[SSHP] End of life

Winter is coming.

It was a fortnight after a few bouts of rain that Harry had come to realize was a major crisis.They brought enough clothes, but the excessive cold made their mobility difficult and their life problematic.For example, the biggest crisis they are currently facing: the human body tends to need more heat when it is cold.But their food has long since run out.

Ron's recovery was slow.During the first week and the first four days of the second, Harry insisted that Hermione take care of Ron, who came to watch alone.

The reason he used to convince Hermione was high-sounding: girls take care of the wounded more carefully, which is a gender advantage.And Ron must have wanted to see her more than himself every time he woke up.But it is undeniable that more than half of the reasons are due to his own troubles.A week and a half of nursing made Ron and Hermione more bonded. Sometimes when Harry returned to the tent exhausted, he saw two people holding hands, talking or reading a book and sleeping alone. He felt from the bottom of his heart that he might be redundant.

Horcruxes are worn close to the body at all times.Every eight hours, they re-camped in an inaccessible location.In the colder nights day by day, Harry sat alone next to each new camp, always feeling the cold breath emanating from the Horcrux seeping into his soul bit by bit.His head was heavy, he became powerless trying to catch food with spells, and once had an accidental encounter with Dementors and Death Eaters at the fair, he almost lost the strength to even Apparate away, let alone fight. .

The hours of sunshine are getting shorter and shorter.It's not even five o'clock, and it's getting dark.Harry sat on a rock, sideways to the tent.He held a small statuette of Snape in his hand.

It had been two weeks since he had acquired the statue.After they'd escaped the Death Eaters from London, he thought of ways to destroy Horcruxes, thought of poison--and hopelessly thought of Snape.When he was thinking, he liked to tap some beats with his wand. Maybe something went wrong, maybe he accidentally used some transfiguration spell that couldn't be used when he was concentrated-the magic spell that belonged to the Half-Blood Prince in his trouser pocket. The medicine book becomes a statuette.Luckily Ron and Hermione didn't notice.And inexplicably, he kept the statue.

He hadn't heard from Snape since leaving London.Ever since he met the Death Eaters at the market, they never got close to places where there might be people. They just listed the places where the Horcruxes might be hidden one by one on a piece of paper, and they were going to search them one by one after Ron fully recovered from his injuries— —They unanimously decided to find a way to destroy them along the way in the process of finding the Horcruxes.While the students were still in school, they kept fleeing in the cold wilderness. Maybe after a while, they would have to break through the thick layer of ice even to drink water.

It's been two weeks, and there is still no clue about the Horcrux.If they were still in school, he could lie in his bed, secretly lead the students against their unpopular Death Eater headmaster, and still have enough to eat.He could hide the locket in the Room of Requirement without having to wear it next to his body - he was almost sure that the Horcruxes were having a very bad influence on him, but he didn't tell his friends about his discomfort.They seemed to trust him less recently, and occasionally, Harry could even be sure they were whispering.

Maybe one day, he will be like this man, and no one will trust him anymore-he tossed the statuette in his hand.

He hated Snape, never wanted to look him in the face.He hadn't thought he could remember Snape's face that well until he conjured up the statue.The statue was so perfect, with greasy black hair, a big nose and a mouth curled so viciously that it was ready to spit out a sarcasm, Harry sometimes even thought the statue might suddenly come to life, sneer or talk to him.

This man has almost become a problem more difficult to solve than his fate, and has become a thorn in his heart.It would be a great consolation to his bleak status quo if he could simply hate Snape as much as before.It's a pity that the kind of anger and hatred that can almost burn out the reason can't be found at all.As time went by, Harry even began to wonder if he had made a fool of himself in order to make himself hate Snape more than Voldemort.In those days, he could forgive even anyone compared to his hatred for Snape.

