The King's Altar

Yuan Mingqing was awake with his eyes open, and after another sunrise and sunset, he did not wake up. The wound was inevitably inflamed. He had been in a low-grade fever for a long time, and his consciousness was getting worse. He was more confused and less awake. He didn't even bother to turn his eyeballs. He stared in one direction for a long time, but he couldn't see a real place.Loved ones, owed ones, things that are reluctant to part with, hovering back and forth, over and over in front of the eyes.

He left his home in a small town at the age of 13 and went to a boarding school in a big city. His mother didn't love him, but she was so hopeful that he would become a success. She spent all her savings to give him the best education.The more he gets together with his relatives, the more deeply he is attached to the so-called "home". The meaning of life in his heart is, after all, to run around for his family.And the same-sex love came too inexplicably, and there was no home at the end, he regarded it as a young sweetness, that's all.

No, Belle impulsively decided his future with a joke, he was afraid.He is not yet an adult, the world is full of chaos, he doesn't understand it, all living beings, he has never seen it before, he broke his promise, took the exam and went to a far place, avoiding that unavoidable relationship, pushing away the infatuated tree of his childhood sweetheart, he Think, go out, there is still a large forest.

For the same love, he is gentle and reserved, while Bei Le is straightforward and strong, he can give everything, he can condescend, but it is a pity that he just escapes, pretends to be stupid, and plays ambiguously.Obviously in love so hard to part with, on the surface they are just friends, good friends, ambiguous good friends at best.Until an opportunity fell from the sky, allowing them to encounter life and death, and asked him to dig out his heart to take a look. It turned out that he was surrounded by forests, and he had already hanged himself on the tree of infatuation.

Holding the heart of death, he bit his wrist and fed the blood to Bei Le.Later, he went through the dangerous period and lay on the hospital bed, thinking about life for the first time since then, and only then did he realize the preciousness of life.From then on, whether there is love or not is not important, some are unwilling and unbalanced——

"How can you be with someone else?"

"Why not? Do I have a definite relationship with you?"

"I gave you my life, how could you not know that I love you?"

"I don't know, I can't guess you."

"Okay, I'll tell you now, break up with Luo Mosheng."

"Why do I have to do what you say? One thing is another thing! You save me, and I will repay you in other ways!"

"What can you give me in return? I just want you!"

"I didn't ask you to save me!"

……

"Go abroad with me, and come back after I finish my studies."

"I can't speak bird language, so I don't want to go."

"Okay, my lord, pack up the materials and go through the formalities together."

"I'm not going anywhere!"

"Beile, I'm missing too many credits, and I've lost the opportunity to study further. I'll go back there for a year of study, and I'll come back after I graduate with a master's degree. It won't be long. You can accompany me."

"I didn't beg you to waste your time on me!"

……

"What kind of marriage is it? Interesting? Forget it, let's get married for fun." When Bai Le put on the ring, his teasing words were a little choked up, and then he lowered his eyes, and a drop of water fell on the back of his hand—"I willing."

It wasn't long before they quarreled and Belle put away the ring and never wore it again.

"Yuan Mingqing, why did you withhold my ID and not let me go out to find a job?"

"Yuan Mingqing, why do you restrict me from making friends?"

"Yuan Mingqing, my sister sent me the money, you have no right to hide it!"

"Yuan Mingqing, it's been two months since you locked me in the house..."

"The life of two people is like drinking water, knowing whether you are warm or not, everyone says hello, only I know, baby, you should see a psychiatrist."

"Mingqing, I love you, deeper than love, but not love anymore."

"It's not that I don't work hard and my love can't come back. At that time, I will do whatever you want me to do..."

"Xiao Ming, let's break up..."

"Yuan Mingqing, stay away from my boyfriend, don't force me to beat you!"

"Damn it, you're so badass, if you play with my lover again, I'll never end with you!"

"Xiao Ming, I really want to seriously look for a personal life, can you not pick on me?"

"Hey... I'm going to open an online store and stay at home. As you wish, I won't meet many people, and there's nowhere to attract bees and butterflies."

"Xiao Ming, don't touch Feng Qu, I'm serious."

"Darling, let's spend our whole lives clinging to each other until we grow old. I was forced to be incapable of love by you."

Two people can't tell who is more selfish than the other, and they both have an account in their hearts, counting their own contributions, spreading the other's disappointment, and neither will let the other.

A good relationship has reached the point where there is no turning back. Today, he looks calm and relieved on the surface, but once he thinks of Bei Le, the knot in his heart cannot be untied.

It's not worth it, nothing is worth sacrificing your life for.

In accordance with Li Wudi's auspicious words, at dusk, it began to rain lightly—or light snow, so small that it fell on the container and could not even knock the slightest sound. The two people in the box did not know that it was raining outside. It was Li Wudi's soul that was wandering in a dream but not a dream, and there was a "tick" in his ear.

In his fluttering and illusory vision, he vaguely saw Li Wudi lying on the edge of the container, clasping his hands to catch the raindrops falling down the cracks.

