Su Wei

It will be about half a month before Bai Pingnan sees Su Wei again.

In the evening in June, he was wearing a long-sleeved stand-up collar shirt, and he was carrying a large bag stuffed with fluff, a large black mask, and many other tools.He walked to an empty corner and was about to take out his mask to put it on, when Su Wei's voice suddenly came from behind him: "Doctor Bai, aren't you hot?"

Bai Pingnan froze, pulled his hand out of the bag, and turned around slowly.

Su Wei came out from the shadows, obviously in a good mood, with a rosy complexion, and a rare light voice: "Are you free? Let's chat."

Bai Pingnan let out a long breath: "Go to my house."

In a place with bright light, Su Wei realized that Bai Pingnan's complexion was terrible, his two eye sockets were deeply sunken, his eye circles were blue, and he didn't know how many days he had suffered from insomnia.Compared with when Su Wei just came back from the United States, Bai Pingnan's current state is obviously worse.

Su Wei laughed silently in his heart: he had become like that when there was hope, and now it is not surprising that he would be like this when there is no hope.

When he arrived at Bai Pingnan's house, Bai Pingnan went into the kitchen and squeezed a cup of soy milk for Su Wei: "Drink this, it's healthier than coffee."

Su Wei looked at the gray liquid in the cup, sniffed it and knew what it was made of: "It's made from four types of beans, with honey added?"

Bai Pingnan smiled slightly: "It's best to add pure Sophora japonica honey, I don't have that at home, I just add some rapeseed honey."

Su Wei pushed the cup aside, looked into his eyes, and said slowly, "Thank you for your kindness, but I don't dare to drink your stuff anymore."

Bai Pingnan responded to his gaze with a smile, and said word for word: "Don't worry, I didn't add hallucinogens this time."

Even though Su Wei had been prepared, he still couldn't help taking a breath at this moment: "It really is you."

Bai Pingnan raised his eyebrows slightly: "Yes, I not only gave you hallucinogens, but also hypnotized you, suggesting a brand new ending to your story. How about it, is that story interesting?"

Su Wei frowned: "Because you used to hypnotize me like that when you treated me in the past, even if I can remember something, it will be confused with the past, and I may not really doubt you."

Bai Pingnan smiled and said, "That's it."

Su Wei let out a long breath and grabbed the pen and paper on the coffee table: "Then I'll play a fun game with you too. Write down the name of your favorite poem or word on the paper, and I'll come Guess, see if I can guess right?"

Bai Pingnan looked at him deeply, then picked up a pen and wrote a few words on the paper, turned the writing side over and pressed it on the table.Su Wei also wrote a few words and pushed them in front of Bai Pingnan.

Bai Pingnan took it, and saw that it said "Taking Sha Xing. Qin Guan." He still smiled: "Oh? Then you guessed wrong."

Without changing his face, Su Wei said slowly, "Oh, really? I thought, 'Lost in the fog, crossed in the maze of the moon' would be your favorite sentence."

Bai Pingnan gradually suppressed his smile, turned over his answer, and it really read the sentence "Lost in the fog, crossed in the maze of the moon".He sighed wistfully: "How do you know?"

Su Wei said: "I found out that you are a student of Lu Mijin. I went to the school where Lu Mijin taught at that time. The old teacher told me that you and Lu Mijin had a good relationship because your parents divorced and no one took care of you. Lu Mijin often takes you home and cooks for you. It's such a coincidence that many years later you treat your teacher's mother's heart disease, but you act like you don't know the relationship between Lu Xiang and Lu Mijin."

Bai Pingnan's face fell down: "She is not my teacher's wife!"

Su Wei shrugged: "That was decided by Lu Mijin, not by you."

Bai Pingnan's expression became very sullen, and he laughed again after a while: "Go on, what else do you know?"

"Did you put the roses in front of my house?"

"Yes."

"Since then, you planned to let Gao Jin appear in my world?"

"No, I just had an idea at that time. I followed Lu Xiao all the time, and when he went back with you, I went to investigate you. I found out that he fell in love with you at first sight. I know you had a friend in the United States, and he followed you I came to Shanghai, so I put roses at your door."

friend?Su Wei frowned, and immediately knew that he was talking about Lin Yinran.

"I made up my mind that you took Lu Xiao to the United States. For more than a month, I felt threatened that you would let Lu Xiao leave my world completely, so I added ingredients to your coffee that day, and then you came to my house , the tea served to you was also drugged, and then I hypnotized you, but you don’t remember.”

Su Wei remembered that Bai Pingnan had already ordered the coffee when he arrived at the cafe that day. At that time, Bai Pingnan said that he remembered that he loved drinking this kind of coffee back then. Although it was indeed Su Wei's favorite coffee, he vaguely remembered it. I never drank coffee in front of Bai Pingnan at all!Thinking about it now, it was because Bai Pingnan had investigated everything about him long ago.

"You live across from my house, spying on my life and Lu Xiao's life? You put the telescope, it's not my hallucination at all."

