Sea King's Self-cultivation

She saw countless light clusters.

Pink and white, warm, like little bunnies, surrounding her tenderly and affectionately.

[Apricot. 】

A slightly immature voice came into her heart.

Xingxing gently reached out and touched those small pink and white light clusters.

【Are you talking to me? 】

The pink-white light group trembled slightly, as if responding to her: [Xingxing, you are leaving this world soon. 】

【leave? 】

[Yes, the time has come. 】The light around the pink-white light group is getting brighter and brighter,【They all hope to hide it from you, and don't want you to know the cause and effect.But I think you have a right to know. 】

[Antecedent...consequence? 】Xing Xing's eyelashes trembled slightly.

[It can also be said to be the beginning of everything. 】

As soon as the words fell, countless pink and white light clusters cruised towards her direction, converged, and finally enveloped her completely.

It was a beautiful little kitten.

There is a pair of apricot-colored eyes, snow-white hair, and looks sick. Sitting in the corner of the cardboard box, the originally small body shrinks into an even smaller ball, trembling slightly due to the cold.

Said to be a pet cat, more like a homeless stray cat.

Xingxing stood by the side of the street, staring blankly at the little cat for a long time.

The owner of the pet shop came out with a bad expression on his face: "If you want to buy, buy it, if you don't buy it, leave. Even if you stand here and watch, I will not give you the cat."

Xingxing was forced to take a step back in embarrassment and almost fell down, but she didn't care so much, and quickly grabbed the boss: "Excuse me... what does the 'emergency sale, outdated processing' written on the cardboard box mean? This cat is so small, why are you in such a hurry to sell it?"

"This cat is sick, and I can no longer let it live with other cats. I want to earn money to support my family, and I am not doing charity. It is impossible to spend too much money on a cat that cannot be cured. Of course it needs to be dealt with as soon as possible.”

"What if it can't be sold today?"

"It's so small, even if you go homeless, you'll still suffer. It's better than euthanasia." The boss looked her over, "Little girl, do you want to buy it? If you want to buy it, I'll give you a cheaper price. I'll give you a [-]% discount and take it away."

Xing Xing's snow-white and childish face showed a trace of embarrassment: "Can, can it be cheaper? I, I don't have any money..."

The boss saw that the girl in front of him was soft-hearted, and was unwilling to watch the kitten die without money, so he insisted on the price and refused to let go: "The purchase price of cats is very expensive! The discount given to you is already the lowest discount. I'm going to die!"

Xingxing bit her lip.

She really doesn't have any money.

She couldn't even support herself, so how could she support a kitten that was still sick.

She shouldn't have bought this kitten...

Xingxing thought blankly.

Obviously knowing that buying it is not a sensible move, but...

However, when she saw the little milk cat was abandoned because of illness, she could only curl up and hide in the corner of the cardboard box, shivering in the wind because of the cold, she could only look at it as if she had been cast a holding spell It cannot move away.

She stood there for two hours, and none of the pedestrians who came and went were willing to stop for a kitten with a very low survival rate.

If she also leaves, this little cat may not survive tonight, will it die?

No one cares, and no one cares.

Just like her.

Coming out of the pet hospital, Xingxing's hands were empty, and the kitten had completely disappeared.

Not only the money to buy it, but also the money to treat it. She invested almost all of her meager savings on it, and the remaining money might not even be enough to stay in a cheap hotel.

It is impossible to afford to raise this kitten. Now she has problems supporting herself, and the kitten can only endure hardships with her.Fortunately, at the pet hospital, I happened to meet a big sister who sent her dog to see a doctor, and was willing to adopt this homeless kitten.

The little milk cat seemed to know that the girl in front of her was kind to it and would not hurt her, so she rubbed Xingxing's fingers in a coquettish manner.Xingxing finally touched its small head lightly, and handed it to the gentle and intellectual woman opposite.The little milk cat seemed unwilling to leave her, and still twisted her body a little uneasy, trying to return to Xingxing's embrace.

