Star road

September 21.

That day was September 21st, and Chen Xing will never forget it.

He thought countless times afterwards, if he was more sensible, if he was not so dull, if he didn't just know how to immerse himself in the gentle care given by his father, would all this change?

Won't.he knows.However, it is impossible not to think so.

There are no ifs in the world.

My dear father, I will bear what if for the rest of my life.

Lynch's visit seemed to be a harbinger, the prelude to something that was bound to happen.

Lynch never came again. After that day, the life at home was still the same as before, and nothing seemed to change.Chen Xing continued to immerse himself in his happy life.But not long after, one morning, Chen Xiao didn't get up on time to teach him how to play the piano, and Chen Xing played alone for two hours before he got up.

Chen Xing only thought that his father suddenly wanted to sleep late, but he didn't see his father's hidden tiredness.

After having dinner with my father that day, my father changed his plan for studying in the afternoon, and the father and son played the violin together for a whole afternoon.After teaching two pieces of music, Dad played another famous piece of music for him, explaining in detail the creation background of the piece and the life story of the composer.Chen Xing listened carefully, and couldn't help but feel puzzled. Dad rarely talked about these things before.

"Forget it, I'm the one who is in a hurry. You will understand these things in the future." After Chen Xiao explained, she patted his head again with a smile.

"A real violinist should have his own understanding and his own piece of music." After a while, he said again.

Later, Chen Xiao really didn't tell him that again, and Chen Xing also thought it was quite appropriate.The difficulty level of those songs is too high for him to control, even if he wants to explain it, it should be a matter of the future.Why did Dad suddenly think of telling him this?

Soon, he knew the reason.

After a few days, Chen Xiao's nap time was extended, and a few days later, he once stayed in the toilet for an hour with the door closed, and when he came out, his face was so ugly that he seemed to fall down at any time.

Chen Xing was so frightened that tears flowed out on the spot.

Because of his childhood experience, Chen Xing is a sensitive and intelligent child.At this time, he understood that his father was ill, very sick, and the medicines that his father often took were not the nutritional pills he said, but medicines for curing diseases.He wanted to see what kind of pills those were, but Chen Xiao always tore off the names of the medicines on the packaging. He used to trust his father so much that he really thought that those were just medicines for nourishing the body.

Chen Xing was very scared, because his father had been taking those medicines for a long time, and he had seen them when he was still in Niujiao Village.

Chen Xing didn't dare to let Chen Xiao see his fear, his father was sick, so he couldn't be worried anymore.

While his father was sound asleep, he stole some of his father's pills, wrapped them in paper, and asked Grandma Liu to take him to the hospital for a doctor to identify him.The doctor looked at the pills, then looked at Chen Xing, and pulled Granny Liu aside to speak quietly. After a while, Grandma Liu came out, and Chen Xing handed over a piece of paper with the words he just wrote on it.

Mother-in-law, please tell me, I am ready.

Granny Liu hugged him fiercely and cried loudly.

Chen Xing's heart was icy cold.

Chen Xing finally couldn't control her fear, and when she returned home, she held Chen Xiao in her arms and wept non-stop. The pills in her hand were crushed and scattered on the ground, and Chen Xiao's clothes were soaked in tears.

Chen Xiao asked softly: "You know everything?"

Chen Xing shook his head violently, dragged Chen Xiao to the hospital desperately, Chen Xiao cooperated with him, and along the way, there was doting in his helpless eyes.No one does not cherish life, he has been to the hospital a long time ago.

The doctor flipped through Chen Xiao's medical records with a serious expression.Chen Xiao held Chen Xing's hand tightly, and said to the doctor: "Tell me the result."

Chen Xiao had heard what the doctor said several times.It is nothing more than rectal cancer that was controlled by surgery in the past, but now it has recurred, and there is no effective treatment plan.Another operation may lead to faster death, and chemotherapy will not last long, and the hardship is in vain. It is better to go home to rest and take some medicine, and maybe you can live for a month or two longer.

Chen Xiao lowered her head and smiled at the swollen-eyed Chen Xing: "Little Xing, you have to learn to be strong."

Chen Xing cried dimly, as if she was going to shed all the tears for a lifetime.When he was a child, he had never cried so much when he suffered such a cruel thing.

But the next day, he stopped crying.

Chen Xiao behaved very indifferently, as if he didn't care about the life that was about to pass away.He still teaches Chen Xing how to play the violin, and gives detailed guidance on technical problems, emotional changes and ways to vent. Chen Xing listens attentively and practices the piano attentively.

If it wasn't for Chen Xiao's increasingly heavy sleep, less and less appetite, longer and longer time in the bathroom, body getting thinner and paler...

Their lives really don't look any different than they did before.

The footsteps of time could not be kept, and finally came that day, September 21st.

Chen Xiao got up early that day, he rested on the recliner, and Chen Xing played the violin under the tree.In this weather, the morning sun is warm. Looking at the child under the tree, Chen Xiao smiled lightly. There is nothing to regret about having this child by his company in the last days.

Chen Xiao slowly closed his eyes, his life had come to an end.

After taking a nap, Chen Xiao suddenly became energetic and asked Chen Xing to bring his violin.

