four o'clock

Li Song looked at the group photo of the two in the living room, and at the little yellow duck on the sofa that Wen Yuji had thrown around at noon, Ari heard the voices of the two, and screamed uneasy in the bedroom, Li Song suddenly felt like this The fear that life is about to disappear, and the dream is about to wake up, he buried his face in his knees, and said sullenly: "I'm jealous, I'm jealous, and I'm still angry. You offered to give others oranges and talk to others. If a girl comes to confess to me, you are not jealous at all."

He said: "I was wrong, I shouldn't talk to you, I shouldn't ignore you..."

Wen Yu sent all the pain in the afternoon back to him intact, and he realized how difficult it was. His voice was hoarse and trembling: "But you are mine, you are my boyfriend, you can not do that."

Wen Yuji didn't understand anything, at first he felt that it didn't matter whether he told him or not, as long as he was happy, but when he saw his beautiful eyes looking at others or talking to others, He couldn't restrain the irritability in his heart, he was uncomfortable, and deliberately ignored Wen Yuji, naively thinking that if this was the case, Wen Yuji's attention could always be on him, but he didn't expect Wen Yuji to cry, cry It was so powerful that just now he saw that the right sleeve of the cotton-padded jacket Wen Yu sent was wet a lot.

He thought, what should he do if the person he cherishes the most is crying because of him?It would be fine if he was willing to beat himself, and then he thought, if Wen Yuji doesn't like this, then what does he like?

Now he can clearly say that Wen Yuji's only preference is to like himself, besides himself?

It was only now that he suddenly realized that he didn't even know what Wen Yuji liked, everything he saw was indifferent, food, use, and play, as if everything in this world could be accommodated, even He first expressed his liking for the chocolate I gave him, but later he wouldn't eat it unless I offered to feed him.

What if Wen Yuji doesn't like him anymore?

He took a deep breath with some pain, and said to him as calmly as possible: "Baby, let me tell you, your boyfriend is your first love, and your first love is me. We are now a couple, and the quarrel between couples is just a matter of life." It will be fine in a while, it can't be more than one afternoon."

Wen Yuji lowered his head and bit his lips tightly. It doesn't matter what kind of relationship they have, the important thing is that Li Song ignored him today, that would be terrible.

Li Song continued: "I shouldn't lose my temper, I will never lose my temper again."

Wen Yu sent: "..."

Li Song: "Can you come out?"

After a pause, he couldn't stop the fear in his heart, choked up and said, "I'm afraid... Yu'er."

The bathroom door was opened, Li Song raised his head in a daze, wiped away his tears indiscriminately, got up a little unsteadily, looked at Wen Yuji with red eyes, and didn't know whether he should cry or laugh now.

In the end, he showed a barely smiling expression, and said, "Yu'er, don't cry, I will obey you from now on, I... I swear, if I bully you again, I will..."

Wen Yuzhi interrupted him, his voice seemed to be squeezed out of his throat with great difficulty, and he said, "You are chilling me."

You didn't bully me, you cold me.

Li Song's heart was broken, he didn't dare to look at Wen Yuji's painful eyes, and pressed him into his arms.

He said: "It's not cold, it's not cold, I'll keep you warm, I'm the warmest."

Wen Yuji was held in his arms motionless, instead of obediently and softly hugging his waist as usual.

Li Song felt uncomfortable, he took Wen Yuji's hand and put it on his waist, and said in a soft voice, "Hug me."

Wen Yuji withdrew his hand, but did not move.

Li Song closed his eyes, and for a while, pretended to be relaxed and said, "Is it still cold?"

Wen Yuji didn't speak.

Li Song loosened his grip and said, "I'm going to light a fire, you hug Ahri to keep warm, its fur is warm."

Wen Yuji shook his head.

He finally reacted, Li Song trembled in his heart, and said, "Then let's hug for a while, and then burn the stove later."

Wen Yuji lowered his eyes and said softly, "I don't want to cook tonight."

Li Song hurriedly said: "No, we will order takeaway."

Wen Yuji shook his head and said, "Let's eat roasted sweet potatoes."

Half an hour later, the two of them were sitting on a small bench and surrounded by a charcoal-burning stove to keep warm. The sweet potatoes and potatoes had been washed without any further treatment, wrapped in tin foil, and baked on a vigorous charcoal fire. The raccoon was finally released, and then lay down at the feet of the two of them, drowsy from the warmth of the stove.

Li Song turned over the fire with a small shovel, the kitchen was quiet, Wen Yuji didn't speak, the fire was shining on his irises, as if he was wholeheartedly waiting for the things in the fire to be cooked, and he didn't intend to look at Li Song.

Before, he was actually the one who loved to look at him the most. As long as he looked back, he would find that Wen Yuzhi's eyes were following him unconsciously, which would make him feel at ease.

