Crossing the gorgeous galaxy and meeting with tenderness 【Rebirth】

Ji Ran stepped forward, and since he entered the door, the man's gaze has been following him.

The man's eyes were very complicated, Ji Ran couldn't see what the man meant, but he was a little embarrassed to be looked at by him.

Although the man opposite had been looking at Ji Ran, he didn't intend to ask Ji Ran to take a seat.

The atmosphere was a little awkward.

Ji Ran had this kind of experience for the first time, and he didn't know what to say. Recalling Andor's encouragement to him before departure, he said to himself that he had to be brave, and after confirming that the seat number was correct. , he slowly groped and sat down.

The chair is a wooden chair, with a layer of cotton cloth that is not very soft. Ji Ran is used to sitting on the soft sofa at home. He feels that this chair makes him feel uneasy, but fortunately, the service staff of the restaurant quickly stepped forward to ask Do two people need to order food.

The smiling waiter asked twice and saw that it was the man who was the customer, and the man seemed to come back to his senses.

The man didn't look at Ji Ran anymore, he bowed his head and ordered the staple food, then pushed the menu to Ji Ran.

Ji Ran's atmosphere made him very uncomfortable and strange, he casually pointed to a meal on the cover.

After the waiter withdrew, the two fell silent again.

Ji Ran waited for a while, feeling that it would be too difficult to go on like this, and knowing that the man opposite had no intention of greeting him first, Ji Ran spoke first.

"Hello, my name is Ji Ran."

The waiting time was very difficult, even if it was just a few tens of seconds, Ji Ran couldn't help running away, he felt that something was wrong, this state was wrong, and his psychological feeling was getting worse and worse.

Just when Ji Ran felt anxious and wanted to escape, the man spoke

"Hello, my name is Edith." Edith's voice was hoarse, like sandpaper that had been polished. It wasn't particularly unpleasant, but Ji Ran felt a little "grinding" his ears when he heard it.

Edith looked at Ji Ran and felt uncomfortable. He knew that no matter what preparations he made, he would not be able to face this child calmly.

He adjusted his breathing, trying to calm down the emotions he shouldn't have.

"..."

After a short exchange of greetings, the two looked at each other speechlessly.

Ji Ran looked at the "father" named Edith on the opposite side. He didn't have the excitement of meeting his own child in Edith's heart. Edith was just a stranger to him.

In fact, when he saw Edith for the first time, Ji Ran was a little surprised. He knew that his reborn body had a beautiful face, but he didn't expect that "Ji Ran" was not very similar to his father.

Generally speaking, Liya people have a genetic gene from their parents in their bodies, and they will inevitably inherit some of their parents' appearance characteristics, but "Ji Ran" looks similar to his father except for the outline of a pair of eyes. to other similarities.

Different from Ji Ran's exquisite and soft facial features, Edith's facial features are very "shaped", like finely carved ice sculptures. Although they are also beautiful, they look very cold.

Looking at the boy who was looking at him curiously, Edith knew that if he didn't speak again, the two of them would spend so much time doing this, so he said:

"Presumably you already know that I'm your biological father?" Edith's voice was cold, and it was supposed to be a question with a higher tone, but in the end it was a flat statement.

Edith saw the boy in front of him nodding slightly.

"I'm sorry, although I am your biological father, I don't know anything about your situation except for giving you a small piece of genetic code. Regarding your information entry, I have tried my best to cooperate with you. Yes, but I do not consent to having your name under mine."

Edith's speech was not fast, and every word was clear, but Ji Ran couldn't understand it when he heard it.

The man looked at Ji Ran as if he didn't understand what he meant, he ignored it, he wanted to solve this matter quickly, he unconsciously sped up his speech, and continued:

"I'm married and have already formed a happy family. I have a husband, a son, and a 9-year-old Xiaodie..." When mentioning his Xiaodie, Edith glanced at Ji Ran .

Hope it didn't irritate Ji Ran.

"I hope you can forgive me, I don't want to ruin my current life because of you." Edith looked at Ji Ran and said.

Edith's hoarse voice was particularly abrupt in this restaurant, Ji Ran felt inexplicably uncomfortable hearing it.

This is completely different from what Ji Ran thought. He originally wanted to wait to confess to Edith that his son was dead. He was already prepared to be beaten and scolded by Edith, but he didn't expect...

Edith knew the words hurt, but Edith had to say them.

This Little Butterfly was also born in July after his hard pregnancy, he, if he could, he would not want to treat his child like this.

Even if there is no love, there is still a deep bond between father and son between them. Seeing the sadness in Ji Ran's eyes, Edith couldn't bear it, but his reason far surpassed his love for Ji Ran.

"Do you also feel that you are not like me? Do you know why?" Edith looked at Ji Ran. Even if he knew who Ji Ran was completely different from, it didn't matter, but he saw Ji Ran. I will think of those pasts and who I think of.

He hated them, and also hated Ji Ran by the way.