"That's right. It's thanks to your brother's good habit of putting the keys under the carpet. Otherwise, I'm afraid it would take me a lot of trouble to borrow that identity to rent that house."

Su Wei took a deep breath, and grabbed the bag that Bai Pingnan had just taken out.Bai Pingnan hesitated for a moment, but did not stop him, allowing him to open the bag.Su Wei put the tweezers, knife, iron rod and other tools in the bag on the table one by one, clenched his fists tightly, and said word by word: "Dr. Bai, what were you going out for just now? Torturing cats?"

"Ha." Bai Pingnan sighed in surprise, "You even know this?"

"When Lu Mijin passed away eight years ago, when I took Lu Xiao to the United States years ago..." Su Wei said slowly: "I also thought of it by accident. If I didn't watch you today, I really can't be sure about these two things. The relationship between them. Lu Xiao looks very similar to Lu Mijin, right?"

Bai Pingnan smiled and nodded: "It's very similar, the eyes and nose are almost exactly the same. Looking at him is like seeing Mijin when he was young."

"You told Lu Xiao that Lu Xiang was the third party, that Lu Xiang killed his biological mother?"

Bai Pingnan's face sank again: "She is the third party! Lu Xiang was my fiancée, she knew my thoughts about Maze, and she went out of her way to get close to Maze!"

Su Wei frowned fiercely: "At that time, Lu Xiao's biological mother had just passed away in a car accident, and Lu Mijin fell ill because of this incident. As a nurse, Lu Xiang took the initiative to take care of Lu Mijin and the young Lu Xiao... ..." He paused, and asked coldly, "Does Lu Xiao's mother's death have anything to do with you?"

Bai Pingnan was surprised, but hesitated: "I don't know. When Maze brought me home, she cooked for me and treated me well... I didn't intend to harm her, although I hoped She was able to get out of the maze. I don't know what clue she found, and she called to ask me if I was right... I admitted it, and she had a car accident the next day."

Su Wei sarcastically said: "The husband and wife treat you sincerely, but you have such unethical thoughts. Don't you feel bad conscience!"

Bai Pingnan was unmoved: "Don't you also like men? I thought you could understand me."

Su Wei was a little angry: "Homosexuality has nothing to do with morality, and what you did is nothing!"

Baiping Nanji smiled slightly: "What else? What else do you know?"

Su Wei asked: "Lu Xiang's paranoid schizophrenia is because you have given her some psychological hints for a long time? She will go crazy when she hears the doorbell. Why?"

This time Bai Pingnan didn't admit it right away, he was silent for a while before laughing: "At that time Lu Xiao was still young, I taught him to read, I took him out to play, I taught him psychology...he trusted me, I told him , It was Lu Xiang who killed his father, he believed me. I also hinted that Lu Xiang had something to do with Lu Mijin's death, the first time she thought it was ridiculous, the second time and the third time... Later she believed it herself."

Hearing what he said, Su Wei was slightly relieved.But he still had doubts, and couldn't help asking: "You really did it? Wasn't it... Lu Xiao?"

Bai Pingnan looked surprised: "You doubt him?"

Su Wei's face was calm: "When he split into a new personality, although he forgot his identity, he did not forget his knowledge, but he only forgot that he had studied psychology. This shows that these are what he wants to forget. Maybe that's what makes him feel insecure and guilty. He has social phobia, the fear of seeing himself in other people's eyes, why is he suffering from this disease?"

Bai Pingnan shrugged: "I instilled hatred for Lu Xiang in him since he was a child, maybe he really did something. But he... is kind in nature."

Su Wei frowned into Sichuan characters: "Why did you do this?"

Bai Pingnan looked into his eyes: "You know that, don't you? I love Maze. In the past, I couldn't do anything to my wife. I finally waited until he was single... That woman knew that I loved him, but deliberately approached him! I almost went crazy at that time!"

Su Wei looked at his eyes that were flushed with excitement, and didn't want to argue with him on this kind of issue any longer—in short, no one could convince anyone.

"Does Lu Xiao's personality split and transformation have anything to do with you? Have you stimulated him?"

"No. In any case, I will not attack him. Except for Lu Xiang's matter, everything about him follows his own will."

Bai Pingnan's abnormal cooperation allowed Su Wei to sort out the clues. From this conversation, everything was finally connected together.

The first time Lu Xiao met Bai Pingnan was in that park.That represented his desire to go back to the starting point and start over again. Maybe he discovered some clues, knowing that his understanding of his stepmother was not what he imagined, and the resistance in his heart made him resist the past and only change the past. He has known it for a long time, so under this kind of stimulation, he even made the behavior of adding rat poison to Lu Xiang's meals.The depression and stimulation of these things caused him to split into a brand new and clean personality to redeem his subconscious remorse.

"Bai Jianyun... Bai... That's why he resists you so much..." Su Wei said in a deep voice, "Do you know your illness?"

"Oh?" Bai Pingnan seemed very interested.

