longing

Xu Wei didn't fall asleep all night. When the night was dark and his roommates were asleep, he got up and climbed out of bed, and gently found the diary hidden in it from the cabinet, because he didn't dare to make too much noise. Xu Wei turned the book slowly for half an hour, and a thin layer of sweat broke out on his back before he turned the book out from the depths of the cabinet.

Xu Wei is a person with extremely sensitive and complicated inner emotions, but his language is also poor to a certain extent, and the newly left traces are basically talking about missing.

On February 2 this year, Xu Wei left a very long passage, and now I can still fully empathize with the emotions at that time when I read it.

"Duan Hefang, how are you doing recently? First of all, I wish me a happy birthday, but I still haven't received your birthday blessing. In the evening, I ate cake with Suisui and the others and made a wish. Xue Mo gave me two gifts , still placed on the table without tearing it apart, today is not a special day if you are not here, but I feel very sad when I go back to school alone, they said that if we saw the sunset together, it would be equivalent to meeting each other, then we are not Never have such a romantic meeting? It doesn't matter if it's not romantic, I mean if we can meet."

Another one is from the diary at the end of June.

"Summer is coming again, Duan Hefang, do you like summer too? I like summer the most, but what makes me the happiest is actually autumn and winter. Summer is like a secret love that keeps a distance. In countless sunny days In the afternoon, together with the pouring gentle sunshine, I set my eyes on your slender butterfly bones. Autumn and winter are the seasons when I talk to you the most. At that time, the weather is cold, and you always like to ask if we are cold, Sleepy or not, I swear, I have never felt so short and warm in the cold winter before."

Xu Wei scratched the itchy eyes, and his fingers caught the wetness of his hand.

"Duan Hefang, I'm already in my junior year. Three years have passed since the summer of my sophomore year in high school. Everyone says that time is the best healer. It gently and mercilessly heals all love and pain. It's all diluted in the long river of time, so why can't I escape that dream-like summer and this unswerving secret love, Duan Hefang, I miss you so much."

"Is there cause and effect? ​​You asked me if I was the lovesickness tree, and the words became a prophecy, which made me haunted by longing like gouging bones. Every late at night, I dreamed of your back at the airport repeatedly. I seem to never I never called you, and I regret not being able to hug you more that day. This may be the last and closest time in my life to you. I feel so uncomfortable. The more I miss you, the more I miss you. The more I miss you, the more I love you, the more I love you, the more I miss you. Everyone looks like you, but no one looks like you."

"Duan Hefang, Duan Hefang, Duan Hefang...Duan Hefang, I miss you very much, I really miss you."

Xu Yu coughed violently due to choking, hot tears fell, and several pieces of the book in his hand were wet, Xu Yu tightly covered his heart, as if rubbing hard could make it less painful However, he lives alone. In the new school, he has no friends, no one he likes, misses and dare not tell, the overwhelming grievances are like a torrential rain when he sees Duan Hefang, and Xu Wei is caught off guard. , only dared to hold his knees and whimper cautiously like a small animal.

Xu Wei cried for at most two moments, one after Duan Hefang went abroad, and the other after Duan Hefang returned to China.

Xu Wei cried so darkly that his heart felt as if it had been crushed.

There was no class in the last session on Friday afternoon, and Xu Wei went back to the dormitory to change in the first session after lunch break. He stared blankly at the taller boy in the mirror. I was so sad that I couldn't get dizzy, and I was carrying the changed clothes in my hand, but I was not very satisfied. I suddenly felt that this scene seemed familiar. I used to go out with Duan Hefang and the others on weekends. Try on similar and simple clothes.

Xu Wei sighed, picked out the one she was most satisfied with just now from the clothes, then put on a pair of sneakers, pulled her hair a little neater, and went out with her mobile phone.

Duan Hefang invited the three of them to dinner today.

When Xu Wei arrived, all three of them had already arrived. Cen Suisui sat with Xue Mo, leaving him only a seat next to Duan Hefang. Xu Wei paused for a while and smiled.

"I'm late."

Duan Hefan's eyes fell gently on Xu Wei's cheeks, and when he touched his slightly red and swollen eyes, he was taken aback, and handed him the lemonade that had been brewed in advance.

"It's not very late, we came early."

Cen Suisui couldn't help but winked at Xue Mo, causing Xue Mo to sweat for Duan Hefang. Why does Cen Suisui, an idiot, always feel unreliable and expose Brother Duan's thoughts? Woolen cloth.

Xu Yu sat next to Duan Hefang, his body was very stiff, the scent of lemon in the nose was mixed with Duan Hefang's breath, mixed in the icy water vapor, wrapped around the tip of Xu Yu's nose, his back was a little numb, his heart Following Duan Hefang's every move, he jumped up and down.

"Xu Wei, you and Brother Duan have already met."

"Huh? En."

"Brother Duan, where do you live now?"

Duan Hefang took a sip of the lemon tea in his hand, glanced at Xu Wei's stiff body, and said, "D has arranged an apartment, which is quite close to the school."

"Then you can often play with Xu Yu." Cen Suisui said pleasantly, and Xue Mo pressed her thigh when she was emotional, signaling her to be quiet.

"Yes, I just don't know if Xu Wei has time."

The warm breath rushed from the soles of the feet to the top of the head. Fortunately, sitting next to Duan Hefang, he didn't have to look at him. Xu Wei replied, "I, I have it."

