He can't read my heart today

Rarely, Xi Jun drove Wen Xiangwu to the other courtyard where they met together.

To be honest, Xi Jun doesn't have many memories of other courtyards. He grew up in the principal courtyard since he was a child, and the other courtyards only come to stay occasionally.He once disliked the fact that the lawn of the other courtyard was not good-looking.

But now it seems...

Wen Xiangwu, who was sitting in the co-pilot, fell asleep with his head on the side because of exhaustion. Xi Jun stared at his profile for a long time, then turned his head to look at the lawn in the other courtyard, the swing frame, and the small coffee seat on the terrace.

It's so exquisite.Xi Jun felt that Wen Xiangwu did a good job in aesthetics, but on the other hand, he felt that the design of the other courtyard also followed the style of Wen Xiangwu's paintings.

Innovation...

Xi Jun stared at Wen Xiangwu's profile, and sighed softly, but couldn't say a word in the end, he could only sigh long, and gently woke Wen Xiangwu up.

Can't let him sleep anymore, so he won't be able to sleep at night.Xi Jun's gesture of waking Wen Xiangwu up was not rude, but very gentle, and Wen Xiangwu woke up naturally.Although a little dazed, I accepted the fact that the break was over.

I called the villa in advance, and the housekeeper's mother-in-law had already asked someone to prepare a meal.Seeing the two people coming back, they prepared meals.

Xi Jun took Wen Xiangwu's hand to the bathroom to wash his hands, and gently pressed a little hand sanitizer out. Xi Jun rubbed his own hand with bubbles, and rubbed Wen Xiangwu's hand together, little by little. Cleaning Wen Xiangwu's hands was as careful as doing a cultural relic restoration project.

The small-boned Wen Xiangwu was trapped between Xi Jun's arms and the sink.He even has small hands.Xi Jun felt endearing just by looking at it, and thought silently in his heart.Such small hands have many calluses from years of painting and carving. Xi Jun touched those thin calluses lightly, feeling distressed and proud in his heart.

He didn't study art, but he felt that people who study art must have suffered a lot.

Wen Xiangwu gently raised his head to look at Xi Jun's expression in the mirror, it was a sad expression with a slight smile on his face.He didn't quite understand, he could only watch Xi Jun wash off the foam from his hands with warm water, the expression on his face remained unmoved, and he didn't say anything after all.

Dinner is still the usual dishes, Wen Xiangwu is not very willing to change, so there is a fixed menu.

But unexpectedly, today is not the same.

"I want you to come to my room to sleep together, will it delay you?"

When asking questions, Wen Xiangwu was cautious, as if he was worried that he would disturb Xi Jun.But Xi Jun doesn't really care about this matter, although he often works late, and today's work requires him to work late as usual, but at this time, Wen Xiangwu proposed such an idea, Apart from satisfying him, Xi Jun didn't have any extra thoughts.

Xi Jun was sitting on the bed reading a book, and Wen Xiangwu was sitting on the other side of the bed after drying his hair, the expression on his face was as usual without any emotion.But Xi Jun could tell that Wen Xiangwu was actually in a good mood at this time.

"Shouldn't it be time to go to bed?" Xi Jun picked up the mobile phone that was charging on the bedside table, looked at several mails piled up in the mailbox, frowned slightly, and silently crossed them out.

Wen Xiangwu knelt on the bed with a corner of the quilt on his lap, silently watching Xi Jun's movements.

"Did it cause you trouble?"

This is a bit sudden.Wen Xiangwu has always been sensible, but he is not someone who can say such words. Xi Jun turned his head to look at Wen Xiangwu, stroked the hair on Wen Xiangwu's neck lightly, and thought for a while.

There are many and important emails at the end of the year.Anyone with a bit of work experience knows this.Xi Jun thought for a while about how to answer this question, and finally nodded silently, expressing that he was indeed delaying things a bit.

"Actually, I just feel that I haven't been lying together for a long time, so I want to lie down together, chat and so on." Wen Xiangwu's expression was very cautious, as if he really thought he was disturbing Xi Jun's work. "If you're really busy..."

"Since I came back, you have been calling me, you." Xi Jun decided to change the subject.After all, he didn't want to waste time on such trivial things.

He told Wen Xiangwu truthfully that he just didn't want to continue to deceive him, and didn't want him to blame himself.

"Huh?" Wen Xiangwu was also stunned for a moment, and thought for a while, "If Brother Xi Jun doesn't like it, I can change it."

After pondering for a moment, Xi Jun shook his head, "Actually, you call me by my name and call me you, which makes me feel very happy. Besides, you seem to feel that this is more comfortable. Right?"

Hearing this, Wen Xiangwu didn't answer.

Xi Jun knew it well, and silently pulled back the quilt, letting Wen Xiangwu sit under the quilt quickly.The two leaned side by side.

The two were quiet for a while, and Xi Jun suddenly smiled.

"What's wrong?" Wen Xiangwu asked in a low voice, and looked down at the book in Xi Jun's hand, "Is there anything funny about books?"

