Su Wei

It has been more than ten days since Su Wei saw Lu Xiao again.

This day, Su Wei went to walk around the community where Lu Xiao and his stepmother used to live. This was his routine for half a month. Familiar people.At that moment, Su Wei's heart almost stopped beating.

He rushed in, and put his hands on Lu Xiao's back almost tremblingly, cautiously, as if he was afraid that the person in front of him would disappear if touched: "Rhubarb..."

Lu Xiao turned his head.

When Su Wei saw his face, the big stone in his heart fell to the ground—it was indeed Lu Xiao; when Su Wei met his eyes, his heart hung again—this is not his rhubarb!

Lu Xiao frowned slightly, glanced at him quickly, then quickly turned his eyes away, looked over his shoulder to nothingness: "Who are you?"——His voice was as cold as ice.

Su Wei's figure shook for a moment: "...Lu Xiao."

Lu Xiao narrowed his eyes, as if he was thinking, and after a while he snorted lightly: "You are his friend."

Su Wei looked at him in shock, and didn't know what to say.

Lu Xiao's gaze was always looking over his shoulder, because he didn't meet the eyes of the talker, so his attitude was even more indifferent and contemptuous.

"You know who I am."—in a statement rather than a question.

Su Wei nodded very slowly: "Why don't you look into my eyes?"

Lu Xiao replied calmly, "I don't like it."

Su Wei's heart was beating irregularly in his chest, and there were mixed feelings in his heart, including the joy of regaining what was lost, the sadness of changing things, some expected, and some unexpected.He took a deep breath and said slowly, "These days... where do you live?"

When Lu Xiao disappeared for 48 hours, Su Wei called the police. In the past few days, he went to all the places where Lu Xiao might go.Needless to say the hard work involved, just look at the meat that Rhubarb managed to raise for him a while ago and lost all the weight.

Lu Xiao looked indifferent: "My house was sealed off by the police, I just found a place to sleep."

Su Wei stared at his familiar yet unfamiliar face, and the fingers hanging by his side couldn't help trembling: "You...know your illness?"

Lu Xiao stuffed his hands into his pockets: "You know it."

"Then you..." Su Wei's heart beat so fast that even his voice trembled, "Remember..."

Lu Xiao quickly glanced at Su Wei's face, and then turned his eyes away: "I don't remember, but I know who you are."

Su Wei was slightly taken aback.

Lu Xiao had no expression from the beginning to the end, and his tone was also indifferent, as if he was narrating a trivial matter that had nothing to do with him: "When I saw you, my heart beat very fast, he..." Lu Xiao remembered that just now Su Wei called himself Dahuang , "Rhubarb hypnotized myself to send the 'love you' message into my subconscious mind—this worked for me too."

Su Wei was almost dumbfounded, first because of what he said, and second because of his indifferent tone when he spoke.

Lu Xiao asked calmly: "I've been looking for him for a long time? You found me now, but I'm not him. What are you going to do?"

Su Wei frowned several times, and finally said: "You have schizophrenia, I am a psychiatrist, I..."

A surprised expression flashed across Lu Xiao's face, and he quickly glanced at Su Wei: "Psychiatrist? Are you in love with your patient?"

Su Wei was dumbfounded.After a long time, he finally recovered his language function: "I will take you back and treat you."

Lu Xiao was unexpectedly straightforward: "I'll go with you."

The two got into Su Wei's car, and Su Wei couldn't help but look sideways at Lu Xiao while driving.

"It's been you these days?"

"Yes."

"How can you be sure?"

"My memory has not been lost for hundreds of hours."

"...Where have you been?"

"Nothing to do with you."

The car drove into Su Wei's community, Su Wei rolled down the window, and the security guard at the gate saw the owner of the car and greeted him.Su Wei nodded to him politely, and from the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Lu Xiao frowning, keeping his eyes fixed from beginning to end.

Coming out of the parking garage, when going upstairs, another neighbor said hello to Su Wei, Lu Xiao's eyebrows were tightened, he always turned a blind eye to those people, and passed them by impolitely.

After entering Su Wei's house, Lu Xiao sat on the sofa, unconsciously exuding a sense of relief.

Su Wei followed him all the time, and sat down not far from him: "Do you like this place?"

Lu Xiao lowered his eyes, and his long eyelashes completely suppressed the light in his eyes: "This place is very good, there is no one else."

Su Wei said, "You are afraid of others, but not of me."

Lu Xiao was very calm about this: "My subconscious mind told me," he finally met Su Wei's eyes again, and took a few seconds to look away, "You won't hate me."

Su Wei asked, "Why are you afraid?"

Lu Xiao said indifferently: "It has nothing to do with you."

Su Wei couldn't help frowning: "If you don't open your heart to me, it will be difficult for me to treat you."

Da Huang said coldly: "When did I say I want you to heal me?"

Su Wei was startled: "If you don't want to be cured, why did you come back with me?"

Lu Xiao said: "I have no other place to go. Besides, I'm curious why he likes you."

