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pain.

My head hurts, my chest hurts, my arms hurt, my waist hurts, and the most painful thing is the knife-like pain in my knees.

Xu Xiaotian knelt on the floor of the living room at home from nine o'clock in the evening to twelve o'clock. On the sofa in front of him sat his mother who was discharged from the hospital in the afternoon and his father with a solemn face.There was a bag of ice cubes on top of my mother's head, she was holding a towel in her hand, and she bit one corner in her mouth. Apart from patting her on the shoulder from time to time, my father stared at Xu Xiaotian's face at other times.

Xu Xiaotian chose such a posture to talk to his parents, he just wanted to express that even if he fell in love with a man, he still has deep love and apology for them.He just didn't expect that he would kneel for such a long time, and his father wanted to hear him talk about the matter with Luo Xuan, so he never expected that he would talk for three hours and still not finish.

He was a little staring, his throat was so dry and dry that it was almost smoking. His mother asked him to sit down and talk several times, but his father stopped him: "If he wants to say it, let him say it."

"That's about all I want to say. What Luo Xuan has to bear for this relationship is beyond your imagination." At one o'clock, Xu Xiaotian said in a hoarse voice, "I want to be with Luo Xuan, what I have to bear I'll take it all and it won't matter that I'm your son and I'll be fine and I'll prove to you...whether I'm with a man or a woman...I'll live my life how I want Life……"

At the end of Xu Xiaotian's speech, he felt a lot more comfortable in his heart. He didn't want to say these words to his parents, and he never thought that he would have the opportunity to say all these words. All the things that weighed him down disappeared at this moment.

When he threw himself to the floor with darkness in front of his eyes, he still wanted to struggle, but failed, and his forehead hit the ground heavily.

Fuck me.He thought he was going to scare my mother.

"Oh my God!" My mother screamed and stood up, "Xu Zhiguang, you drove my son to death!"

Father Xu's speed was much faster than his wife thought. He jumped over the coffee table with amazing explosive power, landed beside Xu Xiaotian, grabbed his shoulder and turned over, shook twice, and frowned: "son?"

"He's not your son, he's not your son," Xu's mother threw an ice pack on her husband's head and threw herself on Xu Xiaotian, tears welling up, "I just said let him go, let him go, if you insist on forcing him , and now I'm dying..."

"You... don't talk nonsense, can you?" Father Xu touched his head, studied Xu Xiaotian's face again, bent down to pick him up and walked to the bedroom, "He is... sleepy and fell asleep."

"What?" Xu's mother was stunned, and quickly followed her husband, "How can someone fall asleep like this? Did you faint? Call 120, you are not a doctor!"

Father Xu put Xu Xiaotian flat on the bed, patted his face: "Xiaotian..."

"Hmm..." Xu Xiaotian frowned and slapped his hand away, turned over, and made no movement towards the wall.

"look."

"Really fell asleep?"

"I said he fell asleep. He was already sleepy, and his nerves were tense, so he fell asleep immediately after he relaxed..."

"You're making sense!" Xu's mother was furious, and slapped her husband hard: "Who made him crazy! It's not you!"

"It's a nervous tension... not a neuropathy," Dad Xu pulled the towel over Xu Xiaotian's body helplessly, turned around and pushed his wife outside, "Keep your voice down, you'll wake up in a while..."

Xu Xiaotian slept for two whole days. When Tan Zhe called, he was still awake. His father answered the call.

"Xu Xiaotian?" Tan Zhe hesitated when he heard the voice.

"I am his father, who are you?"

"I'm his department manager, and my surname is Tan."

"Ah, hello, Manager Tan," Xu's father was a little worried, Xu Xiaotian was still sleeping, he didn't know whether to wake him up, "Are you looking for Xiaotian? He...was sleeping in a little discomfort."

"Uncomfortable?" Tan Zhe's first reaction was to frown, and he won't be beaten again, "He's been on leave until today, and he should go to work in the office today."

"Ah! Then I'll call him now."

"No, let him sleep, he can't make it through if he wakes up now, please let him wake up and call me back."

Xu Xiaotian has never had so many dreams like this since he was so old, one after another, he almost dreamed everything from childhood to adulthood, even Gu Pengzhan didn't miss it.

When he woke up, he couldn't recover for a long time, he didn't know where he was, morning or night...

It took him half an hour to sit up from the bed, knocked down the cell phone beside his pillow, and his mother rushed into his room almost a few seconds later, he had to hug her in a daze, Tell me how much you miss when you haven't seen each other for two days, and then look at your dad standing outside the door.

"Your manager called and said it's time for you to ask for leave." Dad turned and walked away after finishing speaking.

Xu Xiaotian was a little dizzy, he didn't know that he would sleep like a trance, how should he explain to Tan Zhe that he was too sleepy and slept for two days and two nights?

He bit the bullet and dialed Tan Zhe's phone: "Manager Tan, I'm Xu Xiaotian."

"Yo, enough rest?"

"Then what, I slept for two days." Xu Xiaotian still told the truth, he was too lazy to find a reason to lie to Tan Zhe.

"Sleeping Beauty," Tan Zhe smiled, seemingly not angry, "Is the matter resolved?"

"I don't know, it's okay, it's better than I imagined, I'll buy a ticket to go back in the afternoon..."

"No, I have a task for you. I have a client here from your company. I want to come over to celebrate the company's seventh anniversary. You can go there to find out the details. I won't make this trip," Tan Zhe said. Lighting a cigarette, "I'll send the information to your mailbox in a while, you can take a look, and come back tomorrow after finishing this matter."

