Rebirth Night Talk

Zhao Xuejun felt that he was suffering from a disease that he didn't like growing up.His second brother is also sick, and every day he hopes that he will grow up quickly and have some kind of rights quickly, so that he can control his time freely without being locked in the classroom.Zhao Xuejun wanted to tell him, in fact, you just grew up.You must also have no freedom. In the past, adults locked you up, and later you locked yourself up.In short, until death, no time will belong to you as an individual.

During the Spring Festival, my eldest brother joined the party at school and did not go home for the New Year.Throughout the winter vacation, Zhao Xuebing and Zhao Xuejun were not very energetic, they didn't like to set off cannons, they didn't like to hang out, and they didn't like to talk.Hey...it's pretty insecure.

Compared with the infinite memory of the two brothers for their elder brother, the reply letter from the elder brother completely showed a state of no conscience.There are about five pages in his letter, four of which talk about his school life, one of which talks to his parents, and mentions Zhao Xuejun. Zhao Xuewen only wrote one line, which is incidental: Dear parents, Xuebing, Xuejun... Hello..."

So, growing up is not fun at all.Zhao Xuejun likes to record all the good memories in his life in detail.Take it out and taste it when you have nothing to do.He has quite a few categories of collections, including collections of antiques, which will not be recorded in detail here.Born with memory, just pay attention, everything around you is antique.Newspapers and magazines, daily necessities, stamps, coins you use, old photos, and even the old schoolbags returned by the three brothers.As for his youngest son's collection addiction, one of them made Zhao Jianguo dumbfounded.The name of the collection is "Father's Instrument of Torture", and the collection includes: an old military belt, an old-fashioned spiked shoe with a big head, a washboard, and half a broken rolling pin...

Zhao Jianguo couldn't laugh or cry about his son's habit. He also named these things 'Son's Changing Tent' and asked him: "Son, are you waiting for me to make a list when I am old? Are you going to make a list with me?" Mom hit you too, why didn't you leave her a record?!"

Zhao Xuejun was a little angry: "My mother twisted it with her hands, how can I keep it!"

The sons grew up gradually, which pleased Gao Juzi and Zhao Jianguo.But every family has various problems.Although the end of the storybook is written like that, from now on they will lead a happy life?But that's a lie to children.

The Zhao family, this year, now deeply feel that happiness is the result of fewer things.You see now, grandma is old, but she is not confused, and she is in good health.Gao Juzi made money and made Zhao Jianguo worry-free for the rest of his life.The eldest son lived up to his expectations and went to a high-end school that didn't cost money.And there are many good news in school, the second son doesn't have to worry about his studies at all, and he is clever, his class teacher said that it is easy to get into the same school as his brother.The younger son's qualifications are mediocre, but he is sensible and considerate.Sometimes, Zhao Jianguo also thought, he shouldn't think too much, he shouldn't be greedy anymore... However, he was still angry, sad, wronged, and so aggrieved that he was about to explode and couldn't vent.

All of Zhao Jianguo's work was forced to stop. The above did not mention his new work arrangement, nor did he give any conclusions about his problems.Just say, tell him to stay at home to cooperate with the investigation and wait for the notice.How did these things happen?It's unbelievable to say the reason, but it just happened. He has already welcomed four inspection teams, and it is said that there will be a fifth one.The organization explained to him many times, the ready-made testimony, the evidence provided by the bank, the letter of proof from Changyu, and all the documents and books of Jinxin Market can explain the problem, Zhao Jianguo is very innocent.

However, this innocence is a mistake.With more and more letters of complaint, it finally turned into an unstoppable storm.There are many kinds of problems that have been exposed: [-]. Gao Juzi's current result is the result of having improper relationships with several important figures.

Second, Zhao Jianguo used his power to get money for his wife, which was convenient.

[-]. Gao Juzi must take out the money and return it to...anyone, since it cannot be returned to her house anyway.

[-]. An ancient tomb was discovered in Jiangguan County, and Zhao Jianguo led people to transport the excavated antiques away overnight.

[-]. Zhao Jianguo abused his power, transferred state assets, and sent his son to a military academy through the back door.

And so on... Various reasons, it is difficult to record them in detail.This unreasonable accusation of being wronged to the extreme has evolved into the fact that anyone who dares to speak for Zhao Jianguo will be innocent, and there must be a private transaction.

At the end of those letters, the meaning was completely undisguised, that is to say, Zhao Jianguo's failure was not enough to quell public anger.As long as he is still the secretary of the county party committee, as long as he is still in the position, then those letters will inevitably be endless.The higher-level leaders were also helpless. They really couldn't stand up to the police, the court, and the provincial party committee. There were letters from the masses more than ten meters high.Even if they have no grudges against you, as long as you live better than him, they will definitely not allow you to live in peace.

