I'm really just an ordinary person

When I arrived at the hotel, I opened a room for Bai Lan with my ID card and sent him to the door of the room. When I was about to leave, Bai Lan grabbed the hem of his clothes.

"Is there anything else you want?" I asked.

"Oh, oh, the patriarch of the Jesso family, isn't he afraid of sleeping alone?" Osamu Dazai said.

Bai Lan said with a smile: "Ah, how do you know?" Then she said to me, "Little Chiyo, can you stay with me?"

I'm a little embarrassed.

"Stop making trouble." I pulled Bai Lan's hand away and said, "It's getting late, go and rest."

Bai Lan puffed her cheeks in dissatisfaction, and said childishly, "Okay then, but Chiyo must give me a goodnight kiss, otherwise I won't be able to sleep."

I sighed, I couldn't do such an intimate gesture to someone I had just met, just when I was about to refuse, Osamu Dazai suddenly spoke.

"A visitor is a guest. Since Mr. Jesso has come to Japan, I, as the host, should treat him well. Since Mr. Jesso can't sleep without a goodnight kiss, let me give Mr. Jesso a goodnight kiss." Saying that, Osamu Dazai stretched out his hands, ready to hold Bai Lan's face and give him a goodnight kiss.

"I'm sorry, it's getting late, so I won't entertain you, good night." Bai Lan said quickly, and then kissed her cheek again, "Good night, Xiao Chiyo." Then she closed the door with a snap.

Prynne VS Dazai Osamu, Dazai Osamu win.

Just when I couldn't help but want to laugh, Osamu Dazai wiped the part where Bai Lan kissed me just now with his sleeve with a gloomy face.

After wiping it vigorously a few times, Osamu Dazai said, "You should wash your face well after you go back."

"Okay, I see." I said.

Osamu Dazai's face looked better now.

I left the hotel with him.

"You seem to hate Bai Lan, why? You haven't met before, right? Is it because he destroyed the world ten years later?" I asked.

"Hmph, what does the destruction of the world have to do with me? I just feel uncomfortable when I see him." Osamu Dazai said.

"Because like repel?" I asked.

"... In your eyes, am I similar to that dead chicken?" Osamu Dazai pointed at himself and asked exaggeratedly.

"In some ways, you two are really alike." I said truthfully.

Osamu Dazai looked shocked.

"By the way, aren't you in Yokohama? Why did you come to Tokyo?" I just remembered this.

"Because of love." Osamu Dazai said affectionately.

"speak English."

"Well, it's actually for Oda Tsukuru's film and television novel." Osamu Dazai explained.

"I see." I nodded, "Where do you live?"

"Chuya has several houses in Tokyo." Osamu Dazai said.

"...Hey, you must have picked the lock of Nakaya's house again, right?" The corners of my mouth twitched.

"Anyway, if the house is empty, it's empty. Why don't you let me live in it? What a waste to just leave it like this." Dazai Zhizhi said bluntly.

"You can't come back abroad because of China, or he will definitely push you to the ground and beat you." I said.

"Who made the little slug so stupid that even that little matter has not been resolved until now." Osamu Dazai put his hands behind his head, "Ah~ah~ After I leave like this, the little slug should be in a hurry for a while."

I didn't answer after hearing this, but thought for a while before asking: "Dazai, have you ever thought about taking Chuya with you and leaving the Port Mafia?"

"Huh? Why did I bring that annoying slug?" Osamu Dazai's eyes widened.

"Because your relationship is very good." I said.

"What's wrong with our relationship? I hate Chuya the most. I hate everything about him!" Osamu Dazai said.

"But the person you trust the most is Chuya." I said, "Dazai, you don't need to lie in front of me. I know exactly how good your relationship with Chuya is, otherwise you wouldn't be leaving again." It was time to blow up Zhongye's car. Although you did it to anger Zhongye, you are also using this method to separate yourself from Zhongye, so as not to let him be implicated by you."

Osamu Dazai pouted, but said nothing.

"Chuya was actually transferred by Mr. Mori on purpose, right? Just to prevent him from helping you." I said.

"Why did you suddenly ask this question?" Osamu Dazai didn't answer me, but asked instead, "It's been so long since you didn't ask before, why are you bringing it up now?"

"Probably because I'm afraid." I said, "Although you should hate this kind of statement, you and Bai Lan are really similar. When I see Bai Lan, I feel like I see another you."

"This kind of talk is really disgusting." Osamu Dazai said dissatisfied.

"I know, I'm sorry," I said, "but really, Dazai, I'm afraid that one day you'll be like Prynne too."

"Xiao Chiyo, are you worried that I will destroy the world too?" Dazai Osamu pointed at himself, his eyes widened, "I wouldn't have such a second-year thought!"

"No, I'm worried about you ruining yourself." I said.

"..." Osamu Dazai put away his previous exaggerated expression, and looked at me expressionlessly.

"Dazai, why are you always pursuing suicide?" I looked at him and asked.

Osamu Dazai was silent for a long time this time, and then he said: "Why do people live?"

"..." I can't answer this question, "Maybe we don't have a choice."

We have no choice in our birth and our growth, and the only choice seems to be death.

"Is there no choice?" Dazai Osamu smiled and said, "That's an interesting way of saying it." After changing the subject, Dazai Osamu asked, "What about Chiyo, what is the reason for Chiyo's life?"

I stroked my chin and thought about it, then said hesitantly, "Maybe it's for the food?"

Osamu Dazai couldn't help laughing out loud: "So Chiyo doesn't know what the meaning of his life is?"

I nodded and said, "I've never thought of such a thing."

"Just like Chiyo doesn't know why he is alive, neither do I, so I pursue death." Osamu Dazai said, "Don't Chiyo think that death is a beautiful thing?"

Osamu Dazai stopped and looked at me, his eyes were shining, and he opened his arms wide, as if he wanted to embrace the world.

He talked to me endlessly about suicide, as if it was the best thing in the world.

"But," I interrupted him, "I want you to live."

"..." Osamu Dazai was taken aback.

I looked into Osamu Dazai's eyes and said seriously: "Dazai, I hope you live."

"Maybe you still can't find a reason to live, maybe you've been tired of this noisy world, but you still have me, Chuya, and Odasaku. We all hope you live, be good alive."