【Rebirth】I'm so fragrant with the bamboo horse who hates and fears

[With such feelings, at first I hated myself more than anyone else, but in the end, I still accepted it. 】

In the light and shadow, the fingers were so white that they were almost transparent.

[I also fantasized that you like me, and I also fantasized about being together desperately...but I just thought about it, after all, giving you freedom and making you happy is more than anything else.

I don't want to burden you.

Even if we are not together, we can live a good life.

I am very happy, Xiao Cheng, to walk with you for such a long time.I just accidentally lost my way, and this life is coming to an end.

I hope you will remember me after you feel sorry for me, but continue your life, live according to your destiny, don't let my leaving become your burden, burden, you know, I am most afraid of troublesome others.

Just by accident.

If there is a next life...]

Shen Yan paused for a long time.

Then I continued to write, [I still want to be your elder brother, I don’t want to miss any track of your life, I want to take care of you and be with you.

If I'm still tempted...

That's normal too.

I like you, since I later accepted that I am gay, in my heart, it is a matter of course, I just want to be happy.

Live better.

——Brother Shen]

It wasn't a long letter, but Ouyang Cheng looked at the man, lying silently on the hospital bed alone, writing and writing.

He didn't know how long it had passed. There were no windows in this ward, and day and night could not be distinguished. It was just the cold light that permeated people all the year round.

In the later dream, Shen Yan left the hospital, he went to the nurse to get back his suicide note, lit a fire, and burned it to ashes.

Nothing was left.

Ouyang Cheng woke up in endless sourness, someone wiped away his tears.

With clear vision, he saw Shen Yan's haggard face.

"Brother Shen..." His voice was unbelievably hoarse.

"Wake up, do you want a drink of water?" Joy appeared on Shen Yan's face, he went to pour a glass of water for Ouyang Cheng, and drank it slowly for him.

Ouyang Cheng wanted to sit up and hug his brother Chen, but the injury on his shoulder was so painful that he couldn't move, and his brother Chen found out his intentions, so he escorted him back to the bed.

"The wound is infected, and part of the rotten flesh has been dug out. Now your shoulder is a bloody hole in the NPC, and you can't move at all." Shen Yan's complexion was pale, like a piece of cold jade, his eyes were black and blue, Protruding from the blue and black stubble, he was dejected and handsome.

His tone was calm, as if he found Ouyang Cheng who was unconscious that day and trembling with fear, he was a false bubble.

"sorry that I had you worried…"

"..." Shen Yan's long eyelashes drooped, trembling in the silence, he just touched the back of the other's hand lightly, "It's good to come back, and take care of your wounds."

I can't bear to be harsh.

"Well, did Brother Shen find a Li police officer?"

"He was the one who brought me to find you. He's all right. He's back home in an emergency. Don't worry."

Only then did Ouyang Cheng feel completely relieved, because he was too tired, he quickly fell asleep again.

Sitting alone, Shen Yan finally relaxed. He was very tired, but he couldn't bear to close his eyes.

He didn't want to experience Ouyang Cheng not being in his line of sight for a moment.

...

Earn money, live your own life, how you want to be happy, Tang Yu has never been entangled in anything.

But Ouyang Yue's words that day still caused him to fall into a moment of entanglement.

"I have done a lot of immoral things, but I have never been sorry to you, Ayu..."

Later Ouyang Yue said again, "Can you be nice to me... just a little..."

He sneered at him then, and blurted out, "Are you worthy?"

Tang Yu still remembers that the eyes of the other party were dimmed for a moment, and he stared blankly for a long time before he let out a slow oh.

Then nod.

It doesn't seem impossible to be nice to him.

After all, he had never met such an obedient person.

He was born with a tendency to believe in abuse, only Ouyang Cheng endured it, and the more he abused, the more he let go, the more he felt extremely happy...

Tang Yu himself raised the corners of his lips subconsciously. He had to admit that the other party's thick-skinned and extremely cheap attitude towards him made him have no sadistic thoughts...

Tang Xinlan has invited countless psychiatrists to treat her illness, and here she sees the light of day.

A shake S is to shake an M.

Tang Yu pushed away the handsome boy who threw himself into his arms, "Go to Jianrang's place to get the check, and you don't need to come here in the future."

After spending a few minutes thinking about that person, and then recalling the past, he has no desire for the person in his arms who keeps fawning on him.

"Mr. Tang...I can..."

"Is it okay to draw the skin to pieces?" Tang Yu asked the boy standing in front of him.

The boy shuddered, then nodded.

"To burn the candle, you need wax oil..." Tang Yu's smile widened, "I won't touch you, stay in the basement, there is no light, and I won't let you release... a few hours, a few days... it all depends on my mood."

The boy left with a pale face.

It's useless, he Tang Yu had to admit, only Ouyang Yue could bear it.

Later, when he opened the door and saw the light, he closed his eyes and put his face in his palm, please... do it!

...

Ouyang Cheng called Li Yutang.

"My father has died in peace." Li Yutang's voice was filled with grief, but he was relieved, "He left me a suicide note, knowing that the career I chose was dangerous, but he was proud of me, and he hoped that I In the future life, you can be happy, healthy and joyful.”

"My father, he still wants me to apologize. He said he's sorry. He and my dad have experienced too much. They finally got together, so they always favor my dad." Li Yutang laughed lightly over there. , "He let me and my dad live a good life, even if he leaves, he still loves us."

"Look, I'm actually the symbol of their love, my name is Li Yutang, Li Yu and Jin Tang..."

Ouyang Cheng hung up the phone, he looked out the window, the ice and snow melted, the sun was rare, the pale golden snow was as illusory as a dream.

"What are you looking at so preoccupied?" Shen Yan's voice sounded.

"Brother Shen..." Ouyang Cheng gently hugged his brother Shen's waist, it was too thin and too thin, sticking to his body, he could smell the smell of medicine and disinfectant.

Not just taking care of him, but also Shen Yan himself.Ouyang clarified that not long after waking up, Shen Yan also fell ill and lost fluids for several days.

Ouyang Cheng's health is good, he recovered quickly, his face gradually turned rosy, comparing the two, Shen Yan turned paler.

"The Li police officer I met, he told me the story of his two fathers..." Ouyang Cheng closed his eyes, and he briefly told Shen Yan the story of the two people, "Although I feel very happy, but inexplicably I feel sore..."

"Are you afraid that I will leave before you?"

"I hope so." Ouyang Cheng clasped his hand, "I hope Brother Shen will leave first on that day."

Shen Yan just stroked his hair, there were many things in his eyes, but he wouldn't say them all, "Let it be, eat, I'll do it."