dumb wizard

"I'm glad you're willing to share your secret with me, Xiu."

Xiu's eyes became far away, as if he was recalling some long-ago events—of course, those events were really far away for him, decades of time, the span of a lifetime.

Sometimes he will have the illusion that he is not a human being in two lifetimes, but memories belonging to An Yan are forcibly stuffed into his head. Those memories make him full of vicissitudes at a young age.

Snape didn't like Xiu's eyes at all, it made him feel that Xiu was far away, as if he would disappear in the next moment.He hugged Xiu's arms even harder, wishing he could rub him into his flesh and blood and never separate him.

Xiu noticed his movement, turned his head and smiled at him, like the smile given to him every morning in the kitchen fume, warm and reassuring.

With a flick of the wand in the air, Snape was surprised and puzzled by the displayed words, "Sev, you can call me An Yan."

"What do you mean?" Snape lowered his head and asked him, trying to read some clues from his face, "Do you have another name? An Yan... sounds like an Eastern name."

Repair the wand lightly, "It can be said that this is my name in my previous life."

This is why Snape's expression can no longer be described as simple shock, but soon he used Occlumency, his eyes and expression became blank - this is his subconscious behavior as a double agent.

"Xiu, what do you want to tell me?" He asked, his voice was different from the usual low and silky, but became a little hoarse.

Xiuzhi pointed to his head and tapped his wand, "Sev, I think my memory will tell you everything very clearly, and you can find the answers you want in it."

Snape was silent for a moment, the sense of near-taboo growing, and then he said, "We need a Pensieve."

Xiu smiled, "I don't mind if you use Dementor." The green and yingying words seem to have a gloomy feeling at this moment.

Snape frowned, "No, Dementor is a black magic, and it will have a negative effect on you." Xiu drew another line: "Okay then."

"I'm going to get the Pensieve, and I hope that in this short period of time, you won't run away cowardly like a stupid lion." Snape warned viciously.

Xiu laughed, and tapped his wand, "Sev, you seem to have forgotten that bravery is the trait of Gryffindor. If I were a lion, such an unglamorous thing like running away would never happen."

Snape snorted coldly, "Brave? Mr. White, I prefer to call that kind of brainless bravery reckless and impulsive."

Xiu shrugged, he would not argue with his lover over such a trivial matter, let alone he and the other party have the same opinion.

Snape went upstairs to get the Pensieve, and Hugh sat on the sofa by himself, with the little snow fox at his feet lovingly rubbing against his bare calf.

Snape's words always made sense, he did want to run away.I wanted to confess everything on the spur of the moment, but now I calm down and think about it, I really wish I could cut off my hand.

Throwing the wand on the table angrily, Xiu wrinkled his delicate facial features in distress.It was too late to repent now, for a person as sensitive as Snape, his own words had revealed too much information, and he couldn't hide it.

How Snape would react when he knew everything, Xiu couldn't guess.Maybe shocked, maybe unbelievable, maybe angry, but Xiu felt that he would probably use Occlumency to suppress all emotions immediately.

After taking a few deep breaths, Xiu calmed down and put his wand back into his sleeve.There is no longer any escape.In any case, at least Snape could know the trajectory of future fate, and it would be easier to deal with the brain-damaged devil.After all, since he is a young wizard who can't recite spells, he may not be able to save this man even if he fights for his life.

As long as it's okay for him, nothing else matters.

Snape came downstairs with the Pensieve, put the dark gray basin containing some transparent substances on the table, and sat beside Xiu.

Xiu put the wand against his temple, slowly pulled out a long transparent silk thread, and put it into the Pensieve.

Snape looked at him, Xiu looked resolute, and pointed to the Pensieve—go in, all the answers you want are there.

Snape stood up, leaned over the Pensieve, and a suction sucked him into it.

Xiu watched Snape disappear in front of him, hugged the little raccoon at his feet, stroked its fur gently, lowered his head and kissed its wet pink nose, the little raccoon squeaked to express his joy.

In a flash, a black figure appeared in front of his eyes.Xiu looked up, the man's face was full of shock, disbelief and bewilderment.

Seaver...

Xiu wanted to pull him, but he couldn't stretch out his hand no matter what, so he could only maintain the original movement stiffly.

"You...that, is that all true?" Snape's voice was so hoarse that the original quality of the voice could hardly be heard, and it was like a blunt knife cutting Xiu's heart, causing dull pain.

In fact, Snape himself understood very well that the memories that can be extracted must be real.