Li Song felt sore in his heart, he felt powerless, bit his lip, and said softly, "Baby."

It took Wen Yuji two seconds to react before turning to look at him.

Li Song: "..."

After a short pause, he said softly, "Don't you want to talk to me?"

Wen Yuji shook his head, looked away, looked at the fire again, and said, "No."

This was the time when he felt that Wen Yuji was the farthest from him. Since he came here, he felt the distance between the two for the first time, and his uneasiness became heavier and heavier.

He didn't care much, leaned over and kissed Wen Yuji's lips, he eagerly wanted to draw the distance between himself and Wen Yuji, he clasped the back of Wen Yuji's neck, and licked into his mouth, the two of them They didn't even close their eyes, looking at each other at close range, Li Song saw his almost embarrassed appearance from those cold eyes, he let go of Wen Yuzhi's lips, and said sadly: "Yu'er, I'm afraid, you Don't be so cold to me."

Wen Yuji was stunned for a few seconds, raised his hand to pat him on the back, and said softly, "I'm just thinking about something."

Li Song didn't believe it, he hugged him tightly and said, "You can only miss me."

Wen Yu sent: "..."

Li Song said: "I was really wrong, I shouldn't have left you cold, I shouldn't have made you cry."

Apart from apologizing, he doesn't know what else to say. If only time could go back in time, he would slap himself at the moment when he was dazzled by jealousy, and talk to him carefully in Wenyu When I was there, I held his hand very gently, so that they would not be like this now.

Wen Yuji said softly, "Li Song, don't do this."

Li Song closed his eyes, he wanted to pull the person in his arms back, but he found that when facing Wen Yujiu, he had nowhere to focus.

Wen Yujiu hugged his waist, buried his face on his shoulder, and finally tried to relax slowly. When he finally got used to Li Song's temperature, he shivered slightly. At first Li Song thought it was His own delusion, then he heard Wen Yuji probing, and sobbed softly and aggrievedly, his body trembled, crying very, very sad, the crying gradually became louder, he heard Wen Yuji very sad Said: "How can you leave me cold? Li Song, I like you so much, how can you leave me cold?"

Li Song's heart was twisted into a ball, it was the first time he knew what it meant to be suffocated by distress, he said in a hoarse voice: "Yu'er, you bite me, you bite me to vent your anger."

You bite me, making me feel that you are still by my side, making me feel that you are still willing to talk to me.

There was a sudden pain in his neck, and he gently rubbed Wen Yuji's hair, feeling Wen Yuji's bite more and more forcefully, the soreness mixed with the pain, tears fell on his bitten shoulder, Wen Yuji said : "When I was six years old..."

When he was six years old, he hid in the quilt and cried secretly.

The door of the room was suddenly pushed open, and the door panel hit the wall with a loud sound. He was startled, and turned his head to look. Suddenly, the light was brightly lit in the cramped small room, and his father stared at him fiercely. Gritting her teeth, she said, "Why the hell are you crying in the middle of the night? I fucking owe you?"

Wen Yuji was stunned and stared at him blankly. The man strode in, walked to his bedside, and cursed, "Why are you staring?"

He poked two fingers stained with gasoline on his eyelids fiercely, and said in a tone of hatred as if he was going to kill someone: "If you stare at me again, I will pick out your eyeballs, believe it or not?"

The six-year-old boy trembled and didn't even dare to cry. He looked at the man in front of him blankly with a pale face.

Seeing his appearance, the man became even more angry, and raised his hand and slapped him on the face. This was the first time Wen Yuji had been beaten. He was completely stunned, his face was instantly swollen, and half of his ears were buzzing. There was a buzzing sound, and there was a bloody smell in his mouth, but he didn't dare to vomit, and just tried to hide as much as possible, for fear that he would slap him down.

The man spat on the ground, and cursed viciously: "White-eyed wolf, I will feed you and drink for you, and you still play face with me every day, are you used to it?"

Wen Yuji's body was trembling with fear, and he kept hiding back, not daring to make a sound.

Mother came in at this time. She was wearing pajamas, yawned, and asked, "What's wrong?"

The father scolded and said, "The thing you were born with knows how to cry. I beat him twice and still dare to stare at me."

Wen Yuji wanted to crawl over to his mother for protection, but his mother frowned and said, "Why are you so ignorant? You deserve the beating."

Wen Yuji froze, he looked at his mother in a daze, but her mother turned around and left. His father threw the book he brought from his grandparents' house to the ground, gritted his teeth and said, "You little prince, black Paws make money and white paws spend, we have worked so hard to support you, you really think you are a little prince."

