[Twilight] Bright sunshine

I felt like I was doing something crazy, and it didn't come out of nowhere, but it wasn't what I expected.I even started to be afraid that I would actually fall in love.Rick's appearance showed no sign of conformity, and I was attracted to him uncontrollably, but never thought of possessing him.

This is wrong, I told myself, he is so arrogant and violent, withdrawn and dark, full of negative energy and lacking the virtue of humility.I'm far from my ideal love partner, and his appearance is so good, I'm already worrying whether he is a playboy.

I even think that in the future, we will definitely quarrel and have a lot of conflicts. He doesn't look like a good-tempered person at all, and he seems very authoritarian, and he doesn't allow others to refute his decision.

Am I crazy?After just one day, I was wondering if I was doing the right thing in falling in love.

The bed was full of clothes pulled out of the closet. I looked at those cheap and old coats, jeans, simple T-shirts, and jackets that were as dark as men...Who will tell me what happened to this puberty? Not a single bright dress or skirt.

I didn't know I'd been neglecting my wardrobe for so long, and I found myself without even half a makeup or skincare product that would have ruined my precarious skin.

Not even a lipstick, am I really a woman?This is the first time I suspect such a thing.

Looking at the time, I was depressed, and the rain outside hadn't stopped. I remembered that after I confirmed my relationship with him yesterday, the whole school was boiling for half a day.The most tongue-in-cheek topic of the year, the secret relationship between a handsome blond guy from California and a dark ugly woman with depression in Fox - I swear I'll cut off Eric's chair leg next time, can't he gossip and live? .

Then, Karen, I don't know what that feels like.When all of us are sitting at the same table, I don't have any smiles, I hang my head with a lettuce salad stuffed into my mouth, the school cafeteria, our table has become a collection of super pale human beings, as far as skin color is concerned In other words, everyone in the family takes it for granted.

"We're...in a relationship." There was a real pressure to hide under the table, and everyone in the Cullens looked sullenly at Rick.

And Rick sat next to me, watching them from above.

"Oh." Jasper replied coldly.

"Oh?" Emmett squinted at my new boyfriend defiantly.

"Hmph." Rosalie let out a ghastly laugh.

The fork in my hand flicked, and I couldn't even scoop up a piece of onion.

"Really? That's great, Claire." Alice's eyes were empty, terrified of being robbed of her soul by something.She stared at Rick blankly, with confusion and blankness intertwined into her expression.I don't know what's wrong with her, and what she sees in the future.Then she pretended she was surprised, and immediately became lively, "You are such a match made in heaven, I knew you would fall in love with him."

I immediately coughed up the lettuce I just stuffed into my mouth, love?No, what I'm looking forward to is a long-lasting, serious and cautious relationship.For me, love is two people joining hands for a lifetime, supporting each other, and finally watching the sunset together when they get old.

Rather than now, just dating can be called love.At most... I like it.

I took a sneak peek at him, his golden hair and clean skin, this is a very beautiful man.Maybe I liked this student from California the first time he appeared outside the classroom.

Every woman is going to like him, and I'm making excuses for my inability to be easily captured.

Rick is very sensitive to my hesitation, he pursed his lips, the strange and overly rich red color, I could feel his suspicious eyes.He's doubting my feelings for him because I'm not acting enthusiastic at all.God knows how difficult it is for an introverted and repressed woman who has never been in a relationship to express her feelings in words.

I had no choice but to continue to eat my lunch silently with my head down, ignoring everyone's inexplicable and weird eyes.

It has become the consensus of everyone that Rick followed me in school. Maybe this is a beautiful campus scenery. Of course, if you ignore me, the scenery is indeed very beautiful.But in the past, the pace of the two of us was always that I was in front and he was behind, and he would follow me leisurely wherever I went.And after the relationship is confirmed, forgive me, I really have no experience, and I don’t know how to get along with boyfriend and girlfriend, should I give him a kiss immediately, or hold his arm?I think the only thing we changed was that we walked together and he slowed down on purpose.