She had a moment of reluctance.

After hesitating for less than a second, Xingxing let go of her hand.

After finding a home for the little milk cat, Xing Xing left the pet hospital.She stood at the doorway where people came and went, looking blank.

The world is huge, but suddenly, she didn't know where she should go next.

This year, Qingshui Xing is the age when she wants to survive and has to do her best.

Seriously, Xingxing's birth was actually a mistake.

She was an accidental product of her parents' tasting the forbidden fruit in high school. At that time, they should still have a deep affection, so they insisted on being with each other even if they severed ties with their family members.The mother dropped out of school and chose to get married shortly after giving birth to Xingxing, and the father no longer continued his studies and chose to go out to work to earn money to support the family.

However, the good times didn't last long, and the two young people who were too optimistic about life were quickly beaten by the society.Marriage is not as sweet as imagined, and life is not as easy as imagined. Without education and skills, the salary earned only by labor is too meager to keep up with the speed of spending.After life loses its romantic background and turns into daily necessities in marriage, love also fades away, leaving only resentment and hatred for each other.

In Xingxing's memory, there seems to be no day when Mom and Dad don't quarrel.The accusations and complaints against each other between the two seem to be unclear for days and nights, and they can often be ignited with a single sentence, and apricots are always used as weapons to attack each other.When my mother is hysterical, she will regard Xingxing as the culprit of everything: "If I hadn't given birth to you, I wouldn't have dropped out of school and fell into this situation!" Dad also couldn't bear to show weakness: "If it wasn't for making money to support you, how could I have given up my life? It's been a mess!"

Xingxing accepted this kind of resentful scolding since she was a child. She was ignorant when she was a child. She didn't understand why her parents always yelled at her, and even beat her every now and then.Xingxing was so frightened that she could only shed tears, she could only wring her fingers and sob helplessly, begging her parents not to scold her, she would be very obedient.

Later, when she grew up a bit, when she was four or five years old, she was able to understand the meaning of her parents for the first time. Only then did Xing Xing realize that she was different from her little brothers and sisters who led the family... Was she born? Popular with her parents, she was a hindrance to their happy life, a burden, and they hated her so much that they didn't even want to hide it.

They always had a small quarrel every two days, and a big quarrel every three days. When they quarreled or even fought, Xing Xing was always afraid to stay in their room and listen to her parents attacking each other and her with the most vicious words.But if she was allowed to go back to her small room alone, Xingxing would be even more frightened.Many times, they quarreled late into the night and didn't stop, Xing Xing was afraid to sleep in the bed, she opened her eyes and wept silently, she was afraid that her father would beat her mother, that her parents would leave her behind, and she was even more afraid that they would divorce. Don't want her either... Only when the sound of smashing things and cursing in the room stopped, everything was over.But that doesn't mean they've gone to sleep either—Mom and Dad always slam the door and leave Fangfang after arguing, leaving Xingxing alone in the empty house.

Xingxing has been in poor health since she was a child. She was always prone to colds and fevers. Her mother thought it was troublesome to send her to the hospital, so she bought cold medicine and antipyretics at home.They are often not at home at night, and no one will answer the phone. When Xingxing is burning groggy, she will force herself to get up and go to the living room to pour water and take medicine. Although she is not as tall as the living room table, this set of procedures It is already very proficient in doing it.

Once, Xingxing was burned so weak that she didn't hold her hand firmly when pouring water, breaking the cup and kettle.When my mother came back in the morning and found out about this incident, she was so angry that she slapped Xing Xing. Xing Xing was already having a fever, and with the guilt and fear of breaking the cup and the brutality of being slapped, she fell to the ground.

