Yue Ningxiang

Opportunity, never thought how ridiculous and absurd a love based on lies is!

Su Yunming looked at him and turned around silently.

"You go, I... don't blame you."

"……I……"

I don't know what to say, or what to say is wrong.

Xiao Yu's heart was cold, and he could only just stand there blankly, watching Su Yunming walk away, getting further and further away from him...

... I... love you... just want to be with you, why do you... treat me like this, why can't you allow me to deceive, I... just love you so much, I just can't bear to be face to face with you anymore I recognize the pain, I...

Give me one more chance, okay?

I won't lie to you again, I... definitely won't do this kind of deception again!

Please...give me one more chance, I...

In a corner where no one could see, Su Yunming leaned his back against the wall, raised his head, his breath became heavier and heavier, his body couldn't support the heaviness of his heart, and he fell down slowly and little by little.

I have never felt tired so deeply, and my body and mind are immersed in fatigue.

Rudou's lights were shining dimly, projecting his curled body on the wall, a distorted and hideous shadow.

My heart...begins to get cold...

Why are you so stupid, Xiao Yu, why are you still so stupid until today!

You and I have no future, we can't be together, I'm a dying person, just a lingering life, but you are in full bloom, you shouldn't love me, you should enjoy a more perfect life, so - I just I can hurt you severely, make you completely give up on me, and then forget about me and enjoy the rest of your life.

Please forgive my selfishness, I just don't want the rest of your life to be stained with sorrow because of me.

I want you to be happy, I... want your life without the sluggishness I bring...

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When the Seventh Prince returned to the mansion newly prepared for him by the magistrate, he was in a very bad mood.The magistrate is so tactful, he looks at his face, realizes that this matter is not good, and is thinking of finding an excuse to dodge it. It just so happens that General Bai Yi Bai visits at this time, the magistrate is naturally happy and relaxed, and hastily brought Bai Yi in.

Bai Yi looked at Xiao Yu carefully.

Xiao Yu, who was staring at the bamboo forest outside the window in a daze, had a delicate and flawless face, but there was sadness in the nobility.Is it the sadness of being rejected, or the sadness of feeling that you will never get something?Bai Yi didn't know, and didn't want to know, but his heart was also surging.

For a long time, he knew that he had done something wrong, but he had never regretted it like this moment.It seems that at this moment, for the first time, I realize that something is lost and can never come back.

But, what was that wrong thing, what was the lost thing?

I can't figure it out, and I don't understand where such regret comes from.

He took a deep breath and took a step forward.

"My lord."

Xiao Yu hummed, turned around, his face remained the same, but with remorse and helplessness.

"Bai Yi, I want to ask you something."

"My lord, please speak."

Not knowing exactly what Xiao Yu was thinking, Bai Yi prepared carefully and carefully.

However, Xiao Yu thought for a long time, and then asked: "When I found out that I was deceived by my dearest and most loved person, was it happiness or pain? Even if I knew in my heart that the lie came from good intentions, wouldn't it be painful and impossible?" accept?"

Bai Yi was stunned, he instinctively thought of what he had done, his heart was tense, but then he shook off the ominous thoughts that had been lingering in his heart.

"Love will change each other's cognition. It's just that two people who love each other can't tolerate betrayal or deception. Even a white lie will make the other party feel extremely hurt. Because it hurts love , is a betrayal of trust based on love."

"So... do you regret it? Betrayed Yun Ming's trust and betrayed him, have you ever regretted it?"

Bai Yi's heart trembled again. He instinctively thought that Xiao Yu asked this question to ridicule himself, but when he secretly looked up, he saw Xiao Yu's face full of remorse and self-loathing, and he was immediately relieved.

It's just that this question is a bit difficult to answer, and he can't help but think twice.

Xiao Yu, on the other hand, sighed again when he saw that he had not returned for a long time.

"I shouldn't ask you this kind of question. If you feel that you can't answer it, then—"

"It doesn't matter, my lord, Bai has long been looked down upon because of that matter. When the late emperor was alive, he would use this matter to ridicule me almost every time I summoned my ministers. I am used to being despised. After all, I have betrayed my friends, even though my starting point is to be loyal to the country and filial to my father."

"Then... do you regret it, or do you not regret it?"

Bai Yi lowered his eyes.

"I regret it, I'm not a beast, it's impossible not to regret it. But if God gives me another chance to start over, I will still choose to betray him, because I am the Bai family, I can't just ignore the decline of the Bai family , Hiding in the south of the Yangtze River to have fun."

