Ceaseless

Chen Shong huddled by the wall for a long time without moving.

Nie Jingze didn't give the other party any more glances anymore, he turned around and shot Su Xi with a stern gaze.

Su Xi saw his appearance clearly, and a little hesitation gradually appeared on his face.

Nie Jingze reached out to grab his wrist, and pulled him towards the end of the corridor.When passing by the staff lounge with the outer door closed, Nie Jingze opened the door and entered without hesitation.

Su Xi followed behind into the lounge. At this time, everyone was busy with work and had no time to lazily play with their phones in the lounge.He raised his other free hand to push the door behind him, but the force he used was not enough to completely close the door.He freed his right hand from the opponent's hand, turned around and grabbed the door lock, and inserted the door into the door frame.

A familiar breath came from behind.A small piece of light was blocked overhead, and a faint shadow was cast on the door panel in front of him.Nie Jingze's hand passed over his armpit and covered his hand holding the door lock.

Su Xi took a breath, not knowing how to react.

However, the opponent's palm only stayed on the back of his hand for a very short second, and Nie Jingze gently separated his hand from the door lock.

Su Xi let out a breath slowly, and in the interval between adjusting his breathing, his heart had already returned to calm.

But there was a soft "click" in his ears, and Nie Jingze locked the door of the lounge.

Su Xi paused, and was about to turn around and ask.The other party did not give him any chance to speak, and turned him over very quickly, pressing against the door panel behind him, with anger ready to come out in his eyes, "Su Xi, you are really living and promising! Do you want to scold him back?" You can't fight back, if he wants to fuck you in that place just now, don't you want to resist?"

Su Xi was very close to him, so close that he could look into the depths of Nie Jingze's eyes just by raising his eyes.He indeed did so amidst Nie Jingze's questioning.He could see that the other party was really angry.

In Nie Jingze's dark and heavy pupils, he could vaguely see something hidden behind the surging anger.Those faint things are extremely strange to him, and Su Xi can't understand them, but the idea of ​​wanting to explore further arises in his heart.He could vaguely perceive that it was probably not a bad thing.

However, before he could investigate carefully, Nie Jingze's question brought him back to reality: "If I fucked you here, wouldn't you resist?"

Su Xi was distracted for a second.When he looked over again, the things that Nie Jingze hid in his eyes had disappeared without a trace.He withdrew his wandering thoughts, shook his head and said, "You won't."

Nie Jingze was furious, and the corners of his brows and eyes were cold, "How do you know I can't?"

Su Xi spoke frankly, "You wouldn't like to be with someone in such a cramped place, and more importantly, the other party is someone you don't like." He seemed to be briefly talking about the two years Nie Jingze had been with him. Come to the conclusion, "Doing things with someone you don't like will only make you more bored with him."

After he finished the last sentence, his eyebrows stretched out in relief.He sometimes thinks in the middle of the night, maybe this is fate.God allowed him to enjoy prosperity and comfort for the first 20 years of his life, but he didn't give him the opportunity to know what life really looked like.

That's why he went through the most difficult two years of his life.

Just like his feelings for Nie Jingze.It took him several long years, but he still couldn't understand why no matter what he did, the other party couldn't like him.Fortunately, God did not let him live in the mist all his life, and gave him another two years.

Now he has understood, but it is too late.

Nie Jingze was dumbfounded.What Su Xi said is not wrong, doing intimate things with someone he doesn't like will indeed only cause his psychological disgust to superimpose.However, from the day he thought it through, he could no longer define Su Xi in the range of "people he doesn't like".

Nie Jingze spoke clearly, "I didn't."

Su Xi calmly answered, "You don't have anything?"

Nie Jingze paused.

"Listen." The five fingers pressed against the side door of Su Xi's face tightened slightly, he stared at the person in front of him who had never looked up at him, and said in a deep voice: "I don't dislike you."

A double negative is equal to a positive.

Nie Jingze frowned subconsciously, and pursed his lips again, with a solemn expression as he settled down to the determination that had been hovering in his head for a long time, and repeated again, "I don't dislike you," the syllable lingering between his lips and teeth was about to come out, he closed his eyes, Let out a breath, "I like you."

