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In front of the window facing the sea, the little girl liked it very much when she saw it, so Xie Minghao gave it to her.

The little girl shook her head and read a few local love poems to thank Xie Minghao: "Look at the color of lavender and smell the fragrance of lavender, and you can know how much your lover loves you."

Xie Minghao couldn't help smiling, and asked her with a smile: "What kind of lover do you know?"

The little girl looked like a ghost, she tilted her head and asked, "Mummy told me that a lover is the one who treats you best and will come from the other side of the sea. You look at the sea every day, aren't you waiting for her?"

The little girl believed that Xie Minghao was waiting for his lover on the other side of the sea, and she was somewhat discouraged by the fact that the beautiful girl hadn't appeared for a long time. She was afraid that he would be sad and unable to persevere, so she would send a large bouquet of lavender in bloom every few days. This sentence was written over and over again on the card.

Xie Minghao looked at the landlord's house not far away. The lights had been completely turned off. It was probably because the little girl was urged to sleep by her mother before he came back. The flowers were left in front of his room on purpose.

Xie Minghao entered the room with a large bouquet of lavender and put it in a large vase filled with water. After a simple wash, he took out his diary and thought about where to write.

……

He heard a lot of people walking around, feeling warm, rubbing his eyes vigorously, and vaguely saw a familiar building. A girl next to him was whispering why Bai Yufan, who is very popular in his major, didn't come to school for three consecutive days. An important exam is missed.

He panicked and ran around looking for people without seeing him. He didn't know how far he ran, and saw Bai Yufan slapped in the face by a familiar old man from a distance. He was about to step forward with a twitch, when a woman suddenly appeared Stopped him, because his distorted face was filled with contempt, he pointed at his nose and asked: How dare you? !How dare you ruin my son? !

He was viciously strangled by the neck and couldn't breathe. He struggled desperately, but his hands remained motionless, his strength continued to increase, and his bones creaked.

…The hand suddenly let go, and he heard crying, and the woman sobbed bitterly: "Yu Fan, you are going to piss me off..."

Someone hugged him tightly to comfort him: "Don't be afraid, it's okay, it's okay..."

He wanted to look up at the man's face, he could feel the breath so close, but he couldn't see anything except the outline, as if there was red warm liquid dripping down his cheeks, he wanted to wipe it off, but the man suddenly disappeared up...

He spun around in panic, everything disappeared, only a door not far away, he rushed over and smashed open, inside was a clean and tidy ward, he could finally see Bai Yufan clearly, he was lying On the snow-white hospital bed, with a tired face and blue eyes, the doctor and the nurse stood aside and ordered: "Go away the inflammation, give him a bottle of erythromycin..."

He was taken aback and shouted, "Don't give him erythromycin, he's allergic to that stuff!"

But no one listened to him. The nurse had already started to pat on the back of Bai Yufan's hand to find a suitable blood vessel. He desperately slapped the glass in front of him, shouting hoarsely. Out of the operating fluid, the nurse has already found the blood vessel, and slowly pierced it in...

"Can't...no!!!"

Xie Minghao woke up suddenly, his heart was beating so hard that his chest hurt, his whole body was cold, cold sweat dripped down his forehead, and fell onto the notebook beside him, blurring out the ink stains of a few deformed words.

He looked up, the lamp on the table was still on, and the purple lavender was silently exuding its fragrance. The time showed that he had probably slept for half an hour, but it was just a dream.

Poured a glass of cold water and drank it all at once, suppressed the palpitations, put away the entire page of the diary that was scratched by the pen, Xie Minghao took out his phone and edited a text message, thought quietly for a long time, and deleted each word ,give up.

Even if he asked, he would probably get an answer of good news but not bad news.

Ni Qiao wondered why Bai Yufan didn't tell him anything, Xie Minghao recalled the phone call they had had a while ago, and the other end of the phone asked cautiously: "Will you come back when I arrange everything? "

He didn't answer at the time, presumably Bai Yufan took it as a silent refusal, changed his stubborn personality, and immediately changed the topic.

"You idiot!" Xie Minghao lay on the bed, poked his finger at Bai Yufan's wanton smiling face in the photo, scolded him in a low voice, and then rubbed him lightly, "I know I want to make you happy."

You clearly know that you just want you to have things that ordinary people should have, and you fool have lost all of them.

Having dinner with Ni Qiao, Ni Qiao asked knowingly when we parted: "Have you thought about him?"

Countless times, Xie Minghao wanted to answer, when he was in a place suitable for one or two people to walk around, when he fell asleep and woke up at night or at dawn, he had thought countless times that he was not very patient, and he was not very patient with himself. The same unruly hair, warm and strong palms...

But he just nodded with a smile.

Time is not a panacea for all diseases. There are always some people and things that are more deeply etched under the scouring of time, and escaping cannot solve the problem.

After traveling thousands of miles, Xie Minghao finally understood this truth with his heart. Even though Xiao Baijing and Bao Hui were still there, Bai Yufan's mother still couldn't accept it, and he wanted to go back, just like when he was 19 years old.

The next day, Daniel, dressed brightly, knocked on Xie Minghao's door: "Thank you, the weather is really good today, let's go—"

Xie Minghao was wearing casual shorts and a T-shirt, and a black peaked cap was indeed suitable for traveling, but when Daniel's eyes touched the suitcase beside him, the handsome young man full of youthful vigor was like a needle-pricked ball, and suddenly deflated .

