Listen to the song to know the beauty

Ye Jingzhi slowly bent down and knelt on one knee in front of her bed.

He called out very slowly in English: "mama."

Ye Jingzhi's posture made it easier for Youta to approach him. The bony woman was so excited that she almost lost her mind. She called "jimmy" and "mybaby Boy" upside down while standing up tremblingly, her skinny fingers slowly approaching Ye Jingzhi. Jingzhi's face was almost insane.

Ye Jingzhi kept silent ever since he called him, allowing Youta to mutter to himself, and even stroked his cheek. The scene was so weird that the hairs on Miao Yu's back stood on end.

Since entering this room, Miao Yu has been trying to capture Uta's heart sounds, but unfortunately, her heart sounds have always been in vague German, this language is similar to listening to the Bible to Miao Yu, although Miao Yu did not give up trying, But no useful information can be obtained from it.

"Jimmy, Jimmy, why don't you respond to Mommy?"

Youta got closer and closer, holding Ye Jingzhi's face in both hands, calling out loudly: "Jimmy, my baby, your eyes..."

Her eyes were so loving and sad, Miao Yu couldn't help feeling sad even if she was just watching, until she heard a strange voice

He yelled, "Be careful!"

Uta's hand that was touching Ye Jingzhi's cheek suddenly changed direction and grabbed his eyes!

Her movement was sudden, but Ye Jingzhi was one step faster than her. As soon as Yuta's hand moved, he quickly leaned back, one hand tightly grasping the hand she wanted to kill, making her unable to move.

Looking at Uta again, this sudden attack seemed to have exhausted her physical strength, she was panting heavily, and there was a strange sound in her throat, and the expression on her face had completely changed.In the deep sunken eye sockets, two eyes were terribly bright, like burning flames.

She didn't pay any attention to Miao Yu, she still looked at Ye Jingzhi for a moment, and then unexpectedly laughed.

Ye Jingzhi was still holding her wrist, as if he had been prepared for a long time, without any emotional fluctuations, he just said in English: "Sorry, I am no longer the child I was 20 years ago.

Youta didn't care what he said, just stared at Ye Jingzhi and kept laughing, making Miao Yu feel creepy, laughing so that the heart rate monitor on her body began to beep, and soon, a group of medical staff rushed into the ward, Ye Jingzhi and Miao Yu were invited out.

They went to the lounge.

Seeing nothing had happened, Ye Jingzhi poured hot coffee for Miao Yu, and Miao Yu took a big sip of the coffee, until the bitter aroma filled his mouth and nose, and felt that the feeling of chills all over his body was better.

He breathed a sigh of relief, while slowly sipping coffee, he raised his eyes, wanting to quietly observe Ye Jingzhi's state.

Ye Jingzhi lowered his eyes and took a sip of his coffee. He looked unusually calm.

His performance didn't look like he had just suffered a desperate blow from a cancer patient, or that he was already too skilled at the time it happened, as if he had anticipated her madness.

Countless conjectures floated in Miao Yu's mind, and he scratched his heart up and down. He wanted to ask something, but somehow, his eyes fell on Ye Jingzhi's hand.

He was holding a stirrer with his bony hand, stirring the coffee in the cup at a constant speed, but Miao Yu noticed that his fingertips were trembling slightly. Judging from his calm expression, it was more like a kind of involuntary reaction.

Miao Yu's heart twitched suddenly, and he swallowed back all the words he wanted to ask, he hesitated several times, and finally stretched out his hand, gently covering Ye Jingzhi's hand holding the cup.

Ye Jingzhi's whole body trembled, he raised his eyes as if waking up from a dream, and met Miao Yu's gaze.

Miao Yu didn't say anything, just looked at him, his eyes were like a sea of ​​glowing stars, full of love and tenderness.

Ye Jingzhi seemed to be scalded by that gaze, he quickly moved away, but unconsciously clenched Miao Yu's hand.His hands were very cold, and the cup of hot coffee for Miao Yuchong didn't seem to warm him at all.

