Gu Qing reborn

In the evening, Gu Qing went back to school by car alone.

Walking on the tree-lined path that must be passed back to the dormitory, looking at the ivy-covered red brick walls with a long history and the lonely yellow leaves, a gust of wind blows, Gu Qing feels cold all over, and even his heart is twitching. Forehead, with a wry smile, the cold might worsen again.

Gu Qing didn't know how it turned out like this, everything was beyond his expectations, things changed too fast, the cold wind was still hitting his face, looking ruthless, but it clearly reminded him of the reality in front of him, like a daytime The sweetness and warmth are all just my own delusion.Gu Qing felt sore and weak in his heart, but there was nothing he could do.The memory rewinds to that warm room.

After a good night's sleep, Gu Qing woke up again at two o'clock in the afternoon, and felt refreshed and refreshed like never before. When he turned around, Qin Liyang was no longer by his side. Unfortunately, Gu Qing finally got up after staring blankly at the place next to him for a while.Just after getting dressed, a child's voice sounded at the door, and a small figure ran towards him.

"Big Brother Bear..."

Gu Qing snatched him up and hugged him into his arms. He didn't know if it was because his head was still dizzy, but he felt a little unsteady and almost fell down.

The weight on his body suddenly disappeared, and a familiar male voice came from his ear, "Are you hungry?"

After sleeping for so long, except for the milk and a few pieces of pastries in the morning, I have never eaten anything in my stomach. I patted my empty belly with my fingers, and Gu Qing nodded shyly.

"Aunt Chen made porridge, and the pot is warming up, let's wash it up."

Qin Jiabao wrapped his arms around his father's neck, obediently pressed against his chest, but looked straight at Gu Qing.

The porridge cooked with preserved eggs and lean meat, finely minced meat, light green shallots and smooth preserved eggs, makes one's index finger twitch at first glance, and Gu Qing is really starving, so he drank three bowls in a row before he could get enough of it. Putting down the porcelain bowl in your hand, you can feel the softness and smoothness between your lips and teeth, and the fragrance is not greasy.

After tidying up the dishes, Gu Qing left the kitchen.The living room of the Qin family, which had been neglected for a long time, was rarely lively. Two men, one big and one small, were busy with their respective affairs at the moment, one was typing on the keyboard in his hand, and the other was immersed in drawing.

Gu Qing walked to the sofa and bent over to watch Qin Jiabao "scribing quickly". On the drawing paper was a man dressed as a Winnie the Pooh holding a little boy, both of them had big smiles on their faces.

Thinking of those cowardly eyes when he met Qin Jiabao for the first time, Gu Qing felt paternal love emanating from his whole body, and pampered the little head in front of him.

"Brother Big Bear?" Qin Jiabao turned his head and saw that it was Gu Qing, with a smile on his face, showing his white teeth, and asked as if asking for credit, "Brother Big Bear, look quickly, this is drawn by Baobao, this is Brother, and the one next to it is Baby, baby, can you draw well?"

"It's beautiful." Gu Qing couldn't help laughing and rubbing his soft hair, then picked up the person and the drawing board, put them on his lap, hugged them from the back, and occasionally gave some advice.

Near the end of the year, the company's affairs piled up, and the data was the financial analysis and planning budget submitted by the branch. Qin Liyang stared at the computer screen intently, not daring to slack off. Hearing cheerful laughter from beside him, his busy heart also changed. Be calm and happy.

Time passed by quietly and warmly.

Turning on the computer, taking off the eyes on the bridge of the nose, Qin Liyang rubbed his swollen and painful eyes. The people around him had long since disappeared, and he felt strange. Just when he wanted to get up, he saw Gu Qing walking towards here with tea in his hand.

After taking the teacup, Qin Liyang was really thirsty after working for too long, so he drank it all in one gulp.

Gu Qing stood behind the sofa, pressing his temples with both hands.Closing his eyes and enjoying his lover's personal service, Qin Liyang leaned comfortably on the back of the sofa.

"Gu Qing."

"kindness?"

"Move here and live."

With a pause, a trace of hesitation and imperceptible worry flashed across Gu Qing's face.Qin Liyang was leaning on his back, so he couldn't find out.

Seeing that the people behind him didn't answer for a long time, Qin Liyang grabbed the palm on the side of his head, turned around and looked over, staring at the other person. A few days ago, he hoped that Gu Qing would live with him. If it was because he wanted to possess his lover, then This time Qin Liyang was out of worry, especially after experiencing the frightening scene last night, he couldn't let it go, he didn't dare to imagine the consequences of losing Gu Qing.Ever since he made up his mind, Gu Qing's tenderness and kindness are the source of the warmth in his heart. Gu Qing's love is the foundation for him to withdraw from the cold world and become real and lively. He knows that he is too impatient and will embarrass the other party. But in comparison, he prefers to tie people firmly to him, at least people will be safe, at least he is at ease.

But Gu Qing didn't know about it, he had his own thoughts and scruples, and Qin Liyang didn't think about this.

Gu Qing avoided Qin Liyang's fiery eyes without any trace. He was afraid that he would be scorched, so he couldn't help but agreed, "This semester's coursework is relatively heavy, and I took half a month's leave a while ago, and there is another month until the end of the semester." The exam is coming, the time may be rushed, I'm afraid I won't be able to come here for a while, and there are roommates, we always have to get along well."

