Rebirth Night Talk

Philosophy, mythology, these fields regard death as an important issue to continuously study and explain.In fact, Zhao Xuejun often asked himself.Why am I here?If you rely on that god, he (she) never appears.There isn't a reasonable explanation here.He even wondered if this was death!Such is the world of death!He exists here independently, and God played another game for him, and then hid in the dark to observe him.

Everyone can't avoid death, and they don't know what the world after death looks like. In the form of rebirth, if you walk again, it always has a purpose that belongs to destiny. If it doesn't belong to destiny, then what does it belong to?

Zhao Xuejun has always believed that human beings are wonderful creatures, endless creatures.Of course, he never thought about these things in his previous life, but in this life he always thinks, and often has some wonderful answers, as if preparing in his brain, he will suddenly answer himself. Maybe these answers are the perception of survival or Anything else, of course, he's much smarter in this life, that's an explanation too.

For example, Zhao Xuejun asked himself: Why are there gods in the world?

He would immediately give himself the answer: People first mark things that cannot be explained.Mark it with a name.This sign name is the name of God.After a long time, the signs became the explanations.God appears, and God answers this unexplainable question, eg.I did this, I struck this thunder, I am Lei Gong, and I am in charge of thunder.

This kind of explanation often makes Zhao Xuejun laugh. For some reason, he always laughs at the wonderful ideas he has come up with.Sometimes on the way home and school, it takes about 25 minutes to walk, he thinks about these strange questions, and after thinking about them, he goes to the library to borrow books to see if there are any answers.His study is not the best, of course, it's because he is always inattentive, and he doesn't even have any hope for a good future in education.What's the matter, he knows his future, as long as he does the right thing at the right time, it will be fine.What is promising, what is promising, he doesn't want to work hard on things that already know the result, he is very busy, thinking every day: my grandma is going to have a medical examination.

Aunt Gaixia has fallen in love with the uncle who sells vegetables at the street again.

When will the eldest brother come out from the shadow of his first love, and when will his long braid syndrome be cured.

Can Zhao Xuebing keep some distance from those people in the society?

Where can Dad's official career lead?

When will my mother realize that the factory will no longer open when she is idle at home.

Why did Wang Xi never write to me for so long? How are they doing?

Wang Rui must have lost weight, he is not used to life in the south.

That Song Changan... and so on...

It is interesting to observe Song Changan from different angles.He still loves football so much. Not long after he arrived in Wanlin City, he won over a group of people to form a football team with the boldness that a teenager in a big city had long ago.A common interest was found on the surface.In fact, according to Zhao Xuejun's understanding, this person is nothing more than finding a group of people to play with him alone.He always does.

Talk about the previous life, there is nothing to talk about, men and women are for a lifetime, men and men are for a lifetime, women and women are for a lifetime, and one person can also be a lifetime.Whether you live a good life or a bad life, in a social group, although there is a measure, this degree is often given by others, sympathy, resentment, jealousy, disdain... these are all given by others.People also often spend their entire lives doing things for others to see, in order to gain points in the measure of human nature.

In the previous life, everyone gave Zhao Xuejun the message: you are abnormal, you are flawed, you are different from others, therefore, you must be inferior.There are many reasons for the so-called inferiority here.

Cowardly character, poor family background, no elders to pull, no descendants to support.There is no sibling protection in the same generation, and relatives rarely have shelter.Personality is not likable, there is no knowledge base inside.There is no lofty ideal, and an ideal is just an ideal.

This is Zhao Xuejun's previous life.In fact, everyone has various flaws more or less, but he is extremely unlucky, and he has all of them.His fate was so well-rounded, he was born to be used to adjust people's life after dinner, so he became more and more autistic and sensitive. He didn't like himself, and Song Changan didn't like him later. It's not anyone's fault.

In an instant, that is a lifetime.Very fast... really fast.

Zhao Xuejun likes to look at the poplar trees through the window in the classroom, and now he has another fun, watching the group of teenagers play football through the window.Of course, he doesn't love anyone or can't let go of anyone.The two lifetimes together are more than 50 years old, and I have been with that person for more than 20 years.He was very... mean and vetoed a lot of things.

Including the most beautiful time in that life, which is the current grade.Delicate, pure white, fresh, ignorant, innocent, incompetent.Innocent, naive, stupid... the honest and honest child in a small city, seeing the handsome, radiant, and knowledgeable Song Chang'an at first sight, suddenly didn't know that he existed in the world.Every day, in the football field, in the classroom, the endless heartbeat is intensified and followed by peeping. If I don’t see you for a day, I feel panicked, and I am scared to cry in bed by my own thoughts.I felt that my whole life was over... Until one day, Song Changan discovered his so-called humble thoughts... He was like a god, marking Zhao Xuejun's life.

Zhao Xuejun swore that he would live alone in this life.

He will no longer give anyone the right to approach his emotional life.

