Su Wei

Rhubarb didn't come back all day and night, Su Wei was absent-minded all day, but work still needs to be done, and problems must always be solved.

After seeing off the visitors of the day, Su Wei came to the study room, rubbed his temples tiredly, and took a notebook from the bookshelf.

He was thinking about all kinds of rhubarb, and wrote the word "murderer" in his notebook, and put a question mark behind it.Afterwards, he wrote down a few more words: Run away?Accident?Restore memory?

There were no signs of fighting or other abnormalities in Su Wei's house, and it was certain that Rhubarb left by himself.Su Wei also went out and visited around to make sure that there were no accidents such as traffic accidents around.

Before Rhubarb left, he read his psychology-related books. Su Wei spread out the "Autobiography of Jung" that he circled, and found out the relevant sentences circled by Rhubarb: "'Women' in my mind is An inherent sense of unreliability. And 'father' connotes reliability and -- no entitlement."

Su Wei read this sentence over and over again.Jung was a Swedish psychiatrist, and this autobiography is his psychological journey of self-analysis throughout his life.There is nothing unusual or thought-provoking about the sentence that Rhubarb drew. The most intuitive explanation is that this sentence may have resonated with Rhubarb.

Su Wei murmured to himself: "Could it be that he was stimulated by something and remembered the past?"

Thinking of this, he dug out the growth record of Rhubarb left by Yang Shaojun and began to look through it.

Ten minutes later, Su Wei changed his shirt and prepared to go out.When he passed the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room, he felt as if someone was watching him from outside the window.He turned his head and looked over, the windows and curtains on the opposite side were tightly closed, and the floor where his house was located was the tenth floor, presumably no one would climb up.

"It's an illusion." Su Wei shook his head and went out with his bag.

He drove to Rhubarb's past residence, asked his neighbors about Rhubarb's past information, and tried to take this opportunity to find Rhubarb's whereabouts.

It was an old-fashioned residential area, the houses were dilapidated, the corridors were dark and cold, and six out of ten voice-activated lights were broken.Obviously, the conditions of the residents living here are not very good.

Su Wei rang the doorbell of Dahuang's neighbor, but he found that the doorbell was broken and could not make any sound, so he had to shake the old iron door instead.

"Are you a policeman?" After he explained his reason for coming, Dahuang's former neighbor, a middle-aged woman, looked at him distrustfully through the iron gate, and complained dissatisfiedly: "You have been here many times these days. !"

Su Wei took out his business card politely: "I'm not a policeman. I'm Da...Lu Xiao's psychiatrist."

The middle-aged woman obviously doesn't like dealing with the police. After learning that Su Wei is a psychiatrist, her attitude eased a lot, but she still didn't open the iron door to let him in: "Hurry up if you want to ask anything, I have to cook .”

Su Wei looked at her calmly, but unexpectedly didn't ask a question about rhubarb: "Excuse me—why is your doorbell broken?"

The middle-aged woman was stunned for a moment, and suddenly became very angry. She blushed and shouted: "Ask that little red guy! All the doorbells on this floor are broken!"

Su Wei frowned slightly, and asked patiently: "Auntie, did Lu Xiao break your doorbell?"

The middle-aged woman also knew that Su Wei was angered by innocence, so she calmed down a little: "No, we dismantled it ourselves. Lu Xiao's stepmother," her index finger twirled near her temple, "There is something wrong with her brain. When the doorbell rings, you will go crazy, beat people, throw things, swear at the street, and make a day of the world!"

Su Wei asked again: "Do you know why she did this?"

"Ouch!" The middle-aged woman complained with a heartbroken look, no longer using Mandarin, but fluent Shanghai dialect: "That woman and her son are crazy! This is the first time I saw that woman walking in the corridor Xiao, Lu Xiao still smiled at us, saying that the woman had killed someone, and when the body was dismembered, someone was ringing the doorbell outside, and the woman was stimulated, so when she heard the doorbell, she went crazy!"

The middle-aged woman opened the chatter box, and the complaints accumulated for a long time finally found a flood outlet. She opened the iron door and pulled Su Wei into the house, talking endlessly about Rhubarb and his stepmother.

Su Wei asked, "What kind of person is Lu Xiao usually?"

The middle-aged woman sighed: "Actually, this child is also full of hardships. His mother died when he was very young, and his father found a stepmother for him. Within two years, his father also died, and his stepmother still abused him. It made his nerves not normal. I saw his stepmother beat him many times, sometimes without closing the door, everyone could see it. His stepmother hit him with a washbasin and a cup, he learned guitar, he The stepmother also hit him on the head with a guitar, and the guitar was broken. Alas... Lu Xiao usually ignores people. He has never seen any classmates come to play with him, and he doesn't talk to us very much. Only his stepmother is crazy. He'd run out laughing and be scared to death."

Su Wei thought about it.

After coming out of Dahuang's neighbor's house, Su Wei quickly took out his notebook, and jotted down some sentences messily: parents died early, abused by stepmother, hatred?Angry, depressed, withdrawn.

He noticed that the middle-aged woman used words like "little red guy" when referring to rhubarb, and wrote: poor interpersonal relationship.

After that, Su Wei went to the high school where Da Huang used to attend.Rhubarb has just finished the college entrance examination, but he did not report after he was admitted to a university, which is equivalent to giving up his student status.So to investigate his usual behavior, we can only start from middle school.

