Reborn Beggar

Chapter 39

Impulse is called impulsive because it can move immediately.

But Su Yi wasn't around, and Murong couldn't move, so the impulse didn't last for a minute, and Murong completely calmed down, and on the contrary, he became more determined in some of his thoughts.

It doesn't matter whether Su Yi loves him or not.At least in Su Yi's life, he is a special existence, and Su Yi is also unique in his own life.

Murong felt that enough was really enough, what he got was really enough.

If he chooses to be with Su Yi, he thinks the chances are great, because Su Yi is by his side now, and he still has impulses towards him. Murong didn't want to deceive himself. Ripped off his pants.

If Su Yi didn't take the initiative, Murong would never do such a thing.

Murong felt that he could understand the feelings of the skinny man and the chubby man, their inseparable feelings of abandoning everything, but they were more aggressive and confident than him.

Murong doesn't believe in love. Although he has always played a persistent and somewhat sad and humble role in love, he really doesn't believe in love and dare not fight for it.

It's not that Murong doesn't love Su Yi, nor does it mean that his love is so shallow that he can separate at will, on the contrary, it's so deep that he can't bear to part.

But because of his deep love and because of his extreme rationality, Murong endured himself and planned to separate.

He couldn't bear to let Su Yi bear those eyes and those embarrassing words... Murong didn't know if he could get the same understanding from his parents as the skinny man and the others after hard work, but no matter what, this was an indelible scar in love. They will all bear this debt and unfilial piety for the rest of their lives.

Moreover, Su Yi may not only face the hurdle of his parents, because of his family background, the higher a person stands, the more wind and rain he will endure. This is an unchanging law.

Su Yi himself does not stand high, but he was destined to stand high since he was born. This kind of doom means that his words and deeds will be subject to some restrictions, unless he doesn't care about others at all, but even if Su Yi doesn't care, Murong can't do it. arrive.

Perhaps, a few years later, the person sitting here smoking and drinking will be Su Yi. Just thinking about it for a moment, Murong feels so uncomfortable that he doesn't know how to keep his heart beating, because it really hurts too much.

Murong would rather suffer himself than change Su Yi like this.He is rational, but he has no sense of security, so he is doomed not to have the courage to gamble.

Murong also couldn't tell whether he loved too great or too humble, loved too deeply or didn't know how to love.

Occasionally, Murong would also think crazily, to die together with Su Yi, that would be perfect, without looking at any facial expressions, the two of them are also consummated.

In the past, as long as there were signs of this, Murong would kill it and control himself not to think about it.

Maybe because he drank some wine today, Murong let this crazy idea run wild in his mind. Murong knew his extremes very early on, just like when he read novels, he once thought that only the novels of complete annihilation are the real perfection and end.

For a while, Murong frantically searched for novels in this area, but there were very few.It was because of the insignificance that Murong found out that his thoughts were abnormal.

Therefore, this idea is hidden by himself like his sexuality.

Murong thought a lot and was very confused.But he still kept his sense, because he knew that it was impossible for him to hurt Su Yi, so he indulged himself in random thinking. This was his bottom line.

Some people can bear the wind and rain but cannot take the initiative to meet the wind and rain. Murong probably belongs to this in terms of feelings, so he never thinks about getting it from the beginning to the end, and weighs it.

But the balance is not easy to grasp, which has formed such a very embarrassing situation now.

Murong felt that his mind had turned into two, because his mind was really too messy.

Murong here has one big head and two big ones, but the skinny one is much better, so it would be much better to find someone to talk to.

When he left the barbecue restaurant, his footsteps were a little unsteady, Murong thought to himself, he really drank a little too much today, but the skinny man who doesn't usually drink is fine.

The thin man drank twice as much wine as him, Murong thought with a twitching corner of his mouth.

Fatty forbids the thin man to drink, probably not because the thin man can't drink, but because he doesn't have so much wealth for him to drink.

Walking out of the shop, Murong shivered when the cold wind blew, and he regained consciousness a lot.

It didn’t feel like the air conditioner was blowing in the store. Only then did I realize that it was really cold. It was still snowing tonight, and the streets were undulating and a little bit white, with wheel tracks and footprints mixed in between.

Stepping on it, Murong can still hear the sound of snow squeezing, which has a sense of reality of stepping on the years.

At this moment, Murong really calmed down, thinking about what to do next.

Su Yi called home, saying that he had accepted the matter of his ex-girlfriend, which meant that Su Yi would not be with him as desperately as last time, and it was doubtful whether Su Yi would come back after returning.

When Su Yi left, Murong really didn't know where to go. It seemed that his life had always been blind. He used to be for Ji Yan, but now he was around Su Yi.

Murong is a person who is not ambitious but has some ability. Now his ambition is not unreasonable, but even if he has put in so much sweat and brainpower, he can still give up easily.

Just like now, taking care of his career is really out of his consideration, all he wants is not to live too poorly.