Su Xi raised his eyes in astonishment.

He didn't have time to see the change in the expression on the other person's face, he only had time to catch the last sound of that sentence before it disappeared.

His hearing is not bad, he can clearly hear what the other party is saying.His eyesight was not bad, and he could clearly see that the person who blurted out these words to him at this moment was not someone else, but Nie Jingze himself.

A clear consciousness gradually settled in his brain, and at the same time, the heart in his chest beat violently.One after another, thunderous rhythmic drums fell on his ears, almost deafening.

However, such a strong throbbing only lasted for a short moment.

The sound of the drums in my ears slowly receded like the tide of the night sea, and the heart in my chest gradually calmed down.Su Xi finally raised his head, met Nie Jingze's gaze as usual, moved his lips silently, but said nothing.

He didn't know whether the other party was out of resentment when he broke up with him back then, or out of brooding over the two years of distorted love.But when you think about it, there is not much difference between the two ideas at their most essential roots.They were all caused by Nie Jingze's self-esteem and pride.

The other party regards the years of his strong intervention as a stain in his four years of college life.

Other than that, Su Xi couldn't think of a reason why Nie Jingze would say these things to him.

And actions based on these two emotions and ideas will eventually lead to the same goal.At this moment, he is standing at the starting point of the chessboard, and as long as he raises his eyes a little, he can see the end point of the game on the board.

Nie Jingze's gaze was fixed on his face, still waiting for his answer.

Su Xi retracted his gaze, exhaled lightly, raised his hand and pushed Nie Jingze away, turned around and unlocked the door of the lounge and walked out.Finally, he stopped in the corridor outside the door, turned his head, and looked at Nie Jingze standing inside the door from a distance away, "Is there anything else?" He asked, "If there is nothing else, I'm going to work."

Nie Jingze's pupils froze, and he didn't speak.

Su Xi did as he said, did not stop any longer, turned and left.

Nie Jingze did not catch up.

Standing inside the door, a trace of instability and impetuosity suddenly appeared in his heart.He didn't know the reason why Su Xi remained indifferent to his confession.Maybe it was just out of distrust of him, or maybe, just as the other party said to Shen Sui at the door of the bar a few days ago, he had already given up.

Although of the two possibilities, no matter which one is considered extremely bad for him.Nie Jingze's expression gradually darkened, he didn't want it to be the latter.

He didn't know when Nie Jingze left. He didn't see Chen Sheng again for the whole afternoon, and the other party didn't come to confront him again.Before leaving get off work at night, the manager briefly mentioned two things about Chen Sheng's resignation.

Su Xi was a little surprised, but didn't say anything.He could vaguely guess that there was probably Nie Jingze's handwriting in it, but he didn't think deeply about why the other party did it.

He didn't like Chen Sheng at all.

Even sometimes, he would repel and see Chen Sheng's face.Sometimes, looking at the condescending and undisciplined and frivolous appearance of the other party, he feels like he is looking in a mirror.

He began to keep thinking in his heart, whether the unrestrained and wanton flamboyance he put on his face in the past would be the same as Chen Sheng's appearance in the eyes of others, or even exactly the same.And those who endured his unbridled and unbridled publicity were mostly repulsed and disgusted in their hearts, but on the surface they had to force themselves to please him because they were afraid of his family background.

He didn't know if it was like this, he just felt that Chen Sheng's appearance was too ugly.

And in the first 20 years of his life, no one ever told him that it would make people ugly.They would just surround him with smiles and praise him for his natural good looks.

Even Su Songqing, who is closest to him, never told him.Probably for a father who indulges and dotes on his children, no matter how domineering his personality is, in Su Songqing's eyes, he will always be the prettiest.

There are no mistakes in the work of the next day, and there are not many changes.Zhong Qing got the news from the foreman that he would leave work early, so he called Su Xi at noon and said on the phone that he would treat him to supper.

Su Xi didn't refuse, and got out of the hot pot restaurant at night after punching out his card, and took the night bus to find Zhong Qing.