Miao Yu noticed that his gaze was empty, as if he was looking for something unconsciously, and a burst of indescribable sadness welled up in his heart.

He said softly, "Jingzhi, do you want to talk?"

Ye Jingzhi pursed his lips, did not speak, nor nodded or shook his head.He neither agreed nor objected, as if the whole person had been emptied.

Seeing his dumbfounded look, Miao Yu's heart felt like a knife was being twisted, and the tip of his nose felt sore.He even hated this place for no reason. Of course, he hated the woman on the hospital bed even more. From the moment he stepped into this hospital, Ye Jingzhi has never been peaceful for a moment, even the precious calm that he has tried to maintain for many years. , was completely broken after coming here.

Ye Jingzhi's silence was extraordinarily long, as if a century had passed before Miao Yu heard him say with difficulty: "I told you the story between me and Theodore."

Miao Yu nodded. Ye Jing mentioned last time that he found Theodore in the pool, and he was no longer breathing at that time.

He didn't describe the cause of Theodore's death, but Miao Yu preconceived that Theodore's death was caused by drowning in the fountain, but even so, he didn't think it was Ye Jingzhi's fault.

At that time, there were only two children in the garden, and they were less than 13 years old together. This was an accident that no one wanted to happen.If it is necessary to find the person responsible, it should not be Ye Jingzhi who is less than seven years old-this is the guardian's negligence.

Ye Jingzhi looked at him with a deep sadness in his eyes.He spoke slowly, as if right: "But he... didn't die from drowning."

Miao Yu opened his eyes wide in surprise.

Although Ye Jingzhi found Theodore, his face was already submerged in the water, but at the final autopsy, the forensic doctor concluded that Theodore died of congenital heart disease.

Theodore did not lie to Ye Jingzhi. He did not have the severe pollen allergy like his mother. His disease was inherited from his father. Both father and son had severe congenital heart disease.

Ye Jing later reenacted the scene at that time countless times in his mind.

Theodore suffered a heart attack by the pool and fell into a coma. After losing consciousness, he fell into the water and died.During the forensic examination, it was found that there was not a lot of fluid in his lungs, indicating that he had stopped breathing before drowning.

According to Uta, Theodore knew about his illness, so he originally brought medicine with him, but because he and Ye Jingzhi were going to play with sand in the garden, they changed their clothes before departure, and Theodore did not bring him. medicine.

This is a misfortune caused by many coincidences, but all the pain can only be borne by the living.

After that, Ye Jingzhi fell seriously ill. He stayed in the hospital for a long time and missed Theodore's funeral.Ye Jingzhi's mother specially flew back to attend.

Youta cried with red eyes and looked haggard. Ye Jingzhi's mother advised her to rest for a while, but she held Ye's mother's hand tightly and said, "I want to continue here, because seeing Jingzhi is like seeing the my little Jimmy..."

Mother Ye and Youta have known each other for many years, and they trust her very much. In addition, they are naturally keen on enjoying and pursuing romance. They never put their minds on the two brothers Ye Jingzhi and Ye Mingzhi. Ordinary caregivers don't care about raising students. Ye Jingzhi's grandfather has seen through this point, and entrusted Ye Jingzhi's pre-school education to Youta.

Ye's father never came back. Ye's mother was always satisfied with Youta and cared about her lover who was still waiting for her to go on vacation, so she readily agreed to Youta's request and hurriedly met Ye Jingyi after the funeral. , and flew back to the other side of the world - she has never liked the rainy weather in England.

When Ye Jingzhi was discharged from the hospital, Youta stood at the gate of the manor as usual.She has lost a lot of weight and looks a little old, but her bun is still meticulous and her grooming is neat.

This is the first time Ye Jingzhi saw Youta after that day. During these days in the hospital, the guilt towards Theodore and Youta had grown into a ball of crazy grass in Ye Jingzhi's heart. He wanted to apologize to Youta. But after that pale "I'm sorry", he didn't know what to say.

Uta smiled instead, touched his head, and said softly: "That's not your fault."