Shaking his head, Xi Jun denied Wen Xiangwu's idea. "I remember when I was a child, but it's not really a child anymore. It's just that you were a child. At that time, you just came to Xi's house and wanted to sleep with me anyway. I didn't sleep well at that time, so my family didn't like it, so you just cried. Got into a fight. Finally fell asleep on the couch."

"And then?" Wen Xiangwu couldn't understand the funny point of this story, he could only look at Xi Jun's side face and frowned slightly.

"Later?" Xi Jun frowned slightly, "You ran to my room by yourself. While your grandparents were asleep, you, a little dumpling, appeared in my arms the next day. Let me be your pillow. The hug is comfortable, and my saliva is dripping on the bed sheet."

"How can there be such a thing, why don't I remember it." Wen Xiangwu categorically denied it.

After all, there were only the two of them involved in this matter, and one of them didn't remember, and even if the other made it up, there was no evidence for it.

Xi Jun looked at Wen Xiangwu's slightly reddened face in denial, smiled slightly, lowered his eyes and pondered for a moment, and then raised the corners of his mouth again with a gentle angle.

"Actually, there's one more thing I didn't tell you." When Xi Jun spoke again, Wen Xiangwu frowned again.

Wen Xiangwu ran away from home when he was a child.Xi Jun followed behind to help him buy the bill all the way, and spent all the money he had at the time.

"At that time, I didn't even have the money to take the bus home. I was afraid to tell Steward Wen and my parents that you would be scolded. So I pretended to take you out to play and carried you back."

Although Wen Xiangwu didn't remember any details, but Xi Jun told the story so seriously, Wen Xiangwu couldn't help but also became serious.The resolute and arrogant cute look on his face that he denied just now has been replaced by a serious frown.

Xi Jun gently stretched out his hand to help him stretch his brows, only with a faint smile.

"At that time, you were not as thin as you are now. When I carried you back, I was so tired that I collapsed on the ground. I didn't dare to carry you back until you were fast asleep. In the end, you were so fast asleep that you could hear nothing. I don't see, I feel that even if you are kidnapped, you will definitely not know anything." Xi Jun thought it was fun and cute when he recalled that period of the past.

Wen Xiangwu couldn't laugh at all.

"Actually, I was really, really happy when I was with you." Xi Jun showed a yearning expression, "At that time, we were all children, so you don't have to worry about no one playing with you, and I also Don’t worry about studying for the first place, what grade to take, and where to study abroad.”

After saying this, Wen Xiangwu fell silent.Silently, Wen Xiangwu pulled the quilt and looked at the hands of the two people outside.The bracelet made of obsidian is still hanging on Xi Jun's wrist.

"Later, I went abroad. I picked a time when you were not around, and I heard later that you were crying so hard that you were about to die." Xi Jun couldn't laugh, but he could only look at Wen Xiangwu's side face , and finally took Wen Xiangwu's hand lightly.

"I'm really sorry that I left without saying goodbye at that time."

"But I'm also afraid that if I tell you, I'll miss you even more."

Wen Xiangwu's memory of that period is not very deep.He could only listen to Xi Jun's description silently, trying to recall the memories of that time.But in general terms, he couldn't remember anything.

"Later, I haven't heard from you for a long time. My parents said that you left with Steward Wen and his wife. I thought, yes, old Steward Wen has worked hard all his life, and suddenly suffered the pain of losing his son. It’s time to enjoy family happiness.” Xi Jun paused, “I didn’t know until I returned to China this time that you had already been diagnosed with Asperger’s, and your grandparents also passed away shortly after I left the country. Passed away."

Wen Xiangwu still has this memory.

Not quite able to accept the idea of ​​death, Wen Xiangwu remembered that he was wearing a small black suit with a white bow tie, standing with his grandfather's disciple, that is, the uncle who is now the housekeeper in the main courtyard, looking at people. Farewells come and go.When you are in front of your eyes, you always have to say something to comfort and coax yourself.

"But at the time, I seemed to know everything. I knew I had no relatives." Wen Xiangwu said silently about his feelings at the time, "I knew everything, but I had to pretend that I didn't know anything. I I'm afraid that if I behave too differently, I will be hated."

These words made Xi Jun frown silently, his eyes closed tightly, and he was speechless for a while.

Wen Xiangwu looked at his hands, and sighed softly, "But the acting was too poor, so it was caught out, and later Asperger's was found out."

"I don't want to blame this on my parents, I just feel. Sorry for you."

Wen Xiangwu turned to look at Xi Jun's face.That pretty face written all over with guilt.Wen Xiangwu gritted his back teeth lightly, but finally showed a smile

"I'll always hate your parents for depriving me of my happy and normal years for the sake of their lintels. If I weren't locked up like that, I might be happier."

"I'm sorry, I apologize to you on their behalf."

"But I will always be grateful to your parents. At least in my terrible life script, there is still one you left for me."

[The author has something to say: After thinking about it, let's end it.I always feel uneasy when the story is left here. 】