Yue Ningxiang

"Flowers Are Not Flowers"

dream.

I don't know if it's a nightmare or a hallucination of a spring dream.

The season of peonies had already passed, but the courtyard was still full of moist and fragrant flowers, and the ground was also covered with thick petals. She stepped on it with bare feet, icy, soft, and damp.

Pushing open the door, dark and warm air blows in, the veil hangs down, and the fragrance is soft and soft.

Behind her, a pair of hands hugged her, a soft silk cloth covered her eyes, followed by a kiss, a wet and delicate kiss, the clothes were untied inch by inch during the kiss, and slipped off, leaving her naked.

Gardenia fragrance, and delicate entanglement.

Can't see the alternation of day and night, the dark room without light, deep in the hanging veil, the man's skin exudes a sweet and cold fragrance, she feels his breath, feels the dizziness when he enters the body.

The tip of his tongue slipped in, the entanglement day and night did not make the body feel dull, the wet feeling mixed with the immoral tension stimulated the sexual desire, the body became more and more sensitive, she was greedy for his breath hungrily, her chest was because of his Trembling with movement, his tongue is really a horrific monster, walking softly on her body, making her feel the pleasure of being molested countless times.

Shadows intertwine and entangle on the wall, groans pant among the intertwined shadows, there is endless sorrow in the charming, the joy is only sadness at the same time, the pleasure of being unable to breathe heavily, despair in body and mind.

She could no longer remember his face.

But she also didn't want to think of his face. At that time, she didn't even look at his face seriously.She just wanted to combine with a strange man, to appreciate the mystery brought by the strangeness, and the warmth of a man that she had never received—the almost illusory warmth in this cold night.

The warmth that can disappear at any moment.

His fingers were beautiful, with a cold fragrance, gliding across her face, gliding across every place that longed to be touched, creating icy ripples.

She didn't want to talk to him, he knew that from the beginning to the end, he didn't ask a word, just kept kissing her, touching her, making her body change from initial tension to acceptable softness, and finally obsessed with happiness .

But she still felt despair, the warmth he gave made her despair, and she was buried in sorrow in his fragrance.

Outside the veil, candles infused with rose essential oil are lit, and the pale pink smoke is diffused in the dampness of lust.

The body rots in the darkness, becomes a part of desire, is buried in mud, and sinks.

This is an indulgence, an indulgence that shouldn't be...

Opening her eyes, Taming felt cold, the memory that had been completely buried in the darkness reappeared in her dream, making her panic.

Everything is over, everything has been buried in the dark, why do I still dream again and again!

Is it—

She moved her body, the cold room was empty and indifferent, and the servants were waiting outside the veil a foot away.

Beside the pillow, it was bitingly cold.

The golden bell shook lightly.

"What orders does Her Royal Highness have?"

Outside the veil, the court lady agreed softly, and Taming asked, "Has your husband come back?"

"Troublesome things happened in the palace, and the master of the country didn't return to the mansion until midnight. Passing by you, the master of the country wanted to enter, but the mother said that you had already fallen asleep, so the lord left."

Taming nodded. She has been having nightmares and retching and nausea from time to time. She knows that this is retribution, but she doesn't want Xiao Qing to find out that something is wrong too early, so she specially ordered the nanny to stop Xiao Qing and not let him enter her dormitory.

"Then he went to spend the night with A Juan again?"

The maid didn't answer, Taming smiled wryly, she knew that Xiao Qing must have gone to that person's side again tonight.

Forget it, don't ask any more questions, why bother to reveal this bitterness?

But at this time, the maid had already answered.

The maid outside the veil lowered her head and reported in a low voice.

"Master Guoshi saw that you were sleeping, so he went to Ajuan's side, saying that after all, this child will belong to the princess in the future, and now he should spend more time with her and the child because of the situation and reason. As for whether it is on Ajuan's side or not?" Overnight, the slaves don’t even know about it.”

"Let him go, even though I promoted Ajuan to have a child on her behalf, my husband has no affection for her, but now that Ajuan is pregnant with Liujia, my husband is a gentle person, and he should take care of her a lot. "

"Princess Zhai has a kind heart, and this servant is really jealous of Ajuan."

The court lady spoke calmly, but Dan Ming could only smile wryly.

"You send a message to the cook. From tomorrow onwards, Ajuan's food and drink must be carefully served. She is pregnant with her husband's child, and it is also my child. I can't ignore it."

"Yes."

The palace maid led the order to retreat, and the hall returned to tranquility.

Turning over, Taming closed her eyes and fell asleep.

