[SSHP] End of life

Before four o'clock, the sky began to darken.Harry was standing alone by a big tree.

This was the largest tree near the foot of the mountain, and he could see the distant mountains, the dim lights of the settlement, and the silhouettes of houses.It was rare that it didn't rain at night, and many people were washing clothes by the river, or doing other things.Some children are running around.

The air was getting colder, and Harry tucked his hands into his sleeves, but he didn't intend to go back anytime soon.He looked wretched enough, muddy trousers, clothes chilled by damp moisture, and no doubt hungry all day long.In another half hour, when he was back in the house before it was completely dark, Snape might still be taunting him, but he would do more for him.

He wanted Snape to do something for him.That will make him feel that he values ​​him.

"Harry." A soft and deep voice sounded beside Harry.Harry turned his head, and saw a shadow walking down the side path. The road down the mountain was behind Harry, and he didn't notice it.The werewolf walked without sound.

The man approached, it was Ben Teddy, he was smiling and his eyes were very gentle.Harry suddenly realized that he had made a big mistake. "You know Harry Potter? That's the savior of our wizarding world," he remedied, feeling quite ashamed that he had spoken his name.

"Don't hide it, I've known you from the beginning." Ben smiled, "Harry Potter, even if I've never seen your face, from the first moment I saw you, I knew you were different—— You know, werewolves have always had a bit of a beast instinct."

Embarrassed, Harry spread his hands and stuffed them into his trouser pockets.

"When Remus was still here, he often talked about you to me. Ashowen told me what happened today. Thank you for saving Liz."

"It's nothing," said Harry sincerely.Saving people is just a matter of effort for him on weekdays, but under the current situation, he should be grateful to the child.If it hadn't been for that accident, maybe he didn't know that his magic power was recovering.Liz helped him a lot.

"I've seen everything you've been doing to us these past few weeks. Including the guy you're traveling with, I guess he's Severus Snape? I trust your sincerity, but I can't trust your Ministry of Magic ——Wizards are always going back on their word. To be honest, until today, I have never fully decided to convince the last two leaders and help the Order of the Phoenix when necessary."

"Today?" Harry blurted out, "Didn't you guys make up your mind some time ago?"

Ben looked at Harry, smiling silently.

Harry looked down at the creek at the foot of the hill.The figures there had turned into blurred moving objects. "I said everything I could think of that day. Speech is not my forte... When you said that you two decided not to help each other, I was actually disappointed. But everything I said is reality. If you don't help We win, and if we do lose, what are you going to do afterwards? The Dark Lord would not be a good ruler. But if you don't want to die, I can't force you to. Many times I would I think it would be good to live one more day..."

"No. Even for werewolves, there are more important things than living." Ben shook his head, "That's why I decided to choose you. You are an excellent leader, and kindness always brings strength. Your trust in your friends makes me willing to trust you. I also believe that after the war, people on your side must have the power to influence the decisions of the Ministry of Magic. Both Death Eaters and Remus have told us a lot, but only what you promised , I believe it will really come true one day.”

"We will also continue to provide you with better wolfbane potions than those in circulation on the market." Harry said evasively, he felt very uncomfortable with Ben's praise, "We have the best potions master."

"Do you really think that wolfbane | potion is so attractive to us?" Ben said flatly, looking at the dark clouds in the sky.Harry followed his line of sight to the sky. The clouds were thick and dark, and they had already pressed down on the forest on the other side of the basin.It looks like it's going to rain again soon.

"Every book says that when the moon is full, the transformation of a werewolf will bring great pain. But in fact, if you don't forcibly restrain your transformation, the pain of bone growth and deformation is not so strong. Besides, our village is in the At the foot of the mountain, on the night of the full moon, the clansmen can enter the mountain to hunt, avoiding the pain of biting each other. To be honest, half of our food comes from hunting on the night of the full moon. Although the price will always be a little bit weaker God, but it's far less severe than imagined."

Harry looked away in surprise.He had seen Lupine transform, and had always thought that transformation painful.But Ben's eyes are very steady, it doesn't look like he is telling a lie.He recalled that Lupin's power after transformation, being able to match the Animagus form as big as Sirius Bear, it really didn't look like he was so weak in pain.

He shook his head, quietly waiting for the next step.