When she was sent to the hospital, the doctor said that if she was sent later, Xing Xing would not be able to have the IQ of a normal person in the future.Sleeping in a daze, Xingxing seemed to hear her mother's voice of collapse: "Why don't you just burn to death?! It will cost so much money to be hospitalized again... How long are you going to drag me down?"

The nurse who came to deliver the medicine that night found that the child who was tightly wrapped in the quilt seemed to be trembling slightly. When she pulled the quilt away, she found that she had secretly vomited out all the medicine delivered.My mother was furious. If the nurse hadn't stopped her, she might have reached out and slapped her again: "Why do you spit out the medicine?! Do you know that all the medicines you take cost money! Why are you so ignorant? ?!"

Xingxing curled up and brushed away the hair that covered her face, only to realize that she had burst into tears when she was silent. Facing the angry mother, Xingxing knew that she seemed to have done something wrong again, so she just sobbed softly : "But if you take the medicine, the fever will subside... I, I will continue to drag mom down..."

Mom froze.

In the next second, Xingxing was hugged by her, and she could only hear her crying: "I'm sorry Xingxing, I'm sorry..."

After that, although my mother would still quarrel with my father, her attitude towards Xingxing suddenly changed for the better.She would take Xingxing out to play, make breakfast for Xingxing, sleep with Xingxing and tell her the story of Snow White and the Little Mermaid.

Xingxing is very satisfied, she feels that she is already the happiest child in the world.

But many things in life are just like bubbles, they can only be obtained for a moment, and then they will be lost forever.

When Xingxing was five years old, her parents divorced.

Mom packed her luggage, only brought a few clothes, and got in the car that came to pick her up.Dad was drinking in the living room in silence, while mother was packing up without saying a word, Xing Xing stood beside her in a daze, until her mother left the room without saying a word, Xing Xing stumbled after her and threw herself into her mother's arms With a cry: "Mom, don't leave me! Mom, don't leave me..." Mom just pushed her away, and then walked on.

Xingxing threw herself on her again and again, and was pushed away by her mother again and again. No matter how hard she tried, her short legs couldn't keep up with the beautiful woman in high heels, and finally they couldn't even touch the corners of her clothes.The car carrying her mother drove away. Xingxing chased the car for a long distance, but she could only watch the car turn into a small black spot in her vision, and finally fell into the dust blown up by the wind.

"Xingxing, it's only us from now on."

Dad picked Xing Xing up from the ground, it was the first time Xing Xing saw such a fierce father shed tears, Xing Xing cried and wiped his tears with her dirty sleeves, and comforted him softly, "Dad, don't cry..."

After that, Dad barely cheered up from the decadence. He was not bad to Xingxing. Give Xing Xing half of the battered eggs.

Dad is also very good to me.

Xingxing thought.

It's just that this kind of goodness didn't last long. Three months after my mother left, my father brought back a strange woman. He told Xingxing that she was her new mother.

The new mother is very gentle to Xingxing. Although she has no experience in taking care of children, she will learn to take care of Xingxing, but after a while, she has no energy to take care of Xingxing.

The new mother is pregnant.

Nine months later, Xingxing had a younger sister named Shimizu Saki.

Dad was very happy. He hugged her sister fondly since she was born, and his eyes were full of love. Xing Xing had never seen this kind of love in the sight of her father looking at her.The delivery room was full of relatives and friends of the new mother. They hugged her sister, made her laugh, and squeezed her little fist. The whole room was filled with laughter and laughter. Xingxing stood aside, trying to stand on tiptoe to see Sister, but there are too many adults, no one can see her, no one pays attention to her, even what she said is ignored intentionally or unintentionally.

Xingxing grew up slowly under such intentional or unintentional ignorance.

Dad is doing business, and the family's conditions are getting better gradually. It's not that Xing Xing is not given food and clothing, but if he wants other things besides this, Xing Xing is not sensible.It was only gradually that Xingxing realized that she was actually an outsider in this family. As an outsider, her father and "mother" were still willing to let her have a place to live after school. In fact, she was already very good to her, and she couldn't ask for more.