I hardly ever get a chance to be alone with the Cullens, and even if we might share a classroom with Jasper and Alice, Rick just looks at them with that unfriendly look.

I got into Rosalie's car when school was over because Esme invited me to her house.Seeing Rick look at me menacingly, standing in the rain, never wearing an umbrella, and the rain running down his hard face, you feel like you're looking at flawless marble, because he's almost Not moving at all.

I was hit hard by his expression, and a feeling of uneasiness and guilt welled up.

This shouldn't be, now he is also my important person, not the family affection of Charlie, nor the friendship of the Karen family, but the kind of affection that is destined to make us close and I should take him to my heart.

But I'm so unfamiliar, I start to blush when I'm with him, it's not perfect at all.And I don't know what to do is right, what lovers should do my mind is blank.

Am I an idiot?I was under Rosalie's nose, and before she was about to drive, I reached out and opened the car door forcefully. Rose would kill me. She hated the person in her car running away.The temperature of the rain seeps into the pain of the bones, and I see Rick's hair is beaten down by the rain, which makes him look softer with his expressionless and aggressive face-I even use this word, it has nothing to do with him Words without any relationship.

"You don't mind giving me a ride." I rushed in front of him, the noise of the heavy rain cut off everyone's sight and sound, and I was almost unable to open my eyes from the rain, which made my upper and lower eyelids tremble all the time, almost Can't see him clearly.I was very flustered, but I tried to pretend to be calm. I was never a good actor. The more real me is actually a coward who can't even handle interpersonal relationships well, withdrawn and useless. "I think the pick-up task...is the boyfriend's...responsibility to the girlfriend who doesn't have a car." The word responsibility makes me feel ashamed and uneasy. I never trouble others casually. It feels weird to rely on him on purpose. I eagerly added, "If you don't mind."

I don't think anyone can give me experience, other people's relationship model is not useful to me, because their boyfriends are not Rick Doyle, he is not like a high school student than anyone I have ever met, He even came here for only a few days, and he captured the attention of most of the girls and the admiration of the boys.

"You just remembered." He finally couldn't bear it anymore, he didn't face his girlfriend's sweetness and consideration at all, his voice was so low that it made people tremble.

How can I feel that he is gentle, he is simply a tyrannosaurus rex, wishing to show his fangs to everyone.

Nervousness gripped my nerves, I was always too nervous in front of him, I don't know why.I looked up at him, his face was like an over-modified art photo in the rain, his face was porcelain white, without a hint of blush that a healthy person should have, I always wondered if he had some kind of lipstick on, the color of his lips was gorgeous, Like the thickest center of a rose.

"Are you cold?" I thought of his hypothermia, Carlisle said, but I never knew what kind of hypothermia he had, even if I relied on Google, I couldn't find a few that seemed suitable for his symptoms describe.

I have never seen a hypothermia patient with a thick coat and a scarf standing in the rain without any effect.

"No." His dark and bright eyes were full of wet rain, and my approach made him happy, even if he didn't have any smile.Then he took my hand and we walked in the rain.

The forest of Forks stared at us from a distance, and I was as foolish as I would walk in the icy rain for a man just because he held my hand.It's a pity that the man has no sense of romance at all. He dragged my hand just to let me get into the car quickly, although he tolerated my slow pace.

The strange thing is that I can see the boys' longing eyes on his car, but no one dares to come up to watch his Ferrari.When I got in the car, I grabbed the car door, looked at him seriously and said, "Put on your seat belt and don't drive too fast." Everyone in Karen's family is a fast car because they have the capital to go fast, and they can survive a car accident. No.

His fast car is so scary.

In fact, I didn't think he would really listen to me. I just gave it a try, because he seemed difficult to be influenced by others. I remembered the scene where he got into a fight with the teacher on the first day he transferred to another school.

"Get in the car, Claire." It seemed that my soaked look made him impatient, and he looked at me reproachfully with eyes full of rain. He felt that I should not stand in the rain.

