Rebirth of the entertainment tycoon

"Ask whatever you want." He Xi led the two stone sculptures into a snack bar next to the school, and found a place in the back.

"Xixi, you..." Yang Jing held the iced Coke, her expression changed, she couldn't believe that the person in front of her who was more frightening than her teacher was her obedient little cousin.

"How did I become like this?" He Xi tilted her head and asked for her. Seeing that Yang Jing didn't deny it, Yang Qicheng also put away his ruffian appearance and looked serious, so he lowered his arms and shrugged indifferently. Shrugging, "Because this is my true face. The obedient and bullying He Xi before was just an image I created to adapt to the environment."

"You mean, you were lying to us before!" Yang Qicheng's face suddenly darkened.

"Who doesn't have any secrets? Children know how to hide things." He Xi raised her hand to signal the other party not to get excited, "And it can't be called cheating, after all, I didn't realize that my true temperament turned out to be like this not long ago. .”

"What do you mean?" He Xi's explanation made Yang Qicheng frown. What do you mean you only knew your true temperament not long ago?No matter how confused a person is, they don't know what kind of temperament they are!

"How should I put it..." He Xi pressed the center of his eyebrows, "My parents sent me to a local couple in order to go back to the city, you know that?" Seeing the two nodding, He Xi continued, "They... It’s not good for me. Beating and scolding is common, and I hate children talking back and resisting, which will only make the beating worse. In order to avoid beatings, I force myself not to resist, not to argue, and to keep talking Say to yourself, you are very good, very obedient, and doing what all good children should do. Sure enough, the beatings gradually decreased. So I said to myself more frequently, you are the most obedient and obedient , as time passed, I really... became obedient and sensible, a rare good student in the village."

"They treat you badly..." Yang Jing repeated that sentence mutteringly.

"In fact, it was good at the beginning, but after having my own children, it changed. They are very busy, and they have no choice but to be busy. Biyun is a poor country, and if he is not busy, he can't live. I haven't eaten since I can remember. They were full. They planed food in the field day and night, and my younger brother was naturally taken care of by me. I was half-blind. He moved, so I had to let him down. A five- or six-year-old child is curious about everything, and one bumped into him without paying attention. That child is the only seedling of the Lin family. There are bruises on his body, so I blamed me for not taking good care of him, and then I started to beat him. When the child was the most naughty, I would tremble almost whenever I heard the voice of my father and mother."

"You still call them father and mother?" Yang Qicheng said angrily.

"When it hurt the most, I even thought, if I died, would I not be beaten again? But I tried a few times, but I still didn't dare, so I could only continue to be beaten. I couldn't figure it out, people always have to die Yes, what is the purpose of living? Later, a monk came to the house for alms, and I asked him, and he said it was for atonement..." He Xi didn't seem to hear Yang Qicheng's words, but just remembered.

"Nonsense!" Yang Jing blurted out.

"Yes, nonsense, but I didn't understand it at the time. I thought what he said was right, so I didn't dare to resist or escape. I thought that after I redeemed my sins, I wouldn't have to stay there to suffer. "He Xi was in a daze, "then they had an accident, and the child was taken away by my father's people, but I have nothing to do with the Lin family, they don't want to waste food to support me. During that time, I have been relying on the villagers to help me. Said It's helping people, that is, not letting people starve to death. If they are full, that is a dream." Seeing Yang Qicheng and Yang Jing's expressions were heavy, and their eyes were full of water, He Xi secretly smiled inwardly, and continued to work hard, "I think It was a new test for me, and I just had to get through it. But the feeling of stomach acid corroding the stomach wall was terrible and uncomfortable. My stomach screamed day and night, and I didn’t have any strength in my body. At first, I couldn’t sleep. The stomach is too uncomfortable, but if I don’t sleep, I will be hungry faster, and then I dare not sleep, I am afraid that I will not wake up after falling asleep... I hate life, but I am also afraid of death, very contradictory, isn’t it?” the voice gradually Low and weak, almost whispering, "So, when I heard that those children were coming to soak the water, I followed."

"I'm sorry..." Looking at He Xi who had a misty expression in front of him, he imagined that he could only survive on a little food every day, from being unable to sleep to not daring to sleep, he could only press his stomach and open his eyes night after night to wait for dawn.Came to Yunshui after untold hardships, but was turned away by her biological parents, finally found a place to live, and was bullied by herself, Yang Jing could no longer control her tears.

"You didn't apologize to me, why did you apologize?" He Xi inexplicably looked at the two people opposite, "I can only be grateful to you, because I didn't know what it's like to have a full meal and what candy is until I came here." Taste, you can see the flowers, trees, birds, fish and insects, and you don’t have to be blind anymore. I can’t imagine what would happen to me if my grandfather didn’t take me in and my uncle and aunt didn’t acquiesce in my existence...

