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Sometimes, people's feelings are really subtle.In many cases, it is not even necessary to say it out loud, so that the person concerned can truly realize the truth of the facts. Sometimes those sixth senses that seem to be abstruse and abstruse can properly act as a preventive injection, allowing people to see the subtle meaning in advance. strange.

Of course, this is also true for Tang Xiaoli and Xu Yibin.

When Xu Yibin saw Tang Xiaoli again, the almost instinctive sense of resistance and disgust suddenly appeared without warning, whether it was from the heart or just annoyed him for no reason Neither is clear.But there is one thing that he is very clear about, that is, in his subconscious mind, he has to admit that he is actually a little afraid of this man named Tang Xiaoli.

Over the years, he had given up on Xu He, but he couldn't find anyone more suitable for him, so he chose to come back.When he left, he acquiesced and even condoned and accepted the fact that Xu He had many bed partners and pornographic news....Because he has always known that these are just a play on the occasion.These people are either spending it for money, or it's just a personal game of unilateral preference, but none of these have anything to do with feelings, let alone a hypocritical way of saying "love".

Acting on the spot, each taking what he needs, it seems that there has always been a rule, if you meet, you will come, if you don't, you will leave. He has always been sure that Xu He can't go far, and he can't leave him.Even, he chose to leave again.

That's why he boldly carried out his academic research abroad, turning a blind eye to these things.

However, it is different now...

At this time, the man standing in front of him, he still clearly remembered his appearance after many years.

Obviously, it always gives people a feeling that is so pale that they can't even be remembered, but it is so contradictory that people can't forget the friendship, as if they have been chronically poisoned and integrated into the bone marrow.

He knew that the scary thing about this man was precisely because of this.

Therefore, he had no choice but to choose a small method that he disdained.

Thinking back, if he hadn't written the denunciation letter to the police station, this person had to leave temporarily, he really didn't dare to think about how many victories he could have saved by letting Xu He and him continue to develop, maybe... only the leftovers ...

Later, this person disappeared without warning.Xu He's loss, sadness, and resentment were all in his heart... He carefully comforted him, hoping that time would dilute everything.Sure enough, the wish came true, and Xu He gradually seemed to have figured it out, and stopped trying to make ends meet.Their relationship suddenly returned to the original place... Although there were flaws, at least it was a good start.

He thought that this person would never appear in the life he had planned step by step... Now it seems that he guessed wrong!It's not the time for him to completely let go of the heart of the embankment, otherwise he doesn't know how many winning chips he still has.

Regardless of whether this man named Tang Xiaoli really likes Xu He, or whether the two are really in love with each other, he will never stop there, he will not allow anyone to plan his perfect life plan.

No one can!

In the past, he was able to make Tang Xiaoli leave suddenly once, but this time he... as usual, can do it!

"Hello," Xu Yibin reached out his hand politely to hold Tang Xiaoli's, with a gentle smile on his face, "I'm grateful for your taking care of Xu He these days, and I thank you for Xu He."

Tang Xiaoli felt his palms tremble, but he still nodded instinctively.

He naturally understood what this sentence meant?

Xu Yibin's simple words were emphatically conveyed to Tang Xiaoli, Xu He belonged to him, the high police officer.Since he was able to express his thanks on Xu He's full authority, he acted as if he was a master, and gave a warning to those who coveted him with self-knowledge.

For the person in front of me.

Tang Xiaoli still vaguely remembered that he came to look for him more than four years ago.

Although he had already removed his black-framed eyes, he couldn't hide a trace of shrewdness in his gestures.All the signs showed that the relationship between Xu He and his uncle was extraordinary. Of course, he would not simply think that the two uncles and nephews were so close and possessive only because of their good relationship.

Xu Yibin's intentional or unintentional hostility was clearly declaring his position, allowing him to return to the position he should be in.

Tang Xiaoli didn't say much, but slightly staggered his body and looked in Xu He's direction.

He didn't know why he did this, it seemed that he was determined to seek proof, or he found something on Xu He's face that made him stand.

But it's a pity that Xu He didn't seem to notice his anxious state of mind after watching Kung Fu for a long time.

He just talked to Xu Yibin with a smile in the corner of his eyes, and didn't even look at Tang Xiaoli again.

Tang Xiaoli sat quietly in a corner, but he felt panicked in his heart, a little bit hopeless.

With Xu Yibin's sudden appearance, it seemed that many things were out of control and began to tilt...He suddenly had a feeling that he was no longer delusional to control everything. He felt that the last peace between him and Xu He...would become Difficult to maintain.

These days, it was really as he expected.

As soon as Xu He changed his normal routine, he began to dislike coming to the office less often. Most of the work was handed over to Xu Ran. He seemed to give himself another long vacation to enjoy life.Even if he came to the office occasionally, he didn't stay for a long time, but he just gave some simple orders and left in a hurry.

Tang Xiaoli was suddenly left alone in the huge office.

It seemed more and more empty, boring, and anxious.

Tang Xiaoli took the title of Xu He's personal secretary and parachuted into Xu's business.

