When the weak wears into a stallion male pig

The two sides sat opposite each other in silence for a long time, and Oren finally raised his head from the palm of his hand, and saw Shangguan Qingrong, who was shivering on the floor beside him, who was as sad as him.

What is he doing, struggling at home for so long, just to come over and argue with this person?He's not a woman, he's a woman, so it's nothing to let a man kiss him!

What's more, he didn't do it on purpose, and he was to blame for this matter from the beginning to the end.It was he who drugged Drizzt; it was he who ran to someone's bed and sent him to the door for a kiss; he was the one who would look up after being dawdled by a man; it was he who was thinking about a man every day these days...

He obviously figured it out before coming here that it was all his fault, and wanted to apologize to Drizzt, why did this scene happen again now?He is already seventeen, and he will have his coming-of-age ceremony next year, so why lose his temper with a stupid kid who is only 13 years old and doesn't understand anything!

Thinking of this, Oren felt remorseful again, rubbed his hands on the hem of his robe, looked up at the ceiling, pumped himself up a few times in his heart, and finally blurted out: "Sorry, I didn't come to quarrel with you! I The original intention was to apologize to you, but I... can't control my emotions!"

Once the words of apology are spoken, it is not as difficult as he thought to continue.Regardless of Shangguan Qingrong's reaction or not, he said straight away: "I know that I was wrong from the very beginning, and I didn't mean to say those things, I just couldn't control it. I was just afraid of myself, I was like a monster Same thing, getting angry with a man... No, no, please forget these words, I will leave you, far away from the capital, and never appear in front of you again. Why am I here to tell you this... I should have left silently by myself..."

Shangguan Qingrong raised his head, and the pain in his eyes deepened again.If Senior Oren is considered a monster if he is so emotional because of a man's body, then what is he, this person who only wants to be born with a man?

He finally stood up, put his hand on Oren's lips, looked straight into his eyes, and said word by word: "Senior, you are not a monster, if you say that men like men, it is disgusting If someone despises you, then the person despised by others should also be me, not you."

Oren forgot to look at him in astonishment, tongue-tied, not knowing what he was talking about for a moment.

Shangguan Qingrong's expression became more and more calm, and he said more words that he couldn't understand and accept: "I knew a long time ago that in this world, men don't like men, but I like men by nature. I was born for this. The only purpose of my life, the only value, is to be loved by people and men who are the same as me. I have been like this since I was a child. Maybe you look at me disgustingly, look at me Like a monster, but I don't feel it myself. I just look forward to getting to know and fall in love with a man who is capable and sympathetic to me, and spend the rest of my life together. This life, the last one... No, I will be like this in my lifetime."

He withdrew his hand and moved a little further away from Oren, with a slight smile on his lips: "You don't have to leave the capital, senior. I am the one who should leave. I will go and explain this to everyone. Give you your innocence. However, there is one thing I want you to remember: I like men, and I want to cling to men so I can't survive, but I don't think it's disgusting or inferior, and I'm not a monster... "I'm just a weakling.

As a weakling, isn't it the most natural thing to be despised by bad men?Whether he is scolded as a villain for the country, or accused of self-willing and degrading, what's the big deal about being happy with others?

He has only been in this world for a short year, and he has forgotten everything he learned in the temple of the god stepmother, the teachings of the great god, and he wants to be like the people here, not masculine?If this is the case, wouldn't it be a disappointment to his stepmother's painstaking care for him, and also to a failure of all his hard work since he came to this world?

He is not a tree hibiscus in the mountains, he only needs to thank himself and feel sorry for himself.In his life, he came here with a mission, and he is destined to become the peerless weakling that everyone is obsessed with and who fascinates all sentient beings!

No matter how many difficulties and obstacles there are in front of him, he will overcome them one by one; even if everyone criticizes him, he will meet the eyes of everyone and walk on the path he should walk!

Silence stretched between Shangguan Qingrong and Oren.I don't know how long it took, Oren finally woke up from the shock, and his surprised eyes kept wandering on Shangguan Qingrong's face: "You, you like men? Then you kissed me that day, not because of the aphrodisiac...you like me!"

The jumping nature of this accusation was too strong. Shangguan Qingrong thought about it carefully before he realized it, and explained to Senior Oren, who was obviously more emotionally turbulent than before: "I was indeed at the time... although the effect of the medicine was not completely released. , but it’s not enough to recognize a man and a woman. However, I didn’t think anything wrong with you, senior, but I just acted urgently. When I saw a man coming in, I wanted to solve the temporary needs first..."

But it's better not to say this, Oren's face suddenly turned from red to black, and various expressions of resentment, sadness, self-pity, and hatred on his face fluctuated.

"Then, who is that person in your heart? If you don't like me, at least let me know who is that person!"

