Mu Chen

121. Regret

Mu Chen gradually got used to it, he gradually followed the course, and was recognized by the two professors, because he had good cooking skills, he had a group of good friends and classmates.

The correspondence with Yu Yong has not been interrupted, and the relationship is even more stable. This state of two people working hard together for the future makes him feel very happy and happy.

After getting used to it, the rhythm slowly slowed down. When he had free time, he would often walk for an hour to sit in a coffee shop for an afternoon.He can’t actually drink a few sips of coffee, but the blue sky and white clouds outside the window, the pigeons flying in the sky and the Seine River rushing beside him all make him feel happy. Sitting here and reading a book is his best pastime.

Time passed quickly, and in the blink of an eye, it was July 09. Except for Gu Ning and his wife who came to visit him once after the year, he never went back.

When he was on vacation, Yu Yong often had no time. When Yu Yong was free, he was busy again. In the end, the two of them stopped entangled and waited for the end of study in August.

Muchen never told Yu Yong that he didn't study for a Ph.D. He was still a one-year visiting scholar after he came here. Now, through phone calls, emails and Gu Ning, he knows that Yu Yong has done a good job for more than a year, and the situation is completely open. , was so busy that it was impossible to stop.

So does he want a degree?He didn't plan to study at first, and he would have to stay for another three years due to such a delay.

Maybe he can discuss it with the professor, work harder, earn enough credits earlier, and strive to graduate in two years?Then the total itinerary remains the same.

This afternoon Muchen was sitting in the coffee shop, looking at the emails on his mobile phone. Yu Yong didn't write much recently, and he couldn't get enough of it, so he opened the old ones and read them again.

Muchen didn't know that at this moment, he had a smile on his lips and a gentle look on his face. In addition to his original delicate appearance and elegant temperament, he was also the scenery in the eyes of others.While reading the letter, I suddenly heard a voice in Chinese, "Mu Chen?"

The voice was very soft, but there was no one in the store, so it was very quiet. Mu Chen raised his head and stood up slowly unconsciously.

He didn't speak, and the woman standing in the aisle looked at him and said softly, "It's really you, you've grown up so much... You were more like me when you were young, but now you look more like you Dad, otherwise I wouldn't dare to admit it."

Mu Chen woke up from the stupefaction, and after hesitating for a long time, he still couldn't call out "Mom". He walked over and pulled away the chair opposite, "Well, you sit down first. What would you like to drink?"

Yang Li hasn't changed much. Although she looks old after fifty and has deep nasolabial folds, she still looks very charming with decent makeup and simple clothes.

After careful calculation, they haven't seen each other since she and Mu Wen divorced in 92.

Yang Li once invited him to Shanghai after his college entrance examination, but Mu Chen always felt that if he got close to this mother, he would betray his father. He couldn't get close, so he went to Beijing with his friends at that time.

When she was in college, Yang Li also called twice to invite him to play, but he never went.

The strange thing is that Yang Li didn't visit him either. Even though the two cities are very close, she never visited him once. After Mu Wen passed away, she even lost contact.

Yang Li ordered a cup of coffee. Seeing that Mu Chen just looked at her calmly and didn't speak, she asked, "Why are you here? Are you going to school or work?"

Muchen, "Come here for exchange and study for a year, and it will be over soon." After thinking for a while, he asked, "What about you? How have you been doing these years?"

Yang Li took a sip of coffee, with a calm and proud expression, "I married a Frenchman in 99, but my job was still in China, so I was always in Shanghai. I immigrated after giving birth to my daughter Sophie in 02, and began to live in Paris for a long time. Jacques also ended his work in Malaysia and returned to France that year. He loves children very much, and the educational environment in France is relaxed, so we decided to come back.”

Muchen, "..."

Yang Li, "Although he has a company here, our business was in other countries at that time. However, Jacques said that children's growth cannot be missed, and we can't care too much about it. Sophie is here today to participate Event, I'm waiting for her to end. I didn't expect to meet you, how have you been these years?"

Mu Chen nodded, "Very good."

Yang Li hesitated for a moment before saying, "I was in Paris when your father passed away. My phone was turned off at the time, and it has been a week since I found out. I'm sorry I didn't send it off."

Muchen shook his head and smiled lightly, "It's okay. Anyway, my dad has already deleted you from his world, the kind that even empties the recycle bin. So, I think he doesn't care."

Yang Li was choked by his sudden ridicule, and Mu Chen nodded seriously again, "It's true, my dad had a good life afterwards. It's a pity that he left too early, I didn't even have a chance to be filial to him."

Yang Li still didn't answer, and took another sip of coffee.

Muchen still chuckled, "Actually, we've all forgotten about you a long time ago. It's quite strange to find that I can still recognize you when we meet today, haha. But I'm still happy for you that you can live a good life."

Yang Li put down the glass in displeasure, "Mu Chen, is it necessary for you to talk to me like this? After all, I gave birth to you."

Muchen smiled unchanged, "Then what do you expect me to say to you?"

Yang Li, "You!"

Mu Chen suppressed his smile, "The most regretful thing in my life is that my father left too early. I enjoyed everything he gave me but didn't have the opportunity to repay him. The most regretful thing for my father is that he married you , I would rather not be born than to let him waste his feelings on you. Pity that all his sincerity is used by you. But what I am most happy for him is that he really let go of you in the end, and there is someone who treats him sincerely accompany."

Yang Li, "..."

Muchen smiled mockingly again, "You don't think it's because of you that my dad didn't remarry, do you? Hehe, you're always so arrogant."

