[Twilight] Bright sunshine

It was an accident, it was too unexpected, and I reflexively tried to defend against Caius before I could figure anything out.He was like a hungry beast, staring at me with a more dangerous expression than anyone else.

When Edward and the others came back from school, it was like a group of shadowless ghosts rushing into the bright house.Every time the second hand of the clock beats towards the unknown future, Esme knew what was wrong with me. She stood behind Carlisle and looked at me worriedly.Her expression was so pitiful, like a statue of the Virgin Mary under the rain.

I made a routine phone call to Charlie and told him that I was staying overnight at the Carlisle's, that Alice had kept me, and that we could have some girls' pillow fights tonight.Charlie was very relieved that he didn't think I had to go back to that big empty house.

From the moment you realize you're pregnant, your body reacts tremendously.I feel his presence very sensitively and truly, even if I don't know whether it is a boy or a girl, but he is alive, there is no doubt about it.

During my uneasy sleep, I found that no one could protect me, and this insecurity made me suffer even more.And before I was the saddest and desperate to the point of sinking into the cold darkness, a warm feeling surrounded me, which was very thin and barely intermittent.Deliriously, I began to imagine where this almost powerless warmth came from, the feeble heartbeat of another being.

I woke up in pain, but I didn't scream out, I let myself get used to the pain like a sickness.I used to be used to it, I can bear it without making any sound.But the pain always comes and goes, and every time I feel overwhelmed, the horrible tossing in my stomach stops, and it freezes, bringing a silence that scares me.

I quickly speculated that he might already be conscious. If vampires and humans can combine to conceive, then there is no magical thing in this world that I cannot accept.

I don't know if listening to music and reading poetry to him now will make him smarter at birth. I foolishly wanted to find some ways to cope with pregnancy.

Everyone gathered around, and Alice looked at me strangely, in that blank emptiness again.She often let herself go to another world, but this time she didn't seem to see anything, she walked to Jasper with a headache, and Jasper hugged her.

Edward was very serious. He first gave Carlisle a strange look, and then looked at me with an inexplicable scrutiny, as if I had grown something that shouldn't have grown.His last warning was reserved for Caius, who must have heard all the dark plans of Caius' heart.

The scariest thing was Rosalie, her beautiful eyes were burning the second she heard I was pregnant.If Caius hadn't been beside me, she would have rushed and snatched me away, her enthusiasm was ferocious.

"I'm just pregnant." I don't even know what this group of vampires who treat me like a precious animal want. Have they never seen a pregnant woman?

Carlisle hesitated again and again, and then said softly under Caius' terrifying gaze: "Claire, let me help you..."

I looked at him blankly, I couldn't hear the words behind, and Rosalie turned her head suddenly, she screamed: "What? Why did you take him out, this is a baby, Carlisle." The hatred in her voice Everyone can hear it.

And I have quickly hugged my abdomen, I can feel a slight trembling under my fingers, I don't know if it is an illusion, the protruding place has become bigger again.

And it seems that Carlisle and Caius still haven't given up on that infuriating murder plan, and Caius didn't even open his mouth. He threw the problem directly to Carlisle. He thought that I wouldn't blame him?

"He will cause great harm to Claire. When I checked her just now, I found that the growth cycle of the child in her body is too fast. This means that Claire cannot bear the nutritional needs of the fetus, and she will continue to be weak." Carlisle said Looking at Rosalie with accusing and disapproving eyes made the blond beauty wince.

But this was just an insignificant blow, and Rosalie stood in front of Carlisle in the next second, her beautiful face full of stubborn disapproval.It's not easy for her, it's like rebelling against her significant other. "Don't hurt her, we can think of other ways, this is a child, Carlisle." She was very excited, with a breaking tension.

So Rosalie cares about me so much?Usually you can't see it at all.

Emmett's face also showed a kind of confusion similar to struggling, but soon he naturally came to Rosalie's side.It was reasonable to believe that even if Rosalie went crazy and wanted to attack everyone now, he would help her solve everything.

Edward looked at Rosalie viciously, obviously her hostility had reached his bottom line, and Edward would be very angry when he saw others attacking Carlisle.

This tense scene immediately pitted the united family against each other.I thought I was at least being asked for my opinion, but apparently no one thought my idea was of any use.Caius had no interest in the Cullens' differences of opinion, and it was fine for him to be unhappy, but I could see that he was a little annoyed that Carlisle had made things the way they were.Rosalie got her enemy wrong, and it was Caius who tried to blame Carlisle throughout.

Maybe I should be happy, at least he still cares about my feelings, otherwise there would be no so-called confrontation at all, and he would directly take out the child in my stomach.

Carlisle's study, which resembled an operating room, made me anxious. The place where I lie now is Esme's room on the third floor, a newly moved bed, and I lean on the pillow.Rosalie's back was tense, and she could turn into a warrior at any moment.Alice couldn't look at me anymore, she looked so small and fragile leaning on Jasper's shoulder.And Edward is undoubtedly standing behind Carlisle, he must be aware of Rosalie's inner transformation process.

