scum of rebirth

After all, Bai Bin still felt sorry for Ding Hao. He watched Ding Hao depressed for a few days, fearing that he would be bored, so he bought a golden retriever dog for Ding Hao to raise.

It was a dog raised by his sister Bai Lu. Bai Lu was going to the military academy, and before she left, she asked Bai Bin to take care of it for two days.Bai Lu adored her brother and her pet dog since she was a child, and only her brother took care of the little girl.

The golden retriever named Charlie was 3 years old, and when he was lively and active, he threw Ding Hao down the first time he saw Ding Hao.

Ding Hao was thrown on the carpet by the golden retriever Charlie, and he couldn't escape even rolling and crawling. He was fucked three times by Bai Bin yesterday, and his waist was almost broken.Bai Bin watched from the side, seeing that Ding Hao had become more lively, and there was a hint of approval in his eyes.

Ding Hao's nose was almost crooked, Bai Bin didn't stop bullying him, he even got a dog to bully him!

But soon, Ding Hao's expression changed again. He looked at the huge adult golden retriever, and then at Bai Bin, trembling with fright: "Bai, Bai Bin! Could it be that you got it? think……"

"Huh?" Bai Bin sat on the side and put down the lunch box containing some snacks. "I'll take you out to play today. I see you've been bored for several days. It's sunny outside. It's a pity not to go out."

Ding Hao's Adam's apple rolled up and down a few times with difficulty, the eyes he looked at Bai Bin could be said to be terrified, and his tone changed: "What?! Still, have to go outside—!!"

Bai Bin also felt that something was wrong. He looked at Ding Hao holding the vest on his chest and looked at him and Jin Mao in horror. Suddenly, he felt that there was a big misunderstanding in this matter, so he hurriedly explained: "Ding Hao, it's not what you want. As I said, I just, forget it... you will change your clothes later and come with me."

Ding Hao glared at him, "Don't think so!" Although he doesn't have many principles, he is still very principled on this point, and he's not that bastard Li Shengdong, no, even that bastard Li Shengdong can't do this kind of thing!

Bai Bin carried Ding Hao out. Ding Hao had a cloth bag around his neck, which contained a few boxes of snacks. The golden retriever Charlie who was following behind carried a net bag with a football in his mouth. Charlie flicked his big fluffy tail happily. .

Ding Hao had to admit that the process of playing with the golden retriever Charlie was very pleasant.This dog likes football the most. When Ding Hao was kicking the football back and forth on the grass, it happily followed him around. When it caught the football, it ran desperately towards Bai Bin, and put the football on the ground with a flattering face. Under Bai Bin's feet, he rubbed his mouth against Bai Bin again, and the big tail flicked.

Ding Hao was having a good time, and asked Bai Bin to play football with him. He just said something casually, but he didn't expect Bai Bin to take off his suit jacket and play football with him.

The game of two people and a dog is nothing more than passing and intercepting the ball. When Ding Hao first discovered that Bai Bin was playing football, he was so handsome.Even if it's a white shirt and suit pants, it doesn't look obtrusive, but has a kind of... Bai Bin's charm.

Bai Bin rolled up the sleeves of his shirt, his slightly disheveled hair looked much more lively. He gave Ding Hao a bottle of water and opened a bottle himself.The two sat side by side on the grass, chatting casually, "Why don't you play basketball anymore? I remember when you were in high school, you seemed to like basketball more."

Ding Hao almost choked on the water, coughed and said, "I, I can't be nostalgic! I liked playing football when I was young..."

Bai Bin snorted, looked at Ding Hao's turned head and those slightly pink ears, and thoughtfully did not ask any further questions.

Later, when Bai Lu came back from the military academy, the little girl's respect for her brother was almost the number one fan. Ding Hao finally knew where the golden retriever Charlie's flattery came from.

With the camera behind her back, Bai Lu took pictures of them.The little girl was very serious about taking pictures. Her brother pointed at Ding Hao, so she took a picture of Ding Hao. Her brother didn't speak, so she kept taking pictures of him.

Ding Hao had a great time playing with the golden retriever Charlie, and he smiled brightly. He had slightly longer hair and a football beside him, exactly the same as when Bai Bin saw him.

