Deficit

Tu Qianmo was sitting alone in front of the window, holding the hammer and beating the xylophone. The originally clear and bright melody was inexplicably cast with a sad tone.Liu Jie heard a lot of slides in the teacher's music, but when he came to watch it, he was stopped by Nan Jixian.

Tu Qianmo kept knocking until the joints commanded the movement, and his mind was completely blank.

When the teacher is sad, he likes to take out this old piano. This piano was given by Brother Da Mu.When Meng Tongtong left, Mu Chan held his hand and asked him to knock.Things came up little by little when he was a child. He was never a pioneer with extraordinary talents. Fortunately, his mother and father had no time to be disappointed for him.Mu Chan learned the piano, violin, clarinet and xylophone. Mu Chan said that the xylophone sounds the best, so he taught him.It's just that I haven't played it for many years. When I was most sad, I felt better when I tapped it myself.

When the sun goes down little by little, those who are sad know that the most uncomfortable thing is not at dusk, but at four or five o'clock when the sun is still hot, it is hard to bear, and the sun sets, looking forward to sleeping and waking up, and it will be tomorrow. After waking up, I think about the busy day and there will be no time to think about it, but at four or five o'clock, I will be boiled, and every time I get to this point, I feel inexplicably anxious.

The doorbell rang and the door opened.Liu Jie saw the person at the door, who was so breathtakingly beautiful, Mei Sheng. "Teacher is in a bad mood today, so be careful."

"Thank you, Brother Jie." Mei Sheng took off his shoes respectfully, revealing his spotless white socks.He wore a pair of blue trousers, which were well washed, but clean.It is a pity that the pants hang on the feet.Tu Qianmo's piano sounded hurriedly, and Mei Sheng knew that he was playing the piano again, and he was in a bad mood.It's just that he didn't have the right to speak here, so he cleaned his hands, lit incense, and knelt on the side of the road all the way, listening to the sound of Tu Qianmo knocking on the wooden sticks.

Tu Qianmo Xu was really tired, and came in after knocking for a while, but he was so distraught that he didn't realize that there were too many people kneeling, and when he walked over in a daze, he bumped into Mei Sheng directly, and Mei Sheng tried hard to use his hands Then Xiang Hui apologized again and again, "I'm sorry, Mei Sheng deserves to die, Mei Sheng deserves to die."

Tu Qianmo immediately held his hand, "Don't you know it's hot!" Although the words were reprimands, they meant love, and Mei Sheng was startled.

Tu Qianmo said to himself, "Are you crazy? Use your own hands as an incense burner!"

Meisheng's shoulders trembled slightly, he was really afraid that Tu Qianmo would dislike him, "Teacher Tu said that if the incense ashes are scattered, I won't be allowed to come."

Tu Qianmo frowned, Mei Sheng was like a moon, thinner than paper, and lonely.He thought that he really shouldn't talk too much, it's rare that the teacher is willing to say a few words today, Meisheng blamed himself, there was a kind of seductive shame in the corners of his eyes, Tu Qianmo stood there blankly, "Did I say that?"

"You, that's what you said before." Mei Sheng whispered.

Tu Qianmo looked at the old dull gray spots on his hands, "These are burnt every month."

"If it wasn't for Senior Brother Hao, Mei Sheng's life would be lost, let alone his hands." Mei Sheng said softly.

"So, I'm really so unreasonable." Tu Qianmo said to himself.

Meisheng became anxious, "Teacher, please don't say that. Meisheng is a humble person, you and the senior brothers can allow me to hold incense and pray for senior brother Hao, which is already the greatest gift to Meisheng. What's more , such a little spark is not hot at all, compared to—— Mei Sheng, damn it, Mei Sheng shouldn't think about such a despicable thing."

Tu Qianmo took the half stick of incense in his hand and pinched it off with his hand, "Teacher!" Mei Sheng called out anxiously.

Tu Qianmo looked at him, "Didn't you say it's not hot? Why should I be afraid if I touch it?"

"That's different, Mei Sheng is a lowly person." Mei Sheng whispered.