"We hope you can understand our concerns. We know who the Dark Lord is and what he has done. We don't want to die for him as his outcast, but the Order of the Phoenix doesn't have enough trust in us either. We help you Going to fight your wars will inevitably cost many lives, and these injuries cannot be compensated by just not doing harm to us afterwards." Ben said, "Werewolves have been treated unfairly all over the world for too many years, and it is difficult to change— ——Until I saw you, I couldn’t really believe that after the war, our children’s right to education can be guaranteed. After all, it won’t last long after all. What we need is sincerity, even if it can only start a little bit slowly.”

"I—" Harry opened his mouth, but no words came out.With these words, Ben’s expectations, and even the expectations of most werewolves in the UK, were on him. He was shy of Ben’s praise, delighted that the werewolves decided to help them, and also felt the pure trust and pressure. And feel heavy.It was as if he bore the fate of a race, and they were all sure he could, but he wasn't sure he could afford it.

The two fell into a brief silence.They stood side by side, looking at the running figure below.

"You're a good man," said Ben, watching the children playing by the river.

Those figures were very small.It appears more indistinct as the sky gets darker and the cloud pressure lowers.But looking at the figures, Ben seemed to recognize everyone.Harry noticed the look and suddenly thought of his professors.They take care of their students because they know that some students live in two worlds at the same time.It's hard to convert each other.And the same goes for these students who are cared for and grateful for.They knew there were people of their own kind here—unlike any other living thing in the world.They are wizards, not Muggles, magical creatures, or normal animals.Sometimes they have to suffer from other societies, they understand each other, they sympathize with each other, and at the same time they support each other.

Everyone in the world has their own group, which is subdivided from a large classification.Until it is divided into individuals, or two people connected by contract.As a group of werewolves and wizards, there are schools, countries, friends, and more circles classified based on different factors—just like werewolves cannot integrate into wizards or centaurs, and wizards cannot manage werewolves or centaurs— In fact, they only divide their own groups based on some salient features, and there will be different individuals and the same relationship between individuals.They are not fundamentally different.

And he is a wizard.He is still a student.He had been at Hogwarts for nine years, far longer than he should have been.He hasn't left school yet, but he's practically an adult.

He watched the children—and perhaps their caregivers—with the eyes of a fully grown wizard.Many of them are younger than him.If he hadn't gone back in time, if they had won in his old time, he might have married Ginny, and he might have had a child of his own.His parents gave birth to him when he was 20 years old, and he is now 22 years old.He still felt that he was an immature young man, but with his longing for family-if he had finally won the battle at Hogwarts that year, he would have married Ginny immediately, time would not more than half a year.Even then, he wasn't ignorant of his immaturity, but he'd ignore everything else in order to have a family of his own and leave it for later.

Contrary to what some other people might think of him, he's not some 18-year-old kid who doesn't know what he really wants.All his actions are aimed at defeating Voldemort. Maybe he will have a short period of confusion after the real victory, but it will not be long-term and real.Although he's still figuring out what love means, it's something everyone is trying to learn, and he doesn't make this cognition different from others because of some heavier goals.He might not know if he wanted to continue working as an Auror or something, but that was one of the little things in life, the bigger things he'd always been aware of.He was pretty sure that what he wanted most was family.House, life is connected and accompanied.He only wants what is his own.

He loves being with Ginny.But Ginny had never been his support, nor could she be his support.While he struggled with hunger and pain, what sustains him every day is a sense of responsibility.He wants to save the world, not a particular person.When he was angry and desperate, what supported him to move forward was still his sense of responsibility, as well as his dissatisfaction and questioning of Snape.

He only wanted Ginny if he was happy and carefree.If he was in danger, he would immediately push everyone away to face him, and Ginny would not be that exception.Yes, this could be interpreted as his wanting to protect her - but Snape was different.

He wanted Snape, and he wanted each other's support.In his relationship with Snape - even before he discovered his positive feelings for Snape, he was selfish and reckless.He could pull Snape out of the peace and relief he wanted most, because that's what he wanted.He doesn't want to put him in danger, but he never refuses to give in to his desire to be with him.He never cared to drag him down, never cared to tell him that Harry Potter, the leader of the light, was like a black hole or a rotten side.They are all people who live in darkness, crawling bit by bit from the bottom of the abyss.No matter how desperate, but just live together, or die together.

Only in front of Snape was he not the savior.He's just a young man who is always inadequate, impulsive, arrogant and naive.That man would never agree that he had grown up, but he would never treat him like a child and spoil him.In fact, he now kind of understood how the deans felt—these growing young people were really troublesome and lovely creatures.They're improving by leaps and bounds, but they can hurt themselves if they're not paying attention.

