back to college

Xu He sat in the car and threw a burnt cigarette butt through the half-open window.Cigarette butts had been thrown on the ground outside the car window at some point, and the half-closed car window was already filled with thick smoke, which was so dull that it was suffocating.Xu He has been leaning halfway on the car seat, his face is full of exhaustion, I don't know if it is because the lights at night are too dim, under the weak light, Xu He's face is a little dead gray, especially It seemed that those eyes were bloodshot red, and the whole person looked a little cautious.

He still can't believe his eyes, these are all true...

Boy friend? !

It's ridiculous to think of it! !

The person who is willing to take over is Lin Yi, who has always been known as a playboy. It's ironic... But the most ironic thing is that they just passed in front of his car so clearly...

At that moment, there was only a buzzing blankness in his mind, as if he didn't know anything in such a simple moment, he didn't know what to do.

However, he clearly knew that he was stiff all over, but he couldn't control himself and wanted to rush up quickly, tearing the hands of those two people apart, tearing them apart, tearing them apart!At that moment, all the irrepressible anger almost swallowed him up.

He only felt that he hated him, but he didn't know that what drove him crazy was that he didn't know who to hate first...was it Tang Xiaoli, or Lin Yi...or himself...he didn't know what to do What do you mean……

Therefore, he could only sit in the car stupidly, waiting desperately.

Then, foolishly wait for them to come back happily, wait for them to go upstairs, wait for them to close the door and go to bed...

Xu He clenched his hands unconsciously, as if this could stop his trembling body from anger.

He felt that he was really going crazy, even just thinking about Tang Xiaoli lying naked in someone's arms... made him want to kill someone.

He felt so stuffy and out of breath that he felt like he was on the verge of death.

However, because of the severe pain, it was clear.He knew that he hated him so much that every joint hurt, as if his heart had been pried open suddenly by someone, revealing a big gap, all the ugliness was exposed in the air, and those who were in a state of embarrassment could only be slaughtered.

He couldn't figure it out, he couldn't figure it out very much, why, why was he so nervous and... jealous...

……

With cold hands trembling slightly, he finally picked up the cigarette case, only to find that it was empty after opening it.The cigarette case with trembling hands was crumpled into a ball, but he clenched it tightly and refused to let it go, but the knuckles of his fingers turned white because of clenching too hard, and the veins burst out.

He really can't stand it! !

It was getting darker and darker, but Tang Xiaoli hadn't come back yet.

He felt that he was about to be unable to hold on any longer. This feeling was tormenting. He kept stalking the softest part of his heart. He didn't dare to move, for he was afraid that if he moved a little, his whole body would fall apart... the whole body was clearly in the ice cellar , yet feel burned.

How could he miss Tang Xiaoli so presumptuously without a bottom line? This obvious yearning and obvious hatred caused Xu He's last rationality to disintegrate little by little.

These are not what he wants, who is he, Xu He, how could he have passed such evil thoughts, and he is still like a bereaved dog trying to curry favor with a liar who has known him for a few months.

His reason does not allow it, and his last self-esteem does not allow it. If that is the case, he feels that he is too pathetic, and he feels ironic when he thinks about it!

He promised himself that such a stupid thing would not happen again in this life.

He also swore an oath that if he met Tang Xiaoli again, he would definitely get it all back!

But, now why...

He felt as if he had fallen into a swamp, and he could only drown in it bit by bit, never seeing the light of day again.

Quiet breathing, nothing else.

Xu He still closed his eyes tightly, and his whole body was tense.

His only thought now is, wait.

Waiting for Tang Xiaoli to come back, he really doesn't know what will happen next, he doesn't dare to think, he doesn't know what will happen to him when he sees Tang Xiaoli again... Is it possible that he can still maintain the current situation? Some calm?

……

"Sir, sir..." Suddenly there were a few knocks on the window.

Xu He sat up straight, his eyes were bloodshot.

It was dawn before he knew it, but the person still didn't come back.