As a man, this is not good.But for a man with a gap in his heart, how can he devote himself wholeheartedly to his career?Human desire for warmth is a basic instinct.

In the mother's womb, why is the child curled up into a ball?Because of safety, because of warmth... Murong thought embarrassingly, he really loves himself.

I love it so much that I have learned to find reasons for myself.

But Ji Yan and Han Xin suddenly appeared here, and what they said showed that they had already grasped their current situation. In this case, he didn't think staying here was a good choice, but he went back to S Shuxiangmendi. City to stay at Han's house Can be regarded as an option.

From Su Yimin, that was the environment he was familiar with.

It is even more shameless to think that Ji Yan and Han Xin are married. In essence, they have a relationship. Now he still wears the skin of the youngest of the Han family.

While Murong was thinking, the skinny man suddenly burst into singing.

Murong suddenly felt that his thoughts had become miraculous. How could he have such thoughts in the past?

Looking sideways at the thin man singing loudly, Murong thought awkwardly, he must have become a talent after being with them for too long.

From 囧 to 囧, Murong was also infected by the poetic scene of the white expanse, and couldn't help humming a song softly and began to sing along with the thin man.

Murong's voice is thin, and his singing is particularly sharp. Murong is also a person who doesn't know the rhythm, and his singing is always out of tune, so his singing is really not good.

Murong is also an introverted and sensitive person, knowing that he can't sing well, he just listens to the song and doesn't sing, but now that the love is here, those worries seem to have disappeared.

Feather-like snow fell from the sky, and with the wind brushing past me, I had the illusion of melting into nature, as if I was a snow particle running in mid-air, looking for my destination with an elegant posture, at this moment Murong felt nothing. No.

The reality of the void, the joy that seems unattainable yet unreal.Murong thought that so many injuries might be just to save that little beauty, thinking this way, Murong felt very sweet and satisfied in his heart, so sweet that he couldn't help but curl the corners of his mouth, revealing two shallow dimples.

Standing at the gate of the community, Su Yi had already seen Murong, a boy who was running and running in the snow with his hands and feet dancing. His hair was a little wet and stuck to his forehead in strips. There were snow particles on his head, which looked very wasteful. The tip of his nose was red. Sporadic snow piled up on his shoulders, his eyes were shining with water, and there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, as if he had got the whole world.

Su Yi looked a little dazed, so dazed that he forgot the girl in his arms.

The thin man told Su Yi not to go home for dinner in the afternoon, and Su Yi saw that the thin man was not in a good mood, so he agreed.

In the evening, he had dinner with Xiaopang and watched TV, but the thin man and Murong hadn't come back yet, and he didn't answer the phone, so he was a little worried.

It was snowing outside again, and the two of them couldn't stay at home, so they wanted to pick them up at the gate of the community, but just as they opened the door, they saw Huahua hovering at the stairs.

Su Yi froze for a moment, Xiaopang's eyes wandered back and forth between the two, and the atmosphere seemed a little strangely calm.

It was obvious that Huahua wanted to come to him, but she was a little hesitant, but she had already met, and Huahua didn't hold back, and when they saw the two going out, they said they wanted to go together.

The three of them walked to the entrance of the community in a calm and strange manner. Xiaopang consciously stood a little farther away, because it was snowing and very cold at this time.As a man's instinctive sympathy for women and a gentleman, Su Yi took off his coat to Huahua, as if touching the scene, Huahua's eyes suddenly turned red.

Because of this situation, she was expecting at that time, but now she only wanted an answer.

Even if she is a country girl, she still has her pride. When she is rejected, she always wants to know the reason. I have to say that she still has the last hope in her heart. Every girl is very persistent to her dream.

Hua Huahong asked Su Yi why, Su Yi felt that there was no need to hide it, and it was really cold outside, so he couldn't let the girl catch a cold, but he couldn't make himself sick either.

There is nothing wrong with Huahua Su Yi asking himself, they were the one-man show from beginning to end, in order to end this matter earlier, Su Yi said directly that he had a lover.

This result was unexpected for Huahua. She thought that Su Yi might not like Aunt Shen's attitude, because she didn't like it either, but she didn't show it because she developed a habit of obeying adults since she was a child.Even if it’s not this, then the problem may be her, people are not perfect, or many contacts will feel that the two are very suitable, or there is really no room for it, then she also wants to fight for it by herself.

It's just that this result made Huahua feel that her struggle was very humble, she couldn't help but shed tears of grievance, and she would boldly throw herself into Su Yi's arms and cry, because women always hope to find a strong arm as their harbor.

There are some things, just so coincidental, Su Yi who made a mistake looked at Murong in a daze, but Murong saw a man and a woman embracing each other in the snowy sky flying all over the sky.

The smile on Murong's face was like broken glass, shattered into pieces without leaving a trace and scattered all over the place.

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