"I can eat enough food every day, my clothes are not patched, and I can continue to go to school. These days are like a dream. I always thought that I was content, but it turned out that I was much more greedy than I thought." He Xi touched I took a sip of orange juice, pursed the corners of my mouth, and organized my thoughts, "Actually, I almost couldn't wake up when my head was broken. I was in a daze. I knew you were by my side, but I just couldn't wake up. A black hole is getting closer and closer, and the suction is getting stronger and stronger. I don't know why, I just think I can't, and then when I can't hold on anymore, a voice asks me why I don't want to leave."

"I thought about it for a long time and put all the memories in my mind back to one side. I finally understood why I hate life but am afraid of death, because I am not willing!" Qingbai, with intense emotions in his eyes magnified by the lens, "I don't know my past life, let alone see my future life, why should I atone for the illusory past life, and accumulate virtue for the unreachable future life!"

"Xixi..." Yang Qicheng was at a loss for the emotional He Xi.

"That's right, people will always die when they live, but there are many ways to die, why do I have to be a starving ghost, a poor dead ghost?" He Xi paused, restraining her excessively exposed emotions, "I'm not reconciled , I still have so many things I haven’t tried, so many good things I haven’t got, so many good places I haven’t been to, how can I die! If it’s in Biyun, maybe I really have to give up, but here is the water Ah, I obviously have a way to make myself better, why should I die, and how can I die!"

"Looking at my past, the He Xi in it makes me feel embarrassed. I'm obviously not like that. How could I have such a useless temper?" Seeing that the fire was almost over, He Xi finally changed the topic, "Wake up Later, I always wanted to get rid of that kind of personality, but found that many behaviors have become habits, which cannot be corrected in a short while. When it is serious, I even feel that I can’t control my behavior. I am very scared. I didn't know what to do or who to ask, so I went to bookstores and libraries to find answers."

"Then... have you found it?" Yang Qicheng seemed more nervous than him.

"Yeah." He Xi pushed his glasses, with fatigue between his brows, but he looked very relaxed. "The book says that this kind of behavior is actually very common. Many people will perform self-hypnosis and self-suggestion in order to adapt to the environment and stimulate their potential. But my situation is relatively rare—the degree of hypnosis is too deep. If it wasn’t for the outbreak in the coma that triggered the suggested key words, causing the hypnosis to be broken, so that there is a chance to find the real self, then, maybe I will live my whole life in my own lies and never see the light of day." He Xi babbled nonsense, quite satisfied with the shocked and sympathetic (?) expressions of the two.Fortunately, psychology is still a profound knowledge these days, not as bad as the later generations, and everyone can chat a few words, so an expert like him knows that it is nonsense to fool the two children. big.

"Xixi!" Yang Jing felt a pain in her heart after touching He Xi's eyes, and held his hand tightly.

"Now that I've found myself, how can I bear myself turning back to that useless look! Adapt to the environment? Why should I adapt to the environment? I just want the environment to adapt to me!" He Xi's voice was low and soft, but The arrogance and arrogance in it shocked Yang Qicheng and Yang Jing's brothers and sisters severely.

High and high, look at my quick wit, look at my acting skills, it's really reckless not to be a screenwriter or an actor~~~ He Xi looked at the two people who were in deep thought, drinking orange juice comfortably, very proud.The highest state of lying is true and false, false and true, He Xi's past experiences are absolutely true, but the transformation in a coma is completely nonsense, the core has been changed, and it still sheds its hair and shell? ?

"Xixi, you just said that you have a way to make your life better...what can you do?" After a moment of silence, after digesting the message she just received, Yang Jing asked cautiously, "If you can't say it..."

"Selling stories, more precisely, selling dreams." He Xi's expression was a little sad, her thin shoulders trembled slightly - she was disgusted by her own words, "In your terms, it's writing novels to earn royalties .”

"Xixi is writing a novel, what kind?" Yang Qicheng couldn't bear to see He Xi so sad (?), so he immediately took up the conversation.

"Martial arts, science fiction, fairy tales, romance... write everything, and stop writing when you have saved enough money." He Xi lowered his head slightly, sipping the juice in his glass boredly.

"Xixi is amazing." Yang Jing cooperated with admiration, "When will you show sister Jing?"

"I'll buy it for you when I go back later. The manuscript is too scribbled, and it's hard to read." He Xi replied nonchalantly.

"Why do you stop writing when you have saved enough money?" Yang Qicheng endured it, but he still couldn't.

"Because I can't bear it." He Xi tilted his head to look at the door, and the brilliant sunset glow painted a blush on his jade-white face, "Those are all dreams I made up for myself, and they only belong to me, so I can't bear to sell them. My favorite, I can only choose those mediocre ones. But even so, I will feel distressed for a long time every time I sell one. But if I don’t sell it, maybe one day I won’t even have the chance to weave dreams, so as long as I save If I have enough money, I won’t sell any more.”

Well, I have even thought about the rhetoric of Jiang Lang's exhaustion in the future...