Reborn Beggar

Chapter 7

Seeing that Murong was in a daze because of his own problem, the strength in his hands relaxed unconsciously, and slid down his arms, and he sat on the bed a little decadently, Su Yi let out a breath of relief.

At the same time, doubts arose.

"Wood, you...why do you suddenly... have this kind of thought?"

Murong was stunned for a moment, turned his head away, looked down at the corner of the wall, and said sullenly: "...I don't know."

He just didn't want to be separated from Su Yi, at least not to have the possibility of becoming strangers, and he didn't know why such an idea came up.

Could it be that he subconsciously felt that if something happened with Su Yi, they would have a relationship?

Thinking of this possibility, Murong sneered at his own stupidity in his heart, idiots wouldn't bother to use this method, and it might not be suitable for a woman, let alone a man?Or a poor, dirty man with a sour smell all over his body?Ji Yan is a playboy, he has a lot of fun, and so are his friends, he follows Ji Yan, does he see little?

And this way of using his body to keep the other party, he can't say anything, and he feels ashamed of himself for having such thoughts.

The warm air after the rain could not extinguish Murong's inner anxiety, and the deserted construction site was deathly silent. Su Yi saw that Murong was different from the usual silence, and used to touch the pockets of his clothes, which were empty. Only then did he remember that he had quit smoking for a long time.

Standing up and walking back and forth in the room twice, frowning, one hand clapped Murong's back, making a muffled sound, Murong jumped in shock and trembled.

Su Yi smiled triumphantly and said, "What are you thinking, dumb, let's go, the rain has stopped, let's go eat."

Murong was stunned for two seconds before realizing the meaning of Su Yi's words. He stabilized his mind, looked up and squinted at Su Yi, and said with an unbearable teasing tone: "Oh, brother Yi, you stupid duck, don't use such an ugly voice." Stimulate my fragile auditory nerves!"

Su Yi patted the back of Murong's head with one hand, and said without paying attention to his words, "Hurry up, I'm very hungry."

"Don't hit me on the head, scoundrel." Murong shouted complainingly, but got up quickly and followed Su Yi's footsteps.

The two of them deliberately ignored the awkward and anxious atmosphere. While feeling a little awkward, they also breathed a sigh of relief.

The air after the rain is a bit cool, the asphalt road is washed clean by the rain, with the unique dampness and refreshing after the rain, and there are still few people on the street.

The two beggars walking side by side on this road are particularly eye-catching, and everyone can't help but take a second look, while Su Yi and Murong have their own concerns, completely ignoring the curious scrutiny of others.

Although Murong didn't have an accurate answer on whether he liked him, Su Yi was relieved, but Murong's silence made Su Yi's relaxed mood tense again. Did he not like him or didn't realize the love in his heart?Or is it mistaking a dependency for a liking?Su Yi didn't know, but the facts didn't allow him to ignore it.

He has an instinctive desire to protect Murong, but he knows that this is not love, Murong just appears at the right time, arousing his desire to protect and survive.

He was betrayed by his family and love, and suddenly felt that everything was meaningless, but Murong's appearance made him realize that someone needs him, and how stupid it is for him to fend for himself.

They are needing and being needed, protecting and being protected, relying on and being relied on, and of course there is also a deep friendship, which is not a simple friendship, but a friendship of mutual need, mutual support, and mutual dependence. Love is single to draw conclusions, but Su Yi knows that there is no love between them.

If...Murong's feelings for him are not pure need and dependence, then their emotional balance will tilt one day, this is the most unacceptable thing for him.

No matter how deep Murong's affection for him is, he hopes to repay him with double the affection, but Dudu love cannot be forced, he does not want Murong to be wronged or hurt in the slightest, including himself.

Su Yi was very anxious about this unknown situation.

Murong was belatedly aware of the embarrassment and worry. He and Su Yi were almost inseparable. Now that Su Yi knew his sexual orientation, could he still lie down side by side with Su Yi calmly at night?Would Su Yi find him disgusting?

In the first case, he and Su Yi will become estranged, and this bond will gradually fade away, becoming like strangers.The second type of them will be strangers, and will make Su Yi hate him from the bottom of his heart, and even this time will be erased by him, and getting acquainted with him will become a stain in his life...

He was just guessing everything just now, but he made an unknown situation even worse, as if he accidentally pushed himself into a cliff, and there was an bottomless abyss underneath.

Murong was terrified and worried.