Since the New Year, the glass at home was smashed several times at night.Dog feces, garbage, dead chickens were thrown in the yard many times, and even once, there was a dead baby under the age of one month.

Zhao Jianguo has worked so hard for so many years, and all his achievements were wiped out in an instant like a flash in the pan.This kind of obliteration is extremely aggrieved, there is no enemy at all, but there are enemies everywhere, and the whole society consciously stands opposite you because of your family's money.Any unhappiness in your family will become happiness for others, and any unhappiness in your family will become a happy element in life that pleases others.

Humans are social animals, and it is wrong to separate from the group.In the past, we were used to equality. With the wave of reform, this phenomenon of reclassification has always had a far-reaching impact, and many people have not been able to get used to it.

The hero in western movies can save the whole world by himself, and he can represent himself.

The hero in our movie must say: I execute you on behalf of the people!He dared not execute himself.

Zhao Jianguo, who had completely stopped working, sat at home reading newspapers and books, and sometimes went to Lao Chang's side.In the past few days, the unit has been divided into houses. The new building is very beautiful, and the Zhao family has been looking forward to it.It stands to reason that Zhao Jianguo should have a set.Have worked for so many years.However, the organization talked to him, and hoped that he would let him out, otherwise it would be very troublesome.Now, Zhao Jianguo is a bachelor, it doesn't matter, you can do whatever you want.

After the house was divided, after the list came out, the outside world was full of gossip: It is said that Zhao Jianguo did not share the house this time.This fully shows that Zhao Jianguo has a problem.Otherwise, why didn't the organization give him a house.

At night, Gao Juzi returned home. After entering the door, she carefully took off her shoes, and walked carefully from the living room to the room wearing socks.

"You're not afraid of cold feet." Zhao Jianguo asked him in a low voice, resting his head on the sofa.

Gao Juzi stammered, and whispered, "Have you eaten yet?"

Zhao Jianguo shook his head: "No appetite."

Gao Tangerine held up his small leather bag and showed off to him: "Pig intestines, pig ears... I went to the winery to get you some liquor (the liquor with higher alcohol content intercepted in the early stage of liquor distillation.) I'll go and mix it for you." Order low-alcohol wine." After speaking, Gao Juzi pointed to the roof.

Zhao Jianguo laughed a little, put on his shoes, put on his coat and went up to the roof with his wife.

The living room was very quiet, and after a while, Zhao Xuejun and Zhao Xuebing's small bedrooms were quietly opened.Zhao Xuebing walked out of the house slowly, Zhao Xuejun followed behind him.The two brothers came to the courtyard together lightly, and after listening for a while, they returned to the bedroom in peace, covered the quilt, looked up at the roof, and didn't feel sleepy at all.

"Three children."

"Ok?"

"In the past few days, what did you write about?"

"Whether you want to endure anger or not, you will see virtue but no virtue."

"What do you mean?"

"Whether a person can restrain his anger and desire can tell whether he has cultivated morality."

"...That's quite right, is there any more?"

"A gentleman has nothing to fight for."

"What do you mean?"

"A gentleman doesn't want to argue with you, that is to say, Lao Tzu is more noble than you, he is a gentleman, and I don't want to argue with you."

"Why do I think this is called self-comfort?"

"That's probably what it means."

"Any more?"

"Gentlemen hold back and don't fight."

"Tell me..."

"A gentleman is self-respecting and dignified, and does not compete with others."

"Three..."

"Ok?"

"I think, this gentleman is really pitiful."

"Brother, don't play dumb with me, okay?"

"Oh... is there any?"

"Well, it's obvious."

"Hey, my practice is not enough, I still need to continue to practice... I said, San'er..."

"What?"

"Just the one you write every day, the one that is as good as water, where did you find it? Why did I think that ancient prose is very complicated, but now it's so right? What's the name of that book?"

"The "Ninja Classic" was compiled by two people from the Yuan Dynasty. It was they who gathered all the patience of their ancestors."

"Ninja, our ancestors still have this thing?"

"Well, it's a book that teaches people to have noble moral tolerance. Patience is a very important quality."

"How many kinds of these things are there?"

"What kinds?"

"I mean, besides this one, there are several other books. There are related books in those countries. I'll look for them to practice. I've been very free recently."

"A lot. As long as it is an ancient book, 80.00% of it tells you that you must cultivate your own character, love people in the world, and understand all classes in the world."

"In foreign countries, I don't like reading ancient Chinese."

"There are not many of them. They mainly say that patience is a kind of self-cultivation in religion. But... only we will treat these things as a kind of academics, to cultivate on purpose, and to aggrieve ourselves."

"Are there many people who have learned it? I mean, ancient people."

