Stockholm syndrome

It's almost eleven.My vacation is from October [-]st to October [-]th.But what I told my dad is that I only rest on the [-]rd and [-]th for two days. Unexpectedly, I also fell to the point where I had to deceive my parents to date my boyfriend.Everything I have experienced now, this kind of little happiness with tension, is just like a high school student who secretly fell in love behind his parents' backs, the lost time seems to be making up for it little by little.It seems that I have returned to the busy and aimless life in X.As busy as a grandson, but as happy as an idiot.

Li Weiran and I went out to play basketball. He hadn't played basketball for a long time. His shooting accuracy was a lot worse, but the foundation was there. I just took two steps when I patted the ball and was intercepted by him.After playing for an hour or so, I hardly had a chance to touch the ball.Li Weiran was still the same as before, with his hips crossed and looking at me lying on the ground exhausted, with a disgusted look on his face.I am not good at what he plays, but he always likes to be with me, probably looking for that kind of satisfaction and superiority.But I really don't think it's so gratifying to be better than someone like me who is about the same as a nine-level disability in most sports.But Li Weiran is just happy. Every time he makes a goal, he will laugh for a long time. When I see his silly smiling face, I want to rub the ashes on his white sports T.

The military parade for the 60th anniversary of the founding of the People's Republic of China is such a grand event, and I am very happy from the bottom of my heart.I waited anxiously in front of the TV, and was a little excited when I saw the chairman appear. On a certain level, I am really a qualified party member.Li Weiran sneered at my pious appearance, but he still watched it with me.He told me that his grandfather would also appear, the old man who was carried by me so that he could continue to enjoy his old age.For Li Weiran, it is not unusual for his family members to be on TV, but maybe he was infected by my excitement, and he also became excited when the camera was placed on ***.We watched for a long time in front of the TV, and finally saw a shot from the camera, an old man in a wheelchair and wearing a military uniform.Li Weiran jumped up excitedly, pointed at the figure on the TV and shouted loudly, Ah Shen, look, my grandpa.The camera flashed by, but I can confirm that the flowers on his grandfather's shoulders are bigger than his father's, and there are a lot of badges pinned on his chest.I admire them very much for their life as a soldier for the country.When I was young, I also thought about serving the motherland as a soldier, but this idea gradually disappeared in the tragic situation where I fought with the neighbor's children and lost repeatedly.Speaking of it, I have lived for so many years, but I really have no ideals. When I was young, my father said that it would be good to be a doctor, so I obediently went to learn medicine.I have to admit, as a man, I'm a failure.

"Your grandpa is amazing. I feel proud that I can carry him." I sat on the sofa next to Li Weiran, took a sip of Fanta, and took it out of the refrigerator. The side of the cup was wet with water. .

"That is, he is the most powerful in our family."

"If I were born in troubled times, I would also take up arms, defend the land and open up borders, serve the country and the people, and serve as a soldier all my life."

"Oh, I really didn't realize that you are still so upright. It's just your guts."

"Get out, I'm not merciless when I use a knife to scratch someone's belly."

"You're not a neurosurgeon, but you still cut your belly. Do you have this chance?" Li Weiran stretched out his hand to hook my neck and pressed it against his chest, and the two of us sank into the sofa together.

"You also know about neurosurgery, I really underestimated you. When you were in high school, you couldn't even tell the difference between nerves and neurons." Just as I was about to reach out and pinch Li Weiran's waist, his cell phone rang. The ordinary ringtone, not fancy at all, he has been using this ringtone for so many years.In fact, Li Weiran is quite contradictory. He seems to be able to play and toss better than anyone else, but he is conservative in one aspect like an old man.

"Hello..." Li Weiran answered, I am very interested in his privacy, but I will definitely not lean on his chest like a girl to listen to what is said on the phone.Firstly, such an action is too embarrassing.Secondly, since I'm such a big person, it's not so easy for me to shrink into a small ball and lie on his chest. "When?...Okay, let's all go."