Ye Jingzhi had a sore nose and was about to cry. He had heard many people say this, but the meaning of this sentence from Uta was different.

He clenched Yuta's sleeve tightly, trying to express his regret, guilt and anxiety, but when he looked up and saw her eyes, he swallowed the words again.

Ye Jingzhi suddenly realized that what Youta had just spoken to him was English.But since he started learning German, Uta has been talking to him in German.

Not to mention the intimate action of touching the head. Youta was very kind to him, but he was stricter than intimate. After Ye Jingzhi was five years old, she never touched his head again.

This kind of strange things often happened after Ye Jingzhi returned to the manor.

In the past, when he was reading in the study, Yuta would never come in to disturb him except for the rest time.But after coming back this time, Yuta often came in to ask him about his health while he was studying, and brought him milk himself. Ye Jingzhi thanked her, but when he drank it, he found that the milk had added sugar.

——Ye Jingzhi drinks nothing with sugar, this is something that everyone in the manor knows.Sweet milk is Theodore's favorite taste.

Ye Jingzhi looked at Youta's eager eyes, didn't say much, and finished the milk silently.

He thought that as long as he endured for a while, everything would be fine, but who knew that the real nightmare had just begun.

That was the second week Ye Jingzhi returned to the manor.

He was ready to rest that day and was about to turn off the lights when he heard a knock on the door.He went to open the door, but saw Yuta standing outside the door in pajamas, ready to come in with a smile on his face.

Ye Jingzhi felt a little strange, took a step back, and pressed his hand on the doorknob: "Youta, I'm going to sleep... What can you do?"

Uta's smile disappeared, she frowned, and looked at Ye Jingzhi with a disapproving expression: "Baby, how can you call mother's name directly?"

Ye Jingzhi was stunned. He felt that Youta seemed abnormal, but he didn't know what to do, so he could only call her name in an attempt to bring her back to her senses: "Youta..."

At that moment, all the expressions on Youta's face disappeared. She looked down at Ye Jingzhi, her eyes became very terrifying, as cold as a giant snake looking at its prey.

She stared fixedly at Ye Jingzhi and said, "Call me Mom."

Ye Jingzhi just looked at her, but didn't speak.Tears slowly filled his eyes.

Uta's eyes became colder. She knelt down, pressed Ye Jingzhi's neck with one hand, and said in hoarse German, "Call me mom!"

Ye Jingzhi's throat was held down by her, and he could barely breathe. He realized that if she didn't follow Youta's wishes, she might really strangle him to death, so he had to squeeze out from his throat: "ma...mama .”

Youta let go of her hand, as if nothing had happened, she leaned over and kissed Ye Jingzhi on the cheek, and said in English: "Good boy."

Ye Jingzhi clutched his throat, stepped back a few steps, and looked at her in horror.

Uta's expression turned sad.Her face was no longer cold and hard, and soon tears were pouring down like rain. Ye Jingzhi had never seen her so vulnerable. He stretched out his hand at a loss, trying to wipe her tears, but she grabbed her tightly.

Youta switched back to German, held Ye Jingzhi's hand, and begged in a hoarse voice: "Jingzhi, I'm sorry, I just miss Jimmy so much... You are Jimmy's best friend, can you help me?"

"I see you as I see my little Jimmy, and I know you miss Theodore as much as I do...I have nothing left."

Ye Jingzhi looked at those tearful blue eyes, and thought of Theodore floating on the water, the little friend who would never come back, and his mother talking on the phone in front of the hospital bed, casually explaining that he would continue to work after he was discharged from the hospital. Listening to Uta's words, thinking of Uta's infinitely gentle eyes looking at Theodore, he hugged Uta's neck in a strange way, and whispered in her ear in English: "Mom."

Ye Jingzhi originally thought that everything would gradually get better, but nine out of ten unsatisfactory things in the world, how could a child under seven years old be able to predict them accurately?

Utta's situation did not improve, but became more and more serious.

During the day, in front of other people, Uta behaved extremely normal, and what happened at night was a secret shared by both of them.