Pale and slender fingers caressed the baby's body little by little, like touching the skin of a lover.

Chen Xiao closed her eyes, played the piano, played the bow, and a piece of music that Chen Xing had never heard before flowed out.

At the beginning of the music, there is a sense of secrecy, and then it gradually jumps, like shy, like mischievous... Suddenly, Chen Xing thought of the stars in the sky, their eyes blinked and blinked, emitting a faint starlight... The song entered a climax , Chen Xiao fiercely moved the bow, pressed the strings with his fingers quickly, every knuckle was beating like life, Chen Xing seemed to see the starry sky, the most dazzling one surrounded by big and small stars, in the fierce In the music, the stars dance together!

The sound of the song weakens, the sky breaks, the stars fade away, the birds start to sing, the grass is covered with dew, everything wakes up, the children sing, and the stars, waiting for the next dazzling opportunity...

Chen Xiao put down the piano, his face was slightly red because of the force just now.

"Finally finished."

"Xiao Xing, I have been writing this song since the day I saw you. I have been writing it for more than four years, and I have not finished the ending until today." Chen Xiao seemed to be in better spirits, "The name of the song is Chen Xing, named after you. I wrote this specially for Xiao Xing. Do you like it?"

Chen Xing nodded vigorously, as if he saw twinkling stars in his father's eyes.

"As long as you like it, Dad will give it to you."

"Xiao Xing, I'm sorry, Dad can't accompany you in the future. I'm sorry, I can't continue to teach you how to practice the piano, and I can't see you shining on the stage, but I know, Xiao Xing, will always be the brightest of all the stars One."

Chen Xiao gently wiped off the crystals from the corners of Chen Xing's eyes with her fingertips, the fingers were so thin that only the protruding joints remained, "Silly child, don't cry, don't complain, everything is fate."

"There are two sides to everything in the world. From your point of view, the illness took my life, but if I was not ill, I wouldn't want to go to the mountain village, I wouldn't meet you, I wouldn't have this father-son relationship with you, no Will find the continuation of my dream."

"Xiaoxing, I entrust my dream to you, and you have to help me realize it. I hope that the violin sound belonging to our father and son can spread to every corner of the world. From now on, I will live in the music of Xiaoxing, Fly with you."

"Don't cry, okay? Don't worry Daddy."

Chen Xiao helplessly wiped away the endless tears of the child, "Call me Dad, if you don't call me, I won't have a chance to listen."

"Dad...Dad..." Chen Xing yelled with difficulty, and as soon as he uttered a sound, the silent crying turned into choking.

"Dad...Dad..." Don't leave me...

"Good boy."

Chen Xiao seemed to be tired, and her voice became tired, "Go, play a little star for Dad, Dad wants to hear it."

"Twinkle, twinkle, the sky is full of small stars, hanging in the sky to shine brightly, like many small eyes. Twinkle, twinkle, the sky is full of small stars..."

Accompanied by the sound of the piano, Chen Xing hummed an indistinct nursery rhyme, intermittently, over and over again.

When the sun rose high in the sky, Chen Xing turned his head and saw Chen Xiao lying quietly on the recliner, covered with a soft blanket, on which his beloved violin was placed.Chen Xiao's hand was placed on the body of the violin.

Under the sun, Chen Xiao maintained a faint smile, and her transparent skin was covered with a layer of warm light.A leaf flew over and landed on the edge of the blanket.

Chen Xing shed tears, and sang and pulled, singing until her voice became hoarse, until her hands became stiff, and until night fell.

Dad, I swear, will make your dreams come true.

Chen Xiao left a box for Chen Xing, which contained his creations and experiences over the years.On the box, there is a letter.

"Xiao Xing, my father has not left, and my father's life will continue in the sound of your piano...

Children, learn to be strong in the future, don't be afraid, don't be weak.In fact, you have already spoken out, right?Your eyes have become so bright, how can you still not speak?Dad doesn't blame you, Dad just feels distressed, blaming himself for not being able to give you a complete sense of security.You dare not let others know that you can speak because you are afraid that your father will leave you. With you like this, how can you let your father rest assured?

Silly boy, dad doesn't mean to sympathize with you. Whether you can speak or not, you have to remember that dad loves you.

Life closes your window, and it will open another door for you.Dad is gone, if you encounter difficulties in the future, don't be discouraged, don't give up, life can't be just darkness, even if the darkness lasts longer, the sun will always shine in.

Xiaoxing, father's son, you will walk out of your own way.

......"

Chen Xing will always remember that day, the song "Chen Xing", the violin, the slender fingers, the thin figure, and even the blanket and the leaf.

and that letter.

He didn't want to remember what happened later.

After Chen Xiao left, he passively moved from one place to another, and then to another... He didn't want to think about those things.When he was in the thick darkness, when he was almost desperate, it was his father's words that kept him going.

Life closes your window, and it will open another door for you.Don't be afraid, don't be weak, don't be discouraged, don't give up, learn to be strong.It is impossible to have only darkness in life, even if the darkness lasts longer, the sun will always shine in.

How long is the darkness, Chen Xing forgot.He only remembered that when he met that man later, it was like a ray of sunshine shining on him in the darkness, imprinting an indelible mark on him with a strong force.

He was ten years old that year.