And now he couldn't help himself from thinking about the tragic situation he might face in the future.As he stayed out of the public eye for longer and longer, unable to clear up a single rumour, and doing nothing to bring down Voldemort's cause, his supporters would leave him one by one.Maybe one day the two of them would face the same untrusting situation, but he was sure he couldn't have done it better than Snape had done in the situation.This man never cared about anyone's exclusion and sarcasm, if he hadn't seen his tearful face and trembling body, Harry almost thought he would not be hurt.

Hermione was sitting by a tree not far from him, and she would be on duty until dark.He smiled at Hermione and walked back to the tent, where Ron was fast asleep.He also lay back on the bed, put the statue back in his pocket, and looked at the top of the tent.

They are far apart.But the man was with him under the same sky.Time flies and they have known each other for more than six years.The first time they met, he inexplicably received malice from Snape.This was the first undisguised and unknown malice he faced after he knew his identity, well, he thought that everyone in the wizarding world would treat him kindly.And how did Harry Potter live to be 11 years old?Of course not because of swallowing.He was starving almost every day; if he didn't fight back, Dudley and his friends would give him a taste of what it was like to be beaten in no time.

Even if Neville's good temper grows up to the age of 11 like him, he will not succumb to anyone.Of course he would resist.

After getting the Philosopher's Stone, Dumbledore revealed to him for the first time that Snape knew his father well, and that there was something hidden behind everything he did.Ron's attitude was firm, but Hermione showed obvious wavering.That night, he said coldly to his friends: "Hermione, you also finished elementary school in a Muggle school. If a teacher has no morals, no matter who he is or why, he should not continue to be in school." I don’t need him to save me, if he has such kindness, I should ask him to do a good job and stop trying to make things difficult for us.” And Hermione—the most respectful teacher, and rightly or wrongly blamed Snape Hermione, who felt extremely guilty, could not refute a word.

In the following years, they still disliked each other.Snape still made things difficult for everyone he was close to, although he was somewhat fair to everyone else.When encountering all bad things, they would still immediately think of Snape, but every time it proved that it was not.

Snape and Sirius had an almost undying relationship, but they strangely ignored each other because of a common goal.Snape hated Lupine, and even though he was ordered to brew Wolfsbane | potion for him, he did not give up any chance to satirize and slander Lupine.Harry noticed that Lupine was mildly dismissing Snape's provocations, but he didn't actually say anything nice about Snape, and certainly didn't stop Harry from complaining about Snape in front of him.

Then, he found out that Snape was a Death Eater, but Dumbledore said he believed him.Then, Snape finally got his wish and taught Defense Against the Dark Arts.Then, he killed Dumbledore.That night, in Sirius' house, he wept silently over an old photo.

He had hated Snape so much.This person has no teacher's morality. He is doing—maybe doing something to protect them, but he suppresses them even more in other ways.Bless Merlin, they were just 11 year olds!If James had left Snape with a lifelong resentment, how could he have felt entitled to make other eleven-year-olds repeat his terrible past?

Does this man have no empathy?This man has to be an asshole?This man—

Harry woke up suddenly.The moment he opened his eyes, he saw a shaking black figure out of the corner of his eye.He sat up abruptly, pointing the tip of his wand at the shadow.After a few seconds, his vision returned and he saw Hermione standing in the middle of the tent.She took a step back, looking a little sorry. "I'm sorry, Harry! I wanted you to sleep a little longer..."

Harry rubbed his eyes, he had no idea when he fell asleep unconsciously.The looking glass on the table never rang, and he was fixing the crooked watch on his wrist, it was eleven o'clock in the evening.It was his turn to keep watch.

He rubbed his eyes again.Getting up too hard just now caused his head to be very uncomfortable.He tried to get the thought out of Snape, which made him feel inexplicably dazed now: "You didn't wake me up. How could I sleep when the time came."

Just the other day, Hermione requested a nightly shift vigil with Harry.Harry visibly withered away from day to day, and not only Hermione was upset, but even Ron stopped complaining about how unpalatable every meal was without seasoning.