But it's a fast car, it's not difficult, I can overcome the aftereffects of car accident imagining.I don't know what he was thinking, as soon as he got in the car, he threw me a coat. This warm gesture was like throwing a cannonball at the enemy.I was completely covered by him, and I didn't see anything clearly, so I stretched out a hand. He was so flexible that he quickly helped me fasten my seat belt.I didn't dare to move, holding the dry coat he took out from the back seat, his gloves were still wet with damp, the cold breath, the thin and clean smell was so easily fascinated.

I think man is a cunning and greedy animal, and has no resistance to all beautiful things.I have never really discovered that my so-called nervousness is actually the trembling caused by being too close and unable to control the rapid heartbeat.

I was wearing a man's coat, watching him violently pull his seat belt and fasten it accurately.Then his car started slowly, and kept driving slowly.

The tall green trees on both sides of Fox Avenue were silent in the rain, and our speed turned into a bicycle. I thought the car was out of gas or had internal injuries. Even Bella's Chevrolet from the last century could easily pass us.

"It's really safe." I hugged my coat, suppressed a smile and praised.

"Are you satisfied?" He laughed along with me, tenderness has nothing to do with this guy, his lips are too thin and slightly raised like a sharp knife, looking very malicious and dark.

This is a dangerous omen, I looked at him inexplicably, and the next second, the car accelerated, and it went from a turtle speed to hundreds of miles in just three seconds, even the rain on the roof was thrown away by this speed fly.Those with heart disease will probably be relapsed by his sudden attack. Before he protested, Rick's harsh voice sounded out of anger. "Are you going to keep yourself covered in rain and freeze back? You never take good care of yourself."

I was so confused by his reprimand, and before I could refute him, he snorted at me with an overwhelming momentum, "And when you make friends, you don't look at their backgrounds, and the Karen family is also where you can get together ?"

My heart sank, and the thick and gloomy clouds outside the window were about to crush everything that fell, and I asked softly, "You know them? Rick."

"I don't know." He bluntly denied it without any hesitation.

I wondered, "So you think they are dangerous?"

"They don't seem to have anything normal. I think you should not get too close to these albino patients." He spoke as if he was used to a domineering tone that would never be changed, and he didn't know who it was. I'm used to his arrogant and willful character.

You look more like an albino than them, and I didn't take his words to heart, "They're good people, Rick." Although the identity of the Cullen family is dangerous to humans, even the most dangerous Jasper , and have enough endurance, the efforts and sacrifices of the Karen family are noble, I never think they are dangerous.

Rick sneered disapprovingly, he really had malicious speculations about everyone, "Who knows what they are doing, those guys don't seem to be trustworthy."

It seemed that he was really deeply unfriendly to the Cullens. I was angry at his attitude, and my fingers were so hard that they were white. I wondered if it was appropriate to quarrel on the first day of dating.In the end, I was so annoyed that my eyes were blurred, and I asked in a low voice, "Don't look at them like that, anyway, Edward or Alice, including everyone in the Cullen family, are my important friends, and I need your respect. "

He gripped the steering wheel so hard that I had the illusion that Jasper's tragedy would repeat itself, although of course he didn't have Jasper's strength.In the end, he let go and looked straight at him. The inexplicable anger twisted the corners of his mouth. I thought his anxiety was about to attack again. He seemed to have no self-control of a normal person at all. "I won't mention it in the future, but you must always remember that your life is more important than anyone else, if they dare to hurt you..." He didn't continue, but the gnashing of teeth suppressed in his mouth was so obvious.

Is this a love story?I covered my mouth, the hair from the rain was on my cheeks, I didn't want him to see my hot face.In fact, he is really worried about neuroticism. Do ordinary people always worry that other people's lives are in danger?

His speed meant that I would be able to get home soon. "Are you free tomorrow?" I see my house in sight and my eyes roll around uncomfortably. A fiery person, he doesn't count when he's angry.

I figured I should buy a magazine book about men and women, and maybe I should get on a forum about relationships.