"Please back up your car a little bit, the trucks from the moving company I hired won't be able to get in." The lady standing outside the door smiled politely.

Xu He's lips were a little white, chapped and peeled, and some blood had even leaked out, but because of drying, it turned red and black.After one night, Xu He seemed to have aged several years, as if he had lost his former vigor and arrogance, and there was not much left, only his head was still held high, showing the master's last His bones are strong, but his gray skin and the corners of his lips seem extraordinarily silent and hollow.

Xu He didn't make a sound, but it took a lot of effort to start the fire, turned the steering wheel and left.

Instead of going home, he went straight to the company.

The sun was clearly shining on his body, but he couldn't feel the meaningful warmth. He felt as if he had been soaked in the cold pool for a long, long time.

Tang Xiaoli yawned, and simply went back to the house to tidy up, then hurriedly dared to go to the company, and managed not to be late.Last night, Lin Yi obviously wanted to come back after dinner, but Lin Yi suddenly said that he wanted to go to the countryside to see his aunt, so he had to accompany him to buy a train ticket.However, after finally queuing up to buy a ticket, he said he wanted to bring something back, so he had to run errands.

After receiving it, the two of them worked hard for most of the night without knowing it.

Later, the two simply slept in a nearby hotel for a few hours. He wanted to ask Lin Yi to catch the train in the morning, but he insisted that it was in the afternoon, and waved to him lazily, just telling him to go home first.He would go back in a few days, and then he fell asleep again as soon as he turned around. I don't know if he was careless, but he always felt that it was strange that Lin Yi suddenly had an aunt.

I don't know if it's because he didn't have a good rest, but even when waiting for the elevator, Tang Xiaoli's eyelids kept twitching, coupled with the yawning, he really felt that his physical strength was a bit behind, did he need to start Work out.

When Tang Xiaoli was about to push the door, he realized that the door of the office had been ajar.Can't help being surprised, could it be that Xu He came to work?Thinking of this, when his hand touched the doorknob, he still couldn't help looking forward to seeing him.

Taking a deep breath, he slowly opened the door.

Sure enough, Xu He was sitting on his leather chair with his head slightly lowered, as if he was resting.

Tang Xiaoli thought Xu He was sleeping, so he entered the office slightly sideways, and closed the door softly.

As soon as he walked to his desk, when he was pulling the chair, he inadvertently bumped into the book next to his hand. "Pa——" a moderate voice suddenly broke the deadness in the office.

"...You, here you are." The voice was hoarse.

Xu He slowly opened his eyes, his eyes were red, and his chapped lips were bleeding again because of the sudden opening of his mouth to speak.

It was the first time for Tang Xiaoli to see Xu He like this, and he couldn't help being startled.

He thought Xu He was very strange, and wanted to ask what happened, but when the words came to his lips, he didn't know whether to speak or not.So, finally nodded to Xu He.

Xu He still looked at Tang Xiaoli quietly, but unconsciously clenched his hands tighter and tighter under the table, his voice cracked as if he was about to tear it apart: "I heard from Secretary Li... that you want to resign?"

"...En." Tang Xiaoli didn't expect that it would reach Xu He's ears so quickly, but Lin Yi understood what he said so clearly, it's only a matter of time before he leaves, maybe it's better for everyone to leave sooner.

"Is there another tall branch to climb?" Xu He looked up at Tang Xiaoli, his voice trembling slightly, but he still couldn't help but smile.

Tang Xiaoli was startled, Xu He's smile made him feel a little uncomfortable, it was obviously just a smile, but he was inexplicably terrified, he even felt that Xu He was going to be broken now.

"Why didn't you answer?" Xu He got up slowly and walked towards Tang Xiaoli step by step.

"It's nothing, I just want to stay somewhere else." Tang Xiaoli lowered his head, meeting Xu He's eyes inadvertently, and he felt a bone-chilling coldness.

"Really..." Xu He said slowly and hoarsely.