The daily sleep time has increased by two or three hours, but just a few days of rest is not enough to relieve Harry's exhausted condition.He felt that he could lie down and fall asleep any time except for the night watch.The body is at the critical point of collapse, and has been supported by the will.He was surprised that he could still think clearly or respond in time to a conversation, but he figured that if he didn't get some rest, it probably wouldn't last long.

Last week, Hermione had brought back a broken radio that some Muggle family had probably left behind in the woods on vacation, and Ron had been trying to fix it for the past few days.He was awake, too, sprawled on his bed, fiddling with his old radio again.Hermione sat back in her usual armchair, The Tales of Beedle the Bard in her hand, and a dictionary spread out on the armrest.She always has the energy to keep learning at all times, which is what Harry admires most about her.If he was on duty until eleven o'clock at night, he would definitely choose to go to bed first.

He motioned to Hermione, lit his wand, and headed out the door.

He circled around the tent a few times, chose a tree farther away from the tent, cast a protective spell around him, and carefully observed the surroundings.After confirming his safety, he sat down on the root of the tree and stared at the river flowing in the distance.

In two hours, he had to go to the river to get some food for the three of them.Perhaps grilled fish will be easier to swallow than stewed.

He looked at the river for a while, then took out a newspaper from his trouser pocket.Harry had carried it with him since Lupine had brought it to them.

The newspaper no longer saddened him, it only shocked him.It reminds him not to underestimate anyone.More importantly, don't judge a person's qualities and possible actions by the deep-seated impressions of a person.So far, the preconceived way of thinking has caused him to stumble a lot. Quirrell is only the beginning, and the rest is all pain, and Scrimgeour is the one that makes him feel guilty the most.And Snape, he was all about enigma.

The Daily Prophet is no longer worth reading—not that it ever was, of course.It has always existed as the mouthpiece of the Ministry of Magic. Now that the Ministry of Magic is fully controlled by Voldemort, it has also undergone some changes accordingly.In August and September, Harry had brought back some newspapers. The daily news included praising Voldemort, brainwashing them with pure-blood theory, and forcing wizards to surrender through fear.Since then, he has never deliberately looked for newspapers again.But if he can come across it, he doesn't mind taking one.

The folded edges of the newspaper were severely frayed, and the handwriting became blurred due to the long-term repeated process of being soaked and dried by sweat.Harry unfolded the newspaper and stared at the picture on the front page.

Their ideas do not match.It wasn't until after Scrimgeour's death that Harry realized that differences in ideas didn't mean that their ultimate goals were different.He once took out some of the pain of Dumbledore's death on Scrimgeour, but Scrimgeour chose to protect him with all his might.He was guilty, but that didn't mean he would cooperate with the Ministry.Give him a hundred more chances, and he won't cooperate.He felt he owed Scrimgeour the respect he deserved, and an apology.

Scrimgeour is a tough old Auror.If he wanted to take full control of the Ministry of Magic, he had to die.Voldemort's choice is not surprising. Sooner or later they will have a head-to-head confrontation, but it is a pity that Scrimgeour and the Aurors lose, and the Ministry of Magic has become a stronghold for pure-bloods to persecute Muggle-borns.But now, all the adventures in the Ministry of Magic have long been left behind by him. This is a very high hurdle. He has passed it, and believes that he can also pass the next one.

The new regime oppresses the British wizarding community.The whole of Britain is shrouded in terror and high pressure, and those Death Eaters and people who are neither black nor white are still alive.Speaking of the two iconic characters among them, Harry could make sure that Umbridge was still lying in St. Mungo's at the moment.The Weasley brothers' prank props have no antidote of their own making, and there is no easy way to break the curse.And Snape must be at Hogwarts.He knew with a cold mind that blaming Umbridge was useless, that she was just a grass blown by the wind.Snape was different. In every confrontation and malicious verbal attack between each other, Harry found an outlet for all his frustrations.

They loathe each other.If he did hurt Snape, he would feel no more guilt.When he is in a good mood, he can bear it; when he is in a bad mood, he will curse him with his friends; when he is in a bad mood, he only needs to jump up and fight with Snape when he finds fault .He couldn't give his emotions to anyone but Snape, not even to Malfoy.