Seeing Bai Bin standing there in a daze, Ding Hao threw the football at hand to him, and said with a smile, "Here! Play with Charlie for me, I'm tired, I have to lie down and rest for a while."

Bai Bin took the football, looked at Ding Hao for a while, and said, "Okay." Suddenly, an unspeakable emotion spread in his heart. He remembered that when he saw Ding Hao many years ago, the child seemed to be playing with others. Football, holding his football baby like not letting go.At that time, Bai Bin thought, if one day Ding Hao could hand over his precious football to him and let him keep it for him, then he would have trusted him, right?

Bai Bin thought, he didn't want to indulge himself to possess Ding Hao like this again, he wanted to have a good and serious talk about the future with Ding Hao.His future with him.

The golden retriever has already run over excitedly, barking, and the hair on its body emits a faint golden light in the sun, which is as dazzling and warm as the weather that day.

Later, Ding Hao died.He was only 23 years old, so young, the car that fell down in the snowy night was hit in a mess, and he was covered in blood.

Bai Bin looked at it for a long time before he recognized that it was Ding Hao.In other words, he didn't want to admit that his Ding Hao could no longer speak, could no longer make trouble with him, and smiled at him.Bai Bin was in the snow, carefully wiping Ding Hao's blood-stained face. His hands were steady, but gradually he began to shake, as if he couldn't help it. His eyes were sore, and his heart was dug out What was gone, it was cold, and the place in the heart might not be able to be pieced together again.

On the day Ding Hao died, Bai Lu cried very sadly, she cried and asked Bai Bin to let Ding Hao go.

With a trembling voice, Bai Bin asked Dong Fei to send Bai Lu back.

He couldn't let go, he couldn't let Ding Hao go, just like he couldn't let go of himself.

Bai Bin looked up at the sky, and the snow was falling. He kept looking at it until his shoulders were covered with snow.I heard that the soul weighs 21 grams. Is his Ding Hao floating quietly in the night sky at this moment?Can Ding Hao also see the tears welling up in his eyes at this moment...

Ding Hao, do you know that I am pieced together, my heart is like this, and so is my life.

Nothing is complete without you.

After Ding Hao left, Bai Bin worked continuously for three months and refused to rest.He devoted all his time to work, kept himself too busy to think about anything, and had little time to eat and sleep.

The doctor sent by Mr. Bai said that if this continues, Bai Bin will probably be useless.The Bai family couldn't sit idly by. They came to see Bai Bin, persuaded him, and even begged him, but seeing the haggard Bai Bin who had lost his former splendor, they couldn't say any more.

When Bai Lu came, the little girl wore a plain white corsage for Ding Hao, and she never took it off, even her eyes were red.She was sad for Ding Hao, and even more so for her brother.Ding Hao left, and her brother didn't seem to care about anything anymore.She watched Bai Bin bury his head in his work, watched him busy day and night, as if he was trying to find something to support himself, more like looking for the meaning of living in the end.

Bai Lu saw that there were pinholes on her brother's arm, and when she lifted up her sleeves to look at it, she was shocked by the large traces of pinholes.Her tears couldn't help rolling in circles, she was so choked up that she could hardly speak, "Brother, brother, what are you..."

"It's just a few injections of nutritional supplements." Bai Bin put down his sleeves to cover up those pinhole marks. If it wasn't for this, he might not be able to hold on long ago.Bai Bin said lightly, "Bai Lu, you go back, I have to continue working."

"Brother, you can't go on like this anymore!" Bai Lu pulled Bai Bin up and walked into the cubicle, where Mr. Bai forcibly put a bed for Bai Bin to rest.Bai Lu pushed her brother over, let him sit down, and took out a stack of photos from her pocket. She bit her lip and stuffed the photos into Bai Bin's hand, then turned and left.

It was a photo left by Ding Hao, which Bai Lu took with a camera on her back that day.In the photo, Ding Hao and his golden retriever Charlie were sitting together on the green grass. Ding Hao stumbled with a smile and rolled on the grass with grass clippings on his hair, smiling brightly.In one of them, Bai Bin stood not far away and turned his back to make a phone call, while Ding Hao was sitting on the ground, playing with the big golden retriever's paw, while secretly looking at him...