Tu Qianmo had never looked at him directly, since the boy was sent to the group tuner, everyone was amazed at his face, and even some trainers saw him at first sight and said it was a bad picture. His face made people want to kill him just by looking at him.Do everything possible to kill him, like smashing the most beautiful peony flowers into pulp.The second time Tu Qianmo saw him, the boy's back was kneeling with a thick candle in his mouth as a candlestick. A group of rich men and a bunch of playmates threw cannons at his mouth for fun. It will explode, and it was named Blossom on the Court for this.Tu Qianmo pulled Mei Sheng aside, "Are you molesting? You're just making fun of yourself! You're not worthy of being a sex teacher at all!" Tu Qianmo extinguished the candle in his mouth with a whip, and only said one Word, "Get out!"

The third time, the fourth time, each time was more extreme, each time was more disgusting, even Tu Qianmo couldn't figure out why people's creativity was manifested in torturing another person.However, if you like me, he doesn't have to worry about it.

The last time Tu Qianmo rescued him, he was suffocated to the limit, Tu Qianmo remembered asking him why, he thought for a long time, but couldn't even come up with an answer.

Mei Sheng looked at him, "Teacher is a good person. All the people have helped me in the past, just to have me. But, Teacher, Brother Hao, and Brother Jie, they have nothing to do with me. Mei Sheng has experienced so much. Man, there is no one better than a teacher."

Tu Qianmo smiled wryly, "What's so good about me. You trust me with all your heart, but I will only torture you and ruin your sincerity."

Meisheng shook her head, "No. The teacher is kind to me in his heart, I know. I don't live up to it. You saved me from this circle. I should go. Go as clean as possible. The farther the better. But I I came back again, and I was made like that later. At that time, I didn’t even dare to think about what my future life would be like, and I didn’t know who would save me. Sometimes I would rather die than miss my grandma. If it weren’t for you, Teacher Redeem me out—and, obviously, you are a slave who signed a lifelong agreement. You violated the rules of the circle by doing so. Meisheng knows that you have suffered a lot for this. However, you never said a word, and never said anything to you again. I'm pretending. The teacher is a good person, and you don't need me to be grateful for your kindness. That feeling—" Mei Sheng raised her head, "It's probably like the crops in the field have been dry for a long time and then it rained. It is not rare for the peasants to thank him at all."

Tu Qianmo felt a bitterness in his heart, he really couldn't bear to be overestimated and admired by others.He did S just because he stumbled into this circle for a while. He may have saved and helped many people, but that was only because of his bottom line.He is such a man who is like a car with manting arms, knowing that it is impossible, but still stubborn because of some inexplicable reasons, Mei Sheng is probably the one he hurt, he hurt Lu You in self-reflection, hurt Mei Sheng but didn't know it.Lu You had said many times that he was not good to Jian Xun and not good to Mei Sheng.Thinking about it carefully, he is not good to A Jie.Such an independent person serves with the most careful humility in front of him. A disciple is not like a disciple, and a servant is not like a servant.Even Pu Yang, who has always been the most beloved, would beat and tease while admonishing him, just that time forcing him to endure and not let him relieve himself, it was no longer like teaching an apprentice.As for Tong Tong, he really couldn't think of what kind of torture Tong Tong had been tortured by him. When Tong Tong left, he would not bring any hatred towards him, but left him with eternal regrets, and he would never have the chance to make up for Tong Tong. It's gone.What about South?If I hadn't forced him out of that incident back then, would such a person have bowed down at my feet?Tu Qianmo didn't know.He really has no idea.

"Have you been returned again?"

In fact, Lu You was right, he was returned.Mom doesn't want it, and dad doesn't want it. When I grow up, I finally fall in love with someone, and I am nothing in the eyes of Tong Tong.Later, it was Mu Chan. In fact, he didn't know how he felt about Mu Chan. If he couldn't tolerate his implicit suppression and subtle control of himself, in fact, it wouldn't matter if he lived with him for a lifetime.

What about Yuu?Can't help but like it.This is what I said.

I can't help myself how much I love him.When he is not around, he will think, and when he is around, he will be involved. When he doesn’t love you, you feel melancholy, when he loves you, you worry, and he is the one who finally broke up. Melon, fool!I was stunned at that point and didn't know how to react. How to react was the real thing.What a world this is!