The rain was too light to catch it at all. There was only a small groove on the edge of the gap. When it was full of water, a drop fell, and each drop had to wait for a few seconds.Li Wudi lay there skinny, his dusty and dirty long eyelashes trembling slightly under the almost submerged light, he was staring at the water in his palm with all his attention, his expression was so pious that he seemed to be worshiping a god or Buddha.

Until it was completely dark, and it was hard to see whether it was full of water, Li Wudi exhausted all his strength and crawled towards Yuan Mingqing, groping to put his hands to the other's mouth, without words or words. Power words.

Bitter-cold and unusually sweet rainwater flowed down his dry throat. This mouthful of precious water made him wake up a little bit. He raised his hand with difficulty and touched Li Wudi's face in the darkness. Silly The corners of the boy's mouth turned up vaguely, as if he was smiling, scheming and silly.

Yuan Mingqing closed his eyes, the heart-piercing guilt made him short of breath-the candy was gone.

On the morning of the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, the light snow that had fallen slowly all night stopped, and the snow melted, soaking the dead leaves in the courtyard of the King's Altar.People from the Yuan family came from a small town with no information, crying hoarsely.

Jiang Zhaowei stood outside the yard, holding the railing with both hands, looking in eagerly, his face covered with tears, pale with cold.

Jiang Zhaofan stood behind him, touched his head, and pinched his thin shoulders, sighing and unable to comfort him—my younger brother has always been a little rascal, and he has done it before, rolling around, crying, and dying, but he has never been like this, expressionless, Tears are falling down.After a while, Jiang Zhaofan persuaded in a low voice: "Xiaowei, what can you see standing here? Go in and say goodbye."

"I absconded in fear of crime, how dare I say goodbye?" Jiang Zhaowei lowered his head and wiped away tears indiscriminately.

"You're right, and it's brother's fault if you make a mistake, okay? Don't cry."

"Brother, they all said that it was right to call the police. I know they were coaxing me... yes, yes, but Ming and Qing didn't come back... just disappeared, it's all my fault..." Jiang Zhaowei cried I was speechless, my hands were covered with dust from the railing, and I wiped a cat's face with three and two strokes.

Jiang Zhaofan sighed and sighed, he didn't know how to deal with the life-threatening entanglement of helping others, and while he was entangled in his heart, he anxiously planned to take his younger brother who caused the trouble and escape from the wrong place as soon as possible. It is not too much to say that he fled in fear of crime.

On the sixth day, a handful of water and six candies failed to regain Yuan Mingqing's consciousness. After the night passed, he did not wake up.His injury was too serious, and he didn't undergo any treatment. He was able to last until the sixth day because he overdrawn the energy accumulated in his usually excellent physique.

Li Wudi pushed him feebly, his panic-stricken cries were barely audible: "Mingqing, answer me, answer me...Mingqing...I'm scared..."

Yuan Mingqing could hear it, but he couldn't wake up. Lying in the ruins where he was about to die, his hope of being rescued was on the verge of shattering. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't keep his eyelids open.

As deep as despair is, so is the desire to survive. He wants to live, wants to live very much!Unfortunately, I can't help myself!

For no reason, I suddenly remembered a story I read when I was a child. It said that there was a peasant woman in the village, and her neighbor had a fat baby. The two families were not familiar with each other. When they met, they nodded and smiled. Do not care.

One day, a fire broke out, and the fire quickly spread to several farmhouses. The farmer and her children escaped from the house, and heard the cries of children from the neighbor's house that was on fire.She rushed in and searched frantically for sounds in the house that was spitting out flames everywhere, and almost lost her life. The moment she took out the fat baby, the house collapsed into ruins behind her.

The fat baby has become her lifeline, and she misses him even more than her own son when there is good food and drink at home.

For a moment, it suddenly became clear.

It's like the awakening at the dying moment. He is such a person who is afraid of death. Before the bleeding that year, he loved Bei Le purely. Afterwards, he loved not only people, but also the life he gave subconsciously.How unpredictable are human feelings, love one second, hate the next second, not to mention friendship that has experienced fate?

If time goes back, he will say to his bloody, petty and dead-headed self: "It's not love between you, don't be like this; even if it's still love, don't be like this, don't be like this..."

I don't know how many times he wandered back and forth in the gate of hell, stuffed his mouth with something soft and sticky, with a starchy taste, instinctively urged him to swallow, like rain after a long time, greedily took one mouthful after another, irrationally thinking about it I can't tell if it's a dream or reality.

After eating more than a dozen bites in a row, he heard Li Wudi moaning like a mosquito: "I'm sorry, Ming and Qing... no more..."

The unknown food seems to be able to suppress the floating soul, and transmit fresh power to the limbs and brain. He gathered his strength to squeeze out two words from his lips, and asked, "... what?"

Li Wudi was too tired to lift his head, lying on his side, explaining intermittently: "... bread, I tried... took two bites, waited for a long time, no, nothing, no... poison... just... bite Rotten... I've fed you..."