Rebirth Night Talk

Remember that poor little carrot head who grew up in Zhazedong Concentration Camp?Although the child received the highest revolutionary education, he grew up in the most difficult place. He lay on the iron window and looked out through the iron bars every day.He yearned for freedom, and then died generously.

Zhao Xuejun now feels that he is like a little radish. His daily life is extremely boring, and he is not allowed to get out of bed except that he is not free.He is not allowed to go there, not even to go to the toilet. There is a plastic urinal at home, which is kept under the bed for him.Zhao Xuejun felt like a confinement woman, eating and urinating on the bed.The only free time is when parents go to work and grandma sleeps.Only then can he open the rear window and watch the farmers market outside to amuse himself.

Today is Sunday, but there is no one at home. Mom went to Shanghai. Before leaving, she twisted his ears and told him to swear to cultivate himself obediently.

Because Zhao Jianguo took care of his son, he didn't care about the affairs of the unit. This time, the leadership change seemed to be affected, and he still stayed in his place without moving.Zhao Jianguo, who had calmed down, was somewhat unwilling, so he would go to the unit on Sundays to do work, hold an emergency meeting, learn the spirit of learning, and exchange experience.Zhao Xuejun felt that his father was really mature, and he could appear in every corner of the city government quietly.Comrade Zhao Jianguo is so kind!Diligent and capable, but not promoted, I believe that he will definitely get a lot of sympathy points and internal correction points.

Sitting on the bed and opening the window, Zhao Xuejun was holding a piece of blood-enriched pork liver in his hand, gnawing on one bite and looking out.The pork liver was sent by my godfather.Sometimes people really can't be judged by appearances, and godfather's money seems to be endless, and he always buys him a lot of delicious food.What high-end mixed toffee, beautifully packaged Xiaogan sesame candy.Unceasing pork liver, large chunks of pork butt meat stewed into pieces of braised pork, served in a greasy pot.In order to nourish his godson, the godfather went to the countryside and bought three pigs at a high price to raise them, and slaughtered one after eating.Dad said that after the godfather was rehabilitated, the state gave a lot of money, which can be as much as tens of thousands.When he said this, Zhao Jianguo gritted his molars.

"Zhao Xuejun! They said that the driver who hit you was shot! Is this true?" A child's voice came from outside the window. Zhao Xuejun squeezed his head on the railing and looked out through the window screen, wow!The children in the circle outside were visiting him.Probably because I have never seen a live specimen that survived a car accident.

Zhao Xuejun took a bite of the pork liver and explained in a good-tempered manner that he was really lonely. "No way, I was detained for fifteen days."

"Zhao Xuejun, my mother said that you have three big holes on your body, you should use a basin to fill it when you drink water, otherwise it will leak."

Zhao Xuejun had no choice but to stand up while leaning on the window sill, and took off his shirt to show them his centipede scars. They were very impressed after seeing them.Admiration ass!Zhao Xuejun was very depressed.

After breaking the pig livers into small pieces, Zhao Xuejun opened a corner of the window screen, sent out the pig livers one by one, and divided them among them.Seeing how well they ate, Zhao Xuejun felt that he also ate well.

The questions the children asked were really interesting, how many injections do you get every day, what does the operating room look like, are you unconscious?are you cryingWhat does it feel like to be in a coma, etc. In order to make himself not lonely, Zhao Xuejun answered the questions seriously, and in order to keep the crowd, he distributed a circle of fruit peels.

"Zhao Xuejun, what do you eat every day?"

"eat!"

"Does your mother give you malted milk?"

"Give."

"How much? I think, at least five spoonfuls a day. You have lost a basin of blood, eh! You need to mend it!"

"A washbasin? You're killing pigs and selling pig blood! I can eat malted milk whatever I want."

The sound of splotches of saliva dripping to the ground made Zhao Xuejun think it was fun to bully children.He held up his snack and showed it off.At that moment, he clearly heard the voices of their hearts.If only I had an accident too!

"Zhao Xuejun, when are you going to school?" A timid voice came from over there.Zhao Xuejun looked up and almost didn't recognize it.Isn't that Peng Juan?This little girl was wearing a dirty little sweater, with braids on her head, one tied up and the other loose.Her short pants can be made into cropped pants.He didn't wear socks, his dirty feet were covered in dirty sneakers, and there were black tides on his ankles, circles, circles.

"Zhao Xuejun, please ignore her, Peng Juan's parents are divorced!" Someone reminded her loudly, Peng Juan stopped walking after hearing this, with a sad expression on her face.In this day and age, divorce is absolutely bad and rare.

Zhao Xuejun thought for a while, grabbed a handful of mixed toffee and gave it out: "Peng Juan, do you want some candy? I'll give you all!"