Suddenly, Xu He grabbed Tang Xiaoli and slammed him against the wall, clamping Tang Xiaoli's chin with his left hand, staring at him fiercely, as if he wanted to swallow him alive: "Why do I feel that you are going to climb up to that boy Lin Yi... Why didn't I see it before, you, Tang Xiaoli, are so cheap that you can do it, but this man owes you..." Xu Heyi As he spoke in short pauses, his red eyes were no longer sane.

"You're talking nonsense!" Tang Xiaoli looked at Xu He in shock. He even felt that the person standing in front of him was another person. He even had the illusion that Xu He was crazy.

Xu He suddenly laughed, but that smile was like a demon: "Nonsense, you will know if you try it!"

As he spoke, he exerted all his body force and pressed Tang Xiaoli tightly. The veins on his right hand protruded and imprisoned Tang Xiaoli's hands. It is more appropriate to say that Tang Xiaoli's lips were bitten rather than kissed.Xu He seemed to be tearing Tang Xiaoli to pieces, biting desperately and almost distortedly, the dry and chapped lips had already leaked the smell of blood mixed with Tang Xiaoli's bitten lips, his mouth was filled with blood and Strong smell of tobacco.

Tang Xiaoli thought Xu He was crazy!

No matter how he twisted, Xu He's strength was terrifying, like a beast that had only been stimulated, no matter how much he resisted, he couldn't compete with it.The lower forehead and the corners of the lips were tearing away, and the repeatedly stirred mouth seemed to be robbed of all the oxygen, leaving only the pungent smell of blood.

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Today, it's even later~

61 Magic Obstacle 2

Xu He's eyes were red and bloodshot, but his almost ferocious face was occupied by raging desire.As if going crazy, he didn't care about Tang Xiaoli's struggle at all, just cursing himself and continuing to move his hands. The soft and slippery tongue lingered on Tang Xiaoli's neck like a greedy snake. Licking is not enough, as if what is in my arms at the moment is the best delicacy in the world, it makes people want to stop.

The sultry air was sprayed on the skin he had just licked, and suddenly, a cool and numb feeling came over his head, and that feeling instantly penetrated into his blood like a tide, Tang Xiaoli Couldn't help but let out a slight tremor.

Xu He seemed to be very satisfied with Tang Xiaoli's reaction, he bit his neck harder, rubbed Tang Xiaoli's shirt up and down with his hand drill.

"Bitch... people, are you happy? Eh? How dare you say, don't... huh... don't look at your current slut. You really want to itch your back, you need a man... don't bother to seduce anyone anymore ... I ... cover you," Xu He panted hoarsely, intermittently with burning heat: "I don't mind having sex with you... At least you are cleaner than selling ass..." Xu He was as vulgar as possible Cursing, his red eyes were full of crazy ridicule, as if only in this way could the jealous madness in his heart be relieved a little, and it would no longer be as painful as a hundred insects eating his heart.

Tang Xiaoli looked at him in astonishment, before he even had time to digest what he just said, at this moment, there was a piercing pain in his hands, as if they were about to split open.

Xu He suddenly twisted Tang Xiaoli's two arms violently, and turned the person over with one hand without hesitation, so that Tang Xiaoli had to turn his back to him, and his arms were twisted vigorously on his back. Behind him, Xu He clasped his wrist behind him with one hand.Pressing against the cold wall in front of him, the sudden chill made Tang Xiaoli panic.

Xu He was just panting heavily, the scorching heat in his lower abdomen was becoming more and more unbearable, he just wanted to take Tang Xiaoli here hard, whether he taught him a lesson or was greedy, he couldn't care less, Just want to invade hard... hard.

Almost impatiently, he tore off Tang Xiaoli's pants, put his arms around Tang Xiaoli's waist, and made him move away from the wall, get closer to him, and get closer.