"Well, a lot... As long as you are a little famous, you will first practice and cultivate morality, otherwise..."

"Otherwise you'll be like our father, right?"

"kindness."

"San'er, lend me that book."

"Look what it does."

"What are you doing... Heh, learn to be a man, learn to be... one...forget it, you can go to sleep."

Zhao Xuebing tossed and turned all night, took out his younger brother's book early in the morning, and took it to school carefully. From this day on, he took a brush every day when he went home and copied it line by line... Zhao Xuejun felt that, My second brother has never been so serious in his life. In the past, maybe he approved of this kind of seriousness, but now, he is at a loss. When his relatives have to go against his original wishes, distort his nature, and cater to the society... …Zhao Xuejun didn’t know whether this was right or wrong, whether it was progress or regress.

The spring rain is falling, and there is a lot of spring rain today.Zhao Xuejun wrote a letter to Wang Xi in the classroom, telling him what happened.He communicated with Wang Xi in this form of diary.He hoped that when Wang Xi came out, he would not be disconnected from the outside world.He doesn't hide anything, and he doesn't report good news or bad news. He told Wang Xi about the recent confusion, and he also talked about the family affairs.Last week, Wang Xilai received his first letter from the juvenile detention center, which read: "Make more money and kill those idiots."

Zhao Xuejun wrote to Wang Xi today.It is absolutely wrong for him to think this way. This is a kind of stupid behavior that you will not forgive yourself even if others do not forgive you.He finished writing, and after he dropped the letter into the mailbox at the school gate, he felt that he might have made a mistake.He didn't fully comprehend these principles.Since his rebirth, Zhao Xuejun has never been so chaotic like these days. He is at a loss, and he is at a loss for growth. This confusion comes from the fact that this is a new world, definitely not the world of the past...

After submitting the letter, Zhao Xuejun turned a corner and went to the school carport. It has been an hour since school ended.It was very quiet there, only the sound of rain pouring on the top of the car shed, which made people feel cold and lonely.

"Teacher Yu?" Zhao Xuejun saw his head teacher and stood in front of his bicycle in a daze.

Teacher Yu turned his head, looked at him, and smiled wryly: "I taught them knowledge. They twisted my bicycle bell cover, pulled out my valve core, and scratched my bicycle tire with a knife. I don't blame you, but mine The youngest daughter is still waiting for me in the kindergarten. She will be very disappointed, I promise her to be the first to pick her up... The uncivilized ancient people knew how to respect teachers!"

Zhao Xuejun didn't know how to answer his teacher's question. He remembered that on the day Uncle Wang Lu had an accident, Teacher Yu followed behind him and kept saying, "Don't worry, don't worry..." She stuffed all the money into her pocket, Say to yourself, "Take...take..."

Zhao Xuejun put his bicycle in front of the teacher, turned around and ran, but he just pretended not to hear the teacher calling him from behind.During that journey, Zhao Xuejun ran wildly as if venting. He was drenched and had goosebumps all over his body. Even so, he felt very comfortable and happy... He walked through the street, through the crowd, ran home, pushed Opening the door, he panted and shouted to the room: "Dad! Let's run together in the heavy rain!" Then... He raised his head and wiped a handful of rainwater from his face, and after seeing clearly... he was dumbfounded.

Song Liaokuo, the mayor of Wanlin City, brought his son and wife to Zhao Jianguo for a friendly visit.Recently, he witnessed a series of unlucky incidents of Zhao Jianguo.To be honest, in this matter, he dared to say that the president of the country was here, and he couldn't help much. Going against public opinion has never ended well.

But recently he kept thinking that his younger brother who was performing the piano was caught, thrown out, and his fingers were broken.The beautiful and elegant mother had her yin and yang head shaved.The majestic father was hung on the barbell and kneeled in the square, and they spit on him.Those days when the whole family was driven to the farm.This morning, he saw Zhao Jianguo again. He went to the leader and talked about himself. When he came out of the government building, someone spit behind him: Bah!It's impossible for all the cheap things in the world to be blocked by his family.

So... Song Liaokuo brought his whole family here, he just wanted to visit and show to those who can't see or touch, some people are not afraid of you, some people don't care about you.He thought so, but subconsciously, he still chose. When he entered the house on this dark rainy night, his first sentence was: "Jianguo, let me come to see you. Of course, I represent myself. .” After speaking, he was startled.

Song Liaokuo's arrival was a timely gift for Zhao Jianguo. He greeted Gao Juzi and brought out all the best things in the house. He had just cooked a table of good wine and food, and invited the Song family to serve.I heard the door of the house being slammed!With a sound of pushing away, his youngest son, gasping for breath, yelled to the ground dripping wet: "Dad! Let's run together in the heavy rain!!!"