During the meal, Xu Wei still maintained the quietness when he was with the three of them before. They occasionally chatted about Duan Hefang's life in the United States, and the two young couples across from each other occasionally got together and whispered, which made Xu Wei The silence on Mu and Duan He's side was a bit awkward.

"It feels like you've grown taller." Duan Hefang said softly.

"It's grown a little..." Xu Wei opened his eyes and glanced at Duan Hefang, and found that he still had to raise his head slightly to meet Duan Hefang's eyes. His lips were rosy and soft, and he subconsciously pursed his lips when he spoke. , "Still without you and Xue Mogao."

Duan Hefang smiled softly, touched Xu Yu's soft and obedient black hair uncontrollably, and gently rubbed it: "Then eat more and grow faster."

After kneading, Duan Hefang realized that he came down a bit suddenly. He pretended to be nonchalant and withdrew his hand, leaving Xu Wei alone with a blushing face in a daze.

After eating, they went to the video game mall downstairs to play game consoles for a while. When they saw that the billiard table next to them was empty, Xue Mo suggested, "Would you like to play billiards?"

Cen Suisui frowned: "I can't."

"I'll teach you."

Xu Wei watched helplessly as Cen Suisui was dragged away by Xue Mo and brought him to pick up poles. He stood beside Duan Hefang a little awkwardly, and whispered, "I don't know how either."

With bright eyes and bright teeth, Duan Hefang showed a smile: "It's okay, I'll teach you."

Meet with Duan Hefang, get along with Duan Hefang, talk to Duan Hefang, and play billiards with Duan Hefang.

This day passed like a dream, Xu Yu squeezed the palm of his hand heavily with his fingertips, until he felt pain, he walked over at Duan Hefang's call.

"I can only scratch the surface, let me teach you the rules first."

Xu Yu nodded obediently, and followed Duan Hefang with his eyes.

"You can only hit other balls by hitting the white ball. You can hit the black ball when your own ball goes in. The first to hit the black ball in will win, but the white ball can't go in. Otherwise, you can change the position where the opponent puts the ball at will. Hit...Xu Yi, Xu Yi?"

"what?"

"Did you understand?" Duan Hefang asked gently.

His eyes were deep, like a pool of lake water, ready to suck people into it at any time.

Xu Wei glanced away with a blushing face and scratched his head: "It's a bit difficult."

"It's okay, I'll tell you again."

Just listening to Duan Hefang's speech, Xu Yu only heard his gentle voice over and over again in his ears, so he couldn't hear the content, so after the beginning, Xu Yuqiu didn't watch it, but just watched Duan Hefang leaning on the table and slender Thin body and hole-in-one skills.

"Wow! You are amazing."

"It's good to play more. There are no entertainment activities in the United States, so I just play at home every day."

"That is, that is also very powerful."

Duan Hefang is the best in everything he does.

Duan Hefang smiled softly, and beckoned to Xu Yu: "Xu Yu, come here."

"what happened?"

"Do you want to fight?"

"I don't want to fight, let me see if you can fight?"

"Aren't you bored? Let's go play something else."

"No, no, it's not boring to watch you play."

Wanting to give candy to the child, who knows that the other party is not greedy at all, Duan He's heart softens instantly, he is always worried because of his going abroad, worried that the distance is too far, Xu Wei will not get a reply, I just took back my secret love without authorization, and it’s okay to take it back. Duan Hefang has enough time to catch his heart, but what I’m most afraid of is that Xu Wei not only withdrew it, but also gave this love to him. Others, the only one in this world is good, and Duan Hefang is not willing to share a single bit of it with others.

Duan Hefang's eyes were burning: "Xu Yu, why did you run away that day?"

Xu Wei was startled, Duan Hefang was talking about the evening self-study get out of class when they first met that day, Duan Hefang appeared in front of him rashly, it was okay to be separated from a long distance, but when he really stood in front of Xu Wei, He was still taken aback, hurriedly said "I still have something to do" and ran away.

Xu Wei found a lame excuse: "I didn't run away, I had something to do that day..."

"I thought you didn't want to see me." Duan Hefang stared at Xu Wei closely. In the past, he was afraid that he would not be able to return to China as soon as possible and did not dare to respond to Xu Wei rashly. Now he can't wait to give all his love to him. Responding a hundred times to Xu Wei, he had plenty of time to pry open Xu Wei's heart little by little, and reached out to hug that lonely and sensitive child.

"No."

"That's good, then can I find you for breakfast tomorrow?"

"what?"

"I'm not very clear about the structure of the school, and I don't know where to go to have breakfast... Do you have something to do on the weekend? If you have time, can you take me shopping?" His words were somewhat acting It's different, but Xu Yi likes Duan Hefang all the time, how could he think so much, and nodded in agreement without even thinking about it.

Duan Hepu pursed his lips and smiled softly, causing Xu Yu's eyes to bend.

"Oh, by the way, I heard that Sui Sui introduced you to a girl?"

Xu Wei pursed her lips and replied, "No, she was joking."

Duan Hefang pretended to understand and nodded, and asked, "Then do you want to fall in love now?"

Xu Wei was taken aback for a moment, staring at Duan Hefang's familiar side face, his brows and eyes seemed to be more mature and restrained, but his youthful spirit would still be revealed with a bright smile, and he appeared frequently in D University's recent forums Name, from childhood to adulthood, as long as it is where Duan Hefang appears, there will be no time for him to be silent. It seems that anyone can see a little light of him, and so can Xu Wei.

"Think." Xu Yu said.