It's just that she doesn't seem to have a home anymore.

At the age of 13, her younger sister fell ill, and Xing Xing suddenly changed from a slender girl to a chubby girl who couldn't lose weight.At that time, she had just entered junior high school, and she was not familiar with the classmates in the class. The adolescent girls were extremely innocent and cruel. The sudden swelling made Xingxing suffer from school violence for three full years, even if one or two were willing to be with her. The person who spoke would also choose to stay away from her for fear of being isolated and bullied, turning a blind eye to Xingxing's situation.

The teacher will only let Xingxing reflect on her own problems - "Why do they only bully you and not others?"

Parents and "mothers" don't care about Xingxing, they are very busy, they have to take care of their younger sister's health, younger sister's studies, younger sister's interest classes, younger sister's basic necessities of life... Xingxing also knows that they are very busy, so no matter how they If you are bullied at school, you won't tell your parents, let alone embarrass them.

The incident came to light in the last year of junior high school. Xingxing finally fainted in physical education class and was sent to the hospital. The doctor found hormone drugs in her body that had side effects of causing obesity.

Xingxing had heard of the name of the medicine, it was the medicine her sister took when she was sick.

She didn't panic when she found out that she drugged her meal: "Who told you to get out by yourself? Qing Shui Xing, if there is no you, there will only be me and mom and dad in the family, and we will be perfect and happy A family. You are an extra in this family, superfluous, shouldn't exist—don't you understand?"

Dad and "Mom" didn't say anything when they found out about this, they just said that their sister was still young and ignorant, and told Xingxing not to argue with her.

Xingxing also has no ability to argue with her.

Xingxing has always been easy to feed, with a little water, a little food, and a place to live, she can grow well. If you can give her a little more love on this basis, Xingxing will be happy and laugh when she sleeps.

But this little bit of love, to Xingxing, is like the stars in the sky, an existence that is out of reach.

At the age of 16, Xingxing lost weight. After entering high school, she got rid of the predicament of school violence in middle school, and her academic performance gradually became better and better.Everything seemed to be going in a good direction, but on an ordinary day this year, Xingxing got a piece of news.

On her younger sister's birthday, her father "Mom" took her to travel abroad, and the cruise ship had an accident, and all three of them died in the sea.

Xingxing was the only one left.

After being sad, life still has to go on.Dad did business before his death, and every link needed funds. After careful calculation, he did not leave any inheritance to Xingxing, but left a large debt.

To make matters worse, he was borrowing usury.

The city of Yokohama is full of various mafia organizations, and the most powerful organization is called the Port Mafia. It would be better if Dad borrowed debt from the Port Mafia—after all, an organization as big as the Port Mafia, With strict discipline, it is impossible to use violence, harassment, intimidation and other means to collect debts against Xingxing just because of a debt that is insignificant to them.

But if it is other small mafia organizations, they will obviously not spare any means to achieve their goals.

After the Mafia went to school several times to find someone, Xingxing had no choice but to drop out of school.She has no place to live, and she has no money. Fortunately, she is still healthy and can endure hardships. She works fourteen hours a day to save money and save money to pay off her debts.

The debt collector in charge of dealing with Xing Xing is a kind-hearted uncle. He did not use violence or harassment methods against Xing Xing like other debt collectors. Instead, he helped her introduce many part-time jobs in coffee shops and convenience stores, and sometimes even Xing Xing There is no way for Xing to pay back the money that should be repaid this month, he will acquiesce in her delaying the payment for a day or two.

After two years of working almost year-round, Xingxing finally paid one-fifth of the debt.Although there is still a long way to go before all replacements are completed, as long as she continues to work hard, Xingxing believes that she will be able to pay back one day.

But fate never seemed to favor her.