She came to look for Ye Jingzhi every night. At first she just looked at Ye Jingzhi and asked him to call his mother a few times, so as not to disturb him to do his own things; slowly, she asked Ye Jingzhi to learn from Theodore Read poems to her in one breath.

It was very simple for Ye Jingzhi. He was familiar with the most famous Shakespeare poems, so he opened his mouth and said, "'shalliparhee...'"

"No!" Uta's expression changed and he interrupted him.She took out a book from her pocket and handed it to him.

Ye Jingzhi recognized that it was the homework copied by Theodore. The crooked handwriting was exactly the son18 that Ye Jingzhi memorized just now.He doesn't reach for it, but looks at Utta in bewilderment.

"I can remember..."

The loving expression on Uta's face slowly turned cold, and she said heavily: "No, baby, you don't remember."

Ye Jingzhi didn't know what he did wrong, he didn't dare to speak any more, he could only stand there, looking at her at a loss.

Seeing this, Yuta laughed again. She put the book into Ye Jingzhi's hand as if nothing had happened, and patted his head lovingly: "Jimmy, you can't even read fluently, remember? Come on, read it to Mom." once."

She had a smile on her face, but her eyes were cold, which made Ye Jingzhi a little frightened, so he could only imitate Theodore's tone and read it over and over again.

Uta smiled even more happily, took the initiative to give him a hug, and whispered in his ear, "Good boy, Jimmy, Mommy loves you."

Ye Jingzhi realized that Uta was really sick, but the game had already started, and he didn't know how to stop it.

Uta came to him every night and asked him to speak to her in Theodore's tone, emphasizing every tone, expression, and movement of Theodore. Ye Jingzhi originally followed them one by one until one day in class, the tutor taught He read a new sonnet for him, and as he read it, he found himself imitating Theodore unconsciously, stopping and adjusting many times, and couldn't finish the poem fluently.

"Jingzhi, this is not your normal level. What's wrong with you?"

Facing the teacher's questioning, Ye Jingzhi couldn't speak a single word.

That night, when Yuta came to him and asked him to continue reading poems, Ye Jingzhi was holding Theodore's homework book, even his hands were shaking.

"Yuta, I can't... I can't even talk lately..."

Utah looked at him casually, tilting her head, and even smiled.

"Wouldn't that be nice, baby?"

Ye Jingzhi looked at her in astonishment, he suddenly realized what Youta was thinking, she really wanted him to live like Theodore.

She not only wanted Ye Jingzhi to imitate Theodore, but wanted him to become another Theodore.

Ye Jingzhi was almost collapsed by her staring eyes, but here, he was alone and helpless, and could only pray to Youta to end this deformed game and bring everything back on track.

Youta was silent for a long time, then suddenly laughed, she laughed so hard that she shed tears, Ye Jingzhi stood stiffly on the spot, and heard her softly say: "Jingzhi, do you want to end like this?"

Ye Jingzhi didn't know until she told the ins and outs of the matter that after Theodore's death, his father couldn't bear the shock and passed away soon. During the more than half a month when he was hospitalized, Uta sent her son and husband.

"He had already waited for a suitable heart and was able to undergo surgery last month. It was you! It was you who ruined all of this! It was you who made me lose my son and my husband!"

Ye Jingzhi looked into Youta's eyes, the whites of her eyes were covered with bloodshot eyes, obviously she couldn't sleep peacefully every night, she looked painful and mad, like a lunatic.

It's all his fault.

He stood there blankly, seeing Yuta gradually calm down, finally wiped away his tears, and whispered in his ear: "Do you still remember what I said to you?"

To this day, when Ye Jingzhi recalled that scene, Uta's hoarse and calm voice still echoed in his mind.

"B-color Menschenhabenkeine Lieder (the wicked never have peace Germany)."

The author has something to say: the sentence at the end has appeared in the previous article, and the behavior of the characters does not represent the author's point of view (full of survival desire)

I originally planned to end it in chapter 123, but I really can't finish the plot in the next chapter, and I will try to finish it in 125 [tears]