Bai Bin caressed the photo, and suddenly the corners of his eyes were a little wet. He felt very tired and wanted to close his eyes and sleep for a while.

Bai Bin knew that Ding Hao was capricious, with a bit of childishness, he taught Ding Hao hand in hand, but he wanted to keep Ding Hao's temperament in his heart, so that Ding Hao became more and more dependent on him. rely on him.

If something like that happened to Ding Hao and such an irreversible result, it was mostly because of him——because of his favor, and also because of his refusal to let go.

"Fool, I won't force you anymore..." From the day they met again, he made Ding Hao say that far-fetched love language, but now, recalling it, it is unbearably bitter.

Bai Bin couldn't help but ask himself, is the situation he set up from the beginning right?He has carefully kept Ding Hao in captivity since he was a child, not letting the people around him get too close to him, and not letting him out of his sight.So Ding Hao felt lonely and he ran away.

First it was Li Shengdong, and then he wanted to escape from his heart.

He was so smart, so smart that he almost destroyed himself and Ding Hao.

Bai Bin never believed in gods, and at this moment he even wanted to ask the gods and Buddhas in the sky, if he could let go of everything and abandon everything, would he also be able to go to the place where Ding Hao was?

But who would I be without you?This kind of life is the greatest pain and torture for me.

If I spend my whole life in exchange for falling in love with you, even if it's only for a few days...

Bai Bin seemed to have had a long dream. He dreamed that Ding Hao had come back to life again, smiling brightly beside him, showing a mouthful of small white teeth, calling him to get up.

"Bai Bin!" Ding Hao pushed him, not only did not avoid him like before, but also squinted his eyes and smiled badly. "Get up quickly, Bai Lu will be here in a while, she thought I did something to you last night when she saw you like this, hahaha!"

Bai Bin sat up slowly. He couldn't believe the person he saw before him. He stretched out his hand and gently stroked Ding Hao's cheek, which was warm and soft.He opened his mouth and murmured: "Ding Hao?" His voice was a little hoarse.

"What's the matter? Why is your voice hoarse? Are you sick?" Ding Hao frowned, and tested the temperature with his forehead against Bai Bin's. "Strange, it was fine yesterday..."

"I'm sick, but it's good to see you." Bai Bin reached out to hold him in his arms, and rubbed his face twice. "I thought I would never find you again."

What he said was confused, Ding Hao didn't take it to heart, he hugged Bai Bin with a smile and patted him, saying: "Where am I going, I have to let you take me out to play football in a while!"

Bai Bin looked at him, narrowed his eyes slightly, and showed a slightly stiff smile, "Okay, I will accompany you wherever you go." Even if it's just a dream, even if it's short, having you, It's the best dream I've ever had.

This time, the original lineup was still playing football. The golden retriever Charlie ran up first, and it was very interesting to run around with a pair of big ears.It stopped in front of Bai Bin and Ding Hao, ignored Ding Hao's greeting, but sniffed Bai Bin, as if confirming the familiar yet unfamiliar smell.But soon, the golden retriever Charlie barked and rubbed against Bai Bin's trouser legs again, and he seemed to like Bai Bin more than ever.

Bai Bin and Ding Hao played football, Charlie the Golden Retriever was in charge of intercepting the ball, Bai Lu smiled and took pictures, saw Ding Hao being thrown on the grass by Charlie the Golden Retriever and licked his head and drool, he laughed so hard that he couldn't hold the camera.

Bai Lu was overjoyed, and shouted at Ding Hao: "Hey, Ding Hao, get up quickly, lying on the ground like this, Charlie thought you were teasing him, and he will lick him even more after a while! I have taught you the rules for so long, it's up to you It's all ruined hahaha..."

Ding Hao was so dizzy from being licked, he managed to push away Charlie's big head, and angrily retorted Bai Lu, "Bai Lu, how did you teach?! Can you blame me? Your dog..." Ding Hao suddenly said no When he spoke, he saw Bai Bin standing in front of him against the light. At that moment, Ding Hao felt as if he saw a pair of wings behind Bai Bin. With Bai Bin's soft hair and gentle smiling face, he was standing in the sun. The whole person is almost shining.