Not long after, the kind-hearted debt collector uncle she handed over to died in a gang fight, and the new debt collector was a man in his 30s with a somewhat wretched expression.The experience of being bullied for a long time in junior high made Xingxing feel very low self-esteem. She didn't realize that in the past few years, she had grown into a beauty.

If she grew up under the blessing of her parents, this beauty would be pure, precious and inviolable, but when she loses her shelter from the wind and rain, her beauty is like white cotton candy falling on the ground, still sweet and soft, But it inevitably makes people feel contemptuous.

People passing by all want to taste her beauty, but no one is willing to pick her up and treasure her.

Not long after, the mafia organization sent someone to tell Xingxing that the money she owed was not right, and she only paid back one-twentieth, not one-fifth, and asked her when the rest of the money would be available. pay off.

Every amount of money she paid back was earned by countless hours of hard work. Xing Xing remembered it better than anyone else. Why did she pay back so much less money?

She went to find a new debt collector with doubts, but the other party held her wrist frivolously: "Little sister is so beautiful, why do you have to work so hard? If you are willing... I can also pay you back the money." .”

It was impossible for Xingxing not to understand what he meant, she withdrew her hand in astonishment and refused, and ran away in fear.

But the other party obviously did not give up.

In just a few days, Xingxing was harassed by gangsters in several places where she worked, and they only went there when Xingxing was working, forcing her boss to fire her.Xingxing had no income, and after the rented house expired, the landlord did not dare to rent the house to Xingxing even under the coercion and lure of that person.

Since she dropped out of high school, Xingxing has been displaced in society for two years. She has suffered a lot and suffered a lot, but the money she has saved is really meager—almost all of her savings have been used to pay off her debts.

It was the owner of the coffee shop who fired her in the end. This big sister, who is only five years older than Xing Xing, was the one who persisted the longest among all the shop managers, but in the end she had no choice but to give in after the harasser smashed the glass of the coffee shop. .

Xing Xing wanted to pay for the glass, but the store manager didn't want it. He just deducted the money from Xing Xing's salary for this month. There was more than half a month before the salary was paid, and the store manager gave Xing Xing the remaining salary in advance.

"It's just a little money, don't be so grateful, that's all I can help you with." The store manager gently patted her head, "Xingxing, although life is bitter, life is still long, don't give up."

Xingxing lives in an abyss where no light can shine, it is so dark that she can't see her fingers, there is no light and no warmth, she is alone wandering alone.The care and kindness from others is as fleeting as the thin dew on the green leaves in the morning light, and after disappearing, it is even difficult to find traces.

But it's these little kindnesses and concerns that make her eyes blush in an instant.

Xingxing has always been easy to feed, with a little water, a little food, and a place to live, she can grow well. If you can give her a little more care and kindness on this basis, it will be enough for her to shine in the vast expanse of sunshine. In the abyss that I can't enter, I try my best to persevere.

The salary of the coffee shop is not much, and after deducting the compensation for the glass, there is not much left.

After deducting the money to buy the kitten and the cost of treating the kitten, the rest may be just enough for her to find a cheap hotel for one night.

Xingxing thought.

Holding the few thin sheets of paper left in her pocket, she walked aimlessly on the street with few people.

Outside the lawn on the side is a crystal-clear river. When the sun sets in the west, the afterglow makes the river shimmer, and the leaves swirl and fall.

There used to be a factory built here, and the waste discharged polluted the environment, so the scenery was not very beautiful. After it was abandoned, few people came here again.

Without the pollutants removed by the factories, even the rivers became clearer.

Xingxing didn't know why she came here suddenly, she just felt that standing at the door of the pet hospital all the time didn't seem very good, so she walked in a daze and came here before she knew it.

It's so desolate, there's no one there, so let's go back.

Xingxing thought.

Before leaving, she inadvertently glanced at the shore, and found a figure there.

The young man in a black windbreaker is handsome and delicate, his skin is so fair that it is almost transparent. When his face is expressionless, he will look a little cold, but when he smiles, he will make people feel extremely gentle.