"Hi, Daniel," Xie Minghao handed him a Chinese book, "for you."

Daniel hesitated, reached out to take it, and stroked the cover: "Really give it to me? What about you?"

Daniel is learning Chinese recently, and he covets Xie Minghao's only Chinese book, but Xie Minghao always treats it like a treasure, and only allows Daniel to read it in his room and cannot take it away.

"It's okay, there are many more at home." Xie Minghao obviously knew Daniel's doubts.

Daniel sat down on his bed with a book in his hand, with a sad face: "You want to go back, you want to go back to him, right?"

Xie Minghao actually smiled and pretended to be confused with him: "Him? Who is he?"

"That's what the Chinese man who looked down on me said yesterday. I remember his pronunciation, and I checked it on the Internet when I came back..." Daniel blushed, waved his arms and complained, halfway through the sentence, he felt a little childish , Angrily scratched his hair and didn't say anything.

Xie Minghao didn't ask him what he checked, and sat beside him with a smile: "It's not that he looks down on you Daniel, that friend of mine is a little...uh, a little jumpy in thinking."

Seeing Daniel looking up at him, Xie Minghao smiled and said: "Daniel, we can be very good friends, but we can only stop here, and there will be no further development. Maybe I know your feelings and emotional positioning well. There is indeed a deviation, so I only talk about myself, I feel like a friend to you, or I can care about you as a younger brother, but a lover, it is impossible, my lover grew up with me, he will occupy my whole life, no Someone will easily replace it, understand?"

"Does he love you that much?"

"Yes."

"But you obviously have conflicts, otherwise you wouldn't have been separated for so long." Daniel still didn't want to give up.

"Look at Daniel, this is the distance between us. You are looking for a love that sparks at first sight. I have passed that stage. I want to solve the conflict and live a long life."

This is not only a difference in grades, but also a conceptual one. To be more precise, there has never been a possibility between them.

"Actually, you are slowly realizing it, aren't you? That's why you can listen to me carefully." Xie Minghao got up and put away the charged mobile phone, and stuffed the charger into the suitcase. "The girl yesterday was nice, you should think about it." .”

Daniel twitched in a rare way, "Cough, she's just...well, I..."

"Just a kiss, I know."

Xie Minghao checked the things for the last time, got up and hugged Daniel: "Then goodbye, I will write to you when I return to China."

Daniel was frustrated in his heart. Although he gradually found that the two of them were not suitable for being together, he still had a feeling of liking in his heart. After a while, he still hesitated and said, "I'll see you off, uh, you know, the station is quite far away."

"No need." Xie Minghao shook his head: "Thank the landlady for me."

Xie Minghao pulled the suitcase out of the room, and the phone rang suddenly.

"Xiaohao?" Ni Qiao's voice came out.

"kindness?"

"Happy birthday, I have a big gift for you."

Xie Minghao was at a loss: "Birthday? Today is not my birthday."

Ni Qiao sighed, feeling depressed that he didn't understand the spirit: "It's only a few days in advance."

Xie Minghao also sighed: "Ni Qiao, my birthday is in the second half of the year, it's not just a few days, what are you thinking?"

Ni Qiao muttered a few words over there, Xie Minghao didn't hear clearly, he fed him several times, and heard Ni Qiao clear his throat: "You go out now."

"I'm outside."

"Back to the sea."

"It's on your back."

"See anyone?"

Xie Minghao was helpless: "Your eyes are full of people, who are you talking about?"

Ni Qiao seemed very confused: "It's not here yet, it's impossible, hey, I said you wait... Hey, hello? Xiaohao? Xie Minghao?!"

"It seems to be here." Ni Qiao clicked his tongue twice, threw the phone aside, looked back at the empty plate and became angry: "Shen Junyang!"

Xie Minghao did see Ni Qiao's big gift: a figure approached step by step in the distance, and the dusty atmosphere still attracted the fiery eyes of the women in cool clothes. She lost weight and was in good spirits.

He just stood there and couldn't move, the sudden surprise was too huge, the transition between dream and reality was caught off guard, and his whole body trembled slightly.

During the nearly 20-hour flight, he must have not shaved, Xie Minghao thought in a daze, because the chin that gently rubbed against his face had piercing stubble.

Ni Qiao, the traitor, turned his back and ruined his big plan.

"What are you doing here?!" Xie Minghao was a little panicked. Originally, he wanted to go back by himself, hug their big dog, clean their house, make dinner and wait for him to come back, and look at his smiling face and tell him his own. The long trip has finally come to an end...and now it's all broke.

Looking at the suitcase at his feet, Bai Yufan curled his mouth, his voice was as warm as the palm of his hand, and whispered in his ear, "I'm here to pick you up..."

Xie Minghao also curled his mouth. In fact, he didn't tell the landlord's youngest daughter that his home is on the other side of the sea.

but--

"What are you looking for?" Xie Minghao looked at Bai Yufan who was looking around, and wondered at his fierce eyes.

"It's nothing..." Bai Yufan hugged Xie Minghao with one hand, and held his suitcase in the other, laughing: "Well, there are quite a few little foreign devils..."

"..."

"Pudding misses you so much..."

"..."

"I miss you too!"

"Well, let's go home..."