Whether the position is high or not, because it is estimated that the whole company does not have an accurate answer for what project he is responsible for. He will occasionally go out with Xu He to discuss business and run errands. take over.To say that his position is low, in fact, it is not low, because Xu He is the only person who can tell him what to do.Coupled with the fact that He Xuhe is in the same office where he apparently works, Tang Xiaoli's career orientation is even more vague and confusing.

As a result, some of the people here are envious, some are jealous, and some are ignorant...but they lack closeness.

Tang Xiaoli has been working here for so many days, everyone is just nodding acquaintances, because he is in the general manager's office, which is not a place where everyone can come in at any time, and they are alienated from each other.In addition, in the same office as the general manager, people are even more reluctant to talk to Tang Xiaoli, for fear that if they are not careful, they will be reported as a small report without knowing it.

So, normally, Tang Xiaoli just got close to Xu He, and at first he didn't feel that the time was too long or boring.

However, in the last few days, he really realized what was completely isolated!

When he commutes to and from get off work on time, there is nothing to do alone, and those boring things are magnified by the non-displaying ones.As time passed, it gradually became a kind of torture. He had nothing to do and no one to talk to.How to pass the time has become the only thing he needs to think about right now.

Recently, he became obsessed with reading. He went to the library alone and bought a lot of books.

So when the latter two went to work, they would put two or three books in their briefcases, and then he would sit in the office and read, go make lunch alone, and then wait to get off work.

Sometimes, he also finds it funny, if he works like this until he retires, wouldn't he make money.Except, once in a while it gets a little boring when I'm alone.

Xu He's sudden change can be said to be without warning, deliberate, and contrived!And it seems like everything is supposed to be like this...

This made Tang Xiaoli occasionally hold his chin and think about some things when he was tired from reading, and it was all about him, about Xu He, and about Xu Yibin who suddenly appeared, and sometimes it was between the three of them. question between.

He would think, what chances would he have if he went all out by himself?Will you win, will you lose?If he lost, how would he face Xu He...

When you calm down, people always want to write messy things.

Sometimes, even thinking about Tang Xiaoli would feel ridiculous, and would laugh out loud by himself.The empty office was suddenly filled with laughter, which seemed very strange.

However, there was one thing he didn't want to compromise on.

That is, he still calls Xu He every day.

Before the fight, he would tell himself that it was a routine, to give him a chance to find his way back... In short, there are all kinds of excuses, no matter what time he can always find something to convince himself, and then hang up Xu He on time every night In the last phone call, even he himself only found out recently that he might be a bit of a demon.

Simply, okay.

Every time Xu He answered the phone, the overly calm voice made Tang Xiaoli calm down in an instant after being full of fantasies. The moment he opened his mouth, the phone turned into an innocuous greeting. He couldn't tell that he missed Xu He. The last self-esteem he could maintain now, he didn't want to lose even the last point so quickly.

The unnutritious words on the phone finally stopped in Xu He's long silence.

Tang Xiaoli didn't know what to say, and so did Xu He, just listening to each other's breathing. Isn't this kind of phone call too wasteful?Tang Xiaoli, who was lying on the desk and folded the books, also said that he simply packed up and got off work.

Today, Tang Xiaoli didn't call Xu He again, but simply sent a text message.

Text messages are not a waste of time at all. He just ordered the instant noodles here, and he also received three words from Xu He.

Lift the lid of the pot, hold the pot and start eating.

Just as Tang Xiaoli was eating instant noodles snoringly, his cell phone rang suddenly.

Hearing the sound, he almost trembled.Putting down the pot, he hurriedly started looking for his mobile phone, but when he found it and saw the caller ID, the previous excitement suddenly stopped.

All that was left was to lazily press the answer button, put the phone on his left shoulder sideways, and pick up the pot of noodles with his free hand while listening.

"Hey, Xiaoli, what are you doing?" Zhao Jun's voice came out of the phone in a cadenced voice, and he could hear that he was extremely excited now, and couldn't help but raise his voice a bit.It hurts people's ears.

"Eat noodles." Tang Xiaoli sipped his noodles and replied puffy.

"Tsk tsk tsk...Are you sure you are still from this world? Such a beautiful night is so boring. How boring is it to eat noodles at home alone?"

Tang Xiaoli swallowed the noodle soup with his neck up, and thanked him casually.To show that he does somewhat agree with Zhao Jun's point of view.

"Forget it, look at you poor." Another burst of laughter came from Zhao Jun's side: "Our company has a party tonight, will you come?"

"I've already resigned, so forget it." Tang Xiaoli felt that he was more sensible.

"Don't, it's the manager who asked me to call you, saying that the profit this time is so good that the target of nearly half a year has been completed ahead of schedule, it's all for the benefit of your current boss, so I especially asked me to invite you here, and it's okay. It’s a good get-together for everyone.”

"I've already eaten, so I don't want to go." Tang Xiaoli picked up the last bit of shredded egg in the bowl, wiped his mouth, and walked to the kitchen.

