Stockholm syndrome

Li Weiran punched me in the face, and I staggered a few steps and fell to the ground.There was already a thick layer of snow on the ground, and when he fell, the snow water rubbed against his face.The cold feeling made me even more desolate.

"What's wrong with you?!" Li Weiran roared.I was sick, when I saw Zhong Han and Yang Yating standing together, my brain was broken.Damn it, Zhong Han has finally left the group, and the partner is a pretty girl.Not me, not a pervert like me.

I sat motionless on the ground, the snow was still falling, but I didn't feel cold at all.I think that was the first time in my life that I experienced the feeling of hopelessness.From beginning to end, I knew that Zhong Han and I were impossible, but I still had a little fantasy.When these are torn apart alive, the feeling is really heart-piercing.It's like when you are in the college entrance examination, you suddenly find that you can't do any questions, and you only have 5 minutes to hand in the paper.The utter despair and helplessness.

"Ye Shen...why are you crying?" Li Weiran dragged me up from the ground by his collar, and I had no strength at all.Let him drag.After waiting for a long time, the fist did not fall.Li Weiran let go, and I knelt down on the ground.Only private cars pass by in this area, and there are basically no pedestrians on the road.

There seemed to be a thousand gold weight on my shoulders, and I knelt on the ground like an idiot.This fucking life.I raised my hand to cover my cheek, and wept uncontrollably.I like Zhong Han, I like him to the bottom of my heart.I fucking watched him dream for 3 years.It's all over.

Li Weiran didn't yell at me anymore.It is not easy for a person like him to be considerate of other people's feelings.He pulled me up by my arms and dragged me to a concrete chair beside me.

"Ye Shen." Li Weiran called my name.The voice was very low, and it was different from the previous tone of rebellious and arrogant, and it became softer. "You like him that much."

I like him, what I like can't be dialed by myself.I nodded.Tears flowed from the spaces between my fingers, and I can't remember how long I haven't cried.I endured it, I really couldn't bear it this time.

Li Weiran reached out and patted my back lightly, as if coaxing a child.When I was saddest and most desperate, Li Weiran was by my side.It was very cold and the snow was still falling, and Li Weiran's body was already covered with snowflakes.He stood in front of me with his hands on my shoulders.He just stood there quietly without saying anything.On such a cold day, before the tears fell on my cheeks, my cheeks became icy cold, and the warmth from Li Weiran's hands was my only consolation.

I am moved.I was so moved.I'm not wrestling with Stockholm Syndrome, a mess in my head.As if trying to grab a life-saving straw, I reached out and hugged Li Weiran.Don't ask me why I acted like this, I don't know, I just hugged him.Hands tightly together.Head against his waist.This was the first time I hugged him, and it was also the first act of intimacy between us.But because of another man.

I don't know how long I cried, but when I recovered, Li Weiran was still standing there.He didn't push me away, but let me hold him, his hands around my shoulders.

"Enough crying." Seeing me calm down, Li Weiran took out a handkerchief from the inner pocket of his clothes and stuffed it into my hand. "Let's go." I picked up a handkerchief and wiped away the remaining tears on my face.The wind blew over, and the cheeks were cut and hurt.

After walking for a long time, I saw a taxi. Li Weiran stuffed me in, and he was still sitting in the co-pilot's seat.I told the driver my home address.It was completely dark.I didn't bring my watch, it was around 8 o'clock.

I pressed my head against the glass of the taxi, and the colorful neon lights slid past my eyes.Valentine's Day is just around the corner, and there are festive dresses everywhere.But it seems ironic to me.

When your mind wanders, time flies by unknowingly.My home is here.I opened the car door and got out, and took a bunch of keys out of my pocket.Li Weiran also walked down. Originally, he thought that he would take a taxi and leave, but unexpectedly he followed me all the time.

"You go home like this, what will you do if your mother sees you?" Li Weiran crossed his arms to block my way.

"It's okay." I picked out the key to the unit door from the keychain. "Both of them are on night shift tonight, and they won't be back until noon tomorrow."

His hands were so cold that his knuckles were already stiff.I struggled to pick up the key, shaking my hands and trying to poke it into the lock.Li Weiran's hand stretched out, he didn't take the key from my hand, but held my hand directly, his hand was big enough to wrap my hand, the temperature came from his palm, warmed me numb nerves.The unit door swung open.

