Taste

At the beginning of the new year 2015, Beijing.

Runyun dragged a small suitcase and walked towards the exit, but kept his eyes on the phone, "Why didn't you answer the phone or reply to the message?" He clicked his tongue lightly, "Forget it, let's talk when we get there."

Run Yun couldn't tell what the relationship between himself and Jian Ning was.Like a couple?It's just that they hugged and kissed a few times, but they couldn't get closer spiritually.Maybe more like a friend who is not as good as a girlfriend, a partner in study.So she came to her this time just to explain everything clearly. If Jian Ning thinks that the relationship between them can continue, she should confess to make this relationship have a sense of ceremony and be together clearly; if she thinks it is not possible, she can only Separated.But Runyun reckons that the latter is more likely.

In the evening, when she came out of the subway station near the school, a gust of cold wind hit her face, which made her very painful.Pulling up his collar, he continued to walk forward against the wind.The mobile phone in his pocket was still silent. Runyun had already picked it up and looked at it four or five times, and now it was too cold to take it out again.

After walking to the hotel near Jian Ning's school, and waiting for another two hours, the news from Jian Ning was long overdue. "Sorry, I was having a dinner just now." A few simple words made Runyun firm in his idea that he was right this time.

"Where are you now?" Runyun sent the address, then sat by the bed and continued to organize things.

Not long after, there was a light knock on the door, and Run Yun got up to lead Jian Ning in.

"Why are you here at this hour?" Jian Ning asked while standing in the room, frowning.

Runyun didn't answer, and hung the last piece of clothing in the closet, "Come and eat something with me first, I'm so hungry."

Jane froze, lowered her voice, "This is the school..."

"Did I say that we do something special? It's just a meal."

"Okay, I'm going back to the dinner party in half an hour, let's eat with you first. Let's go a little further, there are quite a lot of good noodle restaurants at the south gate."

"You guys have dinner near here." Runyun put away his intimate expression.

Jian Ning bit her lip and stopped talking.

Every time it is silent, every time it just bows its head, every time... Runyun suppressed the fire in his heart, his voice was a little hoarse, and he tried to keep his emotions calm and said: "Ask an old question: What do you think of me? ?”

"I just don't think it's necessary to..."

Runyun raised her hand to interrupt her, "I also don't think it's necessary, but your deliberation is so deliberate that I can't understand it."

The room was not quiet, the sound of insects flying, and the sound of hawking downstairs were intertwined with the laughter of young college students.

Runyun never cared about the subtle noises around him, maybe he wanted to hear something from the girl who stood silently opposite and even breathed lightly.

After a long time, there was a response over there, but it was still a few short words, "Sorry, I was too naive before..."

What a short sentence, what a ridiculous apology, what a deep hurt, just ten words completely deny the two from meeting to now.

He let out a long sigh, as if he had let out all the depression in his heart, but the sourness could not be controlled, "Congratulations, it is the first time in my memory that you have rejected someone."

Jian Ning closed the door behind her.The rejection that was two years in arrears hurt the insiders badly, and made the outsiders wallow in guilt for years to come.

Because I didn’t open my mouth, I lived a harder life than the people around me; because I didn’t open my mouth, I became numb and accepted it over and over again; or because I didn’t open my mouth, there was only one way to escape, and the more I walked, the more I couldn’t escape.

People's hearts are narrow, for example, Runyun knows that Jian Ning has no self in her heart, and she can't accept special lovers, but relying on her not knowing how to refuse, she can make progress; people's hearts are also broad, for example, Jian Ning can help everyone around with a soft heart, Again and again, even catch up with myself.

So in the end, one heart hurts and the other can't help myself...

At the beginning of the new year in 2015, S University in S City.

Yanhan felt that the snowfall this year was extraordinarily heavy, and it was also much colder than in recent years.

"Cough, cough cough... cough", a violent cough, as if to cough up all the air that was just inhaled into the lungs, and finally turned into a silent pantomime, only people can be seen shaking violently, but there is no trace of it. silk sound.In the end, the protagonist of the silent pantomime finally couldn't take it anymore, and vomited out the porridge that was barely stuffed into his stomach.

Yanhan fell heavily back on the hospital bed, the weakness of her legs made her trembling from the toilet to the bed; the weight of her eyelids forced her to close her eyes to restrain the pain and swelling.The room was very quiet, only the sound of rapid and intermittent breathing...

Zhong Jing, who was on the phone outside, heard the noise inside, hurriedly explained a few words to the other end, opened the door and walked in.

Patting the back of his darling daughter, his eyes turned red unconsciously, and the hand holding the phone couldn't help tightening, tightening again, wishing to tear someone into pieces.

Yanhan's consciousness gradually emptied in a daze.

The autumn of 2014 is a fruitful season.