Literally speaking, Ding Hao's life was illuminated again at that moment; popularly speaking, Ding Hao fell in love for the second time.

Bai Bin pulled Ding Hao up from the ground, and helped the foolish man clean the grass clippings off his clothes. With a soft smile on his lips, he asked, "Does it hurt?"

Ding Hao stared blankly at Bai Bin and couldn't move away. He had seen Bai Bin smile so many times, but this time, he was extraordinarily good-looking.He couldn't help reaching out to touch the corner of Bai Bin's mouth, but Bai Bin sucked that finger, bit it lightly and then let go, and the smile hanging on the corner of his lips deepened.

Ding Hao let out a cry, and quickly pulled his hand out. His Adam's apple rolled up and down a few times, and he said stammeringly: "That, that... Bai Bin, don't get me wrong, I just think you have a really good smile today, hey, hey It wasn't the same before."

Bai Bin rubbed his head, held him in his arms, and said softly: "Then I will laugh more from now on."

Ding Hao nodded vigorously, and a muffled voice came from his arms, "Okay!"

The golden retriever Charlie squatted obediently aside with the football in his mouth. There was no impurity in his gray-blue eyes, which were crystal clear.It seemed very happy to see Bai Bin, and the tail behind it kept wagging.

After dinner, Ding Hao took his golden retriever Charlie for a walk, and Bai Bin followed him and listened to him laughing and talking about interesting things.They went to wander around the nearby playground. It was still the same green grass. Bai Bin squinted his eyes, as if he could see the little boy who was running and sweating on the field back then.At that time, Ding Hao was sweating profusely while playing, his eyes were bent happily, and he took off his jersey indifferently to wipe off the sweat on his forehead, and his signature smile with small white teeth was so beautiful that it made people dazzled.

Bai Bin stretched out his hand to hold Ding Hao's and clasped his fingers together. Feeling that Ding Hao quietly closed his fingers and crossed him more intimately, his heart warmed up.

"Haohao, why did you play basketball in high school?"

Ding Hao's ears were a little red, he scratched his fingers, and muttered: "You still remember, I heard people say that playing basketball can grow taller, so I went there!" Then he said angrily, "Those people are talking nonsense, I beat them!" One year, everyone around me was taller than me, but I didn't grow any taller! Huh, I'll just play my football."

Bai Bin wanted to laugh, but seeing Ding Hao getting angry so seriously, he suddenly felt that there was no one cuter than Ding Hao in the world.

Golden Retriever Charlie's mind is terribly pure, just like he can't help but wag his tail desperately at whomever he likes. When he saw the group of people playing football on the playground, his eyes lit up immediately!

It likes to play with people, especially likes to gather in crowded places. Ding Hao is right to take it for a walk in the playground. Charlie the golden retriever looked at it excitedly for a long time, his eyes followed the football rolling back and forth among the crowd, and his big paws were on the ground. Grinding on the ground, I finally couldn't bear it anymore, and rushed down with a whimper!

Ding Hao was joking with Bai Bin, he was caught off guard and was almost dragged down by it, thanks to Bai Bin for pulling him, otherwise he would have to fall out.

Charlie the golden retriever dragged a long chain rope, barked, and ran towards the black and white football like a child!

Ding Hao's voice trembled, and he hurriedly called Charlie's name, "It's over, it's over, won't you run away? If Bai Lu knows that she must kill me..."

Before Ding Hao could run down, Charlie the golden retriever happily ran towards them with something in his mouth. Just like training many times, Charlie the golden retriever put the football in his mouth respectfully at Bai Bin's feet, and licked it with his mouth. Bai Binna pushed it, and let out a flattering whimper.

The group of children playing with the ball came over and whispered that they wanted to return the football. Bai Bin smiled and returned the football to them.

But soon, Charlie flew out again, and the kid who was about to return to the football was knocked over by Charlie again before he could serve the ball!Big Charlie was wagging his tail merrily, with one paw on the football, and the other on their captain's head, when the boys arrived.The group of children were shocked, and it took a long time before they dared to help their captain. That child was the most unlucky, with grass leaves on his head, and grass juice rubbed on his face, he was in a terrible embarrassment.