My house lives on the third floor, and I stepped on the steps step by step with my head down. The turning stairs made me a little dizzy, so that I didn't notice it when I reached the fourth floor. It was Li Weiran who dragged me back.The room was very warm, and the moment the door was opened, there seemed to be a layer of mist on the face.I went to the bathroom to wash my face, and the cold water woke me up.I looked at the boy with red and swollen eyes in the mirror, and suddenly wanted to pick up the glass on the shelf and break it.Li Weiran's shadow also appeared in the mirror, his ears were red from the cold, and he never recovered.I stared at his ears and felt a sudden pain in my heart.

"I'll get you a glass of water." I pulled the towel and wiped my cheek vigorously.Went to the kitchen and took out a clean cup, got two cups of warm water, one for Li Weiran, and one in the palm of his hand.Now I'm a lot more rational, and the flustered emotions just now are gone, but I feel extremely depressed.

Our living room is very small, Li Weiran and I came to my room.He sat on the bed, the quilt was rolled up by him, leaning against his back.I sat on the chair opposite him.I think my current situation must be very ironic. I cry like an idiot for a person who protects me, but the person who is with me is a person who bullies me.

"Why do you like Zhong Han?" Li Weiran said, this is not the first time he asked me.Instead of avoiding it like before, I answered his question directly.We talked a lot that night, about family and school, the basketball team, and Zhong Han.

"Zhong Han is the monitor of my middle school and first year of high school." I picked up the cup and took a sip. "I am not short, but I have always been very thin. So I was always bullied. When I was in junior high school, some naughty classmates in the class always threatened me to copy their homework. At that time, I was arrogant, no Give it to them, and the beam will be formed. After that, I was bullied like this for 3 years."

"Then Zhong Han beat them up for you?" Li Weiran said.

"How could it be possible? An old-fashioned person like Zhong Han has always adhered to the principle that a gentleman does not use his hands. He has always believed that violence is not the best way to solve problems. He just protected me behind him. Then he loudly reprimanded those people. But nothing No. They pushed Zhong Han away, but I was still beaten."

"That's how you like him." Li Weiran put the water on the table and looked at me in surprise. "I thought he fought you too."

"Once," I put the glass down and let my hands hang on my lap. "When I was being bullied, the other party started fighting with him. They took out an iron ruler and hit Zhong Han on the forehead. The blood came out at that time. I was terribly afraid, but Zhong Han didn't seem to know the pain. Standing there the same way. I hid aside, watching Zhong Han squinting his eyes and looking at these little bastards. My mind was stunned for a moment. When I realized it, I fell in love with him hopelessly."

The story is over, it's a clichéd plot of a hero saving the beauty, but I can't bear the word beauty.All this has been held in my heart for many years, and I have never told anyone.Now it's finally released.The feeling of relief made me feel relieved.

"Ye Shen, I found that you are a person who is particularly easily moved." When Li Weiran said this, I was really taken aback. It is inevitable that such thorough words will feel a little out of place when he comes out of his mouth. "this is not good."

Li Weiran was right.I am a person who is particularly easily moved, even some small details can move me for a long time.For example, what he said is not good.That's probably caring about me, and it just happened to come from someone who's been bullying me all the time.

"I also fought for you." Li Weiran looked at me, his eyes were so dark that the pupils could hardly be seen. "Do you feel touched?"

I nod.Almost an instinctive reaction.I'm really tired, so tired that I don't even have the ability to hide myself.After a moment of silence, Li Weiran changed the subject.He started to talk about the basketball team. Li Weiran talked a lot, but we usually don't have such a chance to chat.He talked about these trivial matters to himself, which obviously had nothing to do with me, but unexpectedly I didn't get distracted.

He is the captain of the basketball team, and his favorite in the team is a freshman boy whose height is close to 1 meters.Not only is he tall, but he is also very agile, and his jumping ability is surprisingly good.When Li Weiran talked about him, there was an envious look in his eyes, which surprised me. I didn't know that he would also be envious.He has everything, money, status, so he would be envious.

We talked late that day, and the snow showed no sign of stopping.It's hard to find a taxi now.Li Weiran slept at my house, he was lying on my camp bed.Li Weiran's character is very tall, and the whole person is restrained there.It seems very uncomfortable.I hugged another quilt for him.Hold him down.I don't know if he, who is used to luxury houses and cars, will sleep comfortably in such a small tube building.

I was lying on my dad's little bed, and not long after, I heard Li Weiran's snoring.Not loud, but exceptionally clear in a small room.I have a slight neurasthenia, and I can't fall asleep when I hear dripping water, but at this moment, Li Weiran's little snoring makes me feel inexplicably peaceful.