longing

When Xu Wei took the earphones apart, the phone interface was still stuck on the homepage of Duan Hefang’s WeChat Moments. He slowly inserted the earphones into the two cochleas, and clicked on the song "Gentleness" that Duan Hefang shared in Moments last night. ", is the song of Mayday. Duan Hefang seems to like Mayday very much. Xu Wei has heard several Mayday songs in his circle of friends.

Most of the early trains at this time are students, carrying all kinds of breakfast and dozing off in the bus. Xu Wei’s home is far away from the station, so he can sit in his favorite seat every day as he wishes. The window next to the row can give him a sense of security. The people in the car are all looked at by him from a slightly higher perspective. Outside the window is the wind blowing along with the Mercedes-Benz bus. The leaves on the side are clustered and squeezed together, rattling, and the comfortable morning air is full of clean fireworks.

Xu Wei likes the bus to go to school the most, and hates the bus after school the most.

Because the whole journey on the bus to school was spent looking forward to a new day and seeing Duan Hefang.

The morning reading time of senior high school students is very inhumane. Xu Wei heard the end of the fifth time "Why my heart clearly wants to get closer but I am lonely until dawn", and the bus finally stopped slowly at the school gate.

Xu Wei put away his earphones, put his schoolbag on his back, and slowly followed the crowd who rushed out of the car. Their classroom is on the second floor of the senior three teaching building. It takes about 2 minutes to walk from the school gate. Before entering the classroom, he tidied up a little The collar of the school uniform that could never be straightened, then pulled his hair and walked awkwardly into the classroom.

Everything is as usual, the blackboard in the classroom is wiped clean, a whole row of new timetables has been written, the countdown to the college entrance examination is one day short, and the top students are already memorizing their books before the bell rings, get together three or five The chatting girls laughed wildly, while Duan Hefang, sitting in the second row and fifth row, read a book in silence as usual.

Xu Wei walked into the classroom slowly. He sat in the fifth row, but every day when he returned to his seat, he had to detour and pass by Duan Hefang's desk, deliberately peeking at him twice by turning his head.

Duan Hefang lowered his head slightly, unable to see his face, he could only catch a glimpse of his superior jawline from a slight angle, his eyes were covered by his broken hair, and his school uniform, which was so ordinary that it was too ordinary, was worn under his slender and tall frame , seemed to have a bit of noble taste, Xu Wei couldn't help slowing down, and his peripheral vision rushed to fall on Duan Hefang.But at the end of the long distance, he sat back in the last row of the fifth row, and when he looked up again, only Duan Hefang's back was in sight.

The morning class has always been very difficult, and my mind wandered around the whole school several times, but the clock hanging on the blackboard was still ticking slowly.Xu Weiyan was lying on the table, and the teacher was still tirelessly explaining the last big question in the math paper of the last exam.

"Duan Hefang has practiced this formula on the blackboard last time. If you don't know anything, go ask him after class."

The three words Duan Hefang have been attached to Xu Wei's most sensitive nerve endings, and he can even capture the name more keenly than Duan Hefang himself.

The teacher said, if you don't understand, you can ask Duan Hefang.

Xu Wei shook the paper in his hand, and there was a big cross on the answer to the last question, and the teacher was reluctant to give him even the word "solution".In fact, when Duan Hefang was talking about this question that day, Xu Wei swore that he was the one who listened most seriously in the whole classroom.

Even now, he can engrave in his mind any of Duan Hefang's glances, opening lips, and pauses at that time. After all, this is one of the few opportunities for him to stare at Duan Hefang openly. What does Duan Hefang do and say? He looked calm about everything, and he slowly recounted the problem-solving process that the math teacher had told countless times, but the classroom was never quieter than it had ever been. Xu Yiren was fascinated by it, but he didn't hear a word of it go in.

"This question has been told fifty times if not a hundred times. Is there anyone who can't?"

The usual practice in the classroom was silence. The math teacher tapped the blackboard with the chalk and continued:

"Since there is no one who can't, then I'll randomly ask someone to get up and answer."

Xu Wei lowered his head subconsciously, trying to avoid the eagle-like eyes of the math teacher, but at this time it was the most obvious who made the movement first. The math teacher raised his chin and opened his lips gently:

"That...uh, Xu Wei, you get up and answer."

The eyes of half of the class slowly turned around and fell on Xu Wei, and then turned back as if nothing had happened. Xu Wei gently opened his eyes, and his gaze swept across Duan Hefang's back from afar, and fell on the face of the math teacher.

She had a bad look on her face, staring at herself who stood up awkwardly.

"Tell me about your solution."

Xu Wei pinched his fingers and stood up slowly. He lowered his head with difficulty, looking at the blank test paper, his throat was so tense that he was so thirsty that he couldn't utter a word.

The whole classroom was waiting for his answer.

Including Duan Hefang.

This realization made Xu Wei even more nervous. With an embarrassed expression on his face, he glanced at the math teacher with some grievances. The other party didn't appreciate it, and wasted the so-called precious minute of everyone in the class in Xu Wei's silence.

"I, I won't."

The voice is very low, very small.

You don't even need to hear it. The math teacher knew he wouldn't do it when he saw him like that. She clicked impatiently and said, "You didn't say anything when you asked if you would. Are you dumb?"