It is a wonderful thing to hear a patient with a split personality use "he" to describe his other self.And for Su Wei, this is a lover who was sleeping in the same bed not long ago, but turned into a stranger in the blink of an eye.

Su Wei was suddenly a little angry: "You long to be cured, Lu Xiao. You will split into a new personality, forget everything and start over, which shows that you hate yourself now. So when you know that I am a psychiatrist , will come back with me."

Lu Xiao couldn't help but sneered: "According to what you say, I will change back, doesn't it mean that there is no need for him to exist anymore?"

Su Wei frowned sharply.

Su Wei got up, poured a cup of tea for Lu Xiao, and when he sat down again, his mood had been adjusted very well."I hope I can cure you," he said.

Lu Xiao said indifferently: "Please go ahead."

Su Wei took a deep breath and asked, "Have you studied psychology?"

Lu Xiao frowned again, and replied calmly after a while: "No."

Su Wei observed his expression carefully, and said after a while: "Let's do a free association psychological test. When I say a word, please say another word without thinking in the shortest possible time."

Lu Xiao said, "Yes."

Su Wei took a deep look at him: "Milk?"

"Sleep."

"red?"

"Blood."

"Flowers?"

"withered."

"chrysanthemum?"

"winter."

"Bai Jianyun?"

"..." Lu Xiao didn't answer immediately, but blinked very slowly: "Secret."

Su Wei sighed: "Lu Xiao, you have violated the rules of the game. You can't give yourself any time to think, just say what is your first reaction."

Lu Xiao looked indifferent.

Su Wei took a deep breath: "Okay, let's do it again. Sunset?"

"dusk."

"..."

After several questions and answers, Su Wei saw that the time was ripe, and Lu Xiao did not think about it when answering the question, so he said, "Tattoo."

Lu Xiao shut up again.This time, he didn't even intend to add another answer.

Su Wei couldn't help shaking his head: Lu Xiao was too defensive, just like when he first tested Rhubarb's subconscious, there seemed to be an unbreakable wall in his heart.Moreover, there seems to be a policeman patrolling in his subconscious mind, and when it feels threatened, he will immediately close the door - Su Wei can be sure that in the test, it was Lu Xiao's subconscious mind that made him shut up, not him Willingly not cooperate with the answer.

He tried it for the last time, and finally when he asked about rat poison, Lu Xiao couldn't help but didn't say the words of the first reaction, but bent the corner of his mouth: "So you didn't believe him all the time."

Su Wei looked at him for a long time before shaking his head: "I believe him, but I don't believe you."

Lu Xiao looked up at him, with a calm expression: "I am him, and he is me. You understand very well."

Su Wei stopped talking.

After a while, seeing that meal time was approaching, Su Wei asked, "Can you cook?"

Lu Xiao narrowed his eyes slightly: "No."

So Su Wei stood up and walked to the kitchen by himself.

When eating, Su Wei took the initiative to put a chopstick dish in the rhubarb bowl, looked at his frown slightly, and said unhurriedly: "You don't dare to look people in the eye, you don't like going to school, you don't have friends, barely interacting with anyone...you have a serious social phobia, don't you?"

As if Lu Xiao didn't hear it, he took a piece of green vegetable and put it into his mouth slowly.

Su Wei didn't care, and continued on his own: "Social phobia is also called anthropophobia, but I'm afraid this name is not reasonable-anyone who suffers from social phobia, what he fears is not others, but Himself. He didn't dare to meet other people's eyes, because he was afraid of the self printed from there. Lu Xiao, what did you do to feel so inferior? "

Lu Xiao smiled meaninglessly: "Oh."

Su Wei waited for a while, seeing that he didn't seem to want to say anything else, he couldn't help leaning back on the back of the chair a little discouraged.

"I hate you like this." He frowned and said with some resentment.

Lu Xiao hooked the corners of his lips coldly, and met Su Wei's eyes again: "You want to annihilate my existence because of that idiot. This is not what a psychiatrist should do." Pausing for a moment, the corner of his mouth The smile is even worse, but the eyes are always cold: "You said that that idiot doesn't understand anything, is it very interesting? I think, there is only you in his world, and he lives only for you... You feel very sad. proud?"

Su Wei couldn't help but gasped.He suddenly felt that Lu Xiao's smile at the moment looked like a devil.

Lu Xiao withdrew his gaze again, his aggressive look faded away, and instead he looked a little disappointed.

At night, Lu Xiao slept in the guest room.

In the past, when Da Huang slept in the guest room, he was always dissatisfied, and would often sneak into Su Wei's bedroom late at night.This time, after late at night, Su Wei took the initiative to walk into the guest room.

Lu Xiao was already asleep, with his hands clasped in front of his chest, his brows slightly frowned, in a defensive gesture.

Su Wei stretched out his hand and gently brushed his forehead hair up.

He sighed: "It was you who saved me before, but this time, it's my turn to save you. Rhubarb."