Li Weiran hung up the phone after saying this, he turned his head and looked at me.He seemed to be talking about us just now. Could this include me? Where are we going?Are you still hanging out with Li Suran?Although these years, Li Suran is much more stable than when she was young, but I have a serious psychological shadow on her, and I was almost drowned in the swimming pool by her back then.If Li Suran had the ability to foresee and knew that one day I would come to this point with his brother, would he have drowned me in the first place?If it was my brother, maybe I would do it.

"Ah Shen." Li Weiran leaned over and put his arms around my shoulders. "Tomorrow night, there will be a class reunion, let's go together."

"Your classmate, or my classmate?" I was a little relieved that it wasn't Li Suran.

"Isn't this nonsense, isn't your classmate my classmate?" Li Weiran pushed me on the head, "You haven't been to a classmate reunion, have you? I heard they said that you didn't attend a class reunion, and suddenly changed phone number and address."

"Well, I haven't been there, and I don't have any close friends. I'm a fickle person, and I don't miss the past." I nodded, showing a guilty expression to Li Weiran.

"Then you don't miss me?"

"I want to. How can I not want to." I lowered my head and rubbed my fingers.They are both men, so it's really embarrassing to say love words to each other so bluntly. "But you are abroad, you don't know the people I know, and I don't know the ones you know, so what if I get in touch with those people. I still can't find you."

"Give me the phone." Li Weiran stretched out his hand to me, and he snatched the phone away just as I took it out. "I'll save the phone numbers of the people I'm close to. If you can't find them someday, call them directly."

"Then I'll also tell you Hu Yidao's phone number." As I spoke, I reached out and fumbled on Li Weiran's pants.He immediately ducked aside.

"I don't have my phone here, and besides, I have Hu Yidao's phone."

"Do you have his phone number?" I didn't remember that Li Weiran asked Hu Yidao for the phone number.

"Look at you, what a big deal." Li Weiran glanced at me with disdain.After so many years, his arrogance still hasn't changed. "I not only have Hu Yidao's phone number, I also have the phone number of your department director, and your father's phone number."

"No, you..." Unexpectedly, Li Weiran had so much information in his hands, and I was a little panicked.

"How about I save my parents' and my sister's contact information for you?" Li Weiran came over and squeezed me into a corner of the sofa, squinting at me.

"Go ahead, don't keep it. I'm guilty." I'm really guilty. I'm 25 this year, and I'm almost 26, not 17, 8. But when it comes to parents, I still feel inexplicably terrified. I'm really guilty.Not to mention what will happen if Li Weiran's parents know about our affairs.If my dad knew, would he put me in formalin? Although he could accept that I would never get married and live alone, I really don't think that for a man with correct three views who is about to enter old age Said that his son's courage to come out is more acceptable than being a bachelor.

This is the first time I participated in a classmate reunion after graduating from high school. I am very lazy, and I don’t even use QQ very much, let alone a school blog.After graduating from high school, those classmates really haven't seen each other again, and I don't know how they are doing now, whether they are doing well, whether they are married or not.Those vibrant faces, I don't know what they have become now.For example Zhong Han, such as Yang Yating, if they are not doing well, I will be at ease.I always knew that I was a narrow-minded person, but I didn't expect that this problem would become more serious as I got older.

I rummaged through the closet for a long time, but couldn't find any decent clothes.On the contrary, Li Weiran's wardrobe is full of decent clothes.Li Weiran said he would take me out to buy a suit, but I flatly refused.Am I the kind of person who buys clothes for the class reunion? Am I so vain?Even if I really think so in my heart, I have to pretend to be high-minded, people always want face.

On the evening of the 25nd, Li Weiran took out a business casual shirt and trousers out of nowhere.Looks more like what a [-]-year-old man should wear than my jumpers and hoodies.He is such a careless person, but he is so considerate when he treats me.He can guess my likes and wishes.For such a man, everything he does makes me unable to extricate myself. I am destined to only put him in my heart in this life.Sometimes when I think about it, Li Weiran is really cruel, the better he treats me, the more I can't forget him.Even if we know that there may be nothing in the end, we still go all the way to the dark.He made me think about it for the rest of my life.