"What does it matter who I like? I've never had the final say on this kind of thing." Whoever has more power, who has more ability, whoever wants me, I belong to, and who will ask? What do I like or don't like?

Shangguan Qingrong smiled sadly, the duty of a weak person is to submit to what comes and goes, like duckweed on the river, with his body turning with the waves, his fate depends on the sky, asking who is in his heart.Even if you really have someone in your heart, among those men who love and compete for him, how can any one of them be willing to let him fly with his sweetheart just because of this?

Although Senior Oren is dejected and pitiful, isn't he also a pitiful person?He is willing to take pity on Senior Oren, but who will take pity on him?

Shangguan Qingrong felt a sense of grievance and sadness spread from the bottom of his heart to his whole body. He was no longer able to support Oren, and he stopped serving tea, and directly issued an order to evict the guests: "Senior, I am a little tired today. Can I go tomorrow? I will go tomorrow." Sister Anna, and other classmates to clarify this matter, and remove the stigma for you. Don't worry, I won't deny it, and I will go to them when I get up tomorrow morning. "

After hearing the words, Oren didn't show any happy expression, and didn't leave as he said. Instead, he approached Shangguan Qingrong, and stretched out his hand to caress his shoulder without any anger or desire.

"Drizzet, I've always known that you are a very generous person. But I was overwhelmed by jealousy. You know? I don't like you, but it's not just because of Anna. You have been loved by women since you were a child. I like it, now I am practicing both magic and martial arts, and I am also favored by the God of Light, and I became a light mage. I thought you have been so smooth all your life, so you will be tolerant of me, a loser..."

He gently hugged Shangguan Qingrong, feeling the infinite power emanating from the thin and thin body in his arms: "But, I was wrong. Your tolerance and kindness have never been due to your ignorance of pain, but have come from you." Brave heart. Drizzt, you are such an amazing person. This is the first time I have seen a person who dares to face his own heart and face his differences from ordinary people. I seem to be able to learn from you Such courage."

He let go of Shangguan Qingrong, as if reborn, restrained the negative breath in his body, looked him straight in the eyes and said, "I'm here to say goodbye to you today, because I'm going to Veronia soon, I'm afraid there will be I haven't been able to return to the capital for a long time. Please don't mind those unreasonable actions and requests before, and please forget about my horrible appearance. Also, Anna never blamed me for that incident, and she didn't talk to me about it. Anyone said it. I was so manic when I came here, but it was because my heart was too narrow and I was too weak. I now understand that the biggest obstacle in front of a person is not other people's eyes and comments, but own heart."

Oren touched his heart with his hand, and smiled slightly at Shangguan Qingrong: "I wish I had the courage like you to face my... feelings that are different from ordinary people. However, thank you for your sincere understanding of me, Let me also have the courage to believe that I am not a monster. Maybe I am still not strong enough and need more training. When I can have the courage to face myself like you, I may return to the capital. And that At that time, I will definitely become a powerful magician, maybe even stronger than you... At that time, I will come back to see you, at that time, can you treat me as a friend?"

Shangguan Qingrong also felt a burst of relief in his heart, and his pain seemed to have eased a lot.He nodded and said with a smile, "Of course, Senior Oren. As long as you don't dislike me, I'm your friend now."

"Not yet, I will come back to you when I am worthy of being your friend."

Oren walked to the coat rack at the door, took off his coat and put it on his arm, opened the door and was about to go out, then stopped, turned around and said to Shangguan Qingrong: "By the way, don't worry about your business. Can you tell others? I hope you can wait for me, and when I have the courage to tell others what is really on my mind, you can tell others with me. In this way, I won’t be left too far behind by you... "

He let out a long sigh, didn't stay any longer, walked to the door resolutely, and got into the carriage parked outside the door.

Shangguan Qingrong escorted him all the way to the atrium, and before passing the gate, he withdrew his footsteps and walked back to his small bedroom.Although I don't know which sentence interrupted Senior Oren, Shangguan Qingrong was naturally very happy to see him turn from gloomy to normal again.

The tea set on the coffee table had been cleared away by the maid, and the room was restored to tidiness, leaving no trace of Oren's visit, but this trace had already been deeply imprinted on Shangguan Qingrong's heart.That senior Oren is indeed a man with great ambitions, and he will definitely not be a thing in the pool in the future!

Such a person actually respects him so much, and intends to make friends with him in the future, shouldn't he feel honored?Or, Senior Oren actually has some affection for him, but he didn't know what masculinity was before, so he refused to admit it?Then if we can see Senior Oren again, what will be their relationship then?

After thinking hard for a while, Shangguan Qingrong laughed at himself again: he doesn't know what experience he will have in the future, and he doesn't know who will fall into his hands.Even if Senior Oren has some friendship with him, once Hou Men enters the sea, even if they meet again, they will be nothing but strangers. What's the use of thinking so much now?