Xiao Yu, who didn't expect Bai Yi to answer like this, was also a little surprised, and he sighed after a long time.

"You are conflicted."

"It's not a contradiction, it's just that I always put the protection of the family's interests before my personal feelings. The prince is precious, and his family is in the world. Naturally, he doesn't understand what it means to be loyal to the king and patriotism. But if one day, the country is in danger, we must The prince sacrificed love in exchange for peace in the world, and the prince may be able to understand my difficulties back then."

This is sophistry, but it is not entirely sophistry. The definitions of the most important things in life are different. When standing at the bifurcation point of life, the choices you make are naturally different.The most important thing for Bai Yi is family and loyalty, but Xiao Yu is completely different from him.

So, after hearing Bai Yi's justification, Xiao Yu just smiled wryly.

"Maybe. But how will I choose at that moment? Maybe it will be the day when the country is about to collapse. However, even if I really exchange my feelings for my loyalty, once the big event happens, I will definitely not live in the world." !"

Bai Yi understood.

He understood why he felt ashamed every time he saw Xiao Yu, something was torn apart, the truth that he had refused to face all this time was torn apart.

Betrayal is wrong, and it is even more wrong to put on the veil of loyalty and filial piety for betrayal.After doing so many wrong things, he didn't think about his own mistakes, but kept finding excuses for himself to shirk. It's no wonder that those people look down on themselves.

It's just that he has reached this desperate situation and can no longer retreat.

This is the fate of rebels!

"...My lord, I have thought about it more than once, should I be responsible for my actions and ask for forgiveness from that person with my life. But I am cowardly, and I don't know how to face my mistakes. I tricked myself into thinking that I have too many burdens, but I also understand in my heart that the so-called burdens are just lies. Maybe one day, my past can be covered up by my future achievements, but my heart... will always live on that day, Never turn over."

"Because you still love yourself more after all, right?"

Bai Yi nodded.

"I... regret it, but I dare not remedy it. I don't know how to remedy it... the correct remedy. The mistake has already been made. I can only go all the way and persist in making the mistake. I dare not look at the way I came , Too many bones make me dare not look back. I dare not look at my future, as long as I think that those futures are all exchanged for the bones on the road, my heart... only regret and fear are left. Lord Even if you laugh at me for being mean and dirty, I don't care anymore."

Unexpectedly, Bai Yi, who had always been looked down upon by others, had such thoughts in his heart, Xiao Yu was also a little surprised.

But while despising his greed for life, fear of death and ungratefulness, Xiao Yu also discovered how difficult it is to admit his mistakes after doing something wrong and beg for forgiveness!

He... really couldn't speak, let alone how to speak.

So he waved his hand, signaling Bai Yi to leave first, but didn't want Bai Yi to get closer, and whispered:

"My lord, this humble minister is actually the fifth lord's advance soldier when he comes to Jiangnan. The fifth lord has always been concerned about the Yi-Ni sect forces in Jiangnan, so it's better for the lord to make plans early."

"you--"

Xiao Yu was shocked, and Bai Yi smiled.

"Weichen occasionally wants to do something worthy of his conscience."

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The gardenias in the courtyard are blooming, and the tree is fragrant. Bathed in the drizzle at dusk, it becomes more and more beautiful and refined, with a touch of sadness and loneliness in the gentleness.

The spring flowers have already fallen, and the early summer when the green trees are dense, is the time when the gardenias show their beauty, just looking at the elegant and calm gardenias in the hazy drizzle, Su Yunming can't help feeling sad in his heart.

Flowers bloom, always thank you.

The small building listens to the spring rain all night, and the deep alley sells apricot flowers in the Ming Dynasty. The prosperity at this moment will not be able to match the fragrance of the branches in the future.

Su Yunming poured himself a glass of wine, the clear Zhuyeqing, he remembered that this year's Zhuyeqing had a mellow and cold taste, but when he swallowed it, it would turn into continuous pain.

He pinched the glass, and the wine glass stopped by his lips, but he didn't drink it.

At the end of the drizzle, a person walked slowly with an umbrella.

The person in light blue clothes, whose face cannot be seen clearly, is holding an umbrella, walking on the bluestone road, with unresolved sorrow.

"Rare guest, really rare guest."

Calmly beckoning the guards in the dark to remain calm, Su Yunming got up and walked in front of the visitor.

"General Bai came to visit on a rainy night, no