Xingxing was very impressed with him.

He is a guest in the coffee shop, although he only came two or three times, but every time he comes, he can set off a wave of ripples in the hearts of the girls in Huaichun.

The young man in black is called Osamu Dazai, and Xingxing has never spoken to him, and even the name is derived from the conversations of colleagues.

They said that Mr. Dazai is a gentle gentleman, polite, and although there is a sense of distance, he will not make people feel too indifferent. He is different from all other men they have come into contact with. They can never guess what he is thinking, of course More importantly - he really has a face that is very pleasing to women.

Xingxing hadn't seen him a few times, but she always felt that Mr. Dazai seemed unhappy.

He always seemed unhappy.

Even if he smiled, there was no smile in his eyes; even if he was talking softly one second, the next second might disappear in the sunlight.

Fragile.

It is as beautiful and illusory as fragile glass.

He only showed up at the coffee shop three times, and he didn't come in for a long time after that.Sometimes Xing Xing looks at the place where he often sits, and wonders if he is really broken like glass in some unknown corner.

During the break time, the friends who work together will also talk about him.

"Mr. Dazai hasn't been here for a long time."

"Perhaps unemployed?"

"unemployment?"

"Didn't he say before that he was from the Yokohama Seafood Company? Recently, many seafood companies have closed down. Maybe the one Mr. Dazai worked for was not spared."

"Then Mr. Dazai won't come back in the future? What a pity..."

"What's your pity? It's as if you can take him down if he comes a few more times."

"I think so, but for a man as handsome, handsome and extraordinary as Mr. Dazai, there must be no shortage of women to throw himself into his arms. I'm still a little self-aware... But Xingxing can try! Xingxing is so beautiful, maybe he I will like Xingxing!"

Xingxing didn't expect that the topic would suddenly come to her: "Don't make fun of me, why does Mr. Dazai like me? We haven't said a word..."

"I was paying attention. Many times, Mr. Dazai's eyes fell on Xingxing. He has been looking at you!"

Xingxing didn't believe what the little friend said jokingly.

In elementary school, everyone didn’t get the hang of it; in junior high Xing Xing was a little chubby girl, it’s fine if she doesn’t get bullied, and don’t try to get boys’ admiration; although she lost weight in high school, she was bullied before she could enjoy high school life for a few days. Forced to drop out of school.When growing up as a girl, Xingxing never received pure love from boys. After entering the society, there were many people who pursued her, but that was just coveting for her beauty, not real love.

Xingxing once accidentally heard the contemptuous tone of the man who pursued her when talking about her with others: "It's okay to have fun, after all, she is so beautiful, and there is no one in the family to support her, but it is impossible to date on the premise of marriage... ..."

Ordinary men are like this.

What about Dazai?

As they said, would a handsome man like Mr. Dazai lack a woman to throw him into his arms?

Xingxing doesn't believe that he really likes her at all.

Those gazes that fell on her once or twice were probably pure accidents.

……

Just as she was thinking of this, the sound of falling water suddenly sounded not far away. Xing Xing looked over, and there was no one in the place where the young man in black was standing just now.

He jumped into the river?

Mr. Dazai committed suicide by jumping into the river?

But why?

Is it really like what they said, the company went bankrupt, lost their job and couldn't find a new job, so they had to throw themselves into the river?

Xingxing was running around in a hurry, but there was no one around except her, now call the emergency number, wait for the ambulance to arrive, Mr. Dazai must be completely cold!

There was really no other way, Xingxing thought for a while, and her swimming skills seemed to be okay—there was no time to hesitate, she took off her coat, which would get soaked and heavy, and jumped into the river.

The young man in black closed his eyes, and the faint blue water made his face whiter and more transparent, as if it would disappear in a second.Xingxing swam to his side, grabbed his hand and wanted to swim him up, but underestimated the man's weight - no matter how thin he looked, with his height, she was definitely not alone for a weak girl like Xingxing Weight that can be easily towed up.