The teachers in the school commented on Rhubarb without exception as "problem boy", "gloomy", "rebellious" and so on, and some teachers said that he often came to school with injuries.

The Lu Xiao described by these people is completely different from the naive, cheerful, even ruthless young Rhubarb that Su Wei gets along with these days.Su Wei also completely dispelled the guess that Rhubarb was faking amnesia.

He took out his notebook again, wrote down the four characters of split personality, and put a question mark behind it.

On the way back, Su Wei received a call from Yang Shaojun.

When Yang Shaojun asked about Rhubarb's situation, Su Wei subconsciously chose to conceal it.

"As before, there is no progress."

Yang Shaojun asked him to have dinner with him at night, Su Wei said coldly, "I didn't know the captain of the criminal police team was so free" and hung up the phone.

When Su Wei returned home after finishing everything, he unexpectedly found a curled up teenager squatting in front of the house—it was Rhubarb who had been missing all day!

Seeing Su Wei, Rhubarb happily went up to grab the corner of his clothes: "Doctor, you are finally back!" Then he said with a bitter face: "Doctor, can you give me a key? I have been waiting for you When I was young, I was hungry and cold..." He said while pretending to sniff his nose.

Su Wei helped him up with complicated eyes: "Where did you go?"

Rhubarb was stunned, and his expression became a little confused: "Where did I go? The doctor went out in the morning, I took a nap at noon, and then...then I went out for a walk? I don't know, I probably slept in the park." I fell asleep, and when I woke up, I walked back..."

The more he spoke, the more confused he became: "No, I don't remember when I went out... I don't have any memory at all. It was still noon when I came back. How did the time pass?"

Su Wei looked at him deeply: "It was Sunday when you went out, and today is Monday."

Under Su Wei's gaze, Da Huang gradually turned into a sad face: "Doctor, there must be something wrong, I seem to have lost my memory again."

Su Wei finally led Rhubarb into the door.

He took the rhubarb and threw it into the bathroom: "You are dirty, take a bath."

Rhubarb stared at him blankly, and found that he didn't intend to go out, and his cheeks could not help but blush: "Doctor, doctor, do you want to wash with me?"

Su Wei said coldly: "Take off your clothes, I want to watch you wash."

With a blushing face, Da Huang slowly took off his clothes, and while taking them off, he muttered, "Doctor, will this, this be too fast?"

Su Wei waited for him to finish taking off his clothes without saying a word, then suddenly pulled him over and pressed him face down on the sink.

Rhubarb's upper body touched the cold tiles, and he shivered suddenly due to the stimulation. His buttocks that were forced to pout shyly twisted slightly, and his legs were clamped tightly: "Doctor, doctor, doctor..."

Rhubarb is very thin, with slender legs and no fat on his waist.His skin is very fair, and it looks like he has not been exposed to sunlight for many years, which also makes the dark red wound on his body that has healed very eye-catching.

Su Wei's gaze followed his spine all the way down, and as expected, he found many small wounds, even traces of burns from cigarette butts.There was a strange scar on his tailbone, as if something had been carved in it and scraped off.

Su Wei couldn't help reaching out to touch the scar, Da Huang suddenly trembled sensitively, and without knowing where the strength came from, he suddenly pushed Su Wei away, quickly shrank into the corner of the wall and curled himself up into a ball.

Su Wei stared at him stunned.

After a while, Da Huang came to his senses and struggled to get up, with a tangled expression on his face: "Doctor... I don't know what's wrong, my body doesn't seem to be controlled by the brain..."

Su Wei shook his head: "This is just your subconscious self-protection. Well, it's okay, you can take a shower."

He backed out of the bathroom, closed the door, and downed a full glass of cold water—his desire reared its head, but he didn't feel guilty about it.He likes men, this is just a normal physiological reaction. "While Rhubarb was taking a bath, Su Wei opened his notebook and scribbled down: Lu Xiao, Rhubarb, forgot what I did in a while...

Finally, he crossed out the question mark behind the four words "split personality" and circled the four words.

After Rhubarb came out of the shower, he saw Su Wei sitting in the living room, stepped forward and knelt down in front of him, resting his chin on his lap pitifully.He seems to like to act like a spoiled child to Su Wei, even though Su Wei would say with disgust that he really treats himself like a dog.

"Doctor, I'm scared."

Su Wei sighed, and reached out to touch his wet short hair: "Don't be afraid, you will be fine. Now tell me, where did you wake up?"

Da Huang said: "It was in the park where I met the doctor last time."

Su Wei frowned thoughtfully: that place must have some symbolic meaning for Rhubarb.

Da Huang went on to say: "When I was taking a shower just now, I kept thinking about it. I seemed to have a dream, but I don't remember what I dreamed about."

Dreams are a very important key in psychoanalysis. Freud believed that almost all subconscious thoughts can be discovered through dreams.

Su Wei didn't force him to think about it, but turned around and went into the study to take a brand new notebook and handed it to him: "From now on, put this notebook by your bedside. The first thing you do when you wake up every morning is Before you forget your dream, write it down."

The author has something to say: Cough, Su Wei is the gong, the black-bellied iceberg is small and weak gong.