[Famous Books] Desire for control and arrogance

Seeing Aldridge's downfall, Alice not only did not have much gloat, but also did not have much sense of reality.

"I didn't expect that you would come to see me." Aldridge only dared to look at her, then lowered his head and said in a sullen voice.

"...How is your health now?" Alice's tone was rather unfamiliar after seeing her for five years.

"Actually, you don't have to worry. I'm fine. It's just that I was too tired from work a few years ago and my body couldn't bear it. So some organs were diseased and I needed to rest in peace. A few days ago, my mother and queen caused me trouble. Made me do a lot of things, so I'm not in good health." Aldrich didn't want to hide it from Alice, who finally walked up to him, and told the truth.

"...Too tired from working in the early years???" Alice has guessed what kind of illness Aldrich is, such as being angry at her, or contracting some bad disease. The ghost knows that he is exhausted. Ah, but after thinking about Aldrich's work habits when they lived together, Alice felt that it was normal for Aldrich to get sick.

It was rare for her to say a few more words to Aldrich with the purpose of being good to Aldrich: "I remember the time when you became Bill and I lived together, you should still need to deal with government affairs, but you have to deal with For those things that I can’t see, I have to do the cleaning myself, and I am required to clean it every day. Besides, I spend a lot of time every day to preach to me. These are not only a great physical exertion, but also a great mental exertion. At that time, I wondered why you were so energetic. I thought you were very talented, but I didn’t expect it to be obtained by depleting your health. You should stop doing this in the future. People still have to be good at listening to the signals of physical fatigue, and can’t be forced. "

Although these words were intended to be good for Aldrich, but because Alice didn't think of any modifiers in front of Aldrich, and said it directly, Aldrich was a little ashamed.

He said "Okay" uneasily, was silent for a moment, and suddenly laughed at himself: "I used to feel uncomfortable that you were not with me, but now I am more and more fortunate. People like me who don't know how to take care of themselves, And because parents will cause all kinds of troublesome people, even if I want to treat you well, you will definitely suffer if you follow me."

"...Don't talk about yourself like that." Alice looked at him a little uncomfortable, "It's not like the you I know—" "I'm confident when you know me," Aldrich finally raised his head , but his expression became indifferent, as indifferent as if he had lost interest in many things in the world.

His eyes were darker than the night, and he was born tall. Now that his cheeks were thin and haggard, once his expression was not friendly, his whole person would be a bit gloomy, which made Alice a little scalp numb.

He didn't find that his state was wrong, but he also confessed his inner feelings: "I used to be more confident, even the kind of self-confidence that made people hate it. I wanted to use all means to finish everything in one go, but As a result, as you can see, a lot of things are counterproductive. I am too strong, and I don’t know how to be considerate of myself or others, so I don’t have any new family members, and my old family members don’t want me to live, and I don’t even want my own body. I'm getting better, and I probably want to kill me, so it's hard for me to be happy now, and I feel uncomfortable doing anything, so how can I have confidence?"

As he talked, he didn't look at Alice anymore, his expression became more and more indifferent, as if he had fallen into his own world, but his voice was full of emotion, and Alice could tell that his throat was exhausted. Numb emotions were crawling, and his heart was filled with depressed emotions.

Alice suddenly didn't know what to say, and didn't know how to face such a gloomy person, but Aldridge didn't need her to respond, he just smiled at Alice briefly, and said softly: " Thank you for coming to see me, I am very satisfied. But please forgive me for not being able to entertain you well, I am not feeling well, and I don't want to lose my composure in front of you." After a pause, he suddenly added, "I don't know you Why come to see me, but you don't have to worry that I will continue to pester you. Although I have been giving you gifts, I have never thought about liking you anymore, and it is difficult to like other people. I will give you things, just I just want to make up, I know I'm not good enough for you..."

"You don't like me anymore?" Alice asked subconsciously in disbelief.

"Well," he nodded very seriously, and looked into Alice's eyes, although there were many emotions, but there was really no emotion of admiration, "I know we are not suitable, I will only make you uncomfortable when I am with you, You often embarrass me when you talk, so after I returned to China, I really let go of my liking for you. But you have to forgive me, because you are the first and only person I have ever liked so deeply. I have such a big sense of failure, so I dream of you occasionally, and I dream that you forgive me, and I really let you go. I... have been longing for your forgiveness, I hurt you a lot, and I can't let go Mistake I made."