Xing Xing was already nervous, but when she realized that she couldn't rescue people immediately, she panicked for a moment. That moment of panic caused her to lose control and choked on a big mouthful of water—this is fatal in the water. , More and more water poured into the lungs, and the oxygen floated to the surface of the water in the form of bubbles.

Consciousness was about to blur to the extreme, she felt someone hugging her waist, leading her up and out of the river.

When Xingxing woke up completely, she was already lying on the lawn, causing her to almost drown - at the same time, the young man in black who had saved her was sitting aside quietly looking at the river, water drops falling from the tip of his wet hair He fell down, rolling down his pale cheeks, the light of the setting sun reflected on the river, and the light reflected by the river reflected on his face, making him look extremely peaceful and beautiful.

"Why did you jump down after me?"

When Xingxing was staring at him in a daze, the young man in black turned his head and asked calmly, with a flat tone.

Xing Xing was stunned for a second, she was a little confused by his sudden question, she saw someone falling into the water, and there was no one around to save him, and it happened that she could swim, so diving to save someone in this situation...isn't it normal?

As if seeing through her thoughts, the young man in black smiled softly: "Ah, so you want to save me, so it doesn't matter if you risk your own life for it... It's such a great and tiresome kindness, you don't mind Should I think that if I do this, I will be grateful to you?"

His words were so indifferent that he could even be called inhumane. Using this kind of malicious attitude towards a person who wanted to save him was called ignorance at best, and cold-hearted at worst.Whoever can hold back his anger enough to give him a punch after hearing this can be called a good self-cultivation, and it is quite understandable to scold a few words and then walk away.

But Xingxing is not angry.

She has endured pervasive malice and cold treatment for many years since she was born.

Dazai Osamu's words don't mean anything at all.

She was just thinking that Mr. Dazai seemed to be really unhappy. Although he said hurtful words, she could vaguely sense that it didn't seem to be his intention.His mood seemed to be really bad, the kind that was about to be turned into dust and silently annihilated in the universe.

After thinking about it, Xingxing said: "Mr. Dazai, did you want to commit suicide by throwing yourself into the river because you lost your job?"

The young man in black paused, and the way he looked at her seemed to become a little indescribable in an instant.After a while, he laughed, and said lazily, "Yeah, not only is he unemployed, but he also owes a lot of debts. He even has no money for food. It feels like life is meaningless. It's better to go into the water." He smiled and looked at He looked at her, but there was no smile in his eyes, "What? Ms. Shimizu is planning to explain some life principles to me, can you explain me?"

Xingxing didn't hear the subtle and contemptuous irony in his last sentence, she just shook her head slightly.

Xingxing took his hand, put herself in the coat, and put all the banknotes that were not completely wet on it.

The young man in black was stunned.

The smile at the corner of his mouth froze on his face.

Xingxing raised her eyes and whispered: "Mr. Dazai, I only have this money left, and I will give it all to you. Although it is not of much use, it should be enough for a meal." She thought for a while and continued , "Actually, being unemployed is not a big deal. Don't be too sad. Don't jump into the river again. Suicide is very painful."

The eyes of the young man in black fell on the palm of his hand.

A few banknotes with a small amount have been carefully preserved and well preserved.

This was all she had, all that was left.

And now, she took everything, the only thing left——

It was given to him unconditionally.

Watching her seriously say "suicide is painful" with that childish face, it really makes people laugh.But I don't know why... Looking at those clear eyes, he didn't have any thoughts of laughing or sarcasm.

He couldn't even say a word.

It was like suffering from aphasia. At this moment, apart from looking at her face for a long time, he even...

Can't say a word.

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Shock!Hong Kong gang leader Osamu Dazai pretends to be an unemployed youth to defraud an ignorant girl of money!

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