Ding Hao was even more overjoyed. In the past, he was the one who was thrown down by Charlie the Golden Retriever, but now he saw others fall too. It was quite interesting to watch, "Hey, kids, I'll give you this ball back!"

Fortunately, the kid who was the captain didn't have much self-esteem, so he got up after patting the paw prints on his body, and played with the football that Ding Hao picked out of Big Charlie's mouth.

But as soon as he returned the football to them, Charlie the Golden Retriever chased him out again, and rushed over to Bai Bin with the ball still in his mouth.Ding Hao grinned at it and frightened it for a long time, kicked the ball back and returned it to others. When Charlie saw the ball flying, he ran there happily... It thought it was a game, and until three days later, it still I never get tired of this game of chasing the ball and handing it over to Bai Bin.

Bai Bin looked at Ding Hao from the side, looking at everything alive around him, his daily life was so happy that it was unreal.He vaguely felt that the time was coming, but he couldn't tell what it meant for a while.

Day by day, Bai Bin enjoys and cherishes this kind of life. He once thought about taking Ding Hao to the most beautiful place while there is still time, but when he saw Ding Hao sleeping soundly on his chest at night, he suddenly felt I don't think it matters where I go.

If possible, he would like to accompany Ding Hao every day. He would send Ding Hao to study, Ding Hao would work with him, and the two of them would cook dinner together. After dinner, he would take his golden retriever Charlie out for a walk.If possible, I really hope to live like this for the rest of my life.

Charlie the Golden Retriever is very sticky to Bai Bin, and he follows Bai Bin most actively every time he takes a walk, except for one thing, when encountering food.

Charlie is very obedient. When he sees food while walking, he doesn't rush at it, and he doesn't whine. He just squats down in such a well-behaved manner, and then stares at the food in people's hands longingly, and the saliva comes down. ——Ding Hao covered his face right then, it's so fucking embarrassing.

Charlie saw an acquaintance holding food and squatting down to drool; met a stranger holding food and squatting down to drool; met a five or six-year-old child holding a corn cob and squatting down to drool... The child is probably too young to have seen it before. During this battle, I cried with a bang.

Ding Hao hurried up and bought another corn on the cob for her, and also bought one for the golden retriever Charlie, and dragged her away.If Ding Hao didn't buy it food, Charlie would leave with his head drooping full of grievances, and the background seemed lonely.This trick is very effective. Ding Hao looks like a bad mouth, but his heart is very soft. Eight out of ten times he can always succeed.

Bai Bin felt that this was inappropriate, pondered for a moment, and told Ding Hao, "Don't buy it for it next time, you should coax it seriously."

So the next time he encountered a food stall, Ding Hao squatted there with Charlie the Golden Retriever, begging him in multiple voices, "Honey, I beg you, let's go, this is not delicious, it is hard I ate sour..."

This was okay at first, but it didn't work if it was said too much. Charlie became angry, and he squatted in front of the sausage stand and refused to leave.Ding Hao persuaded Charlie over there, and the owner of the sausage stall turned black when he heard it, and the fan swayed loudly, and a puff of smoke from the barbecue directly rushed over, which was directly proportional to the boss's current anger.

Ding Hao's persuasion was fruitless, and he didn't dare to give it anything to eat. After weighing the balance, he could only look at Bai Bin pitifully.Bai Bin was instantly killed by Ding Hao's eyes begging for help, so he bought Ding Hao's roast sausage without saying a word. The final solution was that after Ding Hao ate the roast sausage, he gave Charlie the stick with the roast sausage in his mouth, and let him hold it all the way. go home.

The big golden retriever Charlie was very excited with the little stick in his mouth. When he walked, he flicked his tail. His golden fur and satin shone like satin. His back standing there against the sun was unbearable. Live in love with it.

After thinking about it, Ding Hao couldn't help leaning over to whisper to Bai Bin secretly, "Look, Bai Bin, Charlie and Bai Lu are actually quite alike, with a pure heart and great strength, and you'll be silly if you coax them..."

Bai Bin wanted to laugh, but suddenly he felt tired. He held on to a railing next to him, trying to stabilize the feeling of wanting to lose consciousness.But after stabilizing, I felt that some things were blurred, as if I couldn't remember clearly.