Xiu nodded stiffly, and Snape took a deep breath, "A story? Ha! Xiu, are you going to tell me now that the world I've lived in for decades is nothing but a ridiculous story written by a woman? And I, Si Ferris Snape is just a character in a story? How ridiculous!"

His self-deprecating tone made Xiu's heart throbbing, and finally grabbed his hand reluctantly, shaking his head desperately——No!not like this!Sev, the world is real, and so are you!

Snape looked at him, his eyes were empty, and he could no longer see the hidden tenderness and love, "Xiu, no, An Yan, who knows everything... well, how great! Watching me act according to that ridiculous script, Mr. An Yan, is my clumsy acting enough to entertain you?"

Xiu felt as if his heart was being pulled apart, his amber cat eyes were full of horror and hurt—how could he?How can you doubt his feelings for him?

The hand slipped down feebly, and Xiu wondered why he was still alive in such terrible pain.Humans are really strong animals, no matter how terrible pain they endure, they can still survive.

But Merlin seemed to feel that he hadn't suffered enough, and Snape's hurtful words continued, "When I treated you like a fool..., you may still laugh in your heart, how dare a character in a novel dare Thinking too much about you. Don't you think it's fun to fool me like this?"

"No, maybe you still want to tell me that you don't think so? Mr. An Yan, I am honored that the role I played in the story can be favored by you. But as an insignificant character, a greasy Greasy, dirty, evil old bat, I don't need your greatness, it just makes me feel more ridiculous!"

His whole body was cold, and even his breathing was painful. He tried hard to use the magic of appearance to tell him that he didn't think so, but the magic power in his body didn't listen.

Why is it so hard to love someone wholeheartedly?Jealousy, low self-esteem, despair, are not enough, a trembling heart is trampled underfoot, and for the first time in his life, he gives affection, is ridiculed, questioned, and abandoned like a shoe.

Like a clown, embarrassed, humble, ridiculous!

Xiu's eyes were blurred, but he wasn't sure if he was crying.He gritted his teeth, and stretched out his hands to the cynical man, trying to grab him, but the man took a step back, and his hand finally fell through.

not like this!not like this!Sev, I can explain it!Give me a chance to explain... I love you!For real, you standing in front of me!Not the tablet character in the book!Please, don't say that about me!Sev, I hurt so much, so hurt...you hug me, hug me, okay...Sev...

But the black-haired man didn't hear his desperate cry, and looked at him coldly, "An Yan...Mr., I hope that when I come back here again, I won't see you again!"

The man turned around and strode away without any hesitation.

Xiu was the only one in the empty living room, and the little snow raccoon next to him yelled in a low voice, as if he knew that the master was in a bad situation, so he didn't dare to go up to him and ask for gentle comfort.

There was only one thought left in Xiu's mind: Sev doesn't want him anymore, don't want him anymore...

After an unknown amount of time, Xiu blinked, stood up, and walked towards the stairs with steady steps, no different from usual.

He went into his room, opened the closet, and packed his clothes.The things he brought were very few, so he packed them up in no time.

Going downstairs, the kitchen utensils and ingredients he bought in the kitchen were discarded as if mocking him.Xiu opened the magic refrigerator, and started to get busy for lunch as usual every noon.

He used up all the stored ingredients, and the table full of dishes couldn't fit. Some of them were placed on the table beside the sofa, and some were placed on the countertop. Xiu added dozens of heat-retaining spells and fresh-keeping spells to them.

Then he shrunk all the kitchen utensils he bought into a suitcase.The small pendulum clock he bought in the living room was also put away, and there was also a medium-sized cabinet that could not be taken away, so he used it to disappear without a trace.

Xiu took a last look at the house where he had lived for more than a month and had the best memories of two lives, and left with all his things related to him.

He had said that, anyway, not even death could take him away from Sev unless Snape said he didn't want him.

But now, his Sev no longer wanted him, and he lost the qualification to stay.

It's not that it doesn't hurt, but it hurts so much that he doesn't even have the courage to persist.

Snape denied his feelings without even giving him a chance to explain.Hugh White is not made of iron, he will be hurt, he will be hurt, and he will be desperate.

Those dishes, because he knew Snape was going through such a shock that he would forget to eat for days.Taking everything away was his last consideration—that man would never want to see anything related to him again.

In a daze, he took a taxi back to the Thames Avenue. The two-storey white building was not very dirty because Snape helped him apply the dustproof charm when he moved to his house.

Just as Xiu put down his luggage, a warm, fishy sweetness welled up in his throat, and he fell into boundless darkness.

"Squeak! Squeak!" The little snow fox screamed in the master's ear, but this time the always gentle master did not hold him in his arms to comfort him.