I finally stopped my gaze on Caius, his expression showed a strange blankness, which made him look illusory, what was he thinking about?Or he doesn't care whether Rosalie can win in the end, because he can kill Rosalie directly and let Carlisle do it.If even the doctor refuses, then it's easier, and I'll probably be in Italy tomorrow.

With no power to protect myself, I felt the temperature on my body go cold.He can't be a demon, I thought, rubbing my stomach.

A lot of times I feel like this kid is trying to protect me, it's a wonderfully unbelievable warmth.

But I couldn't find any protectors, and looked at everyone helplessly.Edward knew what I was thinking, he was probably suffering from guilt, but he probably didn't think it was a good thing.He is not a woman, so he will not understand what a child means to a mother.Even if he knew I was in pain, he didn't think it was more important than my life.

He agreed with Carlisle that my pregnancy would continue to be weak, so sacrificing an unborn child in order to survive was the right choice.

I couldn't help but straighten my back. Anxiety and tension are not doing me any good. I struggle to calm myself down. No one can make decisions for me, no one.

Stretching out my hand, I grabbed Caius' icy fingers. This action brought him back to his senses very quickly. The darkness in his eyes was so frightening.

"Let's talk." I just realized how weak my voice is. This is a matter between me and Caius, and the Karen family doesn't actually need to get involved.I don't want the Cullens to confront each other because of me, none of them are at fault.

I promise I won't be hysterical, and I won't be impulsively turned into a Godzilla. I just want to have a good talk with Caius. He is the father, isn't he?

Caius obviously didn't want to confront me face-to-face like he did just now, and he was more willing to see Carlisle stand up and take the responsibility I hated.Even if I fell in love with him, I wouldn't beautify everything about him.

This man is cruel, selfish, ruthless, he can sacrifice and take advantage of anyone when necessary, and his possessive and manipulative desire is astonishingly strong.

Have to admit, he's a bad guy, a bad vampire.

I really don't want Carlisle to go up against the Volturi, or keep offending Caius all the time, and I'm afraid it will hurt them someday.

Good guys are easily framed by bad guys, and Caius seems to be more powerful than the Cullens.It is not a good thing for the Karen family to be remembered by those in power.

Although Esme seemed to want to stay with me, she respected me more, and everyone followed Carlisle's heavy footsteps out of here.I didn't look at the people who left, but just stared blankly at Caius, as if I was still the little girl who just walked into the library to meet the believers. Although my soul is not young, I still hold him dear. There are apprehensive expectations.

Is that a bug?Embracing him was like embracing doomed death, without any sweetness.I am so resistant to change, probably because I know that once our time becomes eternal, then this painful love will last forever.

This time forever is like a curse, I am afraid that I will not be able to hold on.

Caius' indifferent expression changed, and he pursed his lips, which made his expressionless face look more severe.

"I'm very happy, Caius." I smiled happily. Although I didn't have much strength, I felt very happy when I really realized what happened to my body.

He looked at me coldly, not feeling happy at all.

I ignored him and continued, "I still have a chance to be a mother. I've never thanked God so much."

"You don't need to be thankful for that vain thing, and you don't have to be happy about a mistake that hurt you." The cruelty in his words is so obvious that if no one can convince me, he doesn't seem to care about doing it himself.

"I love him." I didn't care what he said, and I didn't intend to quarrel with him.

"You, love, him?" Caius repeated through gritted teeth, and he looked at me fiercely.

I have no fear. If no one can protect me, then I will protect this child myself.What I am doing now is sharing, and I am eager to let Caius know how wonderful this life is.

"Yes, I love him, just like I love you." I gently reached out to touch his cheek, and gently wiped away the sinister traces at the corners of his mouth with my fingers.

He didn't move, as if he couldn't bear to lose my approach, but there was no compromise in his eyes.

"Let him stay, okay?" I asked softly, how lucky we are to have a child.

"No." He whispered coldly, his white teeth showing sharply.How stupid my request seemed to him, I could almost see the jealousy on his face.

"I promise you not to kill yourself." This is one of the reasons I am most afraid, I am so cowardly, I am afraid that I will not be able to bear this painful torture and I will kill myself one day.Maybe after the transformation, looking at the boundless eternal life, sooner or later, it will be unbearable.

Caius looked at me in fear. He must know what I was thinking, so he felt insecure about me.

"I will always be with you, and I will never deny the love between us." I leaned closer to him and left a kiss on his lips, his temperature was still so cold.

Cold-blooded animal, I judge.

"You don't know what this thing is, it's murdering you." Caius wasn't tempted—he looked so shaken.

"He's just a kid, maybe a little Caius who looks like you, or a little princess who looks like me. Of course we have to admit that he is very strong, and his growth is amazing." I couldn't help but laugh out loud. , I can feel his warmth.It was so weird, his presence was so obvious, I knew his emotions, it was contagious.

He was just as happy because I was happy.

Caius was in a daze, then raised his voice to refute me, "It's hurting you, and if it develops like a vampire baby, it may reveal its true nature at birth. It's a vampire, it must be thirsty for blood, and There will be no self-control and only mass killing."