"Teacher, are you sad?" Mei Sheng asked in a low voice.

Tu Qianmo woke up, "Have you ever loved someone?"

Mei Sheng blushed and nodded.

"What's it like to love someone?" Tu Qianmo asked.

Mei Sheng shook her head, "I don't know."

"You don't know either." Tu Qianmo was a little disappointed.

"Teacher doesn't think Mei Sheng's humble words, Mei Sheng can talk about it." Mei Sheng said.

"Yes." Tu Qianmo agreed.

"The teacher asked me before why I entered this circle. I said it was for money and to treat my grandma. This is one of them, but there is another thing. I like a girl. Love, love. Love that girl. She was sold into the water town, and she wanted to go out with all her heart. I wanted to take her out, so I called her family behind my back behind the back of the village people, but I didn't expect her family to sell her. Her father not only I didn’t save her, and I didn’t even admit that I had her as a daughter. I helped her find her good friend, and her good friend found a security guard to strengthen her courage, but she was arrested as soon as she ran away. This incident caused a lot of trouble at the time It was very big, and she couldn’t bear it, so she told me. Shuixiang is a very closed village. Grandma is old and weak, and I can’t do anything. The village takes good care of us, but I actually help outsiders come to each other for blind dates. I couldn’t stay in the village any longer. The girl knew I was going to leave, so she begged me with her limped leg, and said she hoped I would call the police for her. Later, when I was working in a club, everyone said that I was I also said that they all laughed at me, no wonder I was born to be ridden without bones, and I still wanted to help her when she betrayed me. But I liked her at that time, and I wanted to help her call the police, but I didn’t expect my grandma to go to the police first. Got it, she said that the people in the village took us well, and everyone would go to jail if this incident happened, and we can't do things without conscience. I thought about it for a long time, but finally I couldn't help her. Later, she really escaped, I came out to do cleaning, I was in the same club as me, and later, I was a waiter, then a princess, then a public relations, and finally got a red card. I didn’t do M at that time, I was just a waiter. After she became popular, she always Instigated me, even asked me to kneel down the broken wine bottle of the customer. But I always felt that I was sorry for her, she clearly believed me so much and hoped that I would go to the police to rescue her. Then one time, the customer who came wanted to play SM, She's a pretty ruthless woman, as long as the customer is happy, she will take anything. That customer, play very perverted. Poke lettuce, cherry tomatoes and banana segments into it, and let her use it to squeeze the condensed milk into it Make it into a salad; then it got worse, they stuffed ping pong balls into her, and then competed with chopsticks to see who could get it out. She refused, but the head waiter didn't get along with her, and he insisted on using the club's reputation to pressure her not to let us help her-"

Tu Qianmo looked at him and said, "Then you are going to help her?"

Mei Sheng said, "Mei Sheng is a bitch, those guests said they didn't have a good time, if I want to save someone, I will do it myself. I hesitated for a while, and she yelled at me, saying you are still a man! I also felt that I had no guts, so I came in Yes, so what if I can’t save her, I agreed. That was the first time I was molested by Hou Xi—”

Tu Qianmo said, "This is not prostitution, this is abuse."

Mei Sheng said, "Whatever is fine. It happened that grandma needed money for medical treatment, so I did it."

"What happened later?" Tu Qianmo asked.

"Later, many masters changed." Mei Sheng said.

Tu Qianmo said, "I mean, what happened to that woman after that?"

"She followed a Shanxi coal boss, and then disappeared inexplicably. I don't know what happened." Mei Sheng said.

"Dead?" Tu Qianmo asked.

Mei Sheng nodded.

"Then do you still love her?" Tu Qianmo asked.

"At the beginning of love, otherwise I wouldn't be so stupid. Later, I felt that she didn't care who I was at all. Thinking of the past, I also felt that she was not worthy of love. Later, I still love. If you love someone, how can you divide it? Is it worth it? But now, there is no love anymore. It’s not because she’s gone, it’s just that when that feeling is gone, there is nothing.”