He was talking ramblingly for a long time, all of which were words of self-ashamedness. It seemed that the life of these years had really made him less confident.

Alice still had a little bit of resentment towards him, but suddenly all of it disappeared.

She couldn't bear his appearance, so she didn't say to forgive him, but her tone was much gentler: "Don't think too much, you are all sick, the most important thing is to rest quietly."

Aldridge closed his mouth obediently, stared blankly at her for more than ten seconds, and became very sharp: "Are you pitying me?"

Alice was stunned for a moment. Seeing from his appearance, he should not be angry. He was just asking questions numbly. She said, "Maybe a little bit, but more because I don't want you to be unhappy. It doesn't feel good to lose self-confidence. I I know, looking at you now, you should have experienced this feeling longer than I did before, and you can't think of ways to improve your mood like I did, so your mood must be worse."

She simply stated her conjecture, and Aldrich looked at her deeply, then suddenly lowered his head, his voice became extremely hoarse: "Thank you for understanding me, you...you are so gentle."

He has a lot of flinching body movements now, but only at this moment, these hidden movements are not covering up his discomfort, but covering up his heartbeat.

He really hadn't thought about liking Alice for a long time, and thought that he had no ability to like Alice. Who knew that it was so simple, and he had the emotion of heartbeat again.

However, no matter how much you like it, it's no use.

Aldrich closed his eyes to cover up the bitterness in his eyes, and when he looked up again, his expression was calm and gentle: "I asked the servant to help me into a wheelchair, if you don't mind my ugly body, let's go have a meal together. "

Although it's useless to like her, he wants to spend a little longer by her side.

Alice couldn't see the hidden joyful and bitter mood changes in his heart, and her focus was all on Aldridge's words: "You can't walk anymore?"

"Well, I got dizzy once and couldn't move when I got up, but I'm slowly recovering. It was difficult for me to move my upper body before. Now it's just that my legs have less strength and it's difficult to move. The doctor said that as long as I take a good rest and recuperate, It will get better slowly." Aldrich touched his leg and said with a smile.

He still had a gloomy look on his face, but he spoke slowly and gently, like a polite and story-telling elegant male nobleman that would only be staged on a theater stage.

A little out of place, but Alice was kind of taken aback.

Now Aldrich is really sharp, he quickly caught Alice's sight, met Alice's eyes, he asked hesitantly: "Is there something on my face?"

If it was before, he would confidently suspect the possibility of Alice being fascinated, but now, he has no confidence, and only thinks that there is something wrong with him.

"No," Alice said decisively, "I just feel like I haven't seen you in five years, and you have a few moments that look good."

Aldrich was stunned for a moment before he realized that the tips of his ears suddenly turned red.

"Do you like me this way?" he asked flusteredly.

"I don't really like it either..." Alice denied, "There were times when you looked better, just when we first met, you were gentle and refined at that time, polite but with a certain amount of advance and retreat, like now, The difference from now is that back then you were confident and didn't care about a lot of things."

Aldrich finally calmed down, and said a little lonely: "I know, you said that you had a good impression of me at that time."

But both of them knew, and only at that moment, after that was the wrong start of the two of them.

With the help of the servant, Aldridge got into a wheelchair, and pushed by the servant, he and Alice went to the dining place.

The dish was served without Aldrich's reminder, and to Alice's surprise, it contained almost the flavors Alice liked.

You know, Aldridge had no plans to have dinner with Alice before, and they haven't seen each other for five years, and Aldridge never talked to the servant about arranging dishes, so Alice likes such a coincidence As for the dishes, it can only show that Aldridge has been eating her favorite dishes.

She had lived with him before, but knew how his tastes were different from hers.

Aldrich seemed to know what Alice was thinking, he looked at the dishes on the table, and said cautiously: "Don't be afraid, I just ate with you before and got used to your taste, and I also like these dishes. It means that I am still obsessed with continuing to pester you."

He was afraid of being hated by her.

Alice blinked her eyes and looked at Aldrich again. When Aldrich gradually became nervous, she said quickly with complicated magic: "You have really changed a lot."

In the past, he would not be so sensitive to predict what would bring her a burden, and would not take care of her like this.

She felt very comfortable like this, but she was also a little worried whether he was really depressed like this, and that's why his personality changed drastically.