This is not an oath that belongs to the uttermost heartbreak, it is just his way of self-protection, this is the best way, a person who loves himself, his family, and the world.These three loves are also very busy if they can be fulfilled in full.He is a man with ideals, goals, and accomplishments.He is very proud of it...

After school, Zhao Xuejun sat on a chair in the small shop opposite the school gate, ate puffed ice cream, and waited for his second brother by the way.

"I want to accompany my baby, I want to accompany my mother, I want to go to my godfather's house, I want to buy books, I go back to feed the rabbit, I want to borrow materials for my brother!" Putting it on Zhao Xuejun's shoulder and asking him affectionately: "Just tell me, why are you looking for some reason to dismiss me today?"

"I'm eating popsicles." Zhao Xuejun continued to lick.

"Are you done eating?" Min Shun bought a pack of cigarettes, and squatted in front of other people's schools, smoking ostentatiously.The passing senior students of No. [-] Middle School who were trampled on the ground squinted, and Min Shun went back provocatively.Occasionally, he met a student who was so ruthless and glared at him, showing that he was about to smash.Min Shun would stand up, stretch out two fingers to make a gesture of two, fiercely cross the opponent's eyelids, pull the other's eyelids down, and spray smoke all over his face: "Look at the fart!"

Min Shun, who runs a business at home and has known the society for a long time, is not afraid of the students at all.After scaring away several senior students, Min Soon spit and continued to squat.The expression is even more, I am so boring, very lonely sad expression.

"After eating, I will go home to accompany my grandma and my mother, and then borrow a book to buy some food and go to my godfather's house." Zhao Xuejun doesn't like to go out.

Some young girls came out from the school gate and bought a small amount of food in the only small shop.Even so, Twitter is still discussed as an important matter.Min Shun squatted on the ground, smoking a cigarette, and occasionally sniffing it by his side, with that girly aroma, he took another beautiful puff of the cigarette.Breathe out another smoke ring and smell it again.He thought that Zhao Xuejun would not know anything, but Zhao Xuejun did.

Zhao Xuebing followed a group of teenagers pushing a car out of the school. It was difficult for them to seat six people in a car. This kind of difficult action was performed at the school gate almost every day.

"Junjun?" Zhao Xuebing was a little surprised, he rarely saw his youngest sitting in front of others so leisurely.

Min Shun took a sip of his cigarette and stood up honestly: "Second Brother."

"Shun'er, are you here to find the army?" Zhao Er liked Min Shun quite a bit, and his warrior tapes were all tributed by Min Shun.

"Well, since I played truant, I came early." Min Shun reported calmly.

Zhao Xuebing gave him a brain crash: "Go home early at night, don't make your mother anxious, help the family more, you are the only one in your family, you are so big, and you are still not sensible."

"Hey, I know." Min Shun's attitude was like a little sheep.

The people around Zhao Xuebing crowded at the door of the small shop. It was surprising... Song Changan actually followed behind, talking and laughing with his friend, and walked over.

"Xuebing, who is this?" Song Changan asked his companion Zhao Xuebing.

"My brother is in the fourth class of the second grade of junior high school. Junjun, this is Song Changan. Call me brother. His family has just moved to the new government building." Zhao Xuebing introduced Song Changan to his younger brother.

Zhao Xuejun raised his head and smiled calmly at Song Changan: "Brother Changan."

Song Changan nodded with a very kind attitude.In this life, there is nothing to be looked down upon. Anyway, Zhao Jianguo is also the secretary of the county party committee.Song Changan is also a person with a sense of group, and his group consciousness is actually shared by everyone.However, Song Changan made a more detailed division.The children of ordinary people want to be friends with gentlemen.Children of some wealthy families, friendly contacts.Children who live in the old home of the municipal party committee should be friendly and friendly, and children who live in the new home of the municipal party committee must socialize well and be friends.

This kind of group consciousness may come from instinct or the inheritance of his kind of family.After arriving in Wanlin, he quickly mixed with some small circles, and immediately divided his friends into different levels.The children of ordinary people can be used, and the children of rich people will not bring pressure to socialize. The old people in the municipal party committee live in the locals of Wanlin City. From a considered perspective.And most of the pressure on Dad will come from this class, so make a good impression on them.Most of the children in the new yard were born in other places, and their families have some backgrounds. In the end, these people will use Wanlin City as a springboard to leave Wanlin. The future is self-evident. These people will become his main group of friends in the future.No one taught Song Changan these things, but he just understood.

these people?When did you hang out with your second brother?Zhao Xuejun thinks the world is wonderful, but he doesn't want to interfere too much with the second brother's current world. In fact, in the old Zhao family, Zhao Xuebing is like a person who was born into politics. OKNow that the old family has an accident, such as the tractor being impounded by the traffic police, there is no need to look for Zhao Jianguo, and it is useless to look for it. Just look for Zhao Xuebing, and it is a matter of minutes.

"Today is Tuesday." Zhao Xuejun took a last bite of the ice cream and threw away the stick.

