Su Wei

"A few days ago, I asked him to record all his dreams. Today he told me that he dreamed that he was chased by a monster all night. I asked him what the monster was like, and he said he didn't know, because he didn't dare to look back. Look. I told him that if he had this dream again, he had to convince himself to go back and see what was chasing him, because that was the source of his guilt and anxiety."

Lu Xiao held Su Wei's notebook and slowly flipped it down.

"In the beginning, he would dream about some of the simplest plots, such as going to the beach to blow a wind, and attending someone else's funeral. Later, his dreams became more and more complicated, and gradually the scenes could no longer be connected into a logical story, and even Later, he told me that there were no more scenes and characters in his dreams, only some complicated lines and scary sounds. Later, his dreams were so complicated that even he couldn’t remember them.”

"His dreams are getting more and more complicated. I think it's because he has read a lot of dream interpretation books. Since I analyzed a dream for him, he fell in love with Freud's "The Interpretation of Dreams". It took three days Just finished reading it - what a genius he is. Dreams are a way for the subconscious to convey information to people, but it has to be disguised and not too easily recognized. So when you understand that 'wolf' means attack, the next time your When the subconscious mind wants you to convey the sense of attack, it will not choose to use the symbol of 'wolf', but use other symbols that have not yet been deciphered."

Seeing this, Lu Xiao smiled meaninglessly, and read the following sentence softly: "I think, at the beginning, he was like a piece of white paper, and any stroke was so conspicuous. It's a pity that he dyed it Too soon, and later on, it is difficult for simple pen and ink to stand out on paper.”

Seeing this, Lu Xiao was absent-minded for a moment - the back of a piece of paper full of color is still clean, but it won't be clean for long, because the color will seep into that side soon.Could it be possible to conjure another piece of clean paper?It must not be him.

At this time the doorbell rang, and Lu Xiao trembled like an electric shock.He put Su Wei's notebook back on the shelf as it was, and walked out of the study to open the door.

Su Wei who came in smelled of alcohol.

Lu Xiao supported him, frowning slightly: "Did you drink a lot?"

Su Wei stared at him dazedly for a while, then walked towards the back room without saying a word.

Lu Xiao poured him a cup of hot water, but Su Wei pushed his hand away: "I want to drink milk."

Lu Xiao came to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, and found that there was indeed milk in it, so he bought a cup for Su Wei.Su Wei still didn't answer, his eyes were blurred, and the mole at the corner of his eyes made him look a bit pitiful: "I want a hot drink."

Lu Xiao frowned at him for a while, then walked back to the kitchen and put the milk in the microwave to heat it up.

While he was standing in front of the microwave and waiting, Su Wei came up behind him, wrapped his arms around his waist, and buried his face in his neck: "Rhubarb..."

When Da Huang was around, Su Wei disliked that the name Da Huang looked like a dog, and often called him Lu Xiao.But Rhubarb really turned into Lu Xiao, but Su Wei never called him by his name again.

Lu Xiao said coldly, "I'm not him."

Su Wei sighed, and the faint smell of alcohol touched Lu Xiao's face, making him frown even tighter.

"Can you let him out for a few days?" Su Wei begged in a low voice.

Lu Xiao was silent for a while before opening his mouth: "You're drunk."

Su Wei chuckled twice, and sighed, "Yeah... I'm drunk."

A drunk person would often not admit that he was drunk, but Su Wei admitted it easily.Whether he was drunk or not, he didn't know.

"Ding." The microwave oven rang, and the orange light went out.

Lu Xiao wanted to step forward to open the microwave to take out the milk, but Su Wei put his arms around his waist to keep him from moving.

Lu Xiao was very calm: "Don't you want to drink milk?"

Su Wei muffled: "I want you."

Lu Xiao was not surprised, and quickly accepted his proposal: "Then take it."

Su Wei looked at him in confusion.

Lu Xiao took out the heated milk and handed it to him, watched him finish drinking the milk, and then asked, "What do I need to do? Take a bath first?"

Su Wei still looked at him blankly, as if someone else had just sent out the invitation.After a while, just when Lu Xiao thought he was going to regret it, he nodded very slowly: "Then let's wash together."

But in the bathroom, when Su Wei just unbuttoned the first button of his shirt, Lu Xiao pressed his hand: "You go out first——I can't get used to it yet."

Su Wei looked as if he had almost sobered up, except that his cheeks were a little rosier than usual, there seemed to be no difference.He reached out to touch Lu Xiao's face, then stroked his hair, finally kissed his forehead lightly, and as expected withdrew.

When Lu Xiao came out of the bathroom after dawdling for an hour, Su Wei had already fallen asleep on the sofa in a shirt and trousers—he slept so deeply that Lu Xiao even moved him to the bed and changed his clothes. Neither woke up.

Lu Xiao also took off his shoes and lay down on the bed, leaning into Su Wei's chest.

Su Wei's body was a bit thin, and his hands and feet were cold.Lu Xiao held his hand, but couldn't figure out how this cold person could warm his other self?

——I'm afraid he wouldn't know that it was the fiery rhubarb that warmed Su Wei.

It was already midnight when Su Wei woke up. He had a severe headache because of being drunk, and it took him a long time to figure out the environment he was in with his eyes open.Lu Xiao leaned in his arms, clenched his fists and curled up in front of his chest, in a defensive posture.

Su Wei gently opened his fist. Lu Xiaokong grabbed it twice, but he didn't catch anything. He wanted to close his fist again. Su Wei hurriedly stuffed his fingers into his palm.Lu Xiao grabbed Su Wei's fingers, and his muscles gradually relaxed.