"Okay, promise to complete the task."

"Don't make any promises. They haven't booked a hotel. If you can get them to book it, it's all yours."

"This is not good..." Xu Xiaotian habitually pretended.

"Just say whether you want it or not."

"want."

"That's over. The one who is in charge of this matter is Yujie, go and seduce."

When Xu Xiaotian was washing his face, he saw his own face in the mirror, he was so haggard that he didn't dare to recognize him, his face was gray and his eyes were dull.He sighed while shaving, if he could seduce Sister Yu like this, how blind Sister Yu must be.

The phone rang in the living room, and my mother ran into the bathroom with it: "Did your manager call again?"

"I just finished," Xu Xiaotian took the phone and glanced at it, and was instantly horrified, "Fuck."

"what happened?"

"It's okay, mom, go and do your work," Xu Xiaotian pushed his mother out of the bathroom, closed the door, pressed the phone, and cursed in a low voice, "Gu Pengzhan, you're still haunted, aren't you? What are you doing?"

"Did you break up with Luo Xuan?" Gu Pengzhan calmly ignored Xu Xiaotian's very unfriendly opening remarks.

"I broke up with your grandma!" Xu Xiaotian was furious. He was already extremely nervous about Luo Xuan, but now Gu Pengzhan suddenly said this. People who are out of tune.

"My grandma died a long time ago," Gu Pengzhan sighed, as if a little disappointed, "You guys didn't break up?"

"Sorry, no points," Xu Xiaotian remembered Xiao Weize's words, "Damn it, is it so uncomfortable to be together with Luo Xuan? The whole world is full of people who are waiting for them to break up." Just wait slowly , if you feel lonely waiting, I will introduce someone to you, and you two will wait until the end of time together."

"Then you two quarreled?" Gu Pengzhan didn't answer him, and asked again on his own.

"Are you alright?" Xu Xiaotian was about to hang up the phone, when his heart suddenly moved. Why did Gu Pengzhan call at this time to ask these nonsensical things?

"fine."

"Really," Xu Xiaotian faintly felt that Gu Pengzhan might know something related to Luo Xuan, he hesitated, and tried to say, "You can't be jealous when you see us coming back together, then you I can only suffer by myself..."

"You two came back together?" Gu Pengzhan asked in surprise, not finding any fraud.

Xu Xiaotian's heart is like a galloping horse, Luo Xuan is back, Luo Xuan is back!He suppressed the excitement in his heart: "Well, I said you can, you passed the FBI test? You actually found out his whereabouts so clearly."

"I rented a house in the building where he used to live. Of course I knew when he came back." Gu Pengzhan was a little annoyed, "Then why did you let him go home alone, and you still want to be a turtle?"

"You are the fucking turtle!" Xu Xiaotian cursed, leaning against the bathroom wall, fuck, Luo Xuan actually went home alone, he hadn't been back home for four years, and now he ran home alone, he I don't know what will happen to Luo Xuan now, and my heart is tight, "He suddenly ran home by himself, I don't know... I don't know where his home is."

Gu Pengzhan was silent for a long time before saying: "I hung up, I should have called you if I had known this."

"Why?" Xu Xiaotian froze for a moment.

"Do you want to ask me where his home is? If you ask, I will tell you or not..."

"Of course you have to say it!" Xu Xiaotian yelled, and quickly lowered his voice, "I know that you like him, what is the highest state of liking someone? I am happy when you are happy... Right, you are a good man, You must wish Luo Xuan happiness, he can't face his parents alone now, I have to accompany him...Brother Peng Zhan, I can give Luo Xuan happiness..."

Xu Xiaotian gritted his teeth and said these words. Although these words were in his heart, but when he said them to Gu Pengzhan, they felt different, and his teeth were so numb that his teeth almost fell down.

Gu Pengzhan hesitated for a long time, Xu Xiaotian followed his style and said a lot of words such as "You are a touching person, you stand at the farthest place and silently bless Luo Xuan", Gu Pengzhan finally gritted his teeth Said the address of Luo Xuan's house.

"Thank you brother Pengzhan, I really will never forget you!" Xu Xiaotian swore to the sky that these words were sincere.

"You won't forget what's my use..."

"Luo Xuan will never forget you."

Xu Xiaotian didn't tell his parents that he was going to Luoxuan, but only said that he was going to treat clients to dinner, so he took a taxi and went straight to the address Gu Pengzhan said. This neighborhood is far away from his home.

When he found the door of Luoxuan's house according to the address, Xu Xiaotian actually didn't even think about what to do, he just rushed over as soon as his brain got hot.When he raised his hand and was about to ring the doorbell, he hesitated again, was he a little impulsive, what should he say and do when facing Luo Xuan's parents?Will it push Luo Xuan into an embarrassing situation?

He took two steps back and squatted in the corridor, fuck, what should I do?

The door of Luo Xuan's house rang suddenly, and voices came from inside.Xu Xiaotian jumped up suddenly, not knowing whether to run upstairs or downstairs, or turn around and pretend to knock on the opposite door.

"I'll go buy it."

Just when Xu Xiaotian was dizzy and unable to make up his mind, the door opened, and Luo Xuan walked out while talking.

Seeing Xu Xiaotian outside the door, Luo Xuan dropped the wallet in his hand to the ground, his eyes widened, and he looked at him in surprise: "You..."

When Xu Xiaotian saw Luo Xuan who had lost a lot of weight, all the hesitation in his heart disappeared. He choked up and rushed over to hug Luo Xuan: "My God..."