"No." Rick's answer didn't pause at all, his reaction ability seemed to be very fast, often before the emotions in his eyes could catch up, his brain had already expressed it clearly.Then there was doubt, he just stopped to open the car door, unobstructed under the rain curtain, and looked back at me, his eyes were dark and deep.The golden hair is inevitably attached to the smooth face. This kind of picture is beautiful and can easily amaze the numb mind and time.

There was a strange feeling welling up from my heart, extremely gentle, I looked at him blankly, and felt that it was such a beautiful and clean thing that he could exist in my eyes at this very moment.

"Let's... let's go on a date, Rick." I finally couldn't help it, put aside my shyness and embarrassment, and wanted to get closer to him.The familiar tension caught my body reaction again, and now even my fingers to unfasten the seat belt are tense and trembling slightly, with faint blue veins floating up, as if the chains of lovesickness are about to trap something.

"Dating?" He is so unfamiliar with this word, it seems that this is the first time someone has mentioned it to him, his confused expression is mixed with sharpness, even if it is a momentary ignorance, he will not allow himself to reveal his reaction.

This kind of youthful expression made me let go of my nervousness immediately, at least he is not a veteran, nor can he grasp everything in his hands.

"A couple should go on a date." I tried my best to look familiar, so as not to make people feel petty.The ghosts know that since I was born in my mother's womb, I haven't even had a crush, let alone a relationship.

Even when I interact with friends, I have a dead-end character, not to mention this kind of skill that requires more technical content.

"Where do you like?" He no longer had any doubts, and a faint smile could not be restrained. This kind of warm smile melted away the dark anger between his brows.He no longer has a trace of offensive power, and also lost his hard indifference, just like a river oyster revealing a white pearl, with a docile glow on it.

"Maybe I can go to Seattle. I just want to buy a few books." I said it so smoothly that I realized that I didn't look like a date at all. Didn't I want to pull him to buy things together?

He didn't pick on my clumsiness, nor did he expose my nervous unfamiliarity, he just walked to me naturally, opened the car door and stretched out his hand. Before I knew what he wanted to do, he took my hand and put it on the glove. The coolness is still there.He took out the coat that was crumpled by me, dragged me out, and the rain splashed on my face.I squinted my eyes, and suddenly the rain disappeared, and he flicked his coat, and darkness enveloped me.I tilted my head, and only through the gap in my clothes, I saw the faint light in the cloudy sky. He covered my head with the coat, and then led me forward slowly.

I clasped my fingers tightly with him, and he was so strong that he would never let go.

"I'll come over tomorrow, you can go wherever you want." He lowered his eyes, his eyes were pure, and even the whispers in his voice turned into whispers between his lips and tongue.

The distance was so short, he was covered in wet rain, I followed him with my head down.The heavy coat pressed me down, and the rain-shielding coat seemed to be so tender for a moment that I couldn't help but want to laugh.

So we're hooking up and then going on a date today.

But I was facing a bed full of neutral clothes, and my hair was so tangled that I almost pulled out my hair.Should I borrow a dress from Bella, no, I borrowed from the wrong person, her wardrobe is probably more messy than mine.She even dared to search out Charlie's old jacket and wear it. It seemed that she was not good at adding new clothes to her wardrobe.

There's no time left, I have to get myself sorted before Rick arrives.I really don't know which of these clothes is worse. I close my eyes and grab a T-shirt and jeans. I don't know how many of these clothes I have.Rushing out of the room to the bathroom, I need to take a shower, it's not a bother, and what should I do.Perfume is still mouthwash, there is no such thing as perfume, I have always wondered how Rick's smell, that kind of coolness that is far away from light and close to mint, is made.

His body wash is very high-end, or does he customize the latest French men's fragrance?

By the way, it's time for me to wash my hair. It's really troublesome if my hair grows long. I'd better find a chance to cut it again.I finally got out of the wash with my clothes on, grabbing my hair with a blow dryer, hoping that the damn hair would be more obedient and the moisture would dry quickly.There was the sound of parking outside. I ran into the room and looked through the window. The familiar red car body was clearly visible in the rain.