Peng Juan was stunned, took it with some hesitation, and quickly put it in her pocket.Zhao Xuejun didn't know what to say, sympathize, I don't have the right.Have mercy?Her own parents didn't know how to pity their children.Although the former Peng Juan was vain and mean, she was still a sunny little girl.Zhao Xuejun remembered a composition about ideals written by Peng Juan.Peng Juan wanted to be a PLA soldier.Judging by the current state, this girl, I am afraid that all the anger in this life has been vented.

The children looked at each other and shouted: "Oh! Oh! Zhao Xuejun and Peng Juan are well! Zhao Xuejun and Peng Juan are well!"

"Get out of here! Zhao Xuejun, what are you doing?!" Zhao Xuewen, who came back from the outside and saw his younger brother being taunted, shouted loudly, startling countless children.

Zhao Xuejun stuck out his tongue embarrassingly, and said coquettishly: "Brother, I'm so bored. I want to go out!"

Zhao Xuewen glared at the child who was reluctant to leave, and there was a clear threat in his eyes. The child shivered, pressed his fingers against the crack of the wall and reluctantly left.

Back home, Zhao Xuewen took off his shoes and sat on the bed and said to Zhao Xuejun, "Be patient for a few more days. After you recover, I will take you fishing." Googo stared at the lonely light bulb on the roof.

Zhao Xuejun could feel that his eldest brother was unhappy.He didn't ask, anyway, he couldn't help but say it after a while.

The silent time was unexpectedly long, Zhao Xuejun stood up, leaning on his chest, leaning against the bed and climbing the wooden edge of the top of the large cabinet, and took down the Shanghai dim sum box on it to his brother.Seeing his brother struggling, Zhao Xuewen quickly sat up and took the box, opened it, looked down and pushed it aside: "Brother don't eat, this is for you."

oops?Not excited at all.Have no appetite?This time, Zhao Xuejun was really worried. He took out a big sugar ring and stuffed it into his brother's hand. Zhao Xuewen had a very unpleasant expression, and after taking two bites, he said, "Guess where I went?"

Zhao Xuewen thought about it for a while, and felt ashamed, but really wanted to vent.After he forced his younger brother to swear a poisonous oath, he started nagging, talking like an angry youth.

Early this morning, Zhao Xuewen went to the military area to see Gu Xia. Because of his younger brother's illness, he hadn't seen the girl in his dream recently.To be honest, Zhao Xuewen misses her a lot.

Zhao Xuewen, who doesn't understand love, has long included Gu Xia in the category of his personal belongings.He insisted that Gu Xia should belong to him.For Gu Xia's sake, he had no choice but to condescend to play with those dead kids in the military area. After Wang Xi's introduction, he gradually became acquainted with Gu Xia.The children of the military region do not play with the children of the government, and even have clear boundaries.These two groups of people sometimes look down on each other, and children in the older circle occasionally fight in groups.

Zhao Xuewen felt that he had done a lot for Gu Xia, except for the betrayal of relatives.It's like borrowing a volleyball from the school for her and finding a venue.He lent her music tapes, and he even copied the lyrics for her.Zhao Xuewen felt that he was really an inseparable part of Gu Xia. Even though Gu Xia always said that they were buddies and she was his god-sister, he still thought it was a sign of a girl's shyness.He felt that if Gu Xia left him, nothing would be possible.

Today, Zhao Xuewen knocked on the door of Gu Xia's house with a few pieces of bubble gum bought by his mother from Shanghai in his pocket.This is Zhao Xuewen's first visit to Gu Xia's house, and he was a little afraid of the small second floor of Gu Xia's house before.He knocked a few times, and the door of Gu Xia's house opened. A strange young man looked him up and down in the door unkindly for a while, and his mouth had a Beijing flavor, and what he said was Erhuayin : "Who are you looking for? There is no one you know here, are you looking for the wrong one?"

"I'm looking for Gu Xia." Zhao Xuewen felt that his territory had been violated.

"Open the door quickly, open the door quickly, this is my godbrother!" Gu Xia laughed loudly, pushed the young man away, and pulled Zhao Xuewen in.

Zhao Xuewen took out the bubble gum from his pocket and handed it to Gu Xia, looked at the young man and said, "I'm here to deliver bubble gum to Gu Xia."

Gu Xia took it with a smile, opened the package and put it in her mouth. Her teeth were white and her lips were bright red.Zhao Xuewen looked up and down, and was stunned by today's Gu Xia.Today's Gu Xia smells like toilet water all over her body. She is wearing a western-style sweater woven with seven-color threads. The collar of the dress is round, and there are two cute fur balls in the middle. .She was wearing a pair of vertical striped flared trousers on her lower body, and a pair of white leather shoes on her feet.