"Bai Bin, what's the matter with you, are you feeling unwell again?" Ding Hao rushed over with Charlie, and put Bai Bin's hand on his shoulder, with a worried expression on his face. "Shall we go to the hospital?"

Bai Bin shook his head, he could vaguely feel that his time seemed to be running out.

Bai Bin looked at Ding Hao, "Haohao, is there any place you want to go?"

Ding Hao was a little puzzled, raised his head and asked him, "Are we going on a trip?"

Bai Bin's face was a little pale, and he smiled slightly, "It's not considered a trip, it's just nearby, where we used to go to school, do you remember?"

They used to go to school in the garden of the city center. There was an elementary school there. Ding Hao and Bai Bin first met there.

In the evening, all the students in the primary school dispersed, and the empty classroom became quiet. The rows of desks and chairs seemed to have lost their memory.But Bai Bin watched carefully. He walked up to the podium and said to Ding Hao, "Hao Hao, do you still remember that when you first came to school, you were only this tall, like a radish head?" Bai Bin's voice was soft, There was a slight smile in his eyes, "You went to the wrong classroom as soon as you came. You insisted that you were a second-grade student, and you kept crying when the teacher let you go."

Ding Hao stood there, listening to Bai Bin's words, his eyes suddenly filled with tears, "You are, you are..." He was speechless, looking at the person standing on the podium with a slightly stiff smile , suddenly cried out of nowhere.This person is Bai Bin, the Bai Bin he failed, the good Bai Bin who will always only remember him.

Bai Bin's face became paler, but his eyes became brighter. He looked at Ding Hao and said softly, "Bai Bin likes Ding Hao, from the beginning."

Ding Hao wiped his tears indiscriminately, choked up and wanted to answer him, but his throat seemed to be blocked and he couldn't make a sound, so he could only stand there and look at him.

Bai Bin looked at Ding Hao, and tried his best to speak to him word by word with the smile he had just learned, "Bai Bin likes Ding Hao for ten years. If possible, I want to like you a lot more Years...many...years...'

The corners of Bai Bin's eyes were wet, but his face was smiling. He pointed to his heart and said to Ding Hao, "Don't worry, I've always been here with you." Now, and even in the future, I am the one who loves you the most.

He opened his mouth, but he didn't finish the last sentence after all. Ding Hao could see clearly that his mouth was clearly saying——thank you, for allowing me to love you again.

"Bai Bin—!!"

The three-year-old golden retriever Charlie squatted at the door of the elementary school classroom. He whined a little bit of aggrieved, lying on the ground as if he had sent his past master away.Charlie the golden retriever rubbed his paws, his dark brown eyes wet.

after that--

"Haohao, why did I suddenly go to the school classroom that day?" Holding the book, Bai Bin was still a little surprised by his actions that day. Very faint, can't remember what I did.

Ding Hao didn't say a word, went to hug Bai Bin, reached out his hand to touch his chest, where the heart was beating strongly, Ding Hao's nose was a little sore. "Bai Bin, does it still hurt here..."

Bai Bin rubbed his head lying on his chest and comforted him, "It's okay, I didn't know what happened that day... I just couldn't control it." He couldn't tell, when he woke up in the elementary school classroom that day , There are still unstoppable tears in my eyes.

Also after that day, he seemed to have forgotten something, and it seemed that there was something more in his heart.

"Bai Bin, do you believe that there is a past and a future self?" Ding Hao stayed quietly in Bai Bin's arms for a while, suddenly a little confused.

"It is true that someone has created such a research topic. Time is very delicate. Maybe we seem to live in a parallel space. We are independent in each period." Bai Bin stretched out his arms and continued to flip through the pages. Page reading, "What's wrong? I suddenly thought about such a profound question."

Ding Hao put his arms around his waist and said in a muffled voice, "Is there another you in the past? Bai Bin, when you passed..."

"Wrong, it's us." Bai Bin smiled and knocked Ding Hao on the head. "You can be so noisy, I never dare to relax, no matter the past or the present, I will keep an eye on you."

Ding Hao covered his head, looked at Bai Bin for a while, and slowly smiled a little, "Well, yes, you are really watching closely enough."

"Then we in the past must have been very happy." Bai Bin put his arm around Ding Hao and kissed him on the forehead. "As happy as now."