Su Wei hugged him and fell asleep again.

Early the next morning, Su Wei was making breakfast in the kitchen when Lu Xiao walked in.

Su Wei handed him a cup of freshly made four-color soybean milk.This is what Rhubarb taught him. Beat red beans, black beans, white beans, and soybeans together, add some honey, and the aroma can be so strong that it spreads throughout the floor.

When Lu Xiao took the soy milk, he was obviously stunned: "How do you know how to do this?" After a pause, he asked himself and answered: "He taught you..." After two seconds, he shook his head and said to himself Yu said: "He actually remembered this."

Su Wei observed his expression, and was thinking about whether Lu Xiao would answer if he continued to ask, or coldly throw out a hurtful "what does it have to do with you", but Lu Xiao took the initiative to say: "This is my dad It used to be made for me to drink."

"Your father," Su Wei nodded thoughtfully, "can you tell me about him? I've never heard you mention it."

Lu Xiao hesitated for a moment, then shook his head slowly: "There's nothing to say." As if to worry about Su Wei's emotions, he added without emotion: "He died early, I forgot."

If they really forgot, why both Lu Xiao and Rhubarb remembered this cup of soy milk?However, Su Wei didn't ask further, because he knew that if Lu Xiao didn't want to say anything, he wouldn't say anything.He asked, "What did you want to say to me when you came into the kitchen?"

Lu Xiao said, "I want to see that woman?"

"That woman?" Su Wei was at a loss.

Lu Xiao lowered his eyes: "Where is she buried? I want to visit her grave."

On the way to the cemetery in the suburbs, Lu Xiao's face was gloomy and ugly: "Who buried her in that cemetery?"

Su Wei was obviously taken aback: "She doesn't have any relatives, it seems that her former classmates chose her for her, because your father is also buried there."

After a while, Da Huang gritted his teeth and squeezed out a few words: "My mother is also buried there."

Su Wei could hear the obvious hatred from his tone.Before that, Lu Xiao had very little expression, and his tone of voice was lifeless, completely unable to make people figure out his thoughts.Su Wei knew that Lu Xiao thought that Lu Xiang was the third party who broke up his parents, so he was angry because she was still so close to his biological parents after she died.

However, Su Wei doubted that Lu Xiang was a third party.Because Lu Xiao was only five years old when his biological mother died, how could he be so clear about what happened at that time?It must have been known from others.And Lu Xiao's father obviously shouldn't slander his new wife in front of his son - then, Lu Xiao must have been provoked by someone.But from the mouths of Ren Xiaoqian and Lu Xiao's former neighbors, it is known that Lu Xiang must have abused Lu Xiao, and even carved the vicious words "heart-savvy ghost" on his tailbone. Could it be that she is really that kind of person? Evil stepmother?Then why did she commit suicide by jumping off a building, and why did she suffer from schizophrenia?

For all of this, Su Wei had someone to suspect, but he had no evidence and no clue.

The car drove to the cemetery.

Su Wei took out a bouquet of lilies from the trunk and handed it to Lu Xiao: "If I had known that your parents were also buried here, I should have prepared two more bouquets."

Lu Xiao said coldly: "One bunch is enough."

He led Su Wei into the cemetery, and came to a tombstone familiarly.

The name of the tomb owner engraved on the tombstone is Lu Mijin.When Su Wei saw the photo of the man with a gentle smile on the tombstone, he couldn't help but look at Lu Xiao again.The father and son look like seven or eight points.

Lu Xiao put the lilies in front of Lu Mijin's tomb, stood silently for about 5 minutes, and then came to his mother's tomb.

His biological mother's tombstone was next to Lu Mijin, and Lu Xiao stood there for another minute, then said, "Let's go."

Su Wei was a little surprised: "Aren't you going to see... Lu Xiang?"

Lu Xiao said coldly: "I don't want to see her anymore, let's go."

Lu Xiao sat in the car indifferently, his eyes were blank, and he didn't even fasten his seat belt.

Su Wei turned sideways to fasten the seat belt for him, and because of this movement, the two of them faced each other and were extremely close.After Su Wei fastened his seat belt, he didn't sit upright immediately. He stared at Lu Xiao deeply, and slowly approached him.When the tip of his nose almost touched the tip of Lu Xiao's nose, Lu Xiao closed his eyes, silently waiting for his upcoming kiss.

However, Su Wei didn't kiss her.

After a while, the car started.

Su Wei controlled the steering wheel with one hand, and held Lu Xiao's hand with the other, and didn't let go until his palms were sweating.

"I used to jump over stairs too," he said.

"Also?" Lu Xiao was a little puzzled.

"It was Rhubarb who helped me recall what was going on in my mind the moment before I jumped. Since you can 'understand your mind', why not analyze it for me, what was Lu Xiang thinking when he jumped off the building?"

"Lu Xiang? Jump off the building?" Lu Xiao frowned.

Su Wei cast the same puzzled eyes at him.

Lu Xiao asked in disbelief: "You mean, she jumped off the building... She jumped to her death?"

Su Wei was more surprised than him: "You don't know?"

After a few seconds, Lu Xiao suddenly let out a "ha", and his whole body slumped on the back of the chair as if someone had taken away his strength: "She jumped off the building? Wasn't she poisoned to death by rat poison?"

Su Wei was silent.

Lu Xiao suddenly laughed at himself, and shook his head while laughing: "She actually... jumped off the building by herself..."