Xu Wei lowered his head. He has always had a low sense of existence. He is someone who may be missed by the teacher on roll call. It is a coincidence that he was caught by the math teacher today. He has never felt that he is at a loss and has a dry throat. There was a feeling of suffocation spreading in the room, Xu Wei bit his lower lip tightly, and when the math teacher finally finished the question slowly, he immediately sat down.

How embarrassing, he thought dejectedly.

The math teacher said that people who can’t write questions can ask Duan Hefang in their spare time. Although Xu Wei dare not go, there are many people who dare to go. The kids, giggling and looking fresh and generous.

Xu Wei struggled to copy the answers from the torn paper on the front desk, and he looked up at Duan Hefang who was lecturing the questions to others.

Duan Hefang's side face is very gentle, surrounded by light and softness. When he talks, his eyes will fall on the other person's face in a very educated way. It is far away, Xu Wei can't hear Duan Hefang's voice, but he can imagine , Duan Hefang's patient and gentle tone.

Xu Wei silently lay on the table enviously, and stuffed the questions that he couldn't understand the copied answers into the desk, no longer intending to turn them over.

It might also be because he was tired, but Duan Hefang suddenly got up and walked towards the front door of the classroom.

Xu Wei also stood up and followed Duan Hefang from a long distance.

He went to the toilet to wash his face, and when he came back, there were still drops of water on his brows, his eyes were clean and clear as if they had been washed with water, Xu Wei stood by the door of the classroom, watching Duan Hefang coming from the end of the corridor.

Xu Wei maintained an obvious and clumsy posture of staring at Duan Hefang, and Duan Hefang didn't look sideways, and went straight into the classroom, as if they were carefully arranged by Xu Yu every day, and they passed by as usual.

Sometimes Xu Wei prefers to imagine himself as two stars with parallel trajectories with Duan Hefang, but he doesn't like to shine, so he is full of yearning for Duan Hefang's light, even if the parallel trajectories never meet, he can be in the vast It is a great fortune to have a moment of rubbing shoulders in the universe.

Every time he rubbed shoulders with Duan Hefang, Xu Wei felt that the gentlest wind of the whole summer just brushed against the hair on his forehead, and the most inconspicuous he had a flash of light at this moment, which should be ordinary After a long time, this feeling was like a thirsty traveler whose throat was moistened, and he quietly protected his grand love.

When Xu Wei entered high school, he didn't have any expectations at all. He was not a child who loves to read. After barely being admitted to a key high school, his grades dropped a lot. The less outstanding self was submerged in the crowd in silence. .He always sat in the last row, going through the day with his chin propped up.

Duan Hefang's first high school mobilization meeting was a student representative who spoke. Even so, Xu Wei was just busy wandering in his own world, and the rumors about Duan Hefang in the school couldn't get into his ears until Once when distributing homework books, his slender body blocked Xu Wei's exit from the classroom and handed him the book.

"Xu..." Duan Hefang paused slightly.

"Xu Yu."

"Xu Yu."

They said at the same time.

Xu Wei suddenly raised his head, and the slightly stunned expression of the tall and gentle Duan He, who was outlined by the bright lights behind his back, fell into his eyes.

"Isn't it 楒? Acacia tree."

He speaks well, and his voice sounds very gentle because of the questioning tone. His facial features appear three-dimensional and superior under the light, and his posture of leaning his head slightly sideways and listening makes people instantly feel good.

Xu Wei only has the impression that many girls from the outside class came to see Duan Hefang, but he has not paid much attention to his appearance. He is very clean and stunning. His height of 1.8 meters makes the masculinity of a teenage boy just right, and his eyebrows are very high. , the nose is high and straight, the eyes are slender and bright, and the bottom of the eyes is quiet, gentle and deep, as if anyone who stares for two more seconds will be entangled in a deep vortex, and no matter how hard he struggles, he will not be able to break free.

Xu Wei nodded slowly and replied, "Yes."

He was still in a daze when he took the notebook handed over by Duan Hefang, but the man had already turned and left.

Inevitably, Xu Yu couldn't help observing Duan Heyou at various times. He walked with a straight back, a simple black schoolbag hanging on his slender shoulders, and he liked to wear a white T-shirt very much. His school uniform is neat and tidy. When he sees the teacher, he will nod his head and say hello. He always speaks in a gentle and soft tone when he speaks. When he speaks, his eyes are very polite. Even the girl who refuses to chase him starts with "thank you". .

Not arrogant or indulgent, clean and gentle.

Xu Wei seems to have never seen such a gentle boy. Duan Hefang, who always stands at the front of the class, has a clean and beautiful back view.

It was the boy he secretly liked and proud of.

Xu Wei slowly covered the diary, the air was filled with the scent of shower gel, and his heart was very quiet under the soft lighting. He turned on the phone casually, clicked on the circle of friends of the top WeChat account, and swiped twice, except for the one shared yesterday Song, Duan Hefang does not have any update.

"gentle"

There should be no one more suitable for this song than Duan Hefang, right?Xu Wei thought.

Thinking of this, he opened the diary that had just been closed, and added a sentence after "I didn't talk to him today" where the ink was still wet.

"Why does my heart clearly want to get closer but I am lonely until dawn"

A bit hypocritical.

But Xu Wei bent his lips in satisfaction, put away the book, put it under the heavy old textbook, covered it with a dust cover, patted it, and then got up and hid in the bed with the mobile phone and earphones.