, he will only silently bless the two in his heart.

Now that Uncle An told him to go back to his hometown to take care of the elderly, does that mean that his relationship with Bi Shaoqi is over?Ouyang Chenchen suddenly thought about the same situation waiting for him and Bi Shaoliang, and suddenly felt a little desolate.

"Uncle An, actually I probably guessed the matter between you and Bi Shaoqi." Ouyang Chenchen considered his words: "I really care about you, so can I ask you? You made the decision after breaking up with Bi Shaoqi , or is it because of this decision that you plan to break up with him?"

When Uncle An heard that Ouyang Chenchen confessed that he knew about his private affairs, his eyes widened for a moment of panic, and then he covered his face in a collapsed state, trembling all over.

"Chenchen, you don't understand, the gap between us is too big. The young master is the same age as you, and the same age as my dead son. I am 22 years older than him. I am the one who can really be his father. I How could it be possible for him to see that I am useless when I am old, and serve me with shit and urine when I am very old?"

Ouyang Chenchen was stunned, entangled in Uncle An's painful appearance.Everything is not a problem in front of love, let alone age.It's just that people who really love hard, how can they overcome the fear of faltering in the face of difficulties in fragile love?

"Uncle An, you are still very young, you can't tell your age from your appearance." Ouyang Chenchen persuaded him.

"It's useless to say anything else, the objective facts are there, and no one can escape." Uncle An shook his head in despair: "Bi Shao is right, I can't just focus on the momentary happiness in front of me, I always have to think about two things." Will I be able to go on in the future? Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, and it is better to get out of it as soon as possible before it is too deep, it is much easier than dragging each other down after being unable to extricate ourselves."

"Bi Shaoliang?" Ouyang Chenchen frowned, his heart skipped a beat.What can't extricate themselves and drag each other down?He is showing personal experience, right?What right does he have to comment on other people's affairs?

Uncle An's eyes flickered, and he exhaled softly: "I didn't tell the young master about my departure, and I don't plan to say it. Chenchen, please keep it a secret for me. Young Master Bi promised that he will be responsible for persuading my young master." .”

"Uncle An, it's better not to let outsiders intervene in the affairs between the two of you. Bi Shaoliang will only make the problem more complicated." Ouyang Chenchen was upset.

Uncle An was surprised and puzzled: "Why is Young Master Bi an outsider? He is the eldest brother of the young master. In fact, I am ashamed to see Young Master Bi for doing such foolish things at such a young age. Fortunately, Young Master Bi did not blame me, otherwise I really want to go with the master."

Ouyang Chenchen rubbed his head, knowing that there was no way to reverse the seemingly docile but stubborn Uncle An in terms of the concept of master and servant, so he could only resign himself to his fate and asked, "Uncle An, have you really decided?"

Uncle An nodded sadly, and responded: "Chenchen, you have to take good care of yourself, maybe you won't have the chance to meet again in the future."

"Uncle An..." Ouyang Chenchen was held back by strong reluctance, but he had no position to keep the person in front of him: "In fact, I have always regarded you as my father."

Uncle An's eye circles were also red, he held Ouyang Chenchen's hand tightly, and forced a smile: "Chenchen, I have always taken care of you as a child. Promise me, even if I can't watch by your side in the future You are here, and you want everything to be fine."

"Hmm." Ouyang Chenchen lowered his head, not wanting anyone to see his emotional and embarrassing side.

Uncle An hadn't left City Y yet, but the scandal between Ouyang Chenchen and Uncle An was posted on the covers of various gossip magazines.The photos of Ouyang Chenchen and An Shijun holding hands in the restaurant, accompanied by various sensational titles such as "Forgetful Love", "The King and the Ace Manager", filled the streets and alleys for a while.

Ouyang Chenchen was completely out of anger this time.

His own scandals were not too many, some were suppressed by Bi Shaoliang, and some were self-defeating.He usually maintains a good image in front of the media, and few media use Ouyang Chenchen's name to make a fuss, but this time the photos are really clear, and he can't deny it even if he wants to.

It's not that it can't be explained clearly, it's just that Uncle An wants to leave quietly, so Ouyang Chenchen can only keep silent.What's more, the contents of those scandals were so badly written that Ouyang Chenchen only felt that his originally pure and sincere feelings for Uncle An were ruined and trampled beyond recognition by a group of bastards when he was about to part with Uncle An.

When Bi Shaoliang opened the door, Ouyang Chenchen was arguing with a reporter on the phone in the living room.He saw the gossip magazines on the table, walked over and took out the phone from Ouyang Chenchen, and hung up decisively.

Ouyang Chenchen turned his head angrily, and shouted, "What are you doing?"

"You don't need to respond to this matter, just wait until Uncle An is gone before explaining." Bi Shaoliang said calmly, and put the phone back into the socket.

"You fart! I don't want Uncle An to leave with a homosexual gossip. What's wrong with that? You think it's good when he's gone, anyway, your brother is finally free!" Ouyang Chenchen pushed Bi Shaoliang away, full of Pacing around the room, my heart is full of anger that has nowhere to vent.

Bi Shaoliang had a headache, remained silent for a long while, finally resisted the desire to quarrel and turned back to his room, leaving Ouyang Chenchen alone in the living room.

Ouyang Chenchen felt like his head was going to explode, and he was so agitated by the ensuing chaos, he really hated this circle, hated Bi Shaoliang who was indifferent and selfish, and also hated himself who acquiesced to all evil deeds.

"Bi Shaoliang, I have something to tell you." Ouyang Chenchen pushed open the bedroom door, Bi Shaoliang was changing clothes, and looked at him with his upper body naked.