I jumped up anxiously, am I forgetting something, I always feel that I have done nothing to go to the first date in my life about a relationship between men and women, it is really bad.My hair was fluffy like a lion because of being blown dry, and the comb couldn't save me. I bent over to my closet and rummaged desperately, and finally found my hat, a winter beanie, and put it on my head casually, trying to make people look My hair is still soft and straight, but unfortunately the ends are still curled up.I dragged out another waterproof long coat, the kind of clothes that must have a hood. There are several such clothes here, especially in Seattle, where it is cloudy for [-] days a year, wearing a waterproof coat is equivalent to going out with an umbrella.

Of course, I did not forget to take out my umbrella. Although it is impossible to see the sun in Seattle in this month, I am used to it just in case.I don't even know what happened to me, for a moment I felt like I was on drugs, I packed like a vampire, I put all my clothes in a mess in the closet, poor closet, it's a lady's best secret Who dares to open it again now, I will go crazy to stop.

I grabbed my small backpack and stuffed my umbrella and MP3 into it. I also grabbed some OK stretchers and wet wipes, but I don't know what's the use.I know Rick has parked the car, he is waiting for me to go out, the strange thing is that he didn't knock on the door, isn't it afraid that I didn't see him coming?

Halfway down the stairs, I suddenly remembered that I didn't bring my wallet, so I hurried back to look through the sheets.After finally finding it, when I ran down the stairs again, my foot tripped over something and almost rolled down the stairs.

I grabbed the railing of the stairs in a panic, and almost choked myself to death when I couldn't get up.I took a deep breath slowly, it's fine, I don't need to be so nervous, it's just a little date for a little boy.Why am I so nervous?

It's just good looking, he's younger than you, Claire.So you are the leader in this love, you have to show your mature and intellectual side, and really capture him.

Blood was about to rush to the top of my head. The word "captive" made me so shy that I didn't dare to look up. I covered my face and tried to take another deep breath to calm my turbulent mood. My face was burning like a fever.To capture him—the idea seemed so wicked to me that I was turning into a witch.

The little blond prince, the dark old hag.

Absolutely no good ending in a fairy tale, I was given a chill by my own brain supplements.

After finally jumping down the last step, I opened the door, and a dark shadow surrounded me.It was Rick. He was dressed in black and had a red scarf. His delicate western face was as indifferent as a mask, but his black eyes were very gloomy, more depressing than Fox's rain clouds.

When the mouse and I saw the cat, we shivered without saying a word, wondering why we had provoked him again.

"You almost fell?" He looked at me suspiciously, from the feet to the top of the head, from the calf to the fingers, with the same vicious and inhuman gaze as a Nazi spy prosecutor.

If I had multiple wounds, I thought he'd be mad at me.

"No, you're too sensitive, Rick." I pulled off my ill-fitting hat, and the damn long hair was so messed up that it made me look like a bad girl.On the other hand, Rick, I got closer and found that his well-textured coat was full of obscure and delicate patterns, a very simple and elegant pattern.The designer who designed this dress must be expensive, I still have a vision for that.

I don't seem to have asked about his family, but it's more about him, because being in love is a matter between the two of us.

"I hope so." He sees it all and knows I'm lying because it's so plain on his face.

"Your clothes are not waterproof, don't you get used to Fox?" It's impossible for a person from California to get used to here at once. I took out my umbrella and opened it. The abundant rain is the most common season here all year round. melody.

"It's...not bad here." He frowned, looking very contemptuous of this place, and it's not bad, these words are very reluctant scene language.

And he doesn't seem to feel the difference between whether the clothes are waterproof or not.I think he is too tall, and I have to stretch my hands very straight to cover him.Soon he took the umbrella from my hand, and he covered the rain on my head. We walked to the car and opened the door. After the umbrella was put away, the rain splashed his hair on the car.

I watched him get into the car as if nothing had happened, his clothes were dry, but his hair was a little wet. For some reason, I always felt that there was something wrong with him, but after thinking about it, I didn't know what was strange.