"How old are you? You still eat bubble gum." The one who opened the door was dressed in an extraordinary way, with a tight floral top and blue plaid flared pants.Shiny three-pointed leather shoes, and a pair of Mike toad glasses hung in the center of the clothes.

"Is it up to you, I am willing!" Gu Xia's words also had a subdued tone.

A burst of irresistible music rhythm came from the living room, and Gu Xia took Zhao Xuewen's hand and walked in there.Zhao Xuewen followed blankly. He looked at Gu Xia's hair. The two big braids were gone, replaced by a loose mid-length hair with a bright yellow plexiglass clip on the top.

When the outsider came, the people in the room looked at Zhao Xuewen strangely. They looked at his shabby military uniform and his white sneakers.Zhao Xuewen tugged at his trouser legs in embarrassment. Gu Xia took him to the sofa beside him, asked him to sit down, and handed him a piece of watermelon that he had never eaten before: "I haven't eaten it before, it's called watermelon, eat it! I Mom brought it from Beijing."

Zhao Xuewen held the watermelon and looked at the group of people in the room.These people are so out of tune with the small town of Wanlin.They were wearing clothes he had never seen before, and they danced more amazingly than the young people in the park here. They wore sunglasses in the room, regardless of gender, and crowded together.The only thing they do is twist their asses out and try to shake to the moon.

Looking at Gu Xia's house up and down, this house also made Zhao Xuewen feel ashamed. On the roof of Gu Xia's house, there are not light bulbs, but bright tube lights, not one, but three!Her house has a second floor, a carpet in the living room, and piles of soda, candy, and fruit on the table.The tape recorder playing music is a dual card, and the TV is a [-]-inch TV.The sofa in her house is not covered with a bed sheet, but an elegant knitted tiger downhill cover, with a snow-white crocheted flower cover added in front of the cover.

The people around me were talking and laughing loudly. Some people said that the National Day military parade was going to be held this time, and that my father was going to lead the troops across the country.Some people are talking about a certain alley in the capital, there is a fight for the grandson, and thousands of people will be mobilized.

Later, the music stopped, and there was a more foreign-style girl with curly hair and a long skirt. She sat in the middle of the room with a guitar in her arms, and opened her mouth and said, "Duo Sai (Cantonese: Thank you)." The room In the middle of the night, the applause sounded, and the girl sang a song similar to Huo Yuanjia's theme song on the TV, and the people in the room were fascinated by it.Zhao Xuewen put down the watermelon and hid in the toilet. In the toilet of Gu Xia’s house, the sink is made of snow-white porcelain. There is no advanced unit on the mirror. And painful.

Biting the Shanghai dim sum, Zhao Xuewen recalled everything about Gu Xia's family with his younger brother, and finally said very depressed: "Brother, your sister-in-law is gone, it's not that I don't listen to you, it seems that I really want to give it to you from South Street." You found a sister-in-law."

Zhao Xuejun, who was drinking canned soup, immediately sprayed.He looked at his brother depressedly, pointed to his eyes and said, "Brother, look at me, look at my sincere eyes, what's the matter with the daughter-in-law of South Street? How do you know?"

Zhao Xuewen put his arms around his younger brother's shoulders, and said with a strange tone: "I have wanted to ask you this for a long time. Why do you say that I will die early, and you still don't allow me to go to the sports school or find a wife in South Street? Where did you come up with this idea, kid? At that time, you entered the operating room like crazy and said a bunch of strange things. "

"Brother, what did I say?" Zhao Xuejun was in a cold sweat!

"What can you say? You are a brat, the doctor said you are talking nonsense! What I am surprised about is that you should explain to my brother those weird ideas that come from you!" Zhao Xuewen nodded his brother's forehead.

Zhao Xuejun had no way to explain it, so he could only pretend to be dead and said, "Brother, you can't come home to bully me if you were wronged in the military area or lost your relationship. I'm wronged."

"Fucking lovelorn, I'm not. What is Gu Xia? Look at the group of people around her. Wearing bourgeois clothes, they don't look good at all. A bunch of idiots...men and women mix together, sooner or later something will happen..."

Zhao Xuewen, who was broken in love, was nagging like a lunatic, trying to find fault with the group of people in his language.There was envy in his eyes.The fact of being defeated cannot be changed.Zhao Xuejun couldn't help his brother get out of this circle, a small town person is a small city person.Even after another 30 years, they will still be shy when they go to Beijing.