It's the same reason again, the same set of rhetoric, I can never make up a new one, Gu Qing is such a real person, Qin Liyang is depressed, but he can't blame anything, he just fell in love with such a real and sincere man Well, if one day Gu Qing is full of lies and scheming, I'm afraid I can be freed from the vortex of love, and I don't have to be like this now, always on guard against fear, worrying about gains and losses, afraid of him getting hurt, afraid of losing him.

Thinking of this, the fire in Qin Liyang's heart became more and more intense. He never thought that one day he would become a man troubled and controlled by love!

Qin Liyang is angry, and Gu Qing can feel it, but he is clumsy, he can only think with his heart, he can't say anything nice, let alone he doesn't intend to explain, those worries buried in the deepest part of his heart, he knows Now is not the time to confess, but Gu Qing still feels uncomfortable, with a strong sense of loss, he even has the illusion that his relationship with Qin Liyang may not be as good as he imagined, he has not participated in Qin Liyang's past, and has never He has been in the present of the other party, and as for the future, he is even more at a loss; but Qin Liyang seems to be very familiar with him, no, to be precise, he knows the owner of this body—the former Gu Qing very well, how did they know each other , and what is the relationship, he is not clear about these.

Gu Qing's mind was spinning rapidly, feeling clearer than ever before. He didn't know if he was thinking too much and complicating the originally simple things, but at the moment he really thought so.

Seeing Gu Qing who was silent and pursing his lower lip tightly, Qin Liyang felt annoyed, and angrily slapped off the cushions on the sofa, turned and walked into the study.

Gu Qing went back to school by car alone, his mind was muddled, the happy moments when he and Qin Liyang were together, and the resentment and determination on his face when he finally left.

It turns out that in this world, love is indeed the most tormenting thing.

Back in the dormitory, after taking a shower, Gu Qing climbed into bed early.The other three only thought that Gu Qing was ill and didn't feel well, so they didn't ask any more questions.

After sleeping for too long during the day, he was extraordinarily awake at night, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, maybe because his mind recovered after taking a bath, Gu Qing didn't think so extremely.

In fact, it’s not that Gu Qing has never been tempted by Qin Liyang’s proposal. It has always been his wish to live with his lover and have a happy and warm home, and although he doesn’t like one-night stands and promiscuity, it doesn’t mean he doesn’t like it. Pure hearted asceticism, only longing for pure love, but against making love and sexual relations, not to mention facing the person you like.Therefore, Gu Qing has no objection to living with Qin Liyang and Qin Jiabao.

But the problem is that Gu Qing has always had a knot in his heart, he has scruples, that is the gap between Qin Liyang and his own identity.If they really live in the Qin family, then what are he and Qin Liyang?He used to be a pure chef and nanny, and he didn't think it was a problem to get a salary of [-] a month, but now, since he has become a lover, the money can never be taken anymore. He needs a new job, but he He knew that as long as he lived in Qin's house, he would no longer have time to work, and with Qin Liyang's personality, he must not be happy with his decision.But what about my tuition fees and living expenses?Of course he knew that Qin Liyang was rich and would be willing to help him, but Gu Qing didn't want to accept it. He and the other party were lovers, lovers, not the relationship between serving the master and being taken care of. Just a real warm home throughout.

Gu Qing felt that his eyes were sore, and decided not to think about these troublesome things anymore. The upcoming final exam is what he should pay attention to now.

For the next month, Gu Qing devoted all his attention to his studies, spending time in the library every day, going to bed at one or two o'clock in the evening, and getting up at six or seven o'clock in the morning, working tirelessly like a desperate Saburo.After the exam was finally over, the person lost several kilograms, his originally fair skin was a little dull and tired, and his already thin body became even thinner, and he became a veritable paper man.

After the busy and crazy exam week, the relaxing winter vacation is coming, and the Spring Festival will be more than a month away.Spring Festival travel is the peak period for railways. Students from other provinces lined up all night and finally bought their tickets, one by one, preparing to go home for the New Year.

"Gu Qing, when are you going home?" Fang Zile took out the box that Han Wei gave him on his birthday, and packed his luggage.

Han Wei seems to be busy with the next semester's election for the chairman of the student union. He disappeared after the exam, and Wu Hao is busy with the cold training of the basketball team. Now in the dormitory, only Gu Qinghe is going home at night Fang Zile.

"Not yet decided," Gu Qing looked at Fang Zile's busy body, and replied dully, "I'll help you."

Gu Qing stepped forward, together with Fang Zile, they each pulled one end of the quilt and folded it cross-folded.

Gu Qing's home is in Province A. In Fang Zile's eyes, it is convenient to take a car. The other party should rush back after the vacation. Like himself, he has not been back for a semester, and he already misses his hometown and relatives very much.

In fact, even Gu Qing himself didn't know why he insisted on staying in school. Could it be because of that man?

Gu Qing felt bitter in his heart.

Since the last time we parted, Qin Liyang never came to see him again, not even a phone call.Some time ago, he was busy with the exam, and most of his mind was divided. Gu Qing didn't feel too strong, but now after he calmed down, the sadness in his heart was very obvious.Thinking about it now, Gu Qing felt that the depression at that time was deliberately suppressed by him, so it became more violent now.

Gu Qing figured it out, he loved Qin Liyang, but it seemed that he had no chance.

In the afternoon, Gu Qing took the train home with Fang Zile. For some reason, he really wanted to go home and see his mother as soon as possible.