"Yes... ah, what's the matter?" Zhao Xuebing blinked.

"The clothes of my brother and I have been smelly for three days. Don't tell me you forgot, either...you go back to wash it, or play poker to improve your memory." After Zhao Xuejun finished speaking, he dropped the popsicle stick and stood up.

Zhao Xuebing rolled his eyes and clasped his hands together: "Brother, from my young inner world, I don't remember these things."

"Brother was angry last night. I think he will be even more angry if he wears dirty clothes today. There is still time...really." Zhao Xuejun kindly persuaded him.

"Brother, from my young heart, as the country's future football star, one less training will mean one less chance to go out of Asia to win glory for the country. Do me a favor, we are blood brothers. "

Perhaps because of the rebirth, Zhao Xuejun's language habits are very interesting, and his brother at home is also very affected. Some things from the past world will always be brought here intentionally or unintentionally, and affect this side.Zhao Xuebing's friends love to watch the Zhao brothers bickering, and they don't know how the three brothers came up with some small words, it's simply too amazing.

"I don't care, I'm just telling you, don't wear stinky sneakers when you go home at night, Aunt Gaixia will nag, this is not the most terrible thing, my mother is holding her breath..." Zhao Xuejun pointed to his head.

Zhao Xuebing clasped his fists together: "I know, I know, let the benefactor go, have a good trip, goodbye! Goodbye! Goodbye, bye!" After finishing speaking, this heartless guy pushed the car and was ready to play football.

"Boss Zhao is about to take the college entrance examination. He is emotionally unstable and can go crazy at any time." Zhao Xuejun stood up and shouted at his back!

After shouting, he picked up his schoolbag and left.After walking a few steps, a person beside him was riding a bicycle, speeding past him quickly, and a series of sad and angry voices came from a distance: "People who take the college entrance examination! They are all fucking crazy!"

Min Shun couldn't stop laughing, he stretched out his hand and put his arms around Zhao Xuebing: "Let's go, I'll treat you to kebabs." After speaking, he didn't look at Song Changan and the others, and dragged Zhao Xuejun away in a very ostentatious manner.

"Who is that?" Song Chang'an looked at Min Shun's figure going away and asked the people around him.

"The fourth child in the Sixth Middle School's Four King Kongs, his family is rich. He has opened two video studios and a tape store. His brother will be shot if he beats him hard. This kid is not crooked. It's not very good." Provoke." Song Changan was also surrounded by aura.

Nodding his head, Song Changan took out a box of Hilton from his pocket and distributed it around. Boys in small towns seldom smoke cigarettes outside. They looked at the sign and the school gate, and when they saw no threat, they gathered together pretending to be mature. , hooking shoulders and backs, smoking a cigarette, inhaling the fragrance of the girl next to her, taking a sip, looking at each other ambiguously, and taking another puff.

Min Shun and Zhao Xuejun sat on the bench in the park, Min Shun smoked a lot of cigarettes, Zhao Xuejun remained silent.Today's Min Shun is very strange, a little... How can I describe it, a young man, when he expresses himself exaggeratedly, he must be trying to cover up something.At the school gate just now, Min Shun just wanted to fight.

"Let's talk about it, let's not talk about the two of us feeding mosquitoes." Although he was afraid of trouble, Zhao Xuejun was even more afraid of the mosquitoes in the park.

Min Shun dropped the cigarette butt, stood up, and suddenly took off his shirt.Zhao Xuejun shrank his feet and hugged his legs, and shrank to the side of the chair.

Min Shun, who took off his shirt, turned around and turned his bare back to Zhao Xuejun, er, this poor baby, his whole body was bruised and purple from the belt, and there were a few marks of red five-star belt buckles near the butt groove.

Zhao Xuejun blushed in embarrassment, put down his legs, and sniffed: "Well, the pattern is not bad. Where is the red five-star pattern?"

Min Shun put on his clothes slowly, and said while putting on, "Peng Juan, she's pregnant."

Zhao Xuejun blinked his eyes and looked at his crotch.

Min Shun sat down on the grass even more depressed, and slapped a mosquito to death on the face: "Last night, his father rushed into my house and beat me first, after he left, my father asked me if it was mine? I said it's nothing to do with me. Damn it, my dad just didn't believe it, so he whipped me again."

Peng Juan... How long has it been since I met her? Over the past few years, there have been more and more self-employed people, and people have begun to openly pursue money in their hearts.With the abundance of commodities, although there are not too many, the color of the street is not green, gray and blue, but more colorful and colorful.Peng Juan got farther and farther away from everyone, and she was often seen sitting on a stranger's motorcycle, walking through the street corner with a flamboyant smile.

"Is your mother okay?" Zhao Xuejun knew that Min Shun's mother was terrified because of his elder brother Min He.

"It's okay, my mother doesn't know." Min Shun died from a headache.

Zhao Xuejun has very few friends. Min Shun and Peng Juan are all people who have imprinted on his new life.He wants to help, but he is only a sophomore this year, right?