At this moment, Tang Xiaoli looked extremely embarrassed and unspeakably erotic.The upper body was neatly dressed in a suit and tie, but the lower body was almost naked, and the trousers were forced to slide down to the ankle, and Xu He squeezed into one leg forcibly, and Xu He held his legs apart.But the whole body was standing at an almost slant, only the face was pressed tightly against the cold wall.

"Bastard... Let go, let me go!!" Tang Xiaoli's terrified voice was suppressed desperately, but the voice was sharp and trembling but seemed more and more powerless.

"Hmph, I know you've long wanted to be terrified by your superiors. Seeing your obscene look at me all day long, you thought I didn't know what to do. You just wanted to seduce me and make me so... Fuck you, you're still not grateful for satisfying you today..." Xu He laughed and cursed, staring at Tang Xiaoli's pale and ferocious face.Saying that, he effortlessly untied the belt and pulled down some underwear, releasing the lower body that was already as hard as iron...

The impatient one simply expanded, and impatiently stepped forward fiercely.

"Ah..." The severe pain made Tang Xiaoli unable to restrain himself from shouting for a moment.

Xu He, who has already lost his last bit of rationality, can't care about anything else. He only knows that he feels so comfortable and warm now... as if he has found a long-lost sense of security.

Those weird behaviors that didn't belong to him tortured him all night, as if he had suddenly found the source of venting, he didn't know anything anymore, it seemed that his world had closed his feelings.The only thing he wants now is to pay back all his discomforts twice... All the debts and feelings that upset him over the years will be returned to him this time.

it hurts...

Although it was not the first time he had experienced human affairs, this kind of pain was still unbearable to Tang Xiaoli. Not only did his body hurt, but his heart seemed to have been pierced by a thorn, and he couldn't pull it out, but he kept bleeding.However, with the rhythm of the people behind him, the body swings became larger and larger, and he felt that his strength of resistance was gradually taken away, leaving only the forced weak shaking.

The heart is obviously more and more painful.

"... that's enough... sketching, don't... um..." Tang Xiaoli leaned against the wall, his eyes closed, but the pain on his face was self-evident.

Xu He didn't hear anything at all, just lowered his head and kissed Tang Xiaoli's neck repeatedly, not like a real person, irrational at all.

"Xu He, why did you suddenly cancel your leave..." The office door was suddenly pushed open.

……

Xu Yibin looked at the messy scene in front of him in surprise, all the words he should say below were stuck in his throat at the moment of the impact, but he just stood outside the door in disbelief, watching this scene in a daze, his whole body Completely stupid.

Xu He was also panicked, and turned to look at Xu Yibin.

"You guys..." Xu Yibin could only be astonished, and looked at Tang Xiaoli under Xu He with hatred.

When the door was opened, a cool breeze came from outside the door, Xu He's madness just now suddenly found a little reason, and he hurriedly used his body to block Tang Xiaoli.

"Unexpectedly, the surnamed Tang is really capable. I am really impressed today. This place is willing to accompany you to the end. Even a man is really shameless... No wonder, Xu He treats you..."

"Get out!!!" Xu He's blue veins burst out, and he roared

Xu Yibin rarely saw Xu He get so angry, wishing he would kill him if he said one more word.He hurriedly stopped talking, and although he was unwilling, he turned around and quickly took him to the door.

"..." Xu He stopped, still holding Tang Xiaoli in his arms, and couldn't help stroking Tang Xiaoli's slightly trembling back with pity.

The sudden sound made Tang Xiaoli's last bit of resistance shattered with a bang.He knew how embarrassing he was now...how ugly...but his eyes were still tightly closed, and he didn't even dare to breathe loudly.

He felt ashamed.

Seemingly aware of something wrong with Tang Xiaoli, Xu He didn't move any further, slowly pulled out his lower body, and slowly let go of Tang Xiaoli's hand.

But he still hugged Tang Xiaoli tightly, his red eyes receded slightly, and his reason became much clearer.But he didn't know what to say... In fact, when he entered Tang Xiaoli, he knew that nothing happened between him and Lin Yi, otherwise he wouldn't have not even a hickey all over his body.However, he just couldn't bear it, he really couldn't bear this long torture anymore, the uncontrollable sulking was accumulated in his heart, and he had to relieve it...