Speaking of this, he looked nostalgic, "My dad had a good life in the last few years, and he was very kind to my dad. He put my dad first in everything. Although they didn't hold a wedding, I will always treat him as a My relatives will take care of him until the end of his life, and give him all the good things that I didn't have time to treat my dad."

Yang Li calmed down and said, "I'm your mother. I gave birth to you even if I didn't take care of you much. Is it interesting for you to say how good your stepmother is in front of me and how filial you are to her? Although I don't care."

Muchen looked calm, "We all understand why you gave birth to me, and you raised me for a few days? I have only had my dad since I was a child, and you have always pursued your own success in life. So now, you are boasting in front of me that you gave up for your daughter. Is the career interesting? Although I don't care."

Yang Li was choked again, and she took a moment to say, "I know you blame me. I'm really not a good mother to you. With Sophie, I understand this better. But people always look forward Isn't it? I am changing by taking good care of Sophie now, isn't that right?"

Mu Chen was actually a little surprised, "Are you asking me to express your appreciation for your changes? But what does this have to do with me? You are always like this, only self-centered, I am so stupid to talk to you." You say this, heh."

Yang Li tried not to get angry, and thought about it again, "Are you having any difficulties in life now? I can pay you some tuition or rent."

Muchen smiled and shook his head, "I'm going to finish my studies soon, all the tuition and rent have already been paid. You really are, haha."

Yang Li was a little embarrassed. She looked at her watch and drank the last sip of coffee, "Mu Chen, your father is a good man, but he has no ability to make me stay for him. When you reach my age, you will understand that people want to Looking forward, only by letting go of the past can we have a new life."

Muchen sneered, "My dad and I are the 'past' that you have to let go of. Fortunately, we have already let go of each other. Today's meeting was purely accidental. Don't worry, we will never see each other again. I feel sick." After finishing speaking, he got up and walked out.

Yang Li......

Muchen walked briskly on the street. After walking for a long time, he slowed down. He took out his mobile phone. It was past four o'clock in the afternoon. Calculating the domestic time, Jiang Cheng should not have rested yet, so he dialed the number.

Jiang Cheng's voice was very pleasant, "Chenchen? get out of class is over?"

Muchen, "..."

After a long time without responding, Jiang Cheng's voice became louder, and Mu Chen even heard something fall on the ground with a bang, "Chenchen? Is it you? What happened? Chenchen!"

Mu Chen came back to his senses, he tried his best to calm down his tone, "Uncle Cheng, it's me, it's fine."

Jiang Cheng, "Chenchen?"

Mu Chen, "Uncle Cheng, I'm really fine, I just miss you and my dad."

Jiang Cheng's voice was a little cautious, "Chenchen, what happened? What's wrong with you?"

Muchen, "I saw her this afternoon, she is still the same, aloof, very frank, innocent, remarkable, and holy."

Jiang Cheng?

Muchen's voice was very depressing, "She said she married a Frenchman in 99 and gave birth to a daughter in 02, and then the couple gave up their careers and settled in Paris for the sake of the child, because they couldn't miss the child's growth, hehe, Uncle Cheng."

Jiang Cheng slowly understood who he was talking about, and felt relieved.

Muchen walked to the bench beside the square and sat down, "Uncle Cheng, I'm really not worth it for my dad, why do you think my dad is such a good person, why would he find her? You know, she emphasized the important point for a long time It's 'people have to look forward, only by letting go of the past can we welcome a new life', I"

Jiang Cheng was a little choked when he heard Mu Chen's voice, and he began to persuade, "Chenchen, don't be sad, it's not worth it for her."

Mu Chen calmed down for a while, "I'm not sad, only the people I put in my heart can hurt me, she's not. I just don't understand how people can live so righteously, I'm really worthless for my dad!"

Jiang Cheng felt distressed, "Chenchen"

Muchen wiped his face, "Uncle Cheng, I told her today, I said, 'You don't think my dad didn't remarry because of you, did you? You're thinking too much. He let go of you a long time ago, and he has sincerity. He was good to him, he had a good life in the last ten years, and he was very good to my dad." I also said, "Although they didn't hold a wedding, I will always treat him as a relative and will support him I will give him all the good things I didn't have time to treat my dad when he is in retirement. Uncle Cheng, is it like this."

Jiang Cheng was a little at a loss, "Chenchen..."

Mu Chen's voice was low, "I only gradually realized it after I had Xiaoyong. Uncle Cheng, I really feel sorry for my dad. If you were together, he would definitely not suffer so much."

Jiang Cheng smiled wryly, "Chenchen, you think it's too simple, your father is not. Besides, your family has been passed down for several generations, you have to consider grandpa. Moreover, your father has said more than once that you have you because of her." , He won’t regret it just for this.”

Muchen, "But I think your life is too bitter, really too bitter."

Jiang Cheng smiled relievedly, "It's not bitter, Chenchen, at least I'm not bitter. I've lived like an orphan since I was a child. To be able to know him, go to school together, and work together for 12 years. To be able to help him take care of your grandfather and to send him off. In the end there is you, I am very content."

Muchen, "..."

Jiang Cheng's voice was gentle and calm, "I don't know how you figured it out, but I never mentioned it to him, never disturbed him. Do you know what the last sentence he left me? You were exhausted that day too. Maybe he didn't care, he said, 'Then I'll go first, I don't care about you'...It's been so many years, it's still a bit uncomfortable to think about it."

Mu Chen's throat tightened, "Uncle Cheng"

Jiang Cheng, "Chenchen, you and Xiaoyong have caught up with a good time, so you should be well."