"He's not really a vampire, he's still human." I don't accept his speculations, and unless there's proof, I won't decide my child's life or death on what he might become.

"Half-vampire, half-human, that's worse than a vampire baby, at least I know the ability of a vampire baby, and this... I don't know what consequences it will cause." Caius lowered his face dangerously, "No, I Just knowing it's hurting you is enough."

This is actually the most important reason, he emphasized so earnestly.

The reasoning about what the baby would do after birth was just to scare me.

"I promise you, I will live." I will not argue with him about these topics that will always be in an endless loop. I know what he is against.He didn't allow me to take risks, so I was always worried that he would lock me up after the transformation.Because in his view, anything in this world could hurt me.

"You can't guarantee it," he screeched angrily.

"I will live, I will." I said steadily and firmly, yes, I will use all my strength to live, no matter how painful and impossible, I will live.

"Overestimate yourself." He was almost laughed at by me, the viciousness in his eyes was about to turn into a sharp blade.

"Please trust me." Yes, please trust me, Caius.

"It is impossible for me to let your ridiculous self-injury happen. I can give you whatever you want, but it is based on the premise that it will not cause you harm. I will not trust your judgment, because you have no confidence in yourself. The importance of life is not as high as mine." He was about to use the method of interrogating prisoners to deal with me, and my unrepentant attitude drove him crazy.

I let go of Caius's hand, and the movement made his missing fingers crush the air.I lowered my head and stroked my stomach, no matter what this kind of possession touched me, no matter how close Caius' eyes were to hatred, I laughed. "I believe it's possible, I want to keep him." I won't let him die in the dark before seeing the sun.

"You don't have the ability to make decisions." Caius stood up angrily, and he glanced at my stomach with disgust. This is his enemy, and he is murderous.Then he turned around and left. I knew where he was going. He had lost patience with me, and if he couldn't convince me, he just forced it out.

I looked at his back. He was tall and strong. I had never observed him so intently before.I sighed helplessly, the strong sadness made me want to cry, and I didn't understand whether it was me or the child's emotions.

"I'm afraid I won't be able to hold on, Caius." My words successfully stopped him, his pleading voice was almost broken, and there was a choked cry.This is not strong at all, even when protecting others, I am so weak and useless. "I don't have the confidence to live forever. I want you to respect me. Please give me a reason to love you more."

Your current love is not enough to be the reason for my eternal life, because this kind of feeling is too domineering and restrictive.

"You're threatening me, Claire." Caius turned his back to me, his shoulders trembled visibly, and his anger made him unable to control his breathing rate.

"I need your understanding and equal treatment." I said seriously, this is love, which requires the most sincere dedication from both parties.It's not coercion, and there's no lie. Walking hand in hand is not dragging someone along.

Caius suppressed himself, his manic character made him do not know what tenderness and consideration are.

I crossed my hands on my stomach and asked him repeatedly, "Please give me a reason to love you more." Please tell me that your love will not last forever like this. Please learn to respect my choice and listen to me Please protect me, Caius.

Let me believe that life with you will never be so hopeless.

"Even if this is a wrong choice, you still want to force me to respect you?" He turned around and yelled at me brutally, his eyes filled with despair and pain.

"I will live on and do my best." Without any wavering, my fingers were intertwined so tightly, as if holding a world.My voice is soft and gentle, I am worried that I will scare the child under my palm, for this hope I can beat everything. "please believe me."

"If I agree, will you stay with me forever?" Caius asked, the shadow under his eyes made him look fierce and haggard, and his black eyes were cloudy. "You won't commit suicide, you won't leave me, and you won't abandon our love."

I was silent for a long time, not knowing how to explain this feeling, which was not a condition of exchange.Many times I feel that Caius doesn't understand what love is at all, and it's more of a bestial instinctive possession.I suddenly wanted to tell him that falling in love is not like this. He can't decide all my affairs by himself, nor can he eliminate all dangers by himself.

"Okay, if this is the condition for you to love me more." Caius suddenly appeared beside me, grabbed my hands, and tore them away from the abdomen.

I wondered how he would agree so quickly, and then he said without negotiating: "I can give you a chance, if it keeps weakening you until you can no longer hold on, I will kill it myself."

I don't believe him. Who knows if one day I sleep too much he will directly sentence me to death. I have never forgotten how he did everything he could to wrong Carlyle.

The Volturi don't seem to be just or fair at all, their standards are only their own.

"Before my heart stops..." I finally mustered up the courage to say, "You can change me."

He instantly realized what I was promising. Even though he had already decided to end my human life, he was ecstatic to get my personal promise.

"Until I can't take it any longer, Caius." I wasn't going to let him slyly get away with that kind of commitment, and he could be outright framing me in danger for my life in a few minutes and trying to convert me.

The joy in his eyes is covered by darkness, and coldness is his most primitive mask.

"You can sentence me to death only when I have exhausted all my strength and only the sound of my heartbeat is left. I promise you that I will always be by your side."

Forever, I will always stay by your side.