The military sub-district where the small city came to dig tunnels temporarily, the higher-level unit is the Beijing Military Region, and the group of children grew up in the old Beijing under the roots of the imperial city. Regardless of their knowledge and temperament, they are better than Zhao Xuewen who grew up in a small city.Zhao Xuewen grew up in a small town in Dashanao, where the society as a whole will show six phenomena for a long time: calm, peaceful, safe, equal, flat, and balanced.Regarding this point, in another ten years, Shanxi will also be like this. Few people go out to work. At one point, the entire city here was surrounded by businessmen from Jiangsu and Zhejiang.

"Brother...you really like Gu Xia?" Zhao Xuejun patted his elder brother on the shoulder.

Zhao Xuewen shook his head, for a woman who insulted him, even though it was not intentional insult, Zhao Xuewen also felt that he was hurt.He thought he wouldn't like her any more.

"Brother, you go to a military academy, don't go to a technical secondary school. My godfather said that it is better to go to a university than to a technical secondary school. In the future, college students will be the... highest level... that building in society." Zhao Xuejun looked for words, Do your best to make your brother understand what it means.

Zhao Xuewen didn't believe his younger brother's persuasion.However, he really felt that he should plan for his future.This kind of insult, one time is enough, he has to do something, for him, face is more important than anything else.

Gao Juzi came back from Shanghai two days later. This time, she brought some rare things when she came back.In addition to buying a shared red cotton guitar for the child.There is also a sweater with a big leaf pattern for each person, regardless of size.Now, the family wears the same style of sweaters from big to young, except for the different sizes.Grandma got a rare pair of leather shoes for old ladies with small feet.She was not satisfied, she didn't nag for the first time, she wore it quickly, and went out to show off to the little-footed old ladies at the farmer's market.

That night, Zhao Xuewen had a dream. He dreamed that he was wearing a Shanghai sweater, carrying a red cotton guitar, and was speeding past Gu Xia on a bicycle. Gu Xia waved to him with a surprised expression, but , he just dismissed it.

Zhao Xuewen, who had regained his energy, quickly put his disappointment in love into his enthusiasm for learning guitar. Every day, he babbled one word in his mouth, the characters in the order of plucking the strings of the guitar: "5323, 1323..." He practiced even Bleeding out, still persistent.

This time, Gao Juzi made a lot of money quietly again, but Zhao Xuejun didn't ask how much.But he has witnessed his mother's transformation.Be confident and fly high.However, he is still not very courageous and dare not bring too much goods.Zhao Xuejun felt that it was the safest thing for mother to do so.

In order to curry favor with the driver who was on a business trip with her, Gao Juzi found a partner for this older young man named Xiao Hao.On Wednesday night, the house was cleaned, dumplings were made, and the parents of both men and women were invited to meet for dinner.

This is the first time Zhao Xuejun has seen a blind date of this year. When his mother said the first sentence, Zhao Xuejun immediately became bright.

"Jonie, this is an advanced worker in our factory, Comrade Xiaohao. Xiaohao, this is Comrade Joni from the knitting factory. Joni, Xiaohao is a celebrity in our factory. Comrade Xiaohao loves the collective in life. , Comrade Unity, he is willing to learn, drill, and work at ordinary times... Ahaha, look at me, talking nonsense, talk about it, talk about it.”

After Gao Juzi finished speaking, she covered her mouth and went to the kitchen. While working, she smiled at her husband from time to time, with an expression that was extremely nostalgic and full of ambiguity.

The Zhao family brothers were ordered not to leave the small bedroom, and could only observe and eavesdrop through the crack of the door.They looked at the pair of young men and women with serious expressions and talking like political censors.Can't help feeling anxious for a while, Zhao Lao Er jumped out eagerly, grabbed Uncle Xiao Hao by the collar and told him to speak louder.

"Brother, do you think they can do it?" Zhao Xuebing turned around and asked his elder brother.

"Zhao Xuejun, let me tell you, lie down quickly... don't be sloppy... If it were me, I would have already become... 5323, 1323. Look at Uncle Xiaohao's idiot, he doesn't know how to get married at all, 5323, 1323. He You should praise others, for example, your clothes are really good, 5323, 1323. Then go out, press the road, watch a movie, hug and kiss. 5323, 1323. Xiaohao... Huh, a person who doesn’t understand love Guy. Can't press the road, can't you recite poetry? Silly B."

Zhao Xuejun returned to the bed honestly, curled his lips helplessly, love turned his eldest brother into a lunatic.There is nothing he can do, everyone grows up, and there are always some unavoidable experiences. In this life, the elder brother is enough. He dares to resist and ridicule. He believes that in the future, as long as the elder brother is given a little chance, Big brother will surely rise.Sometimes, frustration education is really not a noble education.