In fact, I thought of Port of Angels at first, because it is very close to Forks, a big harbor, with small restaurants that I am familiar with, and shopping places.But looking at the driver who is driving, and looking at the scenery receding quickly outside the window, I think he must not like Port of Angels, it is too small, there is neither the building of the Space Needle nor Bill Gate Ci's home.

"Why would you think of moving to Forks?" I began to wonder about this question, and it seemed that he didn't like it here. Forks is a remote town surrounded by forests, a small place in a deep mountain valley, unless you want to come and develop Logging industry, otherwise few people would remember this place.And California, that sunny place, is more suitable for young people to develop.

For my curiosity, Rick first asked, "You?"

"Your parents, or your brothers and sisters." Usually people who move here will choose Fox High School first. I am puzzled by his weird tone.

"My parents are both dead, and I have an older brother, but he is not in the United States." He said calmly, his eyes looking ahead, not sure if he was looking at the scenery on the US-101 highway, or thinking about something.

"I'm sorry." Asked the worst result, I was a little flustered for a moment, this was not the answer I expected, never thought he was an orphan, because he didn't look like one at all.

"Why are you sorry, you didn't cause their death." He really didn't have any sad expression on this topic, making people wonder if this lazy guy is a cold-blooded animal?

"What about your brother?" At least there are relatives, and I plan to try not to mention his parents in the future.

"You don't want to know where he is. I'm in a cold war with him now." He said of his brother mockingly, "That guy, I don't know what tricks he's planning."

What kind of twisted family relationship is this?I was almost defeated by this guy, why such a terrible result can be asked on a very normal topic.

“So you came to Forks alone?” Rarely, a student enters Forks High alone, mostly locals, and some with families.

"There are two attendants." He almost answered every question, but it was very concise, and most of the time it was just like the scriptures.

"A follower?" What is it? I can't continue this topic. Do ordinary people bring a follower?I looked at his expensively designed clothes, and then at the more expensive Ferrari, and suddenly realized that even if he had a follower, it was justifiable for him, as if he was coming to rob me.

"It can also be said to be bodyguards. Of course I don't need them, but for some things that I am inconvenient to do, it is very appropriate to have them there." He drove the car into the streets of Seattle, the rain thinned, and some Seattle residents wore coats and pockets Hat walked over, loitering in the rain.

For some reason, when he talked about things that were inconvenient to do, his expression was murderous no matter how you looked at it.His parents passed away, and he had an older brother who lived abroad. His life experience is really mysterious. It is estimated that if you ask more questions, it will be a huge inheritance, and there are movie plots of family property battles and wars.

"My parents passed away too, and I miss them a lot sometimes. For me, they're all gone, my dead mother, my departed father.But everything about them still remains in my memory, carefully grinding away my childish ignorance.

I think I've always loved them no matter where I am or how much time has taken.

"You don't need to miss what you lost, Claire, because you already have the most abundant property." Rick slammed on the brakes, startling a car in front, and a kind of meanness appeared on his exquisite face Annoyed expression. "You can get what you want, and you will become the most noble woman, my love."

I don't even know how to describe the affection in his voice, obviously the resentment in his eyes is so obvious, but it doesn't detract from the emotion in his words.

"It's too... obviously before, you didn't know me yet." It was really too fast, this kind of feeling is close to the deepest love.I dare not doubt whether what he said was a lie, because he was so serious that he wanted to kill someone.

"Oh, I fell in love with you at first sight." Rick said casually, as if mentioning a trivial thing.He looked at me like a victor, in his dark eyes, the cold light turned into a dark river, as sharp as breaking open the hard door of his heart. "You'll never understand that feeling, the feeling that when you see you for the first time, you know you should belong to me forever." He bent the corners of his eyes, and the sharpness in his eyes spread into spots of light, showing a determined and confident look. smile.

Just like we will meet, fall in love, and we will be together in the end, the confidence that we will be together forever.

The author has something to say: I originally wanted to finish writing the appointment, but I dragged my hands and squatted in a corner with my head in my arms. When will my sad reminder speed increase.