He hadn't realized how powerful they were until the final battle at Hogwarts.Professor McGonagall can awaken the ancient guardians of Hogwarts, Professor Sprout can make plants grow, and Professor Flitwick can summon the wind.It goes without saying that Snape was a master of the dark arts and potions that no one could dispute.Professor McGonagall is very strict, but she always pays a lot of attention to students, of course, she will not admit that she is actually very partial to Gryffindor.According to the Ravenclaws, Professor Flitwick always has some cute little biscuits in his desk drawer. Once a student is in a bad mood, he will direct those biscuits to dance and come to the students.Ravenclaw students are not very coquettish, but they will pretend to be in a bad mood from time to time just to watch the dancing cookies.Both teachers and students enjoyed this very much.Professor Sprout and most of her Hufflepuffs were good-natured, and Harry hadn't heard much more from them than that the round-faced little witch was very gentle.And Snape, no one expects him to be a gentle elder who listens well, and the Slytherins don't seem to need this.But it didn't affect that Snape actually loved his Slytherins quite a lot.

But he doesn't love him that much.He found that he was unwilling, and he was jealous.Snape had been more patient with potion ingredients than he was with him, let alone his Slytherins - Snape protected him, not because he cared, but because he wanted to win the war in the end.He used the sliver of kindness that Snape had shown him - more than even Draco had towards him - to tell Dumbledore that Snape cared about him.Then he won.But that was his war with Dumbledore, not his war with Snape.Dumbledore was convinced that their relationship was going to be something special, but he didn't see any signs of leaps and bounds yet.As much as he wanted to trust Dumbledore.

It's all because he was so naive from the beginning.He is partial, he breaks the rules and takes advantage of them.He was against Snape - and all the Slytherins that Snape had sheltered.

Harry came back to his senses and realized that Ben had been watching him since he didn't know when.He's been stuck in his own chaotic thoughts for too long.

"I'm not a good guy," he said gloomily, and though he didn't think he was wrong, he regretted all the stones he'd foolishly removed over the past seven years in his quest for Snape. Revenge on those who have treated me badly, even though they are powerless to continue to abuse me." The Dursleys, Draco, Snape—everyone who showed him ill will, he returned the same.His malice will continue until the other party relentes, or he himself changes his opinion of them.

He never kowtowed and wanted everyone to like him.He will endure until he can resist.He is never afraid to pay back twice when he has the upper hand and becomes a bully. He has no guilt in his heart, and black blood flows in his veins.He sometimes thought that maybe the only difference between him and Voldemort was that he wouldn't let them die.Even in the most horrific rage he'd ever fallen into, he wouldn't kill without thinking.

"Actually, I know that Remus couldn't have mentioned me." Ben said suddenly, and he smiled slightly. "I drove him away. He won't trust his instincts. He's always too rational. Even now, I I also believe that no matter what era you are in, people should have the motivation to pursue their own happiness. Growing like grass towards the sky in suffering, this is what supports us to the present. And you, your intuition must always be Right. My gut told me that. I think you should trust your gut because mine has never missed it so far."

Lupine had said the same thing to him.And in the end they were both right.Lupine and Tonks are together.But what is he going to believe now?Do you believe that giants can also be persuaded by him?He's in a mess right now, with no instincts.But Ben didn't give any hint to his abrupt words.

"Do you believe we'll win in the end?" said Harry, confused.He began to wonder if he missed some crucial words when he focused on self-denial just now.

"Trust all your instincts," Ben said. "It's going to rain, let's go back."

He handed Harry a silver ball of unknown material. "It's a medium of communication, and a token," he said, "give it to Remus, he knows how to use it.—and here comes my personal statement. The werewolf of the Welsh settlement will always be Harry Potter's sincere friend."

"Thank you, Ben," said Harry.He didn't say anything more, he and Ben looked at each other, and the other's eyes and smile told him that this simple sentence was enough.

The author has something to say: I can't extricate myself from being addicted to the manuscript box.laugh.

It doesn't matter if you know that Teacher Lizi and Ashiowen shake hands.Does anyone see that the werewolf leader likes Lupin, hahaha.

The status of each house is from Pottermore.

This chapter is recommended to cooperate with Rachel Taylor's "LightAFire".Understand each other's expressions, the other party accepts their own imperfections, and is willing to support each other, and they don't have to be brave in front of each other.I think that's how they should be.Um.