Murong didn't even know what the food tasted like. When he returned to the construction site, Su Yi sat by the bed in a daze. He leaned against the window in a daze, his hands unconsciously mixed together.

In their silence, the night fell quietly, and the darkness enveloped them, only the sound of the two breathing one after another in their ears.

In the dark and quiet space, the restless mood was infinitely enlarged. Murong felt that he would go crazy if he continued to keep silent, so he punched the concrete wall, turning the pain into motivation. Murong asked vigorously: "Is it really that disgusting?" ?”

There was deep anxiety in the fierce tone, after Murong asked, he held his breath and waited quietly for the answer. The beating heart in his body made him clearly aware of his anxiety, and it also reminded him deeply how important Su Yi is to him. .

When Murong punched the wall, Su Yi was deeply frightened, and Murong's question made him stunned for a few seconds before he could react...

The thoughts of the two were completely different. Su Yi mistakenly thought that Murong's silence was to sort out his feelings for him, and he waited silently for the answer.But Murong mistook his silence for disgust towards him...

He doesn't know much about the psychological process of homosexuality, but it must be a heavy torment, a feeling that cannot be expressed in words.In today's society, homosexuality is relatively more tolerant, but there is a lack of people who can truly accept it. Murong is a delicate and insecure person who cares about him. I didn't care about it.

He himself does not discriminate against homosexuality, and he would not hate this person even more if he were Murong. Thinking of the oolong they made and his mediocre worries, he couldn't help but chuckle.

"Laugh, what are you laughing at?" Murong was obviously surprised and couldn't react.

Su Yi walked up to Murong with a smile, and rubbed his head vigorously. Murong's hair was very long and hadn't been nourished and washed for a long time, so it was very uncomfortable to touch, but Su Yi liked this action very much.

"Why do I hate you? Do I seem to be such an unhappy person?...Besides, even if you are gay, it can't change the fact that you are wooden." Su Yi stopped laughing and said seriously.

Even if he couldn't see Su Yi's expression clearly, Murong could still feel the seriousness in Su Yi's words, as if the air was condensed, and Murong's heart slowly fell back to its original position, but he couldn't spit out any words.

He never thought that he would be accepted, but Su Yi accepted it so easily and declared that no matter what, he was him. Murong wanted to cry, for his silent tears in those years, for his fear in those years, for those years His struggles and self-loathing...

At this moment, Murong felt very wronged, so wronged that he wanted to cry loudly, and so angry that he wanted to take revenge on the society.

He had struggled desperately to escape the social misfit, and as a result, he remained alone.

He once loved deeply, gave up his life for love, and was willing to guard silently. Therefore, he only tasted the bitterness of love.

Although Murong's breathing was steady and his face was calm, Su Yi was still keenly aware of the turmoil in Murong's tranquil heart.

From Murong's careful treatment of this matter, it is not difficult to see Murong's struggle alone and the loneliness of these years. He still remembers Murong who cried hoarsely that night, as if he wanted to pull everything out of his body, causing him so much pain. What kind of pain is it that you can only breathe tightly by holding on to the driftwood?He couldn't figure it out, but he could feel the heart-wrenching pain from his trembling body.

Su Yi probably guessed that Murong had a crush on the man named Ji Yan, the name Murong whispered in his dream on the first night.

And Murong has been working hard to live after experiencing all this, and has not given up on himself. Su Yi admires it from the bottom of his heart, and suddenly figured it out.

If it wasn't for Murong's action to make him wake up, I'm afraid he wouldn't know whether he was dead or alive at this time, or he would be even more depraved.

"Brother Yi, thank you! It's great to meet you." After a long time, Murong whispered.

"Well, me too." Su Yi replied in a low voice.

Because of the rain, the two decided not to go out.

Tomorrow must be sunny, Murong thought silently in his heart, that night, he had no dreams until dawn.

It was indeed a sunny day when he woke up, but even the strong sunlight couldn't shine into his heart.

The two planned to go out for breakfast, then take a nap, have dinner and do things, but the plan couldn't keep up with the change.

As soon as they left the construction site, they saw a sleek red BMW parked there. A man was leaning against the front of the car, with one hand in his pocket, the other holding a document bag, and a cigarette in his mouth. He heard footsteps and squinted his eyes. them.

What shocked Murong was that he knew this person, and he threw a lot of cigarette butts at his feet, obviously he had been waiting for a long time, and the target was obviously not himself...

And at this moment, the other party is slowly walking towards them...