Yanhan sang all the way in the experiment, and it was completed half a month earlier than expected.Before she had time to get excited, writing a thesis directly pushed her into a deeper darkness.More than a dozen letters of material English professional words, one after another; barely typing two lines of words on the computer in front of the data all morning is a major breakthrough; in the final stage, the gentle and gentle Professor Li called back one after another, "What about you?" The introduction is too long...the information in this paragraph is not sufficient...it is well written but a diagram is recommended..."

"I know that you have been studying very hard recently, for example, some students' little heads are faltering now..." Yanhan, who was poked by Teacher A's words, barely opened his eyes.

"Okay, the following part is very important, I will definitely pass the exam, and those who are lying on the table also look up..." Yanhan, who was poked by Teacher B's words again, reluctantly raised his head.

"Those students who want to sleep should sleep, I really can't bear to see your teacher..." Yan Han, who was poked by Teacher C's words again, lay down on the table straight, sleeping in the dark.

After another three months of suffering, Yanhan finally finished the thesis.Walking out of the print shop, I carefully carried the baby in my arms, and now the only thing left is where to throw it.Yanhan prayed in his heart, the editor must not ask me to make drastic changes again.

Things seemed to be going smoothly, and Yanhan's thesis was successful with only a few minor wording changes.Happiness lies in the "gentle township" of the dormitory, and the university can taste the glass of wine of student work; cultivate professional learning from a seedling in usual classes to a big tree of independent learning, and it will bloom and bear fruit in advance; there are friends around and help .The undergraduate career really has no regrets, the sensitive and guarded part of Yanhan's heart has long been covered by warmth and happiness.

December of the university is also a busy time, with various course exams coming one after another.I have been fishing for a long time in class, and the end of the semester can be a sprint for the college entrance examination. "Is it her? It seems to be..." The whispers that sometimes appear around you are usually absent in the library. Everyone lowers their heads and struggles with their own lives. Is it important to have a research and postgraduate entrance examination?Yanhan also automatically attributed the voices he heard in the cafeteria to the popularity brought about by his thesis, but it was strange after a long time, would the thesis have such a great influence?It's a pity that the professional and heavy "brick" book really made her unable to concentrate on thinking about irrelevant matters.

However, the development track of things is gradually shifting, and the "soul" in the library is also freed from the shackles of sex. Sometimes the eyes of a person on the opposite side make Yanhan feel frightened, as if it is not envy or joy, but but...

The feeling of being deliberately blocked came to my heart, and the boundless cold made the heating and air conditioning in the library useless.Yanhan ran out of the library as if fleeing, everyone's eyes may or may not have glanced at the woman who ran out of the library with a pale complexion, making her scorching and stinging like being in a sea of ​​flames.However, the most deadly thing in the sea of ​​​​fire is never the flame, but the thick smoke.

Carefully avoiding the eyes of others, Yanhan didn't dare to stay any longer, and went back to the dormitory directly.

Walking to the door, there was a discussion inside, "Have you done your laundry?"

"No, I was looking at the forum."

"You are still watching, that is really too..."

In the dormitory, Mu Qingrou and Zhang Hanze, who was rarely there today, stared in shock at Yan Han, who was pale and breathing unevenly at the door. On the computer screen facing the door diagonally, the main page of the school forum was open.It was too late to close it now.Standing Mu Qingrou reacted the fastest, her expression relaxed, she blocked the screen with her body without any trace, and greeted her, "Why is it so early today, I thought you came back at night, to help you..."

The thing in Yanhan's eyes made her speak more and more, her voice became softer, and she closed her mouth consciously at the end.The two stood stiffly facing each other.What's in those eyes? It's just black pupils and white eyes, but two contradictory feelings: fear and raging anger can be seen clearly at the same time.

There was a dead silence in the bedroom.

Mu Qingrou panicked after being watched, swallowed twice unconsciously, her legs were a little weak, but for some reason, she didn't want Yanhan to see the crazy post on the school forum today.

"Shua", the dormitory door was pulled open again, the poor doorknob finally couldn't bear it this time, and popped the loose screw and smashed it on the tiles, Ding... Dang... Dang Dang, the crisp sound indicates that wind and rain are coming .

Under the healing and self-adjustment of Zhong's mother, the manic emotions in childhood were deeply buried in Yanhan's heart.But anger activates the tyrannical potential.

The person who opened the dormitory door again stood at the door and stared at Yanhan's back. Mu Qingrou was ecstatic when she saw the person coming, it would be easy when Siam came, and the three of them could always hold Yanhan up.But she suddenly felt that Siam Chu's eyes were also very strange, but it was too late to stop her, "Pa", Mu Qingrou's forward steps froze, and she was nailed to a place one step away from Yanhan.Although Zhang Hanze was sitting at the computer desk far away, he heard the crisp applause.