That night was the third day Wen Yuji was taken to the big city by his parents from his grandparents. His grandparents told him that they would pick him up in three days. He didn't wait, but what he waited for was a few days after he lived in peace with his father. Violence.

The light in the small black room was turned off, Wen Yuji crawled out from the corner, his hands and feet were so frightened that he couldn't walk, he just groped to the foot of the bed, hugged the little prince in his arms, curled up on the ground and cried, He learned to be good this time, no matter how sad he was crying, he didn't make a sound, so that no one would find out.

His father was a worker, and they lived in a small dilapidated bungalow surrounded by skyscrapers, which they called an urban village.

He wanted to go back to his grandfather's place, but he didn't know where they were. He was too young to even walk out of this urban village. He almost succeeded the last time. He saw an unusually dressed woman at the entrance of the alley. She said, "Can you please take me home?"

At that time, his face and body were bruised and purple after being beaten and scolded by his father. The woman was frightened and took him to the police station. After a while, his father came to find him. He plucked Wen Yuzhi's hair and slammed it on the table at the police station. He had a dull pain in his head and lost his hearing for a second. He saw the police holding his father down. Someone checked his wound, and he saw his father's ferocious face and his eyes staring at him fiercely. Although he couldn't hear him, he could still tell what he was saying. As he approached, he raised his hand, trembling subconsciously, and hid behind the woman who brought him to the police station. The chaotic scene seemed to him to be performing a silent drama. He saw his father beating that kind The woman slapped her face, and then she was forced to a chair, and then she didn't know anything.

After waking up again, it was still the same small black room. He stared at the roof with exposed beams in a daze, knowing that he might be beaten to death this time.

But unexpectedly, his father didn't beat him, as if it didn't happen, he just complained a few words at the dinner table, saying: "Why are there so many meddlers now, I'll kill her once I see her again." she."

The mother echoed a few words, saying: "She also takes care of the education of other people's children, so give her some free time."

Wen Yuji didn't even dare to catch his breath, he ate with fear, and didn't even dare to touch the vegetables. Suddenly, his father turned his face and smiled at him, and said in a relaxed tone as if joking, "If the child is disobedient, don't you dare to eat?" You should fight, you say yes, your grandfather beat me even harder back then."

The father didn't know that he wanted to run back to his grandparents' house, but he thought that the woman was meddling in her own business, and was educated by the police, so he didn't beat him.

Wen Yuji let out a sigh of relief. In the afternoon, his father suddenly brought back a little soil dog. It was very thin and yellow-haired. It seemed that its four legs could not support its body. I picked it up at the construction site and came back to keep it as a caretaker.

That was Wen Yuji's only playmate. He fed him little by little, and when his father beat his mother, he hugged him and hid in the room, covering his ears with one hand and covering his ears with the other. puppy.

When the father beat the mother, he was deadly, and the reasons for beating people were all kinds of strange, but most of them were angry with others outside, so when they returned home, they vented their anger on their mother and themselves.

Once he saw blood leaking out of his mother's nose and ears, and his father kicked his mother's belly with all his might, he was so frightened that he covered his mouth tightly with the puppy and dared not even make a sound. When his father was angry, he didn't dare to see him, otherwise the fire would burn himself the next moment, but sometimes it was unavoidable. For example, when his mother didn't want to continue to be beaten, she would deliberately mention herself and do it herself. Her mistakes will overwhelm her, so that she can stand on her father's side and don't have to be beaten anymore. She just needs to say a few words beside her to add to her father's anger and divert his attention, so mother also Looking at himself, he scolded himself angrily: "What are you watching? I raised you to make you laugh?"

His body froze, and he was quickly dragged out by his father, and then punches and kicks landed on him.

When facing her father, her mother was so cowardly that she didn't dare to make a sound when she was beaten, but in order to please her father and let her live a better life, she would pick a thorn and let him be beaten. The reason why my mother was beaten that time was because my father When playing cards, Zi ah laughed with the people next to him and refuted his face. When he was sent to the hospital at night, it was found that she was two months pregnant and had an abortion. She was kept in the hospital. As for Wen Yuji, the neighbors knew about this incident, and his father lost face and was beaten again at home.

For a long time, he would tremble subconsciously when he saw his father raising his hand, he would be frightened and afraid to move when he saw him gnashing his teeth, and he would be frightened when he was in the same space with him. Because Wen Yu sent it to the toilet and closed the door louder, I thought he was playing with him, disobeying him, and not being filial.He would get angry because his chopsticks hit the bowl and made noise when eating, saying that it was uneducated for him to make noise when eating, and then he would overturn the dining table, and the plate and bowl were broken, and he would let Wen Yu He sent them to eat the meals mixed with broken porcelain scattered on the ground, saying that these were all his hard-earned money, and he must know the hard work of the working people, and he must eat up nothing left.