And he was often frustrated.He can't do anything perfectly, and he can't hurt anyone.But he is the savior of the world, and he has to suffer from the belief that he is omnipotent.

If he had learned Occlumency better, if he had been less impulsive, if he had trusted Snape a little more - maybe none of this would have happened.

The more Harry thought about it, the more he felt that Snape was still saving him.He had made him spend six unhappy years, but even if he didn't want to, Harry had to admit that more than half of it was his father's retribution.Dumbledore said a long time ago that James saved Snape once, as long as this time is returned to his child, Snape can continue to hate James with peace of mind.But Harry realized that Snape had paid for his life as early as the first year - while his hatred continued, his protection never ceased.

After Snape saved him from the broom, after Snape actually dutifully notified Dumbledore of Sirius' arrest in time, after Snape taught him Occlumency despite his displeasure, after Snape After Nape mourned Lily in tears, after Snape might have actually helped him - Harry couldn't help but think of him as just an executioner.

Harry took a deep breath.He raised his head and was surprised to see that the distant horizon had turned white.The sky was gray-blue and white-rimmed alternately, and the sky above him was a very clear, watered-down ink-blue color, the color between night and dawn.

This color is full of hope.A new day has arrived.

Of course he hated Snape.It is difficult for a person to have a good impression of someone who hates himself and actually puts it into action. The so-called savior is just an ordinary person.And Snape has always been unafraid to exploit the inequality of status.Besides, there were many things Snape had done that he could not understand or forgive.But if Snape was really—really still a member of the Order, Harry felt that he could suppress his hatred and act with him reluctantly now.At least a semblance of peace can do it.

Now he's on a journey of no return.In order to win, anyone can be willful, anyone can withdraw, but he cannot.

He has to be prepared for a long struggle, uniting all who may be united by him.Snape, he was probably the most proficient in potions and dark arts, and the best dueler under the age of 40 - if he sided with the Order of the Phoenix, their chances of winning would undoubtedly be much better.

Even Snape deserved to be put up with if he could win.

Harry took out his wand and the statuette of Snape, and tapped the statue on the head with his wand in retaliation.He decided to try to look at Snape objectively, so while retaining some hatred, he should also have some hope.

The author has something to say: the stalk of using a magic wand to beat the time doesn’t have to be really uncomfortable, so I made a statue. You can’t rely on the Marauder’s map for all plots.How many wands did Danni break while filming?laugh. I saw a video on station B, Danniu unconsciously playing with a magic wand is very cute.

Xiaoha is no longer Xiaoha in the original book.Some are more mature, some are more resentful.Today's chapter is his final arrangement of thoughts. He is obviously dissatisfied with his friends and biased towards SS.I don't know if I can express this feeling clearly.From then on, Xiaoha took SS more and more as a pillar in his loneliness, violent loneliness, until he became Erha.Think about it and look forward to it.

If this development continues, I always feel that this article will become strong in the end.

Xiao Ha is always right in the face of big right and wrong, and will not fail to save others, but he himself is not that kind of saint.Whoever treats him badly, he treats that person badly, and he will bully the other party whenever he has the opportunity. For example, before he met the dementor, he walked with Dudley, and he had a sense of superiority at that time.His temper is not necessarily good, and it is not uncommon for him to get angry or impatient with his friends.Sometimes I find it quite strange. According to the developmental psychology I know, if a child is like Xiao Ha when he was young, he will be more inclined to be submissive and unconfident when he grows up, which is not good for psychological development.But Xiaoha never hides his temper. I always thought that he would at least bear with Old Deng after Sirius died, but he dared to smash things.This kid is tough and has great ideas, but he has always been immature. I think he still has weaknesses in character until the cursed child.So in this chapter, I retain my own understanding of Xiaoha, and this impression will also be reflected in the following articles.

A little fidgety, I listened to the sonnet read by AR and the luncheon song I converted to audio.That voice, hey, stop talking.uncomfortable.