In the eyes of the slaves, Ajuan is lucky.

Because the princess is weak and difficult to conceive, for the sake of the grandmaster's offspring, the nanny bought some clean Han girls from the market and brought them into the mansion.That's how Ajuan entered the mansion.Her appearance is only above average, except for her docile and weak personality, there is nothing outstanding about her. Just because the princess is pleasing to her eyes, she was chosen as a housemaid. , even the princess looked at her differently, and the national teacher often spent the night with her.

But Taming knew that during the so-called nights with A Juan, Xiao Qing was with another person, and A Juan, like herself, stayed alone in the vacant room, lonely until dawn.

It's a pity that everyone was deceived, their jealousy shot at A Juan, but they didn't know that it was not A Juan who really robbed Xiao Qing, but——

Nausea and retching struck again for no reason, Danming covered her heart, and it took a while to get over it.

Did it sense nightmares too?

"Do you hate me too? Hate me for killing your father?"

As it should be, there was no response.

She sighed.

Why was there that madness?

Because I know the truth.

Because it is unacceptable.

Because I don't want to be silent.

Tossing and turning, it was difficult to fall asleep, and finally got up with clothes on, and lit a candle.

The lights are burning.

Projected on the veil, the swaying figure is a shadow puppet, a dream, and... miserable...

I still remember the first time I saw Xiao Qing, he was wearing light blue clothes, Han clothes, loose and elegant, the wind blowing, chic and romantic, so her heart was fascinated, and her eyes were full of him.

She has a crush on him.

She fell in love with this handsome and noble man from Middle Earth.

She likes him, likes his every frown and smile, likes his sighs, likes his frowns, likes his walking posture, likes to look at him, likes her eyes so much.

Where there is him, she can't see anyone but him.

She likes it, loves it desperately, love turns into madness and confuses IQ, knowing that her heart is flawed and unable to have intercourse and children, but wishful thinking to become his wife, so she begged her father to make him a national teacher, so He took the initiative to ask him to marry himself.

She is a princess, the most beautiful woman in Uighur, but unfortunately she is also servile in front of love.

On the wedding night, he said that the princess was weak and unable to have sex, so from now on, the husband and wife will respect each other as guests, and the love will end with courtesy.

From then on, she knew that being a husband and wife did not mean that she really had him. For three years, three years of respecting each other as a guest, her pillow had never been stained with his warmth.

But for three whole years, she never doubted his tenderness, she believed that his respect as a guest was cherished and loved, until that day——

That night, the lie tore apart the illusory happiness, took off the veil of warmth, and saw cruelty and blood.

It was an elegant night, a peaceful night, the moon was shining brightly, the wind was light and the clouds were light, with the calmness of a foreshadowing of a storm, she walked quietly on the promenade.

I forgot why I walked alone in the secluded garden at that time, I only remember the endless regret afterwards, and the countless expectations that that day would never exist.

But this is impossible, fate sent her to that place, at that time, to that place, alone, holding a lantern, to unravel the truth that has been carefully concealed.

It cannot be avoided, nor can it be avoided.

In the right place at the right time, saw the wrong person.

Her husband, her always gentle and refined husband, was entangled with another.Combining crazily, embracing with burning body and mind, obsession, promiscuity, fanaticism.

She has never seen such a lewd picture. Two people are naked on the stone table of the gazebo. The white flesh is entangled. with.

Seeing their madness, she instinctively turned around and wanted to leave, but there was a voice deep in her heart asking her to stay.

She walked a few steps, fighting repeatedly with fear and longing, and finally she stayed, with strong composure, under the cover of flowers and trees, watching their entanglement without emotion.

They were intercourse and hugging, every gasp was filled with the heat of lust, she watched their union, excited, fierce, the white body was covered with sweat, but finally infected with the coldness of the night, her body and mind were all shaken. It was like being immersed in an ice cave, so cold that I almost stopped breathing.

That was the truth, and he was always gentle with his own truth.

He forgot how he walked away cautiously with drunken steps, but he couldn't forget Xiao Qing's excited panting behind the mask of indifference, and he couldn't forget Su Qingyu's vicious pride.

Taming knew that Su Qingyu had been watching him all the time, from the time he strayed into the depths of the garden by mistake until he left, he knew of her existence, he saw everything, but he deliberately didn't say anything.

It's for showing off, right?

Knowing that she was there, he intentionally showed off and made her heartache on purpose.

Taming really wanted to walk up to Su Qingyu and ask clearly, which one is your feelings for him or my feelings for him?