"...Xu...he..." Tang Xiaoli closed his eyes and shouted in a trembling voice.

"..." Xu He hugged Tang Xiaoli silently, and couldn't help but put his face on his back, using his tall body to cling to the embarrassed Tang Xiaoli.

"We really don't, goodbye, I feel very tired..."

……

Tang Xiaoli's slightly weak voice even trembled with fear.But those words were obviously only in a low voice, but Xu He felt that the voice was full of determination at the moment.

This was the first time Xu He saw Tang Xiaoli like this. He was obviously fragile as if he was about to be destroyed, but he stubbornly maintained the final bottom line without any compromise.

He has never been afraid of anything, but this time... a little guilty.

The chapped lips opened and opened again, but in the end every syllable was released, and a panic crack appeared on the face.My palms are slightly sweaty.

"I... admit that I still like you." Tang Xiaoli lowered his head to the wall, his hands were firmly pawing at the wall, his nails started to turn white because of too much force, his voice seemed to be broken, and he uttered every word from his lips and tongue Squeezed out some remaining voices, but it made people feel sad: "...but, I've had enough... really... I can't take it anymore." Tang Xiaoli said calmly, keeping his mouth shut. Tears suddenly flowed from the corners of his eyes, tears and sadness seemed to be separated, they just flowed slowly, silently without even choking, even he didn't notice it.

"..."

"...I am timid, and I have been afraid of things since I was a child. When I was young, the boys in the neighbor's house thought I was in the way, so they didn't let me follow at all. In fact, when I think about it carefully, I have been alone since I was a child, but at that time because I was too I was small, but I didn't feel uncomfortable... Later, I was afraid of being rejected, so I seldom bothered others. I went to school, and I still went to and from school alone. Then, I fell in love with Furukihara, and the taboo has not changed. I have to live alone... But these years, I feel uncomfortable, and I want to talk to someone warm-hearted," Tang Xiaoli said silently, sucking his nose, tears streaming down his cheeks: "...then It's you... I thought it was a chance..."

Tang Xiaoli wiped the tears and snot from his face fiercely with his hand, and sighed: "However, it's the same if you take it."

Slowly, but with all the strength in his body, he broke off Xu He's arms holding him, and even lifted his pants in a bit of embarrassment. The base of his ears were burned red because of this, and there were still fragile tears on his face. He didn't have time to dry it, but he Without the slightest compromise: "... If, you think that I, Tang Xiaoli... can still be regarded as your Xu He's friend, and we still have a little bit of affection, I beg you, really don't see each other again. "With the back of his hand, he wiped away the tear stains on his face fiercely, and his face was flushed red from rubbing.

Because the back still hurts, I was a little awkward when I walked, I walked to my desk silently, took out the crumpled resignation letter in the briefcase, and quietly put it on the desk.Then, without saying anything, he bowed his head and left.

In the quiet office, only Xu He was left standing in place, and he could even hear a needle drop, but he couldn't hear his breathing.There was still no expression on the pale face, but the scarlet eyes had returned to their original black and white.However, Xu He couldn't help but his whole body was stiff and trembling all the time, his chapped lips were still opened and closed, and he said something that he couldn't even hear.

I don't know if it was because it was too quiet, but after a long time, like a long time, Xu He's stiff body suddenly moved, and he squatted on the ground slowly, covering his face with his hands tightly, shrugging his shoulders slightly, and sending out some subtle sounds. The sound of sobbing intermittently seemed to be absent, as if the last tenacity in my heart was completely destroyed, and the panic filled my heart was like a tide, I couldn't breathe, my heart couldn't beat, and the pain was so painful that I couldn't fly.

The author has something to say: This time, we won’t turn the tables and say that I have ravaged Xiaoxu, hahaha (please praise, let’s go~~)