"You have obsessive-compulsive disorder, right? You used to secretly follow Lu Mijin, and gradually developed a habit. That kind of obsession even gave you obsessive-compulsive disorder. Once you don't see him, you will be anxious and irritable. After Lu Mijin died, You couldn't vent your emotions, so you abused the cat. Later, you empathized with Lu Xiao, and even got worse, hiding and watching him secretly every day. So you lived in the house opposite me, so I took Lu Xiao there During that time in the United States, your old illness relapsed."

Bai Pingnan smiled and said, "How do you know that?"

"I went to Lu Xiao's old middle school, and you would hide in the cafe opposite the school to watch him every day after school."

Bai Pingnan once again acquiesced.Su Wei suddenly felt a little sad for him. Healers don't heal themselves, and even when they have learned to a certain level, no one else can save you.

Su Wei sighed: "Why did you admit it so easily?"

Bai Pingnan looked at him meaningfully: "What evidence do you have to make others believe you, I did all of these?"

Su Wei's elbow subconsciously touched the recording pen in his pocket.He originally wanted to stimulate Bai Pingnan to leak his words today in order to obtain some evidence, but Bai Pingnan explained everything so cooperatively.

Bai Pingnan glanced at his pocket, and put his hand on the knife that Su Wei took out from the bag and put it on the table just now: "You can come to question me so confidently, and you won't be afraid to push me, can you leave?" out this door?"

Su Wei watched him warily, ready to subdue him at any time.

Bai Pingnan sighed, and took his hand back: "You go. I have harmed him for many years, and now he finally likes someone...you have to treat him well."

Su Wei paused the recording pen, and didn't ask any further because he was afraid of provoking Bai Pingnan to make some radical moves.

He walked to the door with full vigilance, and turned around suddenly. Bai Pingnan was sitting on the sofa and looked at him deeply.

Su Wei asked the last question tremblingly: "Is LD you?"

Bai Pingnan looked at him seriously, and it took a long time before he laughed again: "Why are you so nervous?"

Su Wei clenched his cuffs secretly.

Bai Pingnan took a sip from the teacup on the coffee table, and said softly: "He said that he hoped that the past can pass...I'm tired too, I edited the last diary, no one in this world can control himself, Not even the mythical gods."

Su Wei finally breathed a sigh of relief.

Bai Pingnan finally smiled and said: "Don't worry, he doesn't have that kind of thought. I wrote it. He is only interested in psychology and is very talented."

Su Wei took one last look at him, closed the door and left.

After Su Wei left, Bai Pingnan poured a cup of hot water, took out a box of medicines from the drawer, and threw them into the hot water one by one.The skin of the medicine melted, and the powder traced out twists and turns in the hot water, but in the end it became turbid.

He vaguely recalled that many years ago, a young teacher wearing a pair of gold-rimmed glasses stood on the podium, holding a book in his hand, with a slight smile on his eyes and eyebrows.

"When it comes to opera, my favorite is The Peony Pavilion."

Some good students in the audience started the conversation, and there was a booing: "Teacher Lu, come for a while!"

Lu Mijin put down his textbook, raised his hand to signal everyone to be calm, cleared his throat and read——

"I don't know the origin of love, but it goes deeper and deeper. The living can die, and the dead can live. Why is the love in a dream untrue?"

Feeling unacceptable, going deeper.

Why is the love in a dream untrue?

The hot steam in the cup blinded Bai Pingnan's eyes.He looked down at the turbid water, but a man's elegant smile was reflected.

He drank the glass of water, as if he drank the man's smile into his stomach.In fact, as early as many years ago, that smile had already been imprinted on his heart.

When Su Wei returned home, Lu Xiao was standing on the balcony looking out the window in a daze.Hearing the movement behind him, Lu Xiao didn't turn his head, and said softly, "Have you gone to find him?"

"Yes."

Lu Xiao smiled wryly: "So you lied to me."

Su Wei stared deeply at his back, but at the moment Lu Xiao turned his back to him and couldn't feel his burning gaze: "Then did you hide anything from me? Rhubarb?" Su Wei bit the last two words very hard.

Lu Xiao was shocked and turned around slowly.

Su Wei sighed: "Lu Xiao and Rhubarb have completely different personalities. Now that you have recovered, you have a new feeling. How can I not see it? When did you recover?"

"The last time I changed into Lu Xiao."

Su Wei stepped forward, rubbed his hair, and hugged him into his arms: "Okay, it's all over, and everything can start again."

Lu Xiao remained silent for a long time, Su Wei pulled his hand around his waist, and then Lu Xiao passively hugged him with his backhand.

Su Wei kissed his forehead: "I'll take a shower first, go to bed early."

When entering the bedroom to get a change of clothes, Su Wei found a book spread out on the cabinet.He took a closer look and found that it was Lu Xiao's past diary.He picked up the diary casually, and a yellowed page fell to the ground.

At the end of the page is the name signed by the young Lu Xiao in immature handwriting.

——LD

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