Stockholm syndrome

"Auntie, is my mother gone?!" I repeated.

"Ye Chen, your father is still waiting for you. You have to be strong." Aunt Liu turned her face away, her voice was already crying.

"Impossible! Impossible!" I struggled hard, and I hit the bracket for hanging the bottle.The needle was cut from the back of the hand, and the gushing blood spilled on the quilt.Aunt Liu yelled out the door and pressed my pinhole.The messy voices continued to enter the ears, and the mind was clouded.If I can pass out at this time, maybe it would be better.But I was very awake, the shining white fluorescent lamp was reflected in my eyes, and everything was so clear.I clearly felt that my mother was gone.

Obviously we agreed, when I am admitted to university, I will set up a table for people from Corey to eat.It's clearly agreed, why doesn't it count.She probably felt that I would not be angry if she lied to me, so she dared to be so unscrupulous.It's not good, really.Mom, you are an adult now, how can you act like a child and not count your words.

It was like being stabbed straight into the heart with an awl.The whole person trembled.I curled myself up holding my head.Several people came one after another.I was pinned to the bed.Eyes have been spent.I didn't have much strength in my body, and I didn't want to resist at first, it just hurt.The pain in my heart was severe, like a sudden myocardial infarction.Is there any way to stop the pain.I can not stand it any more.Mom, where are you, I hurt.

It's better to just die like this, I hang my hands, panting like a dehydrated fish, and lie on the hospital bed.He didn't even notice that he was injected with tranquilizers.

I don't know how long it has passed, it is probably already night, and the lights in the ward have been turned off.The starlight from the window fell on my bed, like being exposed to a searchlight.I wanted to shrink into the shadows, but my whole body hurt and I couldn't move at all.

I couldn't sleep, and as soon as I closed my eyes, I saw my mother's back.She was standing by the stove with a shovel in her hand, with an arowana apron tied around her waist.She turned her face sideways, pointed to the prepared dishes with her chin, and said, Ah Chen, you should serve this up first.But she just doesn't look back, why won't she look back at me.

"Brother." The child next to me suddenly called me, why is he still awake so late.Maybe I should answer out of politeness, but I don't have the strength anymore. "Brother Ye Chen, your eyes are open, I know you are not asleep."

I didn't speak, just lay there motionless, looking at the empty ceiling.

"Brother." He called me again, and I heard a rustling sound.Immediately afterwards, my hand hanging by the bed was held.Through the thin gauze, I can feel that his body temperature is slightly lower than mine, that's fine, the fever will subside soon.Go home earlier, your parents should be waiting for you, live a good life.He stopped talking, and just held my hand tightly, carefully avoiding the wound on the back of his hand.

Just as I was about to hold it backwards, the phone rang suddenly, and the abrupt ringing sounded particularly piercing in the silent ward.I didn't expect that there was still electricity, probably Aunt Liu helped me fix it.I took my hand away from the kid and pressed the answer button.

"Hello." As soon as he said a word, he began to cough uncontrollably.

"Chen'er." It was my dad, his voice sounded much older, as if he was a different person. "How are you doing?"

"I'm fine. Not diagnosed yet."

"You cough so badly."

"It's okay." I squeezed my right arm holding the phone tightly with my left hand to calm myself down. "Dad, I'm really fine. It shouldn't be SARS. It's much better. Maybe it won't be long before the fever goes away."

"That's good. You go to bed, it's late." My dad was silent for a while, as if he wanted to say something to me, but he didn't speak in the end. "Dad just doesn't trust you, it's okay, don't think too much about it."

"Don't think about it too much. Dad, pay attention to your body."

"Okay, I've deducted it." There was a beeping busy tone on the phone, and we all avoided talking about my mother.Usually, the only person we father and son have to communicate with is my mother, but this time no one mentioned it.My dad should already know about my mom, and the family members will be notified as soon as the patient dies.

I always thought that the three of us would live a good life, when they retired, watching TV at home and raising a dog.If I earn some money, maybe I can let them report their grandchildren.I never thought that there would be any terminal illness, a car accident, and such bloody things happened in our family.

I originally thought that disasters would never happen in this peaceful age, but it just happened.Should it be said that the world is unpredictable, or good fortune tricks people.The family that had promised to live happily ever after, just got separated like this.Our family just got separated.

The bone-piercing sadness made the pain caused by the fever suddenly feel nothing.My whole body was numb, as if the world had been cut off from me.

I am just a student, have never traveled far, and know only a few people.My world is very small, just our small house of 5 square meters and my parents.My mother is gone, and half the sky of my world has collapsed like this.For the first time, I felt so useless, useless, and a complete waste.Obviously I promised my mother to be strong and help her take good care of my father, but I didn't do it.

I lay there with the phone on my chest.The light coming in from the window faded little by little.As the sky was getting brighter, the phone rang again.I fumbled to pick it up and stuck it to my ear.I haven't blinked for a long time, and my eyes are very astringent.

"Hello." My voice was completely hoarse, and I couldn't even hear the voice myself.

"Ah Shen? Is that you, Ah Shen?" I burst into tears when I heard this address.After I got the news that my mother was gone, my nerves seemed to be cut off, and I felt nothing.Those feelings of loss surged to the bottom of my heart at this moment.I can pretend to be strong to my dad, but in the face of Li Weiran, I am already powerless to pretend.I dare not cry with my dad because I'm afraid he will worry, but Li Weiran is different.

Holding the phone, I cried loudly, venting my grief unscrupulously, and other people in the ward were woken up by my crying.Some random voices came, some from Li Weiran, some from a clinical little boy, but gradually I couldn't hear anything.I don't know if I fell asleep because of exhaustion, or fainted due to a serious illness.In this way, he fell into endless darkness.Nothing, nothing, sometimes not having dreams is a terrible thing.I want to see my mother, even in a dream, let me see her.

The pain has been uninterrupted, and the only feeling is that it is getting more and more difficult to breathe.I didn't know when a ventilator was put on my face, and by the time I realized it, I had already arrived in a separate ward.There are two tubes inserted into the back of the hand. I can't see what it is from this angle, but I can feel the slight tingling of the cold medicine left in the arm.

I slowly turned my cheeks. The walls of this ward are made of glass, and it is the intensive care unit of Hospital M.Unexpectedly, I would also lie in one day.I don't know if my mother was lying here before, and who was with her in the last time.Will it be like me, nothing but the squeaking of the cold machine.I promised my mom would be fine and help her take care of my dad.A man is as good as he promises.But at such a moment, I suddenly didn't want to persist anymore, I was tired.My mother is the backbone of our family. No matter how hard I try, I'm still a fake, and I can't stand it.Like my dad, I have been calm since childhood.My mother is gone, who should teach me what to do.

I took a hard breath, and layers of white mist appeared on the oxygen mask.A figure gradually appeared outside the tempered glass.At first I thought it was a nurse, but it seemed a little taller.He was standing outside the door with his hands on the glass, just looking at me like that.Realizing that I was looking at him, the man suddenly pulled off his mask, and I saw Li Weiran's face.

I don't know that this grandson hasn't shaved for a few days, and the stubble on his face is so obvious.The whole chin is blue, and I haven't shaved for almost a week, I don't know if it is as wretched as him.Isn't the grandson in England? Why did he come back suddenly? I must be hallucinating.Really, the condition is serious again.I blinked hard, my brain hurting badly.When I opened my eyes again, he was still there.Next to him was a doctor.The mask has been pulled up.He is so tall, wearing a green chemical protective suit is special.It's really the second home, I laughed so hard that my tears came out.