Apparently, Zhao Jun didn't give up that easily, and said bluffingly: "Hey, I don't care, we won't have dinner if you don't come." Then, he said the address in a daze, and then hung up the phone directly.

Tang Xiaoli sighed while holding the phone.

In the end, he still couldn't resist Zhao Jun's bluffing, so he changed his clothes and took a taxi to the place Zhao Jun said.

Sure enough, when the door was opened, none of the people at the table had been served.

She was really waiting for him!Tang Xiaoli was a little surprised.

Although Tang Xiaoli left the company, the people in the previous company were good, and the relationship between them was very good.In addition, the boss said that the salary increase was due to Tang Xiaoli's relationship, so the former colleagues of the company were even more enthusiastic when they saw Tang Xiaoli, so when Tang Xiaoli sat down, the greetings and the voices expressing missing made him silent for a long time Tang Xiaoli couldn't take it easy.

However, he still felt that this trip was not in vain, at least he felt very happy and warm.

The meal was very lively. When there were many people, you would say something to each other. The time passed quickly, and of course I ate a lot without knowing it.Many female colleagues gritted their teeth and said today was really indulgent when they left. Of course Tang Xiaoli did too. As a man, of course he ate too much, but drank a little too much.Although he drank some wine, but because it was beer and because he had eaten some food, Tang Xiaoli could still bear it.It's just that his face was flushed. Zhao Jun obviously drank a lot of white beer. Naturally, no one could bear it. When he was walking, he was a little bit wobbly, wobbling like an alarm clock, swaying back and forth.

Manager Zhang dropped by the car to drop off a few. As for Zhao Jun, because he was not on the way, he handed it over to Tang Xiaoli, who was still sober.It is a bit difficult to stop traffic in this area, so I have to go to the intersection as a last resort.

So Tang Xiaoli dragged Zhao Jun forward, and Zhao Jun wobbled along with Tang Xiaoli. The two looked like a pair of drunks, and people who passed by were afraid to avoid it.

Just as the two of them staggered forward, Tang Xiaoli accidentally saw Xu He miraculously on the opposite street.

Today's Xu He is not wearing the usual tied suit, because he looks much more relaxed in casual clothes. It seems that he has not seen Xu He like this for a long time. His drooping hair hangs down naturally, revealing a handsome and clean side. face, the memory seems to overlap slightly inadvertently, even a little nostalgic.

Tang Xiaoli was hesitating whether to shout out or not, but he saw a person running in a hurry not far away!

The man was still holding a grocery bag from the supermarket because he ran in a panic, shaking with his footsteps.Xu Yibin was wearing clothes similar to Xu He's. From a distance, he felt that the age difference between the two was not much different, but they seemed to blend together.

"Why so slow?" Xu He was obviously a little impatient.

"I picked some of your favorite things, and I'll cook them when I go back." Xu Yibin ignored Xu He's complaints.

Xu He couldn't say anything, he was about to leave, but Xu Yibin suddenly stopped him, he put his arms around Xu He's neck in a hurry, and made out with him.

Gradually, as the kiss got deeper and deeper, Xu He's hand touched Xu Yibin's waist unconsciously...

Because it was late at night, there were very few people passing by.

Such a presumptuous and bold kiss still makes people feel blushing and heartbeating.Both were slightly out of breath when they parted.

"Aren't you angry?" Xu Yibin asked.

Xu He shook his head helplessly with a smile, with rare doting in his eyes, he pulled Xu Yibin away.

Tang Xiaoli stood on the opposite side, and the shadow of the book that fell down simply blocked him, completely covering up the embarrassment on his face. He stood where he was, like a mouse hiding at the entrance of a hole, not daring to come out.It wasn't until he saw the two people in front of him walking away that he dared to take a tentative step forward.

The hand supporting Zhao Jun trembled slightly, and his eyes were sore and sore, as if they were about to burst.It seems like I haven't felt this way for a long time...

Tang Xiaoli was still carefully supporting the drunk and unconscious Zhao Jun, and walked forward step by step, but it was getting slower and heavier, as if a thousand catties had been poured. Rolled off the face, fell to the ground, and quickly disappeared.

If you know today, why should you be in the beginning.

These were the words that Tang Xiaoli kept circling in his mind, and then he was too quiet all night, quietly sent Zhao Jun home, walked back to the place where he lived quietly, and sat quietly in the house... After a while, I found out that it was already dawn.Simply put it away, and when I looked in the mirror, I realized that there was another wrinkle under my eyes at some point.

He had to admit that he really felt a little old.

Looking at myself in the mirror, I didn't recognize myself.

He obviously didn't sleep all night, but he felt as if he woke up after sleeping for a long time.

Yes, he should also wake up, good things are not his turn, this is what he should have learned long ago.However, he was still greedy and dissatisfied, so he spent ten years and then four years...

Half my life has passed like this.

He suddenly felt that in fact, he didn't have much time to waste like this.It was only then that he realized that she really couldn't stand the setbacks and had no patience... She was tired and could bear her life.

People, it's better to be realistic.It's just that it's too late for him to understand this truth...

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