"You wouldn't have been born. When I first heard about you in the obstetrics and gynecology department of the hospital, I was going to turn around and go to the abortion room to kill you. It was the couple who stopped me. They wanted you. I didn't want to, but they begged me helplessly..."

Edith looked at Ji Ran and remembered what happened that day.

When I saw the inspection report that said the fetus was pregnant for 8 weeks, I wanted to tear up the report, I wanted to dig you out of my womb and smash it to pieces.

The surrounding sounds were all stripped away at this moment, and the world collapsed bit by bit.

The couple stopped me when I walked towards the abortion room in a daze. They told me that they wanted you and they were willing to raise you for free. I disagreed.

They persuaded me for a long time and said a lot, but I didn't listen to them all.

Later they said they would give me a sum of money, a large amount of money, enough to solve all my difficulties at that time.

I agreed.

When I handed you over to them, I only said one thing to them:

"I just pretend I never had this baby.

On the day you were born, it rained heavily, and the heavy rain repainted the transparent glass windows over and over again, as if trying to wash away this muddy world, but how could it be cleaned?

I lay on the bed and watched weakly as they hugged you from the nurse's arms.

They took you away on a rainy night, and also took away part of my sorrow.

Later, I never saw them again, nor did I see you.

"Do you know why I don't want to give birth to you?" Edith's voice was a little choked.

"Because you are a shame, you are the proof that I was insulted, as long as I think of you, as long as I see you, I will think of them and those things...

You are the seed of dozens of rapists, and you are the last thing I want to recall in my life. Edith looked at Ji Ran with a calm expression pretending not to care, not knowing that the red corners of his eyes had betrayed him.

"You must never forgive me, because I don't want you even now.

Even if I sold you that day, you no longer knew that you were quietly alive in the corner far away from me. In the days and nights that followed, as long as I recalled that incident, I wanted to find you, I I want to kill you, I can't tolerate you still existing in this world...

You are my disgrace. "He said.

"Even though I can get out of the injury and get out of that experience now, you are still a shame engraved in my heart." Edith's deep voice came through, hitting Ji Ran's fragile heart.

"Now that you're sitting in front of me, I'm reminded of the terrible experiences I had." Edith suppressed the discomfort in his heart. He knew he shouldn't have said these words to Ji Ran, but he really did. Unless he is impassive, he really can't make himself explain to Ji Ran in a nice way.

why?

Why come back?Why are you looking for me?

Wouldn't it be nice to just be a child without parents?Who said that parents will love their children?

Why would the world mislead you like this?Misleading every child?thought Edith.

"Did Ji Ran do something wrong?" Ji Ran suddenly asked Edith.

It was almost time for dinner, people in twos and threes shuttled between the dining tables, and some of them would pass by this dining table, but they did not stop briskly.

Edith looked at the gradually bustling restaurant, and his thoughts were flying. He thought of his happy and carefree childhood, the lover he once loved deeply, the lover who pushed him into the abyss, and the incident that made him never be happy again. An unbearable experience...

Finally, I thought of my current lover.

He just couldn't remember how he was pregnant with Ji Ran, and couldn't think of any memory of Ji Ran still in his stomach.

Everything about Ji Ran.

It's as if it was deliberately skipped, there is no process, only the beginning and the end.

What's wrong with Ji Ran?

I finally gave birth to him, so what was wrong with me?he thinks.

"Ji Ran, this world treats you as well as me." Edith replied.

The man looked at Ji Ran, tears fell from his cheeks.

"I know I'm selfish, you can beat me and scold me at will, no matter what you did wrong to me, I can accept it unconditionally..."

If I didn't have you, I wouldn't get that money, and I wouldn't be able to live.

Giving you life without giving you any love is the worst thing I can do to you.

"Ji Ran, you can pick up the knife in your hand and kill me right now, I won't have any objections." Because it was my fault for giving birth to you, I can accept any punishment from you.

"You can do anything to me, but only today." I still have my life, and Edith thinks of his lover and children who are still at home waiting for him to return. He wipes away his tears and says:

"I hope we won't see each other again in the future... Just pretend we've never met today..." The man looked at Ji Ran. Although he was crying, he didn't feel any guilt in his heart. There are too many people in this world who have no other choice. Also just one of them.

He's sorry for Ji Ran, but that's the only way to go.

……

Since Edith opened his mouth, Ji Ran didn't say much. He looked at the man in front of him who was "his" father. Maybe the man had a terrible experience, but the man is sitting with him in this high-end restaurant now. inside.

The clothes are decent, and the manner of speaking is also well-educated. It can be seen that the life of the man is really good now. Presumably he is very satisfied with his life now, right?

What about "Ji Ran"?

Ji Ran thought.

How did he get here before?

Ji Ran watched as Edith's mouth kept opening and closing, but he couldn't hear a word anymore.

He imagined that "Ji Ran" in his mind, did the couple who took him treat him well?

Has he grown up well?

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