back to college

Following the departure of the person concerned, the banquet hall, which had been unusually quiet before, gradually returned to its original state.People are still laughing and talking to each other, still dancing to the music, as if nothing happened.

Gu Muyuan, however, was like a sculpture, standing stiffly in place.A dazed fragility gradually appeared on that expressionless face.It's a bit like a lost child who can't find his mother, with a look of bewilderment.

He doesn't want this.

Really...

Gu Muyuan's face was obviously pale, he just stared at the direction Tang Xiaoli left, in a daze, but his face was full of despair and uneasiness that he had never seen before.

Contradictions entangled him, so that he did not know what to do.

Call him selfish, call him an asshole, but he just can't help it...

He misses Tang Xiaoli so much, but doesn't he also like Qi Ya? Why can't he still be by his side silently like before, not say much, don't say much, just silently start over again? Go back to the friend's place and guard yourself obediently as before, waiting for him quietly.Hasn't he always been like this? Hasn't he liked me for so many years? Are there still so many years left... Will there be a difference in ten years or 20 years? Leave him...he couldn't figure it out.

He didn't know how important Tang Xiaoli was to him, and he didn't want to know.

He was just not reconciled, let alone seeing him cry...

He really wanted to hold him in his arms, and wanted him to be the only one in his heart...

However, the answer that was ready to come out in his heart recently made him more and more panicked.He was very afraid that that answer would be the last thing he wanted, he didn't really know how to cherish it until he lost it like people said.He never regretted anything that Furugihara did, it was in the past, it is in the present, and it must be in the future...

Gu Muyuan still thought about standing upright like a statue, like a wax figure, fake, empty, without joy or anger.Qi Ya stood quietly at the side, watching Gu Muyuan clenched his fists so tightly that he dared not let go, a trace of pain and humiliation flashed in his eyes.

Lin Yi, who had been standing by the side, was holding a wine glass. He was used to being the protagonist today, but he didn't expect to finish watching the previous play like an outsider. However, he didn't want to participate in such a chaotic scene, and he even felt a little gloating. the meaning of.That man named Tang Xiaoli is really not a simple person, but he has a strong interest in it, but whether he really makes a move, he really needs to think carefully, at least for now he doesn't want to make an enemy of Gu Muyuan.

However, he still couldn't help being curious, did that person know what Xu He meant just now... Things became more and more interesting, and he stroked his chin unconsciously

Xu He pulled Tang Xiaoli with red and swollen eyes to sit on the stone bench in the park, the summer night wind blew over, although it was stuffy, it carried a little bit of coolness, and it was actually quite comfortable to be honest.

"Is it better?" Xu He unscrewed the mineral water in his hand, took a sip and handed it to Tang Xiaoli.

Tang Xiaoli took the water silently, nodded hesitantly, his already drooping eyes looked even more slit because of the red and swollen eyes, a little shabby and pitiful.

This made Xu He feel a little uncomfortable, and the position of his heart was a little...distressed.

Some moved his body uncomfortably, deliberately staggered, and told himself with all his heart that it was just because he didn't want to see that disappointing face: "Cut~ a big man doesn't know what to cry about, just like a bitch , chirping silently... look at your promise!"

Xu He muttered softly, Tang Xiaoli didn't mind listening, he knew that Xu He was hard-spoken and soft-hearted, if it wasn't for him just now, he really didn't know how to avoid the doubts from the audience.

He took it to heart to be grateful.

"Cough... What is the relationship between that person and you?" Xu He asked pretending to be indifferent.

"You, ask, what is he doing?" Tang Xiaoli hesitated.

"You don't care what I ask, you just answer honestly, and I can't eat him if you are afraid!" Xu He scratched his head awkwardly, his flaxen hair was a little unkempt.

"..." Tang Xiaoli nodded honestly but didn't make a sound. He just took a sip of water, lowered his eyes, and seemed to have no intention of answering.

What does that person have to do with him...

This question really stumped him a bit.For so many years, in fact, even he himself did not want to understand.

The funny thing is, he still doesn't know it.

Friends, lovers, enemies, strangers...all of them, and none of them.After so many years, scenes flashed before his eyes, and he also wanted to stretch out his hand to keep the past, and he also wanted to go back as if nothing had happened.But, time is waiting for no one, he has nothing, he has always planned that in the future, he will be able to live alone for the rest of his life, but he already wants to be his good friend with peace of mind, why does he want to provoke him again, he has already taken a step , and then go back but it is all out of shape.Something was pressing on my heart, Gu Muyuan... These three words became the biggest stone pressing on the tip of my heart.Sometimes, when he wakes up in the middle of the night, he thinks, it would be nice if he didn't know him in this life, if he didn't give up at the beginning, if he didn't think that Gu Muyuan's golden smile was for himself, it would be great...

Is everything different.

Don't worry about him, don't worry about Gu Muyuan, it would be great if it was really a stranger...

Seeing that Tang Xiaoli didn't answer but didn't mean to resist, Xu He took a sip of water and continued in a low voice, "Are you a lover?"

"..." Tang Xiaoli looked sideways at Xu He, thought about it seriously but shook his head.

"friend?"

"..." But he still shook his head.

Xu He also looked at Tang Xiaoli, if he didn't look serious, he really thought he was lying to himself.Neither... what else...

"Forget it, let's have a companion..." Tang Xiaoli closed his eyes and said calmly, his eyelashes trembling a little, because he had just cried, and his eyes hurt like fire, and water fell down the corners of his eyes for some reason, fortunately, there was no one here , nobody saw.

His voice was so bleak that Xu He was taken aback.

Xu He looked at Tang Xiaoli quietly from the side, it seemed that the softest part of his heart had been stirred by someone, a little painful, a little sore but contradictory, a little happy.Unconsciously caressing the back of Tang Xiaoli's hand, he said softly, "He doesn't want you, I want you."

Tang Xiaoli suddenly opened his eyes, and looked at Xu He in amazement, tears had accumulated in his eyes, and they were shining brightly under the moonlight.

"... As I said, I am your man."

The words were obviously naive, but Tang Xiaoli didn't laugh this time, nor did he mutter indistinctly.He just obediently let Xu He hold his hand, his nose was sore, he was a little flustered, and tears just flowed down the corners of his eyes quietly.

The breeze blows, with a little bit of coolness, it is very light but it makes people feel comfortable and unbearable.

Since the dinner, except that Lin Lin still fell in love with their dormitory as before and came to visit the door, nothing seemed to have changed.Unknowingly, more than half a month has passed. Although neither of them mentioned what happened that day, it is obvious that the distance between them seems to be much closer.

Sometimes Xu He even feels a little bit, not to mention that it really looks like that, he really has the meaning of falling in love.However, of course, there are still many things that make Xu He feel that it is not all like this. There is still a gap between them, like a safe distance from each other.Just like Tang Xiaoli relied on him more than before, but it was obvious that there were still many things that he didn't know and couldn't figure out.For example, what kind of person is Tang Xiaoli?From his point of view, Tang Xiaoli is obviously just a high school student, how could he be related to someone with such a complicated background like Lin Yi, and the relationship between Gu Muyuan and Tang Xiaoli cannot be explained clearly in a few words , that feeling of being familiar with each other is definitely not something that can be revealed naturally overnight, but it takes a long time to achieve... Even Lin Lin, he doesn't understand why, Tang Xiaoli is so fawning on Lin Lin every day , just like a little follower, he followed wherever he went, if it wasn't because he knew he was a pure gay, he really wondered if he was trying to catch Lin Lin's attention, and was going to keep getting out of the wall... In short, many things are Let him not understand.

Xu He was playing a game, looking at Tang Xiaoli who was mopping the floor with a mop, and frowned slightly.

In fact, to be honest, he really wanted to know, but he didn't want to ask.Some things, if others don't want to answer, even if the time comes, those words will be regarded as lies. He doesn't like people lying, and even hates them.So he would rather choose not to ask, what's more, he didn't hide it from Tang Xiaoli.

Exactly once per person, evened out.

Thinking of this, Xu He felt much better.

"Hey!" Xu He shouted at Tang Xiaoli, who was wearing an apron and cleaning diligently.

"Why?" Tang Xiaoli looked at Xu He in confusion, stopped his movements, but then started mopping the floor again.

"You don't have to use a broom or a mop to wipe it here and there, my young master's mood for playing games has been disturbed by you." Xu He muttered, clearly expressing his dissatisfaction in his heart.

Tang Xiaoli ignored him, turned his back and curled his lips, and continued with the rag.He didn't understand that Xu He didn't know what to pretend all day long, he had to play games in his room with no door, looking for excitement!Such a big person won't go back to his own room to play, close the door, play whatever he likes, I really think he likes to hang around in front of him, cut it, it's none of his business!

Young Master Xu really thought he was addicted to work, or something!

If not, because when I first saw Xu He, the old man staggered out of the garbage dump, that was shocking, shocking!As for the fact that he is so hardworking and loves to work, it's not all because of a small shadow that fell on him before!Now he can't wait to kill the garbage in the cradle as soon as he sees the garbage in the house!

Xu He held the handle, seeing that Tang Xiaoli didn't respond, he narrowed his eyes and was dissatisfied.

Snapped!

He flicked the mouse in his hand, got up quickly, rushed up and grabbed the man by the collar and dragged him back, with an arrogant face, no big difference from a bully grabbing a civilian